[Nammu]

The kids and grandkids enjoyed their gifts. My 18month old granddaughter loved her unicorn chair, sat in it immediately and laughed. So one down one to go.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys; Merry Christmas Eve!

All of the family gathered at my parent's house for Christmas Eve; I prepacked all the presents in my car last night so I didn't have to worry about forgetting something today. I got to sleep in until about 9am and rolled into my parents house at 11. My father was in an very nice mood; sometimes I wonder if that man isn't Bipolar. He asked to test drive 'baby again' and he actually liked her this time and thinks I got a really good deal on her. He also apologized for being so cold when I told them about making President's List that it is a huge accomplishment for our family since besides the Aunt that married into to our family I will be the only one from either side to get a Bachelor's Degree let alone being accepted in a Master's Program. I honestly think it was a Christmas Miracle or someone had chewed him a new one about how if you aren't nicer you could potentially lose her. I'd say Mom, Uncle and Auntie told him that I was pulling away and that if he wasn't nicer I wouldn't come around much.

Anyway my wonderful family drama aside my ex that I sent to Boston for school told me he wasn't come for Christmas shows up at my parents doorstep to see me. I freaking tackled him; like running hug tackle. I love him to pieces he's like my brother at this point. Anyway he made me cry; he announced that he had chosen his medical specialty which will be Trauma Surgery. I'm so proud of him: I was a crying mess. He also told me his older brother was home and that he was fully prepared for lunch on Thursday. My evil plan is taking shape.

My nieces were little balls of excitement and basically spent most of family time squishing me to pieces; anyway I still love them and we open gifts on Christmas Eve; it's been a tradition ever since my Uncle and Father were little and they've always done it with the children so gifts were opened tonight. My nieces loved everything I got them; my Aunt and Uncle did to. I managed to get the tightest hug from both my parents for what I got them; which is enough of a gift itself.

I was blown away with everything I got for Christmas my Aunt and Nieces really outdid their selves as did Uncle. I swear it's so beautiful. My parents also got me something really nice and my Grandfather got my a Fitbit Versa to constantly monitor my Heart Rate; I've read studies that they don't work all that good; but still I've wanted a Fitbit so I'll use it even if the Heart Rate sensor isn't as good as the one in my Pulse Ox.

I honestly think this has been one of the better Christmas's for our family, everyone was in a good mood and I got to see someone I love like a brother instead of through Skype.

Hugs to everyone and I hope you all have a good Christmas

[wildflowerchild25]

The party at RS’s aunts house went well. I sat in my car awkwardly for five minutes upon arrival because I wasn’t sure we were at the right house. Didn’t see RS’s Jeep outside. He must have come with his parents. Finally I decided to get out and thankfully it was the right house. They invited me to play games with them which was a nice little icebreaker. Everyone loved my cookies too. And I unloaded a bunch of fudge onto them lol. The rest is going to my aunt tomorrow. I’m trying to get rid of all the sweets so I don’t have too many laying around in the new year. I’m going to make an actual effort to lose about ten pounds.

I’m just up waiting for my son to go to sleep so I can play Santa. Can’t wait to see him open all his gifts tomorrow. He’s so excited. I’m excited to go see my grandma. She’s apparently been really depressed. She is the sole caretaker of my dementia stricken grandfather and it’s wearing on her. I’m going to go up again during the week so we can have some one on one time with her and give her some company. I’m also going to visit my other grandmother who I’ve not seen since March. She’s 95 years old. Not sure how many more years she has left so I need to make more of an effort to see her.

Well things seem to have quieted down in my son’s room so I’m gonna check on him and then bring down his gifts. Merry Christmas to all who celebrate!

[Lefty Seven]

Today's test results indicate I'm still pretty sick in the head.

Never let anyone know what you're thinking.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Merry Christmas everyone (or whatever is meaningful to you)!

[~Christina]

Merry Christmas everyone !

Remember Calories don’t count !!!

2am and i'm up. had another outburst past night/a few hours ago. I did get a little sleep but it seems everything for sleep poops out on me after a couple days.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by spikes

2am and i'm up. had another outburst past night/a few hours ago. I did get a little sleep but it seems everything for sleep poops out on me after a couple days.

Same here but it poops out on me in a couple of hours not days. Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas.

I am really struggling with christmas grattitude.

I am close to tears this morning because I didn't get what I wanted for christmas (a new sparkly dress), however- I did get a new bottle of perfume and a beautiful music box (you spin it around and it plays we wish you a merry christmas)

I'm close to crying my eyes out though because I really wanted the dress

honestly I feel like a bratty kid at the moment- give me what I want or i'm gonna pout type thing

of course I'm grateful, the music box is lovely and the perfume smells amazing, but I can't shake what I really wanted- and what's worse is that the woman who actually got me the perfume, you could tell I didn't react like she was expecting.

how to be greatful for it when your face is showing a diffrent story

hard one..

merry christmas to everyone by the way

hope it's a good day

[beauflow]

Hoping everyone has a good day.
For me, it is still morning.
It was nice to wake up to a dog wagging it's tail today, I must admit. I woke up a few times, but that is normal- I woke up a bit disoriented - that too is normal-
I woke up thinking, "What have I really done to grow this year"... trying best to remind myself things. I am still getting ready for the day. Have had a few moments of sunken in realizations. It will be ok though.

Last night my ex's and my dinner went well. yummy! (he got lobser, and I made my smashed potatoes and sides).. Oh and yesterday on a whim I attempted to make cheese cake for the first time- it turned out well!!!
I asked if my ex wants to take it to his parents today. as I don't need all that cheesecake and I believe his parents and siblings enjoy it.

I do need to get going though; my cat needs some food.
I am debating on seeing a movie today... I know, my mother would shame me for even the thought.. I remember when I was younger a friend and her family used to see movies on Christmas day and -- welll my mother was very judgemental on them and the whole thing... strange thing, she was not religion- it was all about tradition which was to just stay inside.. but ya know, it really does not matter and it does me no good to think on this stuff right now.

So on ward with a day ahead.

Cycling so fast I should be in the olympics!
Zyprexa is working for hallucinations/paranoia (every day gets a little better for those), but I keep having outbursts and I just want to be alone so I can scream without anyone questioning it. I know I need a higher dose of Trileptal before it does anything, and the Remeron stopped working to help me sleep. I'm restless all the time and sometimes it's good and I clean, write, draw, etc, and other times it's not so fun and I want to hurt myself.
Christmas is good though. I can't wait until tonight; I've been staring at a blueberry pie that's supposed to go with xmas feast for a few days now.

[tecomsin]

I didn't get a tree or put up christmas decorations or even buy my son a present this year but am making a turkey dinner. I just haven't had the energy and also the inclination. It brings back so many memories of a better less painful time. But I am glad I am here, still alive as a 3 year survivor of lung cancer surgery, and able to cook a decent meal.

My son had to work yesterday, christmas eve, because it isn't a statutory holiday and he's using his vacation days to take a trip over New Years to visit my sister and family at a ski resort, so nothing to complain about there. He also worked late to catch up on some hours so I was picking him up at 8 pm, which is the latest I will do that. I get really tired at the end of the day. It is hard to describe that fatigue. He was disappointed I wouldn't drive him to MacDonald's for dinner, but I had to stick to my boundaries. I am really afraid of driving late at night. Then we got home and he was abrupt and short with me and I just let it go and took my pills and fell asleep as soon as possible.

[Blueberrybook]

Merry Christmas everyone! My daughter was up at 3 AM to open presents. Shortly afterwards, so was I. Needless to say, I'm a bit tired now though I did go on a shortened run for me. I'm warming up a ham right now, and hopefully, I do not mess up the glaze.

Coping moodwise.

[Nammu]

T- minus 30 minutes. Casserole is baking, presents and cookies in trunk and mum is still in her robe. She's having a really hard time today. Doesn't want to go but feels she must. Good thing the drive isn't far. It's overcast but not snowing, really depends on what channel you watch as to wether or not we'll get flurries today. With gravel roads I'm really hoping for no snow till we get back home.

Daughter and her family were planing on a trip to wolf lodge with the kids but the storm that's Forcast on Wednesday and Thursday might change that. It's part of the Christmas gift for the kiddos, going to the water park.

Happy holidays to all!

Beauflow, I am pondering possibly going to a movie too. I'll probably end up too lazy to leave the house, but maybe, lol. (It would be Bohemian Rhapsody, as I'm a big Rami Malek fan and have been told it's one to see on a big screen.)

Had a muffin and tea and sitting by the light box. Today will basically be just relaxing and indulging. Picked up a little shrimp cocktail plate. Will probably do some drawing or a project, watch some funny youtube videos. I'll be having the house to myself later, so will also probably play some music and sing loudly. Heehee.

Hope everyone has a really nice day (sorry the big D hit, WC!!!! ).

[Blue_Bird]

Merry Christmas!

Went to dinner last night with some of my family, it was nice Then my sister and I went to midnight mass which is always beautiful. I got this Japan umai crate thing that has like 8 different types of noodles from japan and recipes, it's really cool! Plus a pair of blue LED chopsticks haha and a big plush pikachu blanket. I love it!

I'm just spending the day at home, relaxing. Watching Netflix, playing games, reading, etc

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Happy holidays to all!

Beauflow, I am pondering possibly going to a movie too. I'll probably end up too lazy to leave the house, but maybe, lol. (It would be Bohemian Rhapsody, as I'm a big Rami Malek fan and have been told it's one to see on a big screen.)

Had a muffin and tea and sitting by the light box. Today will basically be just relaxing and indulging. Picked up a little shrimp cocktail plate. Will probably do some drawing or a project, watch some funny youtube videos. I'll be having the house to myself later, so will also probably play some music and sing loudly. Heehee.

Hope everyone has a really nice day (sorry the big D hit, WC!!!! ).

That sounds like a nice relaxing day!

[Unrigged64072835]

Merry Christmas to all of you!

Forgot that one of my painkillers gives me insomnia, so have had no sleep at all so far. When I was about to fall asleep I woke right back up. We were opening presents at 2 AM because my husband couldn't sleep either. We were really practical this year. Lots of clothes and stuff to use around the house. It was what we both wanted, tbh. It was fun and messy to make hot cocoa from scratch, and the prepackaged cinnamon rolls were so-so. Dinner is still simple but good.

My back still hurts from the procedure yesterday, but I'm managing. Just hope I don't go manic or hypo.

[xRavenx]

Merry Christmas everyone

As to be expected, my uncle is making rude and insensitive comments. The followers who only encourage him are just as bad.

If anyone has a manual on how to survive dinner with relatives that you cannot stand, that would be a great Christmas present.

Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays to all!

Innerzone, I hope you get to see Bohemian Rhapsody. My husband and I really liked it. Rami Malek did a great job in the role.

We had brunch at my dad's house. It was more pleasant than most holiday get togethers as a brunch instead of a dinner. Dad was drinking wine at 11 am, but was not visibly drunk. My brother and I started a political like argument, but my husband cut it short. Just as well.

For over a week, I was proud that I didn't eat hardly any of the cookies I baked. Or much in general. I also did more physical labor than usual. I thought I likely lost a couple pounds. Instead, I gained two pounds. That angered me so much that I've been gorging on cookies ever since. I know, that seems like an odd reaction.

Hubby is taking a nap. He's been sleeping since 3 pm. I actually drifted off a bit, too, but unlike him I can only sleep 10 to 20 mins max during the daytime. I'm awake, but feel at peace.

[Blueberrybook]

Woke up feeling fine. Now have a fever of 100.5F. People from my extended family Christmas are dropping like flies, some with the flu (though I got the flu shot), some with a sinus thing.

[downandlonely]

Sorry Blueberrybook. You might want to see a doctor to get checked out. If it is the flu, they can give you tamiflu.

[Blueberrybook]

If I get running much over 101, I might go in. I don’t think Tamiflu shaves but a day or 2 off recovery, but it would be good to know if I am contagious. I can skip urgent care and get the regular doc tomorrow, not sure which will be less busy. Maybe urgent care will be faster late hours or super early morning.

I can only do the stupid forehead scan thermometer on everyone but me (a small forehead mole messes with the readings by as much as a degree). So black to 3 minutes and the glass thermometer since I don’t have a digital mouth thermometer.

[Nammu]

It was nice. 7 people didn't come so more room for the rest of us. Have one BiL that's "I know everything type" but everyone pretty much humors him. No rude people so I'm no help there, sorry ravin that would be hard. We played a different game for the prizes this time. Shake one die and the number says pass the gift to the right left or across the table. Pretty fun. Mum wanted to leave for which I was grateful as we got off the gravel roads before dark. I plan to spend tomorrow in pjs!