[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by MissDenim

Hi there. I feel okay. I'm a little more hopeful than I was a few days ago. I'm dealing with headaches almost everyday, but I'm functioning the best I can.

Happy New Year!

Welcome to PC and to the BP forum.

Happy New Year!

Hope is important!
Sorry about the headaches. I hope you find relief soon.

I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.
So glad you are jumping in! Please make yourself at home.
I hope to see you around the forums.


WC

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by MissDenim

Hi there. I feel okay. I'm a little more hopeful than I was a few days ago. I'm dealing with headaches almost everyday, but I'm functioning the best I can.

Happy New Year!

to bipoar forum

[Nammu]

Got the tree all taken down and put away for a year. I've been jonesing for fried shrimp so going to go out for an early dinner at the local cafe. Family owned small cafe been here 50 years, they do good food plus they don't cost an arm and a leg.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Aurelius710

Physically ill (stomach bug of some kind), which is keeping me stuck in bed and not working on my research paper. Doesn't help my mood when I keep having to delay it. Holding out for a break in the proverbial clouds!

Has to be discouraging.

I hope you are back on your feet soon!

[Blueberrybook]

I'm here. I didn't stay up for the midnight fireworks, though they briefly woke me from sleep. Then, I jolted awake just after 4 AM, not sure why, but I couldn't sleep afterwards.

Ran but I think I overdid it. My body is exhausted & hurting. I guess it's residual fatigue left over from that weird case of strep I had that felt more like the flu than strep. My sister got it too. Our extended family Christmas got a lot of people sick for Christmas. I'm glad my husband and daughter didn't catch this bug.

Feeling guilt about not dieting Stupid ED.

Just dead tired & want to sleep. PMS is not helping. And it has been mostly gray & cloudy all day, supposed to get rainy tomorrow & Thursday. Going to make some coffee to wake me up.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Got the tree all taken down and put away for a year. I've been jonesing for fried shrimp so going to go out for an early dinner at the local cafe. Family owned small cafe been here 50 years, they do good food plus they don't cost an arm and a leg.

You've beat me to it!
I've started removing holiday decorations. I will leave the tree up a couple more days.

Enjoy the shrimp! I also enjoy going to small cafes.

ENJOY!

WC

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys great night last night. I ended up not overdoing the drinking instead having one and half and then switching to Welch's sparkling mocktails and sparkling grape; I still don't know how alcohol affects me so I didn't want to overdo it at all; I had one glass of champagne and half of a margarita and called it good for the night; I stopped drinking at 10 and most everyone left at 4am and I really didn't get to sleep much before 5am. My feet really aren't happy about being heels for that long and I'm kind a sore from all that dancing. I'm also not used to partying; I'm used to work, gym, and studying, and the occasional movie on the weekends. That really wasn't my element at all.

Ironically I was okay with the Buspar I took before M got to R's house; no anxiety; no weird thoughts of man this place is crowded. I was fine even with taking my Seroquel so late; granted I did sleep in until 1pm; Then again it was morning when I got to bed.

My company also distributed out their Christmas Presents to us and it was a really nice Fleece zip up with the Companies logo on one side and then our name and title on the other side; now instead of putting my actual job description my boss decided that my title was Associate Practice Manager instead of Referrals. Her words of you are my equal echoed in my head when I read my title.

Midnight's kiss was spectacular and my roommate grabbed my phone and got a picture of it; I have tons of pictures of last night; it was really nice to let loose and just enjoy a night without having to worry about my job; health; parental drama. It was just a great night.

Also the do like awards and such and I got an award of service or something due to my wonderful poaching skills; the main CEO congratulated my work. I though I was drunk or something. Wasn't expecting that at all; considering I just joined this company in late October; but apparently I make a noticeable difference or something. My boss hugged me tightly as she handed me the pin which will be going on my badge and a certificate which will be hung in my office tomorrow. It feels so different here compared to everywhere else I have worked. They actually value their employees.

M also got Primary Care Provider of the year out of all the Primary Care Providers; I felt like a very proud person watching him get the award. I might have kissed him long before midnight for that accomplishment, since that is patient based not coworker based; granted R said they did ask for colleague recommendation.

Saw my Cardiologist who complemented how nice I looked; I got to meet his girlfriend who is equally as lovely as him. She was really nice and we talked for a little bit. I'm feeling okay Cardiac wise so maybe the 50mg is doing something because I honestly didn't feel fatigued; but rather the Energizer bunnies twin. I didn't notice anything heart wise last night; and with how little I drank no depression which was another concern of mine.

Hugs to everyone and I hope everyone has a spectacular year!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

I feel like something broke in my brain last night, if that make sense. Hugs to all

I hope you are doing better today?
Thinking of you.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys great night last night. I ended up not overdoing the drinking instead having one and half and then switching to Welch's sparkling mocktails and sparkling grape; I still don't know how alcohol affects me so I didn't want to overdo it at all; I had one glass of champagne and half of a margarita and called it good for the night; I stopped drinking at 10 and most everyone left at 4am and I really didn't get to sleep much before 5am. My feet really aren't happy about being heels for that long and I'm kind a sore from all that dancing. I'm also not used to partying; I'm used to work, gym, and studying, and the occasional movie on the weekends. That really wasn't my element at all.

Ironically I was okay with the Buspar I took before M got to R's house; no anxiety; no weird thoughts of man this place is crowded. I was fine even with taking my Seroquel so late; granted I did sleep in until 1pm; Then again it was morning when I got to bed.

My company also distributed out their Christmas Presents to us and it was a really nice Fleece zip up with the Companies logo on one side and then our name and title on the other side; now instead of putting my actual job description my boss decided that my title was Associate Practice Manager instead of Referrals. Her words of you are my equal echoed in my head when I read my title.

Midnight's kiss was spectacular and my roommate grabbed my phone and got a picture of it; I have tons of pictures of last night; it was really nice to let loose and just enjoy a night without having to worry about my job; health; parental drama. It was just a great night.

Also the do like awards and such and I got an award of service or something due to my wonderful poaching skills; the main CEO congratulated my work. I though I was drunk or something. Wasn't expecting that at all; considering I just joined this company in late October; but apparently I make a noticeable difference or something. My boss hugged me tightly as she handed me the pin which will be going on my badge.

M also got Primary Care Provider of the year out of all the Primary Care Providers; I felt like a very proud person watching him get the award. I might have kissed him long before midnight for that accomplishment, since that is patient based not coworker based; granted R said they did ask for colleague recommendation.

Saw my Cardiologist who complemented how nice I looked; I got to meet his girlfriend who is equally as lovely as him. She was really nice and we talked for a little bit. I'm feeling okay Cardiac wise so maybe the 50mg is doing something because I honestly didn't feel fatigued; but rather the Energizer bunnies twin. I didn't notice anything heart wise last night; and with how little I drank no depression which was another concern of mine.

Hugs to everyone and I hope everyone has a spectacular year!!

Congrats on the award!
I am so glad you've had such a good time! You deserve it!

WC

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I feel inadequate and not up to the task of taking care of two unwell people (more unwell than usual)...one who needs to be IP badly and one who can not even sit up to eat or drink or make it to the bathroom. I’ve discussed this at length with my sister and I am going to work this week on getting my brother to go IP and look into my mother going to a rehabilitation center where they would be better able to care for her. I can’t risk pneumonia and she is not doing her breathing exercises as prescribed.

Not easy decisions and lots of guilt and berating of self involved.

We made it through the holiday season gang! Here’s to hoping 2019 is going to be amazing.

I'm sorry about your mother and your brother Jennifer; I saw that your mother suffered a concussion; I'm really sorry those really aren't fun at all. I'm glad other than broken ribs and a concussion she's okay. I second the rehab center they will be able to take great care of her. I hope you are able to get your brother into IP. I'm sorry about everything.

[yellow_fleurs]

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that this year is better than the last for you all. I have set some goals for myself to exercise a couple days a week at least, to cook more healthy meals at home, and to be social even if I am anxious and want to avoid it. These three things will be important for my mental health.

I spent NYE with a couple of friends at a show. That was pretty fun, but since I worked all day I was pretty tired.

As I mentioned a couple times, I think I have OCD although I realize cannot self diagnose and will talk next week to my psychiatrist. It explains a LOT that has been going on over the years in my life, though. While it got way worse this past year under stress and with the med reaction to the SSRI, I realize it may have been an issue from a pretty young age. I talked to my sister who thinks it would make sense and told me she has OCD. I thought she might, but was only aware of the GAD/MDD diagnoses. This further suggests to me it is a possibility for me.

I realized that I spend too much time ruminating and overanalyzing things and not being present or mindful which makes things worse. So, I am going to try to spend less time online as that is a problem for me, but will try to check in and post updates sometimes.

Sending hugs to those who want them!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Happy New Year everyone! I hope that this year is better than the last for you all. I have set some goals for myself to exercise a couple days a week at least, to cook more healthy meals at home, and to be social even if I am anxious and want to avoid it. These three things will be important for my mental health.

I spent NYE with a couple of friends at a show. That was pretty fun, but since I worked all day I was pretty tired.

As I mentioned a couple times, I think I have OCD although I realize cannot self diagnose and will talk next week to my psychiatrist. It explains a LOT that has been going on over the years in my life, though. While it got way worse this past year under stress and with the med reaction to the SSRI, I realize it may have been an issue from a pretty young age. I talked to my sister who thinks it would make sense and told me she has OCD. I thought she might, but was only aware of the GAD/MDD diagnoses. This further suggests to me it is a possibility for me.

I realized that I spend too much time ruminating and overanalyzing things and not being present or mindful which makes things worse. So, I am going to try to spend less time online as that is a problem for me, but will try to check in and post updates sometimes.

Sending hugs to those who want them!

It's nice to hear from you today!
Happy New Year to you!

I do understand that time spent online can create problems for some people.
It'll be a treat for us anytime you decide to check-in!


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

I had a great NYE. Totally low key. We went to an upscale but not too fancy restaurant for dinner. I had a spicy buffalo chicken sandwich which was delicious. Then we went back to my SIL and BIL place to chill until midnight. I drank about six glasses of champagne over three hours; did not feel drunk at all but had RS drive home just to be safe. I loved kissing him at midnight. First midnight kiss is four years. Felt nice.

Today I am feeling mildly depressed which could be from the alcohol consumption. I don’t know. I’m done drinking for awhile anyway, probably until my birthday which is in April. Maybe a glass of wine here or there. Alcohol is no good for weight loss. I’m at my highest weight ever right now which is very discouraging. I need to buckle down. I’ve heen very good today so far. I have chicken in the fridge for tomorrow, just not sure what I’m going to make. Maybe salsa chicken in the crock pot and have a chicken taco.

Hope everyone has a healthy and happy new year.

[wildflowerchild25]

I just told RS that I actually have bipolar instead of just depression. He didn’t freak out and tell me to take a hike. All he said was he wished I would have told him sooner. He says he want to talk to me face to face so he can learn the signs that somethings going wrong. Just when I thought he couldn’t get any sweeter 🥰

[pirilin]

Happy new year.

I have a friend, one of only three true friends, with a triple bypass operation.
He's also on dyalisis, high blood pressure, and now, they think his having pneumonia.
They're making him cough to expectorate. With a pillow on his chest.
The pain most be unbearable. Even if they fill him with morphine.

I haven't been able to go see him. Every day there is an emergency.
I talk to him thru his wife's phone and he just listens. No reply. He's deliric.
Tomorrow, I have a court appointment.
On the 3rd, I'll be there, come hail or high water. He's four hours away.

This has been a test for me. I always mostly do my will.
And this time, when I want to do my will the most, has become the hardest.

I'm reflecting on how lucky I've been so far. He's fourteen years my junior.
I've out-everything that he could have done, even if he's no saint, by miles.
And my last visit as a pacient to a hospital, was sixty years ago. To extract my appendix.

Either The Superior Power has been really kind to me, or I'm really Superman.
I really don't believe in the latter. It's just entertaiment.
Even if the super genes have proven to be there.

Maybe I'll slip on a banana peel and can't make to the hospital, but the morgue. But Sure as Hell I'm to try HARD!!! to go see him on the 3rd.

Thank you for reading.

Cheers.

[Blue_Bird]

Still not sleeping enough, but I feel a lot better because I just ate an actual meal for the first time in like 3 days. Was living on crackers and pretzels. I forced myself to lay in bed, I tossed and turned for a couple hours basically then got up at 3:30 am. Going grocery shopping later, can't wait, I have like no food here in my house.

The moon was still out when I walked over to a convenient store a little while ago, it was a perfect crescent, so beautiful.

I did stress relief yoga last night, it felt really good. I'm planning on doing it more often.

[Aurelius710]

Worked more on my paper last night and will work more on it today now that the on campus library is finally open. I also have an appointment with my therapist to keep this afternoon and people on campus to visit for some "housekeeping" issues.

Thank goodness for the medication change. I'd still be in bed otherwise.

Hubby's back to work today after his holiday break. Usually I'm glad to have the house to myself after vacations, but I already miss him today.

I have plans I want to look into, including sending an inquiry to an organization for possible volunteering, studying some French and looking up when the next French classes start at a particular French language school, and maybe writing a culinary related post for my blog. I may not get to everything, but maybe I will.

Today I learned drinking on my meds is a bad idea. I only had one twisted tea and I feel really ****ed up right now.

[Victoria'smom]

My head's spinning from therapy. I don't like my therapist but doesn't mean she can't help me.

Well, I accomplished two of my three goals today. The most important two. I wrote a cover letter email and created a more specifically-focused resume for a volunteer opportunity application. And sent them! Hopefully I'll hear back from them.

The second thing I did was to send the French school an inquiry e-mail containing a few questions. I'm sure they'll eventually respond.

I haven't even eaten lunch and it's 3 pm. I got so involved with the above. I'll go eat now and then maybe practice some French on DuoLingo. I'll leave the blog post for tomorrow or another day. I need to clean my parrot's cage and give him some fresh veggies and fruit.

[Sunflower123]

My sister and I are working hand in glove to get everything handled. For those of you who remember how many times I’ve talked about my sister’s hostility and abuse, you know this is truly a miracle. She’s apologized for the past and her bad behavior. Something has shifted and she and I will be okay. Color me astounded and extremely grateful. Just when I had given up....

As for me, I’ve been remiss in taking my medication for several days now. I know this is the worst thing I could do at this time. I will strive to do a better job.

Sending hugs and warm wishes to all.

[~Christina]

I finally got home from our Florida trip last night.

It was as stressful as I expected. I have a medication that must be kept cold so that was a struggle at times.

At our friends they had there daughter and her ( asssss hat) boyfriend was there for a time while we stayed unexpected... so there was 6 dogs and 6 people at one time , yes ! Wasn’t very enjoyable. Much stress getting the dogs to all be okay together.

Xanax was indeed my friend , overly used friend but I can easily get back to one a day over a week or so.

Today I am doing nothing, 12 hour drive increase my pain to a good 9. I’m snuggled in my blanket and frozen pizza for dinner , so easy day.

Hope everyone is well ,, sorry I just can’t go back and reply to all

Hugs !

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I finally got home from our Florida trip last night.

It was as stressful as I expected. I have a medication that must be kept cold so that was a struggle at times.

At our friends they had there daughter and her ( asssss hat) boyfriend was there for a time while we stayed unexpected... so there was 6 dogs and 6 people at one time , yes ! Wasn’t very enjoyable. Much stress getting the dogs to all be okay together.

Xanax was indeed my friend , overly used friend but I can easily get back to one a day over a week or so.

Today I am doing nothing, 12 hour drive increase my pain to a good 9. I’m snuggled in my blanket and frozen pizza for dinner , so easy day.

Hope everyone is well ,, sorry I just can’t go back and reply to all

Hugs !

I'm glad you're home, then. I understand the relief. I'm sorry you had such stress on vacation.

[Moose72]

My tremors have disappeared! I quit haldol a few weeks ago and its made a huge difference.

Im going to florida to visit a friend ive known for 22 years. Havent seen her for quite a while. So i might be sparce for a week or so.