[Blue_Bird]

Just made like 3 dozen cookies. I'm giving half to my sister and family. I was having a very bad panic attack so I called her and talked for a couple minutes to try and make myself come back to reality, then watched Frosty Returns, cleaned a little and baked cookies. I feel a lot better now. I love cooking!

I like Frosty the Snow Man, too. I used to watch Charlie Brown's Christmas and Rudolph the red nose reindeer, too. I'll never tire of them.

I'm glad you enjoyed cookie baking. What kind did you make, Blue Bird? I made my last of seven varieties this afternoon, but this last variety was a total flop. They were supposed to be coconut with salted caramel chip cookies, dipped halfway in chocolate. But the recipe was clearly bad. I know I followed it perfectly. I threw all of them in the garbage. That's something I almost never have to do. Oh well! Some ingredients went to waste, but not all. I'm done with my cookie baking for the holidays. My root canals have contributed to the end of it.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I like Frosty the Snow Man, too. I used to watch Charlie Brown's Christmas and Rudolph the red nose reindeer, too. I'll never tire of them.

I'm glad you enjoyed cookie baking. What kind did you make, Blue Bird? I made my last of seven varieties this afternoon, but this last variety was a total flop. They were supposed to be coconut with salted caramel chip cookies, dipped halfway in chocolate. But the recipe was clearly bad. I know I followed it perfectly. I threw all of them in the garbage. That's something I almost never have to do. Oh well! Some ingredients went to waste, but not all. I'm done with my cookie baking for the holidays. My root canals have contributed to the end of it.

That's a lot of cookies!

I made these

Brown Sugar Cookies

I was short on ingredients so found something I could make with what I had around the house

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys busy day for me; kiddo's kidnapped Aunt's phone this morning and started text bombing me at 8:30 this morning. It's the weekend and I really like to sleep. Finally woke up at 9 and silenced the evil beast known as my phone. I was really annoyed getting woke up early when I could have slept another hour; besides the nail appointment wasn't until 2pm anyway.

I finally got motivated around 11 after a lot of coffee; I really wanted to go back to bed for a little while. We ended up making a small batch of Christmas Cookies while we waiting for our nail appointments, that was a huge mess but the girls had fun and well it's kind of hard to mess up an iced sugar cookie; granted I'm dieting so no cookies for me; I did bring some home for R and M. I sampled a little bit of the icing as did their Pitbull she ate a few cookies smothered in icing.

My nails are now super festive for the Holidays and my feet are happy after a lovely pedicure; they don't quite like being trapped in heels most of the time.

Aunt really likes the car; she is getting herself one I just had to beg her not to get the same color as mine; we really don't need car twins. We also went shopping and I picked up another pair of sneakers for scrub days; my other good pair will now be reallocated to gym shoes.

I went home and asked M to put together my makeup vanity that I've had boxed since August since my bedroom was never big enough for it; however my current bedroom has plenty of room for a vanity; so while he is putting it together I am going through my shoes and office clothes; using the trick of putting the hanger on differently and getting rid of whatever is still facing that way. Granted most of my problem is it fit in June and I've gained since then and it is tight. I have got a lot of shoes guys and most of my work heels are the same brand.

I am glad M is helping me put together the vanity because R and I couldn't figure out the directions. I also had a lot of boxes that I still have yet to unpack so I am going through and making it the way I want.

My new insurances card got delivered; my health insurance officially goes into effect January 1st; I enrolled after my last big batch of overtime since I was maxing out the cutoff.

I get to see my Cardiologist and primary doc one last time on my current insurance and then it will be secondary to my new insurance plan. My Cardiologist is considered in group; however my primary doc is out of group. I need to see the dentist in the new year one of my wisdom teeth is acting up and it needs to go granted they all need to be pulled; I'm just avoiding it until they start hurting me.

Hugs to everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Another one of those days. Pain, low energy, depression. Trying to push through it.

I am far behind in what I should have ready. I can only do as well as I can do.
It'll have to be enough!

Love to All!

WC

I just... can't... sleep.

I have too many things going through my head right now. New ideas of things I want to do or could do, mixed in with some bad anxiety. Overwhelmed by the thought I have to clean up my apartment asap -- but I can't clean now since it's almost 11pm and I don't want to be obnoxious. I shouldn't have been lazy earlier today...

I also can't believe it'll be 2 days until Christmas once the clock strikes midnight. I'm also fearful that this Christmas will be my grandma's last Christmas.

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

That's a lot of cookies!

I made these

Brown Sugar Cookies

I was short on ingredients so found something I could make with what I had around the house

They look yummy!

Every day the paranoia/hallucinations gets a little better. I'm liking the meds I'm on (Zyprexa, Remeron, Trileptal). I'm kinda depressed and really irritable but I think that's more of a menstrual cycle thing than a bipolar thing, although what do I care what's causing it? I just want it gone. I got pedialyte as recommended by the IOP for those times when I know I should eat but can't get myself too.

[Scooter9]

I went out last night to a gathering of friends at one of their houses. I went with my wife.

There were only a total of 4 couples, so 8 of us there but I got overwhelmed. It became too much, the talking, laughing, the jokes, trying to follow what people are saying, looking from face to face.

I just shut down at one point and stared at the floor until the end of the evening.

I don't like when that happens because I don't contribute or participate then plus my wife gets upset about it. I guess that's understandable.

This is nothing new, it has been a feature of my life but it hasn't happened in a while.

Still depressed but managing. I have to go to work Monday, but then I get to work from home after Christmas for a few days, plus my older son is visiting so that's nice!

Scooter, I don't feel comfortable at large gatherings, either. Though I do talk, it's a nervous talk and I often start to over heat/sweat.

[wildflowerchild25]

Woooo! I woke up full of energy and happiness and I’m so glad because I actually want to bake and cook. Ran out and got ingredients for lemon cookies and fudge and I’m about to start baking it up. I’m also making a lasagna dinner for my honey tonight and we are going to exchange gifts. We had such a great time last night. My son had an awesome time at the arcade and the prizes were a lot better than most arcades.

I feel almost hypomanic today but I’m not concerned because I slept until 9am so I’m fine. I’m just in a great mood! I’m sure it’s just the excitement of the holidays.

Waiting for my aunts gift to come in today and my mom’s gift. I hope they don’t get delayed. That would suck.

Hope everyone has at least a tolerable day!

I got a whopping 3 hours of sleep -- 1:30am to 4:30am.

The Indians down the hallway were blasting Bollywood music with heavy bass until 1:30am. Like what the f***?

*trigger* physical abuse

Possible trigger:

And then the (who I think is a) woman beater downstairs was shouting angrily, swearing, and (I think) throwing stuff. Then I heard a lady start crying. (This has happened on multiple occasions, which is why I'm convinced he's a woman beater or something. I just don't know if I should call the cops or not, because I don't know exactly what is going on for sure. I just hear a woman crying and screaming, saying stuff like, "stop!").

And then there were a bunch of drunk people outside singing loudly while slurring their speech.

I tried using headphones to block out the sounds, but the Bollywood music was too loud and all the people being loud couldn't be blocked out either. So yep, I pretty much stayed up until 1:30am when all of that stopped. It sucked because I woke up early yesterday and was exhausted.

Why can't people be nice to other residents and nice to each other?

Oh well. At least I'm not too exhausted. You know how sometimes you're so overtired that you stop feeling tired anymore because your circadian rhythm is out of whack? Well, yeah.

[tecomsin]

I'm still persistently waking up in the 6:30 am time rather than after 7, but it is a lot better than 3:30 or 5:30.

I seem to have settled on 1 mg rexulti, 2.5 olanzapine and 50 mg lyrica at night. If I take more olanzapine then my tremor is really bad. I think the rexulti helps keep paranoid thoughts at bay.

I was spending too much time worrying about the police carting me off again. Sure it might happen, anytime my neighbor is checking on me she may also be calling them and I know my freedom to not be locked up is tenuous at best, since they can come at any time and take me away. But i don't need to spend hours every day worrying about that.

[Unrigged64072835]

Got some cleaning done today. Now I’m chilling out with this heavy cat on my lap.

I’m going to try to stay up late because no food or water for hours on end in the morning sucks. At least I’ll have the procedure done tomorrow and start being pain free again next year. Good thing because I’ll have to work off all this chocolate!!

No word from my daughter as to whether she’ll be coming the day after Christmas or not. If she doesn’t then we’ll mail or drop off her gifts. I guess I sounded mean but good grief, we did the holidays her way for many years. It’s our turn this year.

Lots of love to you all. Happy holidays!!

[Miss Laura]

So excited its Christmas Eve Eve!!

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I got a whopping 3 hours of sleep -- 1:30am to 4:30am.

The Indians down the hallway were blasting Bollywood music with heavy bass until 1:30am. Like what the f***?

*trigger* physical abuse

Possible trigger:

And then the (who I think is a) woman beater downstairs was shouting angrily, swearing, and (I think) throwing stuff. Then I heard a lady start crying. (This has happened on multiple occasions, which is why I'm convinced he's a woman beater or something. I just don't know if I should call the cops or not, because I don't know exactly what is going on for sure. I just hear a woman crying and screaming, saying stuff like, "stop!").

And then there were a bunch of drunk people outside singing loudly while slurring their speech.

I tried using headphones to block out the sounds, but the Bollywood music was too loud and all the people being loud couldn't be blocked out either. So yep, I pretty much stayed up until 1:30am when all of that stopped. It sucked because I woke up early yesterday and was exhausted.

Why can't people be nice to other residents and nice to each other?

Oh well. At least I'm not too exhausted. You know how sometimes you're so overtired that you stop feeling tired anymore because your circadian rhythm is out of whack? Well, yeah.

If they are being loud in the middle of the night, you can call the police for that. I think most places have a noise ordinance that says you have to be quiet after 10 pm. Even if it's not illegal, your apartment complex probably has some rules about it. Mine has quiet hours between 10 pm and 6 am. So you could report it to the management.

[Wild Coyote]

Mood is changing. I just want to isolate and sleep/rest.

Pushing through again today. Company arrives tomorrow.

Happy Holidays to All!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Mood is changing. I just want to isolate and sleep/rest.

Pushing through again today. Company arrives tomorrow.

Happy Holidays to All!

WC

Wishing you a happy, pain free holiday. I hope you feel better soon. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

[Sunflower123]

We braved the wilds of the mall yesterday to do our Christmas shopping. Although I shy away from shopping and large crowds, it went better then expected.

Having a quiet day watching holiday themed programs. Going to brave the mall again later tonight for a few last presents.

Wishing everyone happy holidays.

[Blue_Bird]

I cleaned my apartment, and reorganized my closets, threw a bunch of stuff away. Looks so much better. I started last night but had to stop because I was getting worked up into panic/frenzy type thing. I finished today though. I'm just spending the day home relaxing. Tomorrow evening I'm going to a nice restaurant with my family then to midnight mass, really looking forward to it!

Hope everyone enjoys their holiday

I'm sorry you're not feeling well WC, I hope things improve for you

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

We braved the wilds of the mall yesterday to do our Christmas shopping. Although I shy away from shopping and large crowds, it went better then expected.

Having a quiet day watching holiday themed programs. Going to brave the mall again later tonight for a few last presents.

Wishing everyone happy holidays.

Good for you!
I have avoided the malls this year and I do miss the holiday spirit which one might find in the crowds and the malls!

Stop by for some treats and a coffee/tea/cocoa on your way to the mall!

Happy Holidays!

WC

Here's to hoping for a fun and pain-free holiday, WC! Fingers crossed.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Good for you!
I have avoided the malls this year and I do miss the holiday spirit which one might find in the crowds and the malls!

Stop by for some treats and a coffee/tea/cocoa on your way to the mall!

Happy Holidays!

WC

Sounds lovely. I might just do that.

Every other thought is “I can’t do this anymore “

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Mood is changing. I just want to isolate and sleep/rest.


Pushing through again today. Company arrives tomorrow.


Happy Holidays to All!



WC

Hope your mood finds some middle ground and stay out !!

Just take breaks from your company when needed, and don’t feel the least bit guilty !!

Hope you get restful deep sleep