[~Christina]

My poor Dogs are miserable, we are in the smallest hotel room I have ever been in .. Sirius and Dexter are both 50+ lbs and I’m always having to walk over them and they try to get out of the way. No amount of attention and there favorite treats are helping Thank god we leave tomorrow.

Honestly this have not been a very good holiday tbh. I am grateful that my H’s oldest son finally gave his father a gift , a first in all the years we have been together of course his other 2 did nothing. I personally think that everyone has grown up and the gift giving should only be done for the 3 year old granddaughter. We spent money on them all we really had to scrap together, our food budget is going to be very hard to try and stressful But what do the hell do I know.

I’m just ready to go home to my bed and routine.

Glad most of you had a lovely holiday..

[hopeless2015]

Things are going good. Got groceries and a haircut, it's been over a year since I had it it cut so much needed, a little off the ends and thinned out. Hit Kohl's and got a new pair of jeans and a new pair of tall black boots..treated myself today . I'm off work till Jan 2nd, planning to get some cleaning done while I'm off. Chilling for the rest of today. Sending hugs to all..

[Wild Coyote]

Hello to All!

Am very tired after hosting a crowd on Christmas Day..

Have needed to rest once house guests had left this afternoon.

It's almost time to get dinner. Seems like I live in the kitchen lately!

I often enjoy cooking; yet, could take a break for awhile now -- if only someone else would do it. Back to lower carb meals tonight!

Donating sweets to the area senior center tomorrow! It will be good to get them out of the house and enjoy sharing with someone in need.

I am very thankful my sister traveled to spend time with us. I am sorry she and her partner had to leave so soon.

Love to All!

WC

[Lefty Seven]

I dreamt last night that I was sane. It hurt a lot less but it wasn't as interesting.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

it all sounds really good.


did you get some good gifts?

I did thanks a lot of Harry Potter things. I got a fit bit and the usual smellies, handbag and socks. Also sweets lol gotta have chocolate coins lol. How about you?

Back from IOP. Doc upped the trileptal to 1200mg/day and said if I'm still putting myself further into debt and wanting to die after 2 or 3 days he'll switch me to Depakote. Right now there's a lot going on and it's loud and it's stressful.

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by spikes

Back from IOP. Doc upped the trileptal to 1200mg/day and said if I'm still putting myself further into debt and wanting to die after 2 or 3 days he'll switch me to Depakote. Right now there's a lot going on and it's loud and it's stressful.

Hope it helps you, that's the dose I'm on. I was on Depakote before but switched over because of the weight gain

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys had a me day today before I go back to work for two days. I went to the gym to test out a Christmas Present found out the heart rate sensor doesn't work in water so not heart rate monitoring while I am in the pool. Slightly disappointed until I figured out the reasoning behind it. Still a really awesome fitness tracker it worked great during yoga and a hike I took with M. We both own the same tracker so he was able to show me things I had no idea I could do with it yet not to mention it's basically a watch so now I don't have to permanently hunt my phone to see the time; I also signed up for a yoga in the pool class to do with R. It's basically yoga on a surf board. I have a feeling my butt is going to be in the water more than it should. Still I need to lose weight and if i'm at least laughing it shouldn't suck.

My heart seems to be doing better or I seem to be doing better one of them at least. I don't know I still get winded doing things but I am at least able to swim for 30 minutes without feeling the need to hop out of the pool and run to the bathroom because my pulse is way to high. So maybe the medication is working even though it's still resting around 120; which I guess is better than some of the numbers I have seen. I see my Cardiologist on Friday for a follow up; so I'll known then what he thinks; it if needs to be adjusted or I need something different.

I see my primary tomorrow for the follow up on the head lac and concussion. I'm fine so that should be a short appointment. I also need him to order an A1C my roommate is concerned about the Metabolic Syndrome and checked my sugar last night and needless to say it was high. So maybe Zyprexa gave me another gift I can't return; I also have a lunch meeting among other things tomorrow; and will probably be out of the office for most of the day.

I am so busy the rest of the week; hopefully I get cleared tomorrow so I can get my hair recolored and my eyebrows done before the party. My dress and clutch should be here Friday so I'll have both of those before the party. I also need to get my nails redone and probably a spray tan; I am much too pale for that dress. I just hope I have lost a little weight before Friday. I want to be making progress not gaining more because of the Holiday's.

I am so happy to read most everyone enjoyed their Holiday's.

Hugs to everyone

[beauflow]

and well thoughts.

Bouncy day, right now I've had thoughts- I'm not bipolar.. "they were wrong", again stuff.
However This morning I had a crying session, talking to myself about a very sensitive subject. Arguing more like it.I evidently cried so loud, because one of the dogs started to bark and scratch at the door. Which just made feel worse.. pulled myself together to assure them I was ok. I always try to cry alone... I have scared others when I couldn't hold it in especially if I cry and laugh, or just not fully .... me as they know.

Anyway, got going because that's all I know to do. Saw my cat before I went to work which lifted me up a bit.

Talked with my good coworker friend, hardly anyone was onsite, I'll really miss him if he leaves or I leave. He wants me to possible watch his dogs too even though what happened yesterday ((I am sorry I talked about it)).

Had an ok day, had issues talking again though in meetings.. but my manager backed me up with writing an email with breaking down the problem and processes ... feel fortune , very.. I realize I got luck with this all. Yes, I have a strong work ethic but .... the inability to speak coherently sometimes is a deal breaker for many jobs.... I'll try to work on this more.
But tonight when talking on the phone with my ex, my friend, was fine..

Doggy is doing better, but is still hobbling. I was so happy to see him up today. I've been trying to get him to rest, stay away from stairs and all. Hoping he is better tomorrow too.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

Gosh, I could use a visit to my therapist. I need someone to talk to. . .

I've been up since 2:30. It's now 4:15am. I don't understand how I'm supposed to get better without sleep.

still not taken decorations down

maybe do that today

writing my shopping list today for next week (getting the shopping tomorrow)

also doing my menu for next week (I love planning a week in advance, so I know what i'm having)

feeling okay mentally, but back really sore and legs hurting

no sleep either

[Miss Laura]

Feeling absolutely fantastic this week.

I'm home for a few hours to do some laundry then back over to my parents for a week.

Party on Boxing Day (26th) went great, Mum's doing fab so far

I just finished watching "big fat quiz of the year 2018"

an afternoon with jimmy kar... perfect

(jimmy kar is a comedian for those that don't know.)

killed some time too.. it's 3 PM now on a refreshing afternoon

[Blue_Bird]

Christmas went pretty well. I mean, it was kind of rough because the 3rd anniversary of my moms death is coming up, but it was okay.

I've been sleeping a lot lately. Haven't really had anything going on. I'm going to the bookstore later so I can get out of the house for a bit.

Some good news is I haven't had a panic attack in 4 or 5 days! That is such a huge relief.

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I just finished watching "big fat quiz of the year 2018"

an afternoon with jimmy kar... perfect

(jimmy kar is a comedian for those that don't know.)

Haha, Carr with that hilarious laugh(!)
Was Richard Ayoade on it? I adore him. How about Noel Fielding? The two of them together is my favorite thing on that show. (Watched plenty thanks to Youtube. ).

[Blueberrybook]

Sorry for not keeping up here.

My latest update: still sick, fever over 100F, sore throat, achy, nauseous, tired, some respiratory stuff in the back of my lungs, sides of my ribs.

I dropped a glass filling water this morning. Glass shards everywhere in the kitchen to the dining room to the garage (connecting door open). I am so tired from cleaning that up, and I don't even know if I got all the shards.

Bought some cold & flu medicine OTC. Nasty stuff. I think I may have the flu as on my online sites, my symptoms are the best match there versus a cold or sinus infection. I want to go back to bed. I am afraid my daughter may have it too, or maybe hers is a sinus thing. She was not comfortable or breathing easily until lying propped up. She claims not to be sick this morning, but it takes a lot for her to claim she is not feeling well, like near a 101F fever or throwing up. She does have pretty bad outdoor allergies, and the weather has been crazy lately, so sinus stuff is very likely.

Think I may be heading into hypomania as after vacuuming up glass, I vacuumed some of the other rooms of the house, and I decided to climb on a chest of drawers and vacuum dust along the top of the curtains and rod in my bedroom, which I have been meaning to do for ages, but it felt like I had to do it immediately.

Still haven't eaten breakfast. Toasted bagels, put cream cheese on them, over an hour later, threw them out. Nauseous, I can't eat bagels with cream cheese. Got some grapes & Powerade. Will work on keeping hydrated, find some soup for lunch.

spikes, I hope you get more sleep tonight.

Blueberrybook, feel better soon.

I was glad to read that many others are doing well, or even better than well. I'm fine. I finally separated myself from the sweets. I ordered my husband to hide the cookies and I threw the rest of the perfectly good fudge in the trash and squirted catsup on it. I also froze the two giant blueberry muffins that were left. I'm not tempted to search for the cookies. I'm not tempted to eat any of the other sweets not hidden. The ones not hidden (or squirted with catsup or frozen) are not tempting me. Instead, I bought a chicken with mixed veggies stir fry for lunch. I didn't even eat the rice.

Hubby's been getting home early each day this week. It's nice.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Feeling absolutely fantastic this week.

I'm home for a few hours to do some laundry then back over to my parents for a week.

Party on Boxing Day (26th) went great, Mum's doing fab so far

I am very happy for you!
ENJOY!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Christmas went pretty well. I mean, it was kind of rough because the 3rd anniversary of my moms death is coming up, but it was okay.

I've been sleeping a lot lately. Haven't really had anything going on. I'm going to the bookstore later so I can get out of the house for a bit.

Some good news is I haven't had a panic attack in 4 or 5 days! That is such a huge relief.

So sorry about your mom's anniversary. Has to be sad.

I love going to the bookstore; I find it both stimulating and relaxing.

Glad you are getting a break from panic attacks! Panic attacks are definitely no fun!

I hope you've had a good day!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Am exhausted and in quite a bit of pain, even at rest. I've overdone, which does not take much. Attending to the "open house" here for 17 hours straight was a bit too much. Had 30 people.

Lots of food left over. Have been sending it to elderly neighbors and to the local senior center, as they are having lots of activities every day. I had called the area's shelter for the homeless; they'd needed bigger batches of food than I'd had to offer. Just sent a lot to H's parents; they've had a rough holiday season, with grandma passing.

Have stayed away from the sweets, thankfully. Now that I am off Abilify, I have much less of an appetite.

I hope everyone is doing better than okay!

Love to All!

WC

[Nammu]

It's so nice that you're sending the food to seniors I bet they really appreciate it.

[Lefty Seven]

A high school friend called to ask if I was bipolar and I was too surprised to lie. Secret's out again.

[Guiness187055]

Pretty good day today. I changed my med regiment around and actually got 6.5 hours of straight sleep. That's only the third or fourth time that has happened in the last 2 years. Got a lot of errands ran today. I think I am pretty stable except for a little situational depression which is much better than bipolar depression. Hope all is well.