[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

The agitated feeling passed relatively quickly. My mom is ok. She got some antibiotics but her blood pressure is really high so she has to follow up with her primary care dr. I have to try to get her to do that. She doesn’t usually go to the dr until something is really wrong, like she did with this infected tooth.

But everything’s ok. I took a nap so I’m not sure if I’ll sleep well tonight. But I couldn’t keep my eyes open. Hopefully I sleep ok anyway.

I'm glad your mom is alright; mouth infections are terrible. If her blood pressure is super high then she should most certainly follow up with her primary doc. I hope you sleep well tonight.

[Guiness187055]

Productive day. I went out to a great breakfast. It was a restaurant we have not tried before we will be back. I then went to Sam's club and Aldi both stores were very crowded. I can't stop worrying about things I cannot control. It's a problem I have had for years. It really causes me great anxiety and I don't know how to stop the worrying. I have tried everything from a therapist to medication and I still worry. Hope everyone had a great day.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Productive day. I went out to a great breakfast. It was a restaurant we have not tried before we will be back. I then went to Sam's club and Aldi both stores were very crowded. I can't stop worrying about things I cannot control. It's a problem I have had for years. It really causes me great anxiety and I don't know how to stop the worrying. I have tried everything from a therapist to medication and I still worry. Hope everyone had a great day.

I hope all goes well with Social Security this week.

WC

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I hope all goes well with Social Security this week.

WC

Thanks Coyote. I find out more tomorrow. I appreciate your well wishes.

[downandlonely]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Productive day. I went out to a great breakfast. It was a restaurant we have not tried before we will be back. I then went to Sam's club and Aldi both stores were very crowded. I can't stop worrying about things I cannot control. It's a problem I have had for years. It really causes me great anxiety and I don't know how to stop the worrying. I have tried everything from a therapist to medication and I still worry. Hope everyone had a great day.

I think worrying about things we cannot control is common. I don't have the secret to stop worrying though.

[Sliders]

Still sad, wondering if this is going to develop into a depressive episode.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Productive day. I went out to a great breakfast. It was a restaurant we have not tried before we will be back. I then went to Sam's club and Aldi both stores were very crowded. I can't stop worrying about things I cannot control. It's a problem I have had for years. It really causes me great anxiety and I don't know how to stop the worrying. I have tried everything from a therapist to medication and I still worry. Hope everyone had a great day.

I worry far too much about everything I can relate.

Hope you get good news

My neighbor that i have been enjoying so much was insensitive about portrayals of mental illness in the media and i am offended. I had a gory binge (food). I'm going to my doctor to see about an increase in Wellbutrin. It could just be that i need extra at this time of year as it's the worst for me. Here's hoping!

[Victoria'smom]

So...I feel this "black goo" in my chest that feels like pain and I feel like I can't catch my breath.

Possible trigger:

I would commit suicide but that would spread the darkness and pain to everyone and some will never recover

I'm really debating stopping my zyprexa. I feel like I gained a ton of weight. I can't tell because my husband would have a fit if I brought a scale into the house.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So...I feel this "black goo" in my chest that feels like pain and I feel like I can't catch my breath.

Possible trigger:

I would commit suicide but that would spread the darkness and pain to everyone and some will never recover

I'm really debating stopping my zyprexa. I feel like I gained a ton of weight. I can't tell because my husband would have a fit if I brought a scale into the house.

Don’t stop your Zyprexa it never ends well

Stay safe

[pirilin]

My good friend Art(hritis) is invading me.

Feet. Right wrist. Left hand (trigger finger). Left shoulder. Neck.

I want to think is the position I sleep in. Laying sideways to the left.
Three pillows underneath this huge head of mine.
Two to the side to embrace. It used to be women. Now it's just pillows. Ugh.

Or maybe the lack of exercise.
The pool is too cold for my age, it seems. I need a gas heater.
The solar only goes down to 78. It used to be warm before. Now it's freezing.
The bike could use some air in the tires. Tomorrow. Promise.
It's too painful to use the vibrating machine. Specially at start. Can't pass to level two.
Let alone do the full ten minutes.

Is this getting old?. It should be the other way around.
We old farts should feel less and less. Until there's nothing left.
And permisson for landing is granted.

Or maybe the design is right.
At the end, the pain most be so much, the departure is almost a wish.

This is the part when I remember I'm brave.
Otherwise, I should have crossed dimensions a long time ago.

Yeah. I'm brave. And stubborn. Also dislike to be dictated.
The old man will prevail. Specially now. Voltaren went generic.
I'm picking up the largest size tube for mere fifteen bucks today.
Finally insurance is covering the brunt of the cost.

Youth, divine treasure. Even if naive and irresponsible.
When we have enough experience, we die.
So whassssup with that.

I feel better now. Sharing the load with you. My family.

Time to go back to the torture chamber, and catch a few more dreams. Or nightmares.
Or nothingness. Preferable.

Good luck. Cheers.

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Productive day. I went out to a great breakfast. It was a restaurant we have not tried before we will be back. I then went to Sam's club and Aldi both stores were very crowded. I can't stop worrying about things I cannot control. It's a problem I have had for years. It really causes me great anxiety and I don't know how to stop the worrying. I have tried everything from a therapist to medication and I still worry. Hope everyone had a great day.

I’m an excessive out of control worrier too. Nothing has helped over the years except every now and then I’m so exhausted mentally and physically from it that my head actually says ENOUGH. It’s weird. I let it go and just think whatever. I’m a speck. Nothing is in my control I have to go with the flow. It lasts from a day to a few months. Just a nice break from all that worry. I hope you find relief soon.

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So...I feel this "black goo" in my chest that feels like pain and I feel like I can't catch my breath.

Possible trigger:

I would commit suicide but that would spread the darkness and pain to everyone and some will never recover

I'm really debating stopping my zyprexa. I feel like I gained a ton of weight. I can't tell because my husband would have a fit if I brought a scale into the house.

Do you see pdoc or T any time soon? Please take care of yourself.

[Guiness187055]

Great news. I contacted my lawyer and he said the phone call I received was spam. Pretty scary how someone could know where you are in a court case before court. I should have just done a back check on the number and I would have found it was a fraud. There I went again worrying about nothing I could control. Now on to the worry. Have a great day all.

[Victoria'smom]

Do you see pdoc or T any time soon? I see T on Wednesday.

I saw my doctor and he did what i expected: doubled my Wellbutrin to 300mg. I took it this morning and don't feel anything. My initial response to it back in October was immediate. My doctor says it might take two weeks to start feeling better and six weeks before it reaches full effectiveness.

I'm so sleepy. I slept eight hours last night and had a 2.5 hour nap today. It's nice to get back to sleeping. I ate chips and chocolate like before. I just don't care anymore. I was so nauseous on Wellbutrin at first that i dropped down two jeans sizes. Now i've gained those sizes back and my stomach feels bigger than ever. I can only wear sweats and jeans with elastic waistbands.

What if it was just a manic episode? A very long, 2.5 month manic episode?

Whatever. I am still the same person, with the same values and IQ, the same experiences. I'm just exhausted, negative and indulgent. Life will still go on.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I saw my doctor and he did what i expected: doubled my Wellbutrin to 300mg. I took it this morning and don't feel anything. My initial response to it back in October was immediate. My doctor says it might take two weeks to start feeling better and six weeks before it reaches full effectiveness.

I'm so sleepy. I slept eight hours last night and had a 2.5 hour nap today. It's nice to get back to sleeping. I ate chips and chocolate like before. I just don't care anymore. I was so nauseous on Wellbutrin at first that i dropped down two jeans sizes. Now i've gained those sizes back and my stomach feels bigger than ever. I can only wear sweats and jeans with elastic waistbands.

What if it was just a manic episode? A very long, 2.5 month manic episode?

Whatever. I am still the same person, with the same values and IQ, the same experiences. I'm just exhausted, negative and indulgent.

I hope the increase in Wellbutrin helps you.

I had started on it 10 days ago, with an increase 3 days ago. I am feeling a bit foggy on it. I hope this side-effect passes.

I have much less of an appetite on it, too.

Take care!

WC

[Sunflower123]

My plan for today was to burrow into the couch with my blanket and my dog and read my book which I need to have read by the time the book club meets Wednesday night. I told mother and brother I would do the basics but I needed to rest today and tomorrow and that nonessential appointments would need to be rescheduled since I am concerned about my mental health.

I feel exhausted all day until about 8:00 when my mind starts racing and my heart beats wildly. What is that? I get to sleep very late and wake often and early. I don’t know what is happening to me mentally. It feels bad and frightening.

Anyway, mother will absolutely not let me rest but we did sit brother down for 2 hours today and got him to agree that he needed professional help and IP looked likely. His only response? D**mnit to H*ll. We’re getting somewhere!!!!

Anyway...thank you for your support and well wishes and hugs. You don’t need to respond. Just feels good to get it out.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[hopeless2015]

Sending hugs to all

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by pirilin

My good friend Art(hritis) is invading me.


Feet. Right wrist. Left hand (trigger finger). Left shoulder. Neck.


I want to think is the position I sleep in. Laying sideways to the left.

Three pillows underneath this huge head of mine.

Two to the side to embrace. It used to be women. Now it's just pillows. Ugh.


Or maybe the lack of exercise.

The pool is too cold for my age, it seems. I need a gas heater.

The solar only goes down to 78. It used to be warm before. Now it's freezing.

The bike could use some air in the tires. Tomorrow. Promise.

It's too painful to use the vibrating machine. Specially at start. Can't pass to level two.

Let alone do the full ten minutes.


Is this getting old?. It should be the other way around.

We old farts should feel less and less. Until there's nothing left.

And permisson for landing is granted.


Or maybe the design is right.

At the end, the pain most be so much, the departure is almost a wish.


This is the part when I remember I'm brave.

Otherwise, I should have crossed dimensions a long time ago.


Yeah. I'm brave. And stubborn. Also dislike to be dictated.

The old man will prevail. Specially now. Voltaren went generic.

I'm picking up the largest size tube for mere fifteen bucks today.

Finally insurance is covering the brunt of the cost.


Youth, divine treasure. Even if naive and irresponsible.

When we have enough experience, we die.

So whassssup with that.


I feel better now. Sharing the load with you. My family.


Time to go back to the torture chamber, and catch a few more dreams. Or nightmares.

Or nothingness. Preferable.


Good luck. Cheers.

I so understand your pain. Hope you get a reprieve soon

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Guiness187055

Great news. I contacted my lawyer and he said the phone call I received was spam. Pretty scary how someone could know where you are in a court case before court. I should have just done a back check on the number and I would have found it was a fraud. There I went again worrying about nothing I could control. Now on to the worry. Have a great day all.

That is indeed scary

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My plan for today was to burrow into the couch with my blanket and my dog and read my book which I need to have read by the time the book club meets Wednesday night. I told mother and brother I would do the basics but I needed to rest today and tomorrow and that nonessential appointments would need to be rescheduled since I am concerned about my mental health.


I feel exhausted all day until about 8:00 when my mind starts racing and my heart beats wildly. What is that? I get to sleep very late and wake often and early. I don’t know what is happening to me mentally. It feels bad and frightening.


Anyway, mother will absolutely not let me rest but we did sit brother down for 2 hours today and got him to agree that he needed professional help and IP looked likely. His only response? D**mnit to H*ll. We’re getting somewhere!!!!


Anyway...thank you for your support and well wishes and hugs. You don’t need to respond. Just feels good to get it out.


Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Be direct and don’t budge on not getting time for self care. Boundaries I know it’s hard sometimes.

Hope your brother continues to be open to getting help.

My anxieties when ramped up always come around dinner time and then just stay difficult to manage.

[~Christina]

Just really hurting BAD ! Damn Fibromyalgia and PsA to hell.

When my pain gets this bad it effects how I mentally deal with everything, sucks.

Doing all self care I can , I have no time for a meltdown.

Things could be worse , much worse so yeah.....

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So...I feel this "black goo" in my chest that feels like pain and I feel like I can't catch my breath.

Possible trigger:

I would commit suicide but that would spread the darkness and pain to everyone and some will never recover

I'm really debating stopping my zyprexa. I feel like I gained a ton of weight. I can't tell because my husband would have a fit if I brought a scale into the house.

Remember what you wrote to me when I was sui a few weeks ago?
Take your PRN’s, go to bed and contact your psych team. Thanks to your advice I’m ok.
So, now I’m asking you to follow your own advice. Please stay safe.

[Pookyl]

I’ve been a bit wobbly since I dropped my Seroquel dose. I see my pdoc tomorrow morning where she’ll reevaluate whether to increase my Seroquel or not.