[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I'm going to see my friend in hospital today. Will be a hassle looking for parking. Need to get ready. Took 1 mg of Rexulti and 5 mg olanzapine last night and sleep until 6:30. Was hoping for more. I will try this again tonight. I was very irritable and short with my son last . night before i finally fell asleep.

I hope your visit with your friend goes well!

Sorry about the sleeping issue. I hope it clears up soon!


WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Every time I woke up last nightI thought of how my life sucks. Cant get those thoughts to go away. Why have I gotten my life into such a state? I cant think straight. Yet on the outside I appear normal and ok. I think! I still cant make myseld go to choir or judo. I really suck lately. And i cant think of anything good that happens. I want to go back to bed. No matter what i am doing there is a pressure to hurry up and do something else. Could this all be lack of seroquel?

Feeling better now. I don't know why I do that- let my brain get away with things!

[Nammu]

Well I'm here. Failed to put IV in one arm so did the other too. Waiting on a c-scan. I think the doc agrees with me on the deverculious(sp) he's not overly worried, did offer me. Pain pills tho. I told him that compared to my previous back pain this was nothing so , no. Pain meds mess the digestive stuff up more.

Just returned from cat scan with contrast.....hate that stuff, feel like I'm on fire! Very slow day here so everything is moving pretty fast. No wait to go back to ER and no wait to see nurses and docs. Now the wait for test results to come back begans.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Well I'm here. Failed to put IV in one arm so did the other too. Waiting on a c-scan. I think the doc agrees with me on the deverculious(sp) he's not overly worried, did offer me. Pain pills tho. I told him that compared to my previous back pain this was nothing so , no. Pain meds mess the digestive stuff up more.

Just returned from cat scan with contrast.....hate that stuff, feel like I'm on fire! Very slow day here so everything is moving pretty fast. No wait to go back to ER and no wait to see nurses and docs. Now the wait for test results to come back begans.

(((((( nammu ))))))

I hope everything goes well and you are okay.
Love and Prayers,

WC

[Faltering]

I received a letter from my supervisor about a disciplinary meeting on Monday. I'm supposed to bring evidence and representation. So basically I'm getting fired. I'm thinking of just quitting first. I'm not going to have health care anymore. The meds weren't working anyway.

[Nammu]

Oh, faltering. Don't give up yet. Hang in there

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I received a letter from my supervisor about a disciplinary meeting on Monday. I'm supposed to bring evidence and representation. So basically I'm getting fired. I'm thinking of just quitting first. I'm not going to have health care anymore. The meds weren't working anyway.

Must be a difficult situation for you right now. Can you get unemployment monies if you quit? I don't blame you for feeling like quitting; the meeting sounds dreadful.

I hope you can think it through and make whichever move truly serves you best.

My heart goes out to you.


WC

[Moose72]

Watching a documentary on "The Carousel of Progress". Fun seeing the old versions.

[Nammu]

Home! Have a inflammation of the colon and a urinary infection. On antibiotics and to follow up with my doc. Plus I can try to eat, if it doesn't cause a flare up of pain. Most likely my doc will tell me to eat more fiber and get more excercise! I can hear him already!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Home! Have a inflammation of the colon and a urinary infection. On antibiotics and to follow up with my doc. Plus I can try to eat, if it doesn't cause a flare up of pain. Most likely my doc will tell me to eat more fiber and get more excercise! I can hear him already!

I am sorry you have inflammation and an infection.
I am so glad you went to the ER before anything had gotten worse.

Wishing you a rapid and full recovery!


WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Home! Have a inflammation of the colon and a urinary infection. On antibiotics and to follow up with my doc. Plus I can try to eat, if it doesn't cause a flare up of pain. Most likely my doc will tell me to eat more fiber and get more excercise! I can hear him already!

Oh no fun! Glad you went in.

[Wild Coyote]

Sad this afternoon.
H's grandmother is in a coma.
She has been at home, w/H's parents, on hospice.
H just saw her and visited w/her yesterday.

She is the most delightful lady! One of the real "Earth Angels." Everyone respects her, admires her and loves her.

Thanks for reading.

Love to All!

WC

[Nammu]

So sorry, getting old is hard, hopefully it will be peaceful.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

So sorry, getting old is hard, hopefully it will be peaceful.

Yes, thank you, Nammu.

Yesterday, she'd said she'd wanted to make it through the holidays in order to see the whole family. She's been in a lot of pain and has been confined to her apartment (attached to H's parents' home) for about 4 years. Went on hospice earlier this year. Her pain meds were recently increased.

H has gone to be at her side. He wants to support her and his parents.
(I cannot go today; yet, maybe tomorrow, if she is still w/us.)

I hope it's peaceful, too.


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Oh Dear! So sorry the block did not work!
I hope your pain doctor can help you.

WC

Thanks WC.

Did talk to the surgery nurse. She said it may take up to 4 weeks before the pain fully goes away. If I’m still having issues they’ll look at it on Xmas Eve when I have the other side done. I’m just going to take it easy for now.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sad this afternoon.
H's grandmother is in a coma.
She has been at home, w/H's parents, on hospice.
H just saw her and visited w/her yesterday.

She is the most delightful lady! One of the real "Earth Angels." Everyone respects her, admires her and loves her.

Thanks for reading.

Love to All!

WC

I'm so sorry. It is tough when I loved one passes. I ended up with wonderful inlaws, and H's mother passed away last December. It is a difficult time of year to lose a loved one, never that any time is great, but it makes the holidays difficult.

[Blueberrybook]

Pretty laid back day, watched a show on the DVR. I read a lot today, actually finished the book I'd been reading. Snacked too much though as my stomach feels ugh now. Not that I ate too much food, I think, just too much at once. I've been doing too much exercise, so I don't doubt my body needs the calories, I just should have spaced it out a bit.

It's so nice to be able to read again. I don't think I have ADHD, but this pdoc loves to diagnose it, I think, because probably 40% of his clientele are school-age kids. I think for me, the racing thoughts from bipolar have just gotten so much worse, it has made concentration so hard, especially when reading, and the Adderall helps a lot with that. Though as soon as I set the book aside, pause the show on TV, the thoughts start to race again most times.

H is flying back in from Toronto but won't be home until late (after midnight). Picked up my daughter from school, and she made the school level spelling bee again this year. They pick the top 25 students from grades 3-5. She's been in it 3rd and 4th grade, so I shouldn't have been surprised, especially as I think the practice list of words for this year is exactly the same from last year or nearly so. I know the word "corbiestep" was on that sheet last year because I had to look it up to see what it even meant as I'd never heard of it, and it was there again this year. It has to do with architecture on gables, something like that. Anyway, the school invites the parents to watch the school level spelling bee. OMG, the tension! I went alone the first time. Last year, I told H I couldn't go myself, I wanted him to take off work and come too. Even H had to admit just being a parent watching it was super stressful. Our daughter hasn't placed though she did really well both times (though not placing had her in tears the first time around, but it's a life lesson too, I suppose, difficult as it is to watch your child go through it). Really, my daughter is a good speller, probably because she is a very good reader (has read at end of 12th grade level a couple years now, and she does like to read), but it's not like spelling is her passion and something she loves to do when she has free time. But, ugh...I've got to have the tension and stress of going to the school level spelling bee again this year. It's either end of January or February, can't remember. You can just feel the stress walking into the room. And when your child doesn't place and is disappointed, that is tough too.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

My mind is racing like crazy right now. So many things to do during the next two weeks. Then I start thinking about things I have to do next semester and on and on. .. so many unexpected things can happen at any moment. . I've been going over each days to do lists for the next two weeks in my head repetitively and pacing. I hate that I can't plan for every possible situation. Maybe I'm a control freak. Trying to relax though. I see a nutritionist for my ED next week. Hopefully it goes well.
I'm excited because I get paid this weekend for tutoring someone throughout the semester. I'll be able to send my best friend a card with some cash.

I hope the nutritionist helps you. I know that is a hard step. I lucked out and found a place where the owner (recovered from anorexia) had only hired other nutritionists who had struggled with various EDs. It was pretty much a 2-for-1, nutrition and counseling too, and they were sliding scale. She moved the business out of practical driving range, and it makes sense, the place was tiny and they had no shortage of clients. I didn't have health insurance, but I paid sliding scale, some weeks not at all (in grad school at the time). By the end of it though, I'd pretty much done away with "bad" and "good" foods lists and ate foods I liked that had previously been on the "bad" list such as cake, ice cream, full fat cheese, etc. Of course, moderation is alway the key. And I do have some foods I do not eat, but that is because I have never liked the way they taste - goat milk, goat cheese, beets. I eat the normal cheese because that fat-free cheese is gross, other than mozzarella or cottage cheese. It was hard though. Especially keeping a food diary and being honest with what you wrote down, not lying to make the dietician think you are eating more calories than you actually are, etc. I had to give her my scale (they returned it when I was done seeing them). I always could have bought another scale, but it would have undone all the progress I could make, weigh backwards, etc. It was hard giving up that control I hope you will end up with a good experience too. I have to say I love that foods no longer have "good" and "bad" labels for me, though I still unfortunately do remember the number of calories in lots of foods, haven't forgotten much of that.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I'd had my sleep study last night. I'd slept some. In fact, slept more than I do most nights at home. H was w/me. They'd said a lot of spouses stay over, too.
Unless there is a cancellation, I won't know the results until late in January. Sleep medicine clinics are all jammed up. I was lucky to get a study before Dec. 31st.

Had a reasonably good day.

Love to All!

WC

I'm glad you finally got the sleep study done, but I'm sure it's a pain having to wait so long for the results. Hopefully, they can find something to help you sleep.

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sad this afternoon.
H's grandmother is in a coma.
She has been at home, w/H's parents, on hospice.
H just saw her and visited w/her yesterday.

She is the most delightful lady! One of the real "Earth Angels." Everyone respects her, admires her and loves her.

Thanks for reading.

Love to All!

WC

So sorry to hear that. Hope she has a peaceful transition.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Every time I woke up last nightI thought of how my life sucks. Cant get those thoughts to go away. Why have I gotten my life into such a state? I cant think straight. Yet on the outside I appear normal and ok. I think! I still cant make myseld go to choir or judo. I really suck lately. And i cant think of anything good that happens. I want to go back to bed. No matter what i am doing there is a pressure to hurry up and do something else. Could this all be lack of seroquel?

Yes I think your med changes are causing this.

Maybe you need seroquel in your combo. Can you talk to your Pdoc about it soon ?

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

sarahanne, welcome!


New car, shopping going well, and other things...I'm glad to read about the positives on the previous page. Those with some health and other concerns, please take care.


Yesterday I went a little "nutty" at the regular grocery store and a Polish deli. I spent around $300 on food. The bulk of my expenditures were on Christmas cookie ingredients, which includes special flour, special sugar, more cocoa, baking chocolate, dried fruit, and 3 1/2 lbs of nuts. I also bought various cookie molds and cutters. I have in my mind that I'm going to bake six different kinds of Christmas cookies this coming week, some more than one batch. In my head, I've been saying "Mother-in-law used to make 12, so six is fine", but suddenly I've grown quite intimidated by this grand project.

Shall I send you my address ????

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I was able to sleep 5 hours


Going to the college soon. Then after that to the gym. I'll probably clean when I get home and then relax and read

Glad you were able to get some sleep

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

RF nerve block didn’t go as planned. Still in a lot of pain, even with all the remedies. Going to check in with pain doc today. Didn’t sleep well either, but more because my mind is racing than from pain.


Daughter is coming over soon to wrap more presents. I’ll leave her to it.


Other than that, not much.


Take care of yourselves, everyone.

Sorry you didn’t get enough pain relief I hope something else can be done.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I received a letter from my supervisor about a disciplinary meeting on Monday. I'm supposed to bring evidence and representation. So basically I'm getting fired. I'm thinking of just quitting first. I'm not going to have health care anymore. The meds weren't working anyway.

I would say go to the meeting no matter how hard that will be . If you quit there will be no way to get unemployment to hold you over til you find something new. As mentioned already.