[Moose72]

I finished the urine sample. Do people really pee that much? The container is almost full. I stopped because you were only supposed to collect for 24 hours. Now to drop it off in the morning...

I spent the day dogsitting as my mom and her husband went to a funeral a couple hours away. That dog wouldnt eat, wouldnt go out, and just stayed in one of her two dog beds and flopped her head from side to side every so often. N2 said "Shes depressed". And why not? Im not her favorite person. Hrumph! Dogs!

I also got an on demand movie "Christopher Robin'. It was cute but the animals looked too real!

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I also got an on demand movie "Christopher Robin'. It was cute but the animals looked too real!

I liked Christopher Robin. Took me back to when I was really into Winnie the Pooh as a kid. I identified most with Piglet (small and afraid of everything).

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I finished the urine sample. Do people really pee that much? The container is almost full. I stopped because you were only supposed to collect for 24 hours. Now to drop it off in the morning...

I spent the day dogsitting as my mom and her husband went to a funeral a couple hours away. That dog wouldnt eat, wouldnt go out, and just stayed in one of her two dog beds and flopped her head from side to side every so often. N2 said "Shes depressed". And why not? Im not her favorite person. Hrumph! Dogs!

I also got an on demand movie "Christopher Robin'. It was cute but the animals looked too real!

It's quite satisfying to finish isn't it. God I hated that test not as much as the Holter Monitor but it was a very close second. Dogs are quite strange beasts.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys last day of work for a while five days to be exact then I get to see my doc and Cardiologist. I kind of got my family doc a belated Christmas Present; and my former workplace one as well. I'd rather not post my evil plan; let's just say it will probably me who gets the last laugh.

In other fun news I found the dress for the party that will make M's jaw drop, it should be here next Friday and the clutch I ordered should be here same day. I didn't have to put a rush on it or anything. I already have the shoes to go with the dress and I'd rather not be drinking in too high of a heel.

I'm sad because my head wound wasn't healed enough to get my hair redone; which it needs to be redone before the party because my roots are starting to show and it's starting to loose the rose in my brown. I hope by next Friday the stitches will be mostly dissolved and I can get it done.

Tomorrow I am going out with my Aunt and Nieces and we will all be getting our nails done and Aunt really wants to test drive the new car to see if she wants one for her Christmas present.

In other news I've been keeping written track of my blood pressure and pulse rate for the Cardiologist and both are still high on the new medication so I have a feeling this will be exactly like trying to find a psych medication that works and I don't feel the urge to flush but I did go to the gym with R today and we did some laps in the pool and took a dance fitness class and I seemed to be okay during that; so maybe it's doing something? My heart rate was 180 when finished; I really wished when my heart rate was high it would do some fat burning instead of just peeing me off. Oh well I really want to lose some weight before I see the Cardiologist so I can show him I am really trying to kick the Metabolic Syndrome.

Hugs to everyone

[hopeless2015]

I'm officially off work till January 2nd yeah!! Things are going ok. Hugs to all!!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I had an adventure today. I picked up my niece from school and slid and fell down a muddy hill. My hood protected my head and I did not hurt my reconstructed ankle but my back is sore. I landed and looked up into my niece's huge, startled brown eyes and a few teachers/parents checking on me.

Then I got home and washed my new coat and the zipper broke in the wash (I followed the directions). So that's going back and I had to shop for another coat today of all days. Until it comes I will have to wear my 2 sizes too big coat from before I lost so much weight.

I'm just so, so grateful my ankle is ok. The surgery I had required 6 weeks on bedrest with my leg elevated, 10 weeks in a cast, 6 weeks in a boot, 3 months in a hefty brace and almost 5 months of PT. So I try very hard to not damage the repairs.

But what a day!

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I had an adventure today. I picked up my niece from school and slid and fell down a muddy hill. My hood protected my head and I did not hurt my reconstructed ankle but my back is sore. I landed and looked up into my niece's huge, startled brown eyes and a few teachers/parents checking on me.

Then I got home and washed my new coat and the zipper broke in the wash (I followed the directions). So that's going back and I had to shop for another coat today of all days. Until it comes I will have to wear my 2 sizes too big coat from before I lost so much weight.

I'm just so, so grateful my ankle is ok. The surgery I had required 6 weeks on bedrest with my leg elevated, 10 weeks in a cast, 6 weeks in a boot, 3 months in a hefty brace and almost 5 months of PT. So I try very hard to not damage the repairs.

But what a day!

Sorry you fell but glad you are OK. What an ordeal with your ankle surgery.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I had an adventure today. I picked up my niece from school and slid and fell down a muddy hill. My hood protected my head and I did not hurt my reconstructed ankle but my back is sore. I landed and looked up into my niece's huge, startled brown eyes and a few teachers/parents checking on me.

Then I got home and washed my new coat and the zipper broke in the wash (I followed the directions). So that's going back and I had to shop for another coat today of all days. Until it comes I will have to wear my 2 sizes too big coat from before I lost so much weight.

I'm just so, so grateful my ankle is ok. The surgery I had required 6 weeks on bedrest with my leg elevated, 10 weeks in a cast, 6 weeks in a boot, 3 months in a hefty brace and almost 5 months of PT. So I try very hard to not damage the repairs.

But what a day!

So sorry you fell! So happy you did not re-injure your ankle!

WC

yesterday I went to do my christmas shopping (for my christmas dinner)

it was lovely to see that so many people were in the christmas spirit- with a lot of them wishing me merry christmas as they passed me by

I wasn't able to get everything I needed, but most things.

[Blue_Bird]

Good morning

I plan on taking several walks around the neighborhood today to get some fresh air.

Have literally the whole day to do anything I want. Can't wait till Christmas!

Yesterday was basically a whole day of trying not to have a panic attack. I felt on the verge of one the entire time. I have no idea why. Nothing is stressing me out. I went maybe 6 or more months with no panic attacks and very little anxiety now the past month its been almost constant, very overwhelming. I'm using various coping skills to get through it. I have klonopin to take prn but I try not to take it unless absolutely necessary/emergencies.

My mood has been very good. I'm sleeping well. I had an instance of hearing the voices earlier but I was able to pull myself out of getting engaged with them and stressed out and brought myself back to reality/ the present.

raging vortex, that's nice to read about the Christmas cheer you experienced. I've noticed some, too. I hope it keeps up.

Blue Bird, I hope you enjoy your walks! It's great that your coping skills have served you well lately, but hopefully the anxiety will ease.

I didn't sleep that well last night because of soreness relating to my two root canals. Then I woke up at about 5 am with a swollen upper lip. When I tried to talk to hubby, who was up, I was slurring my words. He made an ice pack for me to put on my upper lip and it actually helped a bit, but it's still a little swollen.

I'm hungry, but don't feel up to making breakfast. If hubby does it will basically just be Cheerios. He doesn't make the yummier breakfasts I do. But even if he went for some (like bagels), I probably couldn't eat it. Bagels would require I chew with my front teeth, which I can't. I'm picky in that I don't like eggs for breakfast, only lunch. Hubby could manage eggs, though. Heck, hubby's sleeping again with no idea I'm daydreaming up things for him to do. I might just push myself to make it.

Update: I made banana pancakes with roasted ground pecans in the batter. They were yummy.

[tecomsin]

I picked up all the meds me and my son could need for awhile except I forgot the prescription for Synthroid. It was a zoo yesterday in the area I go for shopping.

"I'm just so, so grateful my ankle is ok. The surgery I had required 6 weeks on bedrest with my leg elevated, 10 weeks in a cast, 6 weeks in a boot, 3 months in a hefty brace and almost 5 months of PT. So I try very hard to not damage the repairs."

That's the reason I didn't go for ankle surgery after I knocked out a ligament and tore another in one in my right ankle. I can walk on it, but not run. It is definitely wobbly. The biggest risk is to reinjure it again because it is unstable to begin with. I get a dull achy pain at the end of each day.

Congratulations on getting through all that, BeyondtheRainbow. Most people don't realize how taxing ankle surgery recovery is.

I got a bunch of psychic warnings last night that scared me.

This really isn't much of a trigger, but it's more of being gory...

Possible trigger:

There was a lady with blonde hair -- natural blonde hair. It was sort of a bowl cut, but not really. Half bowl cut, half pixie cut. She looked like she was in her late 20s, early 30s.

She was crying, begging for mercy, but I couldn't see who she was begging for mercy from. She was absolutely terrified, though, and tears were streaming down her face. The background was a dark teal like the ocean and I think she was drowning, but the other person or whoever it was was giving her no mercy. She had one arm stretched out and was dying. Screaming.

I'm trying to figure out who this lady is, but I don't know. It's a psychic vision of something that either happened or is about to happen.

I was sitting up on my bed and had my eyes closed when I saw this. Then I opened my eyes and looked around, seeing nothing.

I wang to help this person, but I don't know who she is or who the perpetrator is. This has been bothering me all this morning.

I think I'm getting better. I woke up last night about every two hours feeling extremely restless and wanting to punch a wall, but when I woke up for good I was fine. Voices are less and I know they're not real (or at least other people can't see them). I can eat canned or otherwise sealed foods/drinks fine, although I panic a bit or don't eat things that are not sealed. I am still being watched take my meds and after, and that's still the worse time. I keep envisioning the pharmacists and the doc that prescribed my meds talk about me and all the sorts of bad things they're going to do to me.

I keep getting cold sores too. Annoying.

[tecomsin]

For anyone wondering why I write about people 'banging on my door'. Well the reason is the doorbell doesn't work. I had a handyman install another one, but now that also doesn't work and I don't feel up to trying again so I just put a sign on the front door to knock.

[tecomsin]

On the other hand, I can predict with 100% accuracy when my neighbor M will be knocking on my front door at 8 am in the morning. If my neighbors have seen me on the street or in my yard within the past 24 hours, then she will be there. Otherwise I never see her.

The sad fact is that i live as a prisoner in my own house. I only go out in the neighborhood in my car. If I walk outside, even just in my own yard, the M will be banging on my door shortly afterward. I think the only reason the police haven't been to my house this year is that my son is living with me.

I live in a police state.

[Nammu]

OY, what a dream. Usually I can bend my dreams and influence them, this one was like a movie in 3-D all I could do is watch. Took place in Scotland at the cusp of change. A young girl in her 20's was pregnant but not by her fiancé. The young man was mad and being influenced by an old evil man to use a method of punishment centuries old. And the music was like Melancholia the film, sad and grating. There was such a sense of despair and hopelessness. The fiancé met secretly in a stone room on second floor of a stone church then the town went along, they threw her into the sea. The sea would decide. It would give her back intact, then the boyfriend would have to accept it, the sea would seperate her baby from her and give her back or the sea would take both. The sea took the baby and spit her back on the shore and the town went along as before. She had no choice but to be with the fiancé as if nothing had ever happened...it was so sad.

Then I was riding a bus back from school and the bus went to the end of the line without dropping me off at my stop, downtown in the twin cities where I was to catch a smaller bus that would take me home. there was a game of Thrones reenactments very close by and although I was interested in it I was tired and wanted to go home. And sleep. Seems my dreams weren't letting me drive them at all. Maybe a message that I'm letting the tides carry me along wily nilly and that I need to do more in life?

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

raging vortex, that's nice to read about the Christmas cheer you experienced. I've noticed some, too. I hope it keeps up.

Blue Bird, I hope you enjoy your walks! It's great that your coping skills have served you well lately, but hopefully the anxiety will ease.

I didn't sleep that well last night because of soreness relating to my two root canals. Then I woke up at about 5 am with a swollen upper lip. When I tried to talk to hubby, who was up, I was slurring my words. He made an ice pack for me to put on my upper lip and it actually helped a bit, but it's still a little swollen.

I'm hungry, but don't feel up to making breakfast. If hubby does it will basically just be Cheerios. He doesn't make the yummier breakfasts I do. But even if he went for some (like bagels), I probably couldn't eat it. Bagels would require I chew with my front teeth, which I can't. I'm picky in that I don't like eggs for breakfast, only lunch. Hubby could manage eggs, though. Heck, hubby's sleeping again with no idea I'm daydreaming up things for him to do. I might just push myself to make it.

Update: I made banana pancakes with roasted ground pecans in the batter. They were yummy.

Thank you! I'm very tired of it, and I'm not sure where it's coming from.

I hope the soreness goes away soon

Those pancakes sound amazing

[scatterbrained04]

Depressed, lonely, and lost, I think. I'm not horribly bad, but I just don't feel like trying anymore. Can't manage to do much other than work, sleep, and stare at the wall. But my stupid brain never shuts up. I want a new brain. This one sucks lol

[beauflow]

s to all and many well thoughts.
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It's sunny and spitting snow, here... I love this state because it reminds me constantly that the strange, unusual and chaos is natural

Been doing ok.. it's life as I know it, and am doing well with taking it as it comes... well, well enough

Yesterday plans didn't work as desired but it was still a fun day; hopeful that today it does go as planned as I want to see the lights down in the capital.

Be well all, I need to plan Christmas eve dinner and Christmas breakfast still ... oi oi oi .. where did the time go?

Hubby and I did some last minute grocery shopping at the Polish shop and regular grocery store. Hubby's not Polish, he's Czech, but there are a lot of similar products/goodies. We also went to Lowes to get our tree. Luckily they had at least a few left to choose from. Getting it late is good because it's 50% off. Plus, both our families had a tradition of getting them late. I have to say that at the Polish shop and Lowes I had to go to the car and let hubby finish the shopping. The root canals have really knocked me for a loop. Plus, today is frigid cold with wind. I wore the same jacket as yesterday when it was over 60 F.

No cookies baked yesterday, for obvious reasons. I sort of doubt I'll make any later today. If I do, they'll be the easiest and quickest to make. I'm not going to make any more beyond what I may make next. I'll leave those varieties for next year to make. If I make this last cookie, that will take me to seven varieties. How on earth did my mother-in-law manage 12 to 13 every year (multiple batches of many)?

[wildflowerchild25]

I ruined my lemon cookies by adding too much cool whip. I didn’t measure just dumped in the whole 16oz container bc I figured 16oz = 2 cupsright? Well it was 16ozby weight, not by volume 🙄 I’m so dumb. So now I have to go back to the store and get more ingredients. And now my aunt is requesting fudge so I guess I have to make that too. I wasn’t going to this year but I don’t want to disappoint her. She’s so sweet. So I need to get those ingredients too. I’m starting to freak out a little. I also feel bad because I only got my mom two things. I just ordered another gift with rush shipping.

Well at least RS will be here soon. Going to his cousins bday party at Dave and busters. My back hurts a lot today which is making my leg hurt which is possibly more annoying than the back pain. I think I’m going to take some Advil even though I’m not supposed to. Nothing else works for the pain.

Sigh. I wish I actually wanted to cook, then I might be motivated to get it all done.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Depressed, lonely, and lost, I think. I'm not horribly bad, but I just don't feel like trying anymore. Can't manage to do much other than work, sleep, and stare at the wall. But my stupid brain never shuts up. I want a new brain. This one sucks lol

I often say that my brain "has gone bad". Saying scary and stupid things all the time.

Irritated as all hell. I just want to be alone but thank you xmas I won’t be alone until Wednesday and even then I have to go to the IOP for three hours even though we literally do nothing for 2.5 hours.

[~Christina]

Having a good time with our friends as always. Our dogs love there dogs too !!! Cute to watch our 50 lb dogs play with there 10 lb dogs. Lol

I didn’t sleep well last night , never sleep well away from home, going to take a extra Xanax tonight , hopefully that will help.

Hope everyone is doing well