[Unrigged64072835]

Finished the RF nerve block on the lower left lumbar. I don’t remember it hurting as bad as it did this time. It was like one big knot. Put ice in it, took a bunch of ibuprofen and hope the pain goes down soon. At least I can still use my left leg if I need to. Will have the right side done early Christmas Eve. Yay!

T was okay yesterday. My husband went with me this time. I’m going to ask him not to do it anymore, because he and T talked a long time and I feel left out.

Doing pretty good otherwise. Last of my stuff supposed to arrive tomorrow. Then I’ll have a lot of time to get it all to work. Looking forward to that.

[tecomsin]

A friend of mine is having surgery today. I woke up at 5:30 am, which is exactly where I was stuck when I was just taking regular 1 mg rexulti and no olanzapine. I don't think taking more rexulti than 2mg, which is what I tried last night, is going to help and I only have 1 mg tablets anyway. So tonight it will be 1mg rexulti and 5 mg Olanzapine. i don't like to take this much Zyprexa but i need to find out if it will keep me asleep. Otherwise I need to do something else and can discuss that with my pdoc when i see him in about 10 days. I can also go up to 10 mg Zyprexa.

I can't wait until I'm done with all this bull.

[Nammu]

Abdominal pain or not I'm going shopping with my daughter today. We're driving to one of the malls. It's a nice mall but too far for most things, but Christmas shopping. For me it's mostly window shopping but always fun with my daughter. There is a target attached to the mall and that's where I'll do my shopping.

After googling around I decided I had devercolous (sp) and have gone on a liquid diet, the recommendations were antibiotics, rest and liquid diet. It did help. Instead of attacks of cramping pain it has settled down to a low burning pain. I compare all pain to my before surgery back pain and this doesn't come close so I'll follow the liquid diet for a few days and see how it goes.

So today my plan is to stick to my budget and drink a lot.

[Blueberrybook]

H is teaching today and then flying to Toronto after school for a thing to do with the company he has partial shares with in India (the CEO used H's graduate thesis technique as a base for production, and H has consulted with the company on various issues, what may or may not work). The CEO was supposed to go, but I guess even getting a Canadian visa is not that easy these days. He has been waiting over a month, and still hasn't gotten a visa though he has a visa to the U.S. Since the company committed to come to this event, H is pretty much the next higher up who is not from India (requiring a visa) and only requires a passport to get into Canada, so H is representing the company there. It's a quick trip. He flies back tomorrow night, but won't get in until around midnight, and it is a bit of a drive from the airport back to our house.

I think I'm still a little up moodwise, but not too bad, not hypomania even, but just a bit higher than my normal baseline. My pdoc has not changed my Wellbutrin or Adderall prescriptions a few months now, except to lower the Wellbutrin some. He did recently up the Seroquel to 500 mg.

Just got back from a local church. They are right next to my daughter's elementary school, and they do a lot to help her school. They had the counselor recommend children or families that needed help for the holidays, and I think because of the whole CPS thing and knowing we are struggling financially, the counselor gave my daughter's name to the church. They have a Christmas store, where I got to pick 3 larger gifts for my daughter, a few stocking stuffers, a stuffed animal, bagged Christmas candy, a graphic novel type Bible. They gave me a food bag for a Christmas meal, minus the meat, but they gave me a $10 gift card to a local grocery store to buy the meat (very likely I'll roast a chicken); a turkey is too much for a family of 3, and I know my daughter will be more excited about her gifts than eating anyway, so that was nice. When we get it together enough to attend church, that is the church we go to, so I already know the minister, his secretary, and various other church members. We haven't been in awhile, I'm ashamed to say. I really want to try harder on that count, but H is always exhausted by the end of the school week, and my daughter has turned into quite the night owl, so even getting to the 10:30 AM service is a bit of a struggle now.

Otherwise, I see my T later this afternoon. Not exactly sure what we are going to work on, but I have even garbage and needs for coping strategies, there will be plenty to choose from.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Finished the RF nerve block on the lower left lumbar. I don’t remember it hurting as bad as it did this time. It was like one big knot. Put ice in it, took a bunch of ibuprofen and hope the pain goes down soon. At least I can still use my left leg if I need to. Will have the right side done early Christmas Eve. Yay!

T was okay yesterday. My husband went with me this time. I’m going to ask him not to do it anymore, because he and T talked a long time and I feel left out.

Doing pretty good otherwise. Last of my stuff supposed to arrive tomorrow. Then I’ll have a lot of time to get it all to work. Looking forward to that.

I am glad you were able to get the block done.
I hope it helps you a lot!

I don't care for my H going with me to meet my pdoc, who is also my therapist.

Feel better!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Abdominal pain or not I'm going shopping with my daughter today. We're driving to one of the malls. It's a nice mall but too far for most things, but Christmas shopping. For me it's mostly window shopping but always fun with my daughter. There is a target attached to the mall and that's where I'll do my shopping.

After googling around I decided I had devercolous (sp) and have gone on a liquid diet, the recommendations were antibiotics, rest and liquid diet. It did help. Instead of attacks of cramping pain it has settled down to a low burning pain. I compare all pain to my before surgery back pain and this doesn't come close so I'll follow the liquid diet for a few days and see how it goes.

So today my plan is to stick to my budget and drink a lot.

I hope you feel better.
I hope you have lots of FUN!

WC

[Faltering]

My anxiety and paranoia have increased dramatically. I've become obsessed with someone I hardly know. I also keep thinking I see people I know, such as coworkers, out in public and I panic. I saw the psychologist on Friday and we talked about social anxiety the whole session. He kept telling me people probably see me as "attractive, bright, young" so I shouldn't worry about people judging me negatively. Not so helpful. He also looked at my sleep diary and said it's not that bad. I'm still not sleeping well though. I'm trying to hold out until I see my pdoc again.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

A friend of mine is having surgery today. I woke up at 5:30 am, which is exactly where I was stuck when I was just taking regular 1 mg rexulti and no olanzapine. I don't think taking more rexulti than 2mg, which is what I tried last night, is going to help and I only have 1 mg tablets anyway. So tonight it will be 1mg rexulti and 5 mg Olanzapine. i don't like to take this much Zyprexa but i need to find out if it will keep me asleep. Otherwise I need to do something else and can discuss that with my pdoc when i see him in about 10 days. I can also go up to 10 mg Zyprexa.

I hope your friend is doing well.
I also hope you can get decent sleep tonight!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spikes

I can't wait until I'm done with all this bull.

(((((( spikes ))))))

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Faltering

My anxiety and paranoia have increased dramatically. I've become obsessed with someone I hardly know. I also keep thinking I see people I know, such as coworkers, out in public and I panic. I saw the psychologist on Friday and we talked about social anxiety the whole session. He kept telling me people probably see me as "attractive, bright, young" so I shouldn't worry about people judging me negatively. Not so helpful. He also looked at my sleep diary and said it's not that bad. I'm still not sleeping well though. I'm trying to hold out until I see my pdoc again.

I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
Insomnia can be difficult to deal with and can be difficult to resolve.
I hope you can see your pdoc soon.


WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Abdominal pain or not I'm going shopping with my daughter today. We're driving to one of the malls. It's a nice mall but too far for most things, but Christmas shopping. For me it's mostly window shopping but always fun with my daughter. There is a target attached to the mall and that's where I'll do my shopping.


After googling around I decided I had devercolous (sp) and have gone on a liquid diet, the recommendations were antibiotics, rest and liquid diet. It did help. Instead of attacks of cramping pain it has settled down to a low burning pain. I compare all pain to my before surgery back pain and this doesn't come close so I'll follow the liquid diet for a few days and see how it goes.


So today my plan is to stick to my budget and drink a lot.

Hope you have a great time with your daughter. I miss running around with my daughter like we use too.

My dad had a severe diverticulitis and was hospitalized for almost a week. I’m glad your pain is down , liquid diets are boring but if your getting relief that’s all that matters right now...

Hope your able to go back to solid foods soon.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Faltering

My anxiety and paranoia have increased dramatically. I've become obsessed with someone I hardly know. I also keep thinking I see people I know, such as coworkers, out in public and I panic. I saw the psychologist on Friday and we talked about social anxiety the whole session. He kept telling me people probably see me as "attractive, bright, young" so I shouldn't worry about people judging me negatively. Not so helpful. He also looked at my sleep diary and said it's not that bad. I'm still not sleeping well though. I'm trying to hold out until I see my pdoc again.

Sorry your struggling

I often feel people are judging me like at a thrift store today. I finally grounded myself enough to put that aside at least in the moment.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Faltering

My anxiety and paranoia have increased dramatically. I've become obsessed with someone I hardly know. I also keep thinking I see people I know, such as coworkers, out in public and I panic. I saw the psychologist on Friday and we talked about social anxiety the whole session. He kept telling me people probably see me as "attractive, bright, young" so I shouldn't worry about people judging me negatively. Not so helpful. He also looked at my sleep diary and said it's not that bad. I'm still not sleeping well though. I'm trying to hold out until I see my pdoc again.

I'm sorry you're struggling

[Moose72]

Today was a bad day in terms of decision making and lack of short-term memory. One thing after another happened. I'd brought in my purse I thought, but after I got the groceries put away, I couldn't find it! I checked the car, thought maybe I left it in the cart at the store, only to find it in the closet! I sent away some paperwork- a short application of sorts- for food stamps that had to do with my disability (I THINK) and mailed it off. But I was confused about one of the questions. I called the number on the top of the form and a man answered. No automated machine! I asked him about one of the questions and he said, "Don't over think it just answer"! I had been over thinking (or under thinking?) all day!

Now my 17-year-old is reading this post before it goes up. Ha! He says, "Oh Mother..." I've been watching Youtube tonight - documentaries about the history of certain Disneyland/world attractions. Fun.

Last night was my first night without Seroquel or Trazodone. I did sleep, but this evening I've been on the couch yawning away. I hope I can make it until at least 8:00 and that I do actually sleep tonight. Last night I found it more difficult to get back to sleep after I'd awoken and I worried that I might not fall back asleep. Right now I feel awake but tired at the same time?!

[Blueberrybook]

I’m so sorry. I have had days like that with the forgetfulness. It sucks. Transitioning off Seroquel probably made it harder. I have had Wellbutrin make me very forgetful, as well as Clonidine. On the other hand, just being mixed has made me have days like that.

If your sleep was broken last night, it might be better to take the Trazodone, even if it makes getting going in the morning harder, at least until your body has adjusted to being off the Seroquel. I hate waking and worrying about not being able to go back to sleep. Was there a reason you didn’t take the Trazodone last night? Even if you wake in the night and it is early enough, you can take Trazodone if your sleep is messed up, at least that is what my pdocs have had me do for 20 years or so. Of all my psych meds, I have definitely been on Trazodone the longest. The Trazodone pills can also be cut in half; I take 25 mg as needed. There is no 25 mg pill; my pdoc told me to use a pill cutter to cut the 50 mg pills in half. You might ask your pdoc if that is a possibility for you. I know the Trazodone hangover effect in the morning can be brutal.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Today was a bad day in terms of decision making and lack of short-term memory. One thing after another happened. I'd brought in my purse I thought, but after I got the groceries put away, I couldn't find it! I checked the car, thought maybe I left it in the cart at the store, only to find it in the closet! I sent away some paperwork- a short application of sorts- for food stamps that had to do with my disability (I THINK) and mailed it off. But I was confused about one of the questions. I called the number on the top of the form and a man answered. No automated machine! I asked him about one of the questions and he said, "Don't over think it just answer"! I had been over thinking (or under thinking?) all day!

Now my 17-year-old is reading this post before it goes up. Ha! He says, "Oh Mother..." I've been watching Youtube tonight - documentaries about the history of certain Disneyland/world attractions. Fun.

Last night was my first night without Seroquel or Trazodone. I did sleep, but this evening I've been on the couch yawning away. I hope I can make it until at least 8:00 and that I do actually sleep tonight. Last night I found it more difficult to get back to sleep after I'd awoken and I worried that I might not fall back asleep. Right now I feel awake but tired at the same time?!

Wow what a day you have had !!!! Lol at your oldest briefing this

I hope you have restful sleep

[Wild Coyote]

I'd had my sleep study last night. I'd slept some. In fact, slept more than I do most nights at home. H was w/me. They'd said a lot of spouses stay over, too.
Unless there is a cancellation, I won't know the results until late in January. Sleep medicine clinics are all jammed up. I was lucky to get a study before Dec. 31st.

Had a reasonably good day.

Love to All!

WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I'd had my sleep study last night. I'd slept some. In fact, slept more than I do most nights at home. H was w/me. They'd said a lot of spouses stay over, too.

Unless there is a cancellation, I won't know the results until late in January. Sleep medicine clinics are all jammed up. I was lucky to get a study before Dec. 31st.


Had a reasonably good day.


Love to All!



WC

Glad you got it done ! About time right ???

Sleeping well there will give them some great info.

Sorry you have to wait so long to get results. I hope you find out sooner

Hopeful you have a peaceful evening

[Blue_Bird]

Class went well today. I also finished my last paper for the semester. It feels so good. Now all I have to do is study for the final

I'm really tired but I kind of want to stay up all night playing video games and reading. I'm debating having coffee. Have a caffeine withdrawal headache.

I sautéed yellow squash, green bell pepper, and onions in olive oil then put on some salt and pepper. It was delicious! I've never done that before , but I'm learning how to cook more.

I've got an appointment with my therapist Thursday

[Nammu]

Had a great time with my daughter. Didn't damage the pocket book too deeply. Got something for everyone and bought gifts for mum to give to her great great grandkids. Did buy ensure so I have protein. The hardest part of the day watching my daughter eat a Greek salad....it was loaded with olives and feta cheese, mmmm

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Had a great time with my daughter. Didn't damage the pocket book too deeply. Got something for everyone and bought gifts for mum to give to her great great grandkids. Did buy ensure so I have protein. The hardest part of the day watching my daughter eat a Greek salad....it was loaded with olives and feta cheese, mmmm

Sorry you missed out what I bet was a yummy salad , that’s one of my favorites !! I drink ensure if my ED is raging , stuff is pretty good I think.

I wish I had more money to shop for gifts , I just enjoy finding younique gifts for people.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys! I have great news I bought a new car tonight; traded in my car I've had for eight years and got a brand new Nissan Kicks! M is honestly to blame his new Jeep Wrangler got delivered today; and I wanted to take a look at Nissan and um ended up getting me an early Christmas Present and best of all she's super cheep a month also my insurance is going to drop by 40% come January so it was a good time to get trade up; not to mention she is slightly more of adult car.

Today was a day of meetings out of the office, ran into my Cardiologist while he was on his rounds, he was very happy to run into me; so I spend my lunch break getting checked over by an extremely worried Cardiologist. My Holter Monitor results were less than pleasing. I defiantly have Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and possibly even Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome; which is just great. I spent lunch getting an EKG; honestly lost track how many I've had this year. My blood pressure also sucks; knew that from yesterday's doctor's visit.

He was very concerned about my headaches since that means my condition isn't being managed. Yeah and maybe my 160 heart rate had something to do with his worry. The Holter Monitor has my heart rate in the 180-190's a few times. No wonder I feel horrible most of the time. He wanted to admit me, I gave him a lecture to find a medication I don't have time for a stupid hospital. He made me an appointment for tomorrow and he's probably going to adjust my meds; he wants to have more time looking at the results before making a change.

I had a budget meeting, a meeting of all practice manager's and assistants today and probably a crud ton of Referral's to get through tomorrow; since I was gone for most of the day minus the thirty minute meeting I had to have with M regarding the way he dresses; someone seriously complained about him wearing a Henley. I wanted to roll my eyes but issues have to be addressed even if he is in dress code. People just like to pick apart everything. He's wearing scrubs tomorrow; I don't blame him.

After work we went to pick up his new baby; the Jeep; while we were out we stopped by the Nissan and I got my Christmas Present; who is so shiny and pretty. The new baby was the highlight of my day. I'm glad M knows cars because my last was a present from the parents and they dealt with the finance; this time it was all me; with M's help so I didn't royally screwed.

I just want my stupid heart issue to be fixed; the only plus side I see is there is nothing wrong structurally; everything else sucks. Two doctor's in one week; seesh again I am so grateful for overtime and a super understanding boss. M really wants to come; so we had to rearrange his schedule since he is also worried. I just want one week where I don't have to have some test or see a dang doctor. I'm really irritated tonight because of it. I swear I am having some great luck here lately.

Hugs to everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys! I have great news I bought a new car tonight; traded in my car I've had for eight years and got a brand new Nissan Kicks! M is honestly to blame his new Jeep Wrangler got delivered today; and I wanted to take a look at Nissan and um ended up getting me an early Christmas Present and best of all she's super cheep a month also my insurance is going to drop by 40% come January so it was a good time to get trade up; not to mention she is slightly more of adult car.


Today was a day of meetings out of the office, ran into my Cardiologist while he was on his rounds, he was very happy to run into me; so I spend my lunch break getting checked over by an extremely worried Cardiologist. My Holter Monitor results were less than pleasing. I defiantly have Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and possibly even Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome; which is just great. I spent lunch getting an EKG; honestly lost track how many I've had this year. My blood pressure also sucks; knew that from yesterday's doctor's visit.


He was very concerned about my headaches since that means my condition isn't being managed. Yeah and maybe my 160 heart rate had something to do with his worry. The Holter Monitor has my heart rate in the 180-190's a few times. No wonder I feel horrible most of the time. He wanted to admit me, I gave him a lecture to find a medication I don't have time for a stupid hospital. He made me an appointment for tomorrow and he's probably going to adjust my meds; he wants to have more time looking at the results before making a change.


I had a budget meeting, a meeting of all practice manager's and assistants today and probably a crud ton of Referral's to get through tomorrow; since I was gone for most of the day minus the thirty minute meeting I had to have with M regarding the way he dresses; someone seriously complained about him wearing a Henley. I wanted to roll my eyes but issues have to be addressed even if he is in dress code. People just like to pick apart everything. He's wearing scrubs tomorrow; I don't blame him.


After work we went to pick up his new baby; the Jeep; while we were out we stopped by the Nissan and I got my Christmas Present; who is so shiny and pretty. The new baby was the highlight of my day. I'm glad M knows cars because my last was a present from the parents and they dealt with the finance; this time it was all me; with M's help so I didn't royally screwed.


I just want my stupid heart issue to be fixed; the only plus side I see is there is nothing wrong structurally; everything else sucks. Two doctor's in one week; seesh again I am so grateful for overtime and a super understanding boss. M really wants to come; so we had to rearrange his schedule since he is also worried. I just want one week where I don't have to have some test or see a dang doctor. I'm really irritated tonight because of it. I swear I am having some great luck here lately.


Hugs to everyone

Congrats on your new ride !!!!!! Nothing feels better than to get a new ride.

Hopefully you will find a medication that helps you , I’d be worried too

Sounds like this is a perfect fit for you job wise. Not many can say that !

Feel better

[beauflow]

Originally Posted by Faltering

My anxiety and paranoia have increased dramatically. I've become obsessed with someone I hardly know. I also keep thinking I see people I know, such as coworkers, out in public and I panic. I saw the psychologist on Friday and we talked about social anxiety the whole session. He kept telling me people probably see me as "attractive, bright, young" so I shouldn't worry about people judging me negatively. Not so helpful. He also looked at my sleep diary and said it's not that bad. I'm still not sleeping well though. I'm trying to hold out until I see my pdoc again.

The obsession with people, hardly knowing or thought I knew for me is a struggle for me too.

I hope you find something to help you...

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at times I actually think I'm IN love with a select few at times, "we're meant to be" they and I share this special bond... I have issues talking about it irl... or fully being honest with myself about it at times.
I sincerely get heartbroken realizing it's all in my head sometimes.