Do you feel shame from any of your hospitilizations?

honestly most of the time I feel like they are wasting resources on me (especially when I'm in for a suicide attempt)

the way I see it is



I don't think I'm worth hospital's time really and I've never thanked them for it (knocked a nurse out, that's as nice as it gets)

so yes I am ashamed, but not of the actual hospital- of coming out, realising it's done nothing for me and doing it all again

guess I feel a little embarrassed too.

most of the time it's the same one and everyone knows my name (and some people their even call it my second home), it's like... hi, lasst time didn't help me really, but I'm back anyway

they are extremely patient with me

I go to the same one too because it’s where my dr works. They all mostly know me....even thrnrecreation and art people.

I could write a book about all my embarrassing experiences with forced hospitalization.

Not from the hospitalizations themselves, but I do from the things leading up to the hospitalizations. I don't like going for local walks too much anymore because my neighbors saw the cops searching for me after a suicide attempt in the woods.

that was very much like me,

first suicide attempt was on a busy road and I had to be found (and gently coaxed away from the traffic)

I was 9.

it wasn't exactly difficult to give me a load of crap and get me to follow them

No I don't feel ashamed. I've only been in once. Almost twice. The second time I went they didn't have any beds available. They sent me home. Pretty sad really. I drove myself home that night. I was alone my husband was at work. I am currently in IOP to keep from being impatient. I had a good experience while in. I am not really ashamed of much. I know it's my disorder that causes me to do things. Some stuff isn't totally my fault. I can't always control my thoughts. I've learned this in counseling over the years and in IOP to. That is why I keep a thought record and journal. It helps to go back and see what I've thought and done at my sickest points. So no I'm not ashamed.

Sometimes I do feel embarrassed that i have been in hospital.

Sending many hugs to everyone

I’m not ashamed of my hospitalizations. I’m more annoyed with ER workers who try to shame me out of going IP. Just because I also have bpd doesn’t mean it’s all attention seeking. Sometimes there really is a serious problem, like being depressed for months and becoming suicidal.