Went out to a Mexican restaurant for lunch today with my mom and dad. The food was okay, but parts of it were a little chewy and soggy. I mean, the flavor was good, but the texture was very offputting. But $10 for 4 items wasn’t a bad deal. I got 3 cheese enchiladas with a giant mound of rice. Now I have leftovers for work tomorrow.

Also, we’re supposed to get roughly a foot of snow on Tuesday afternoon into early Wednesday morning. Ick. I had to leave a voicemail for my therapist saying that I don’t think I’ll be able to make my 7:45am appt time on Wednesday morning because my apartment complex does an awful job of cleaning their parking lots and roads!! I want to reschedule, but idk if my therapist can accommodate me this week or not. I’ll be really bummed if she can’t.

[Under*Over]

This new medication comes with a wonderful new unexpected side effect that I am very much going to try to enjoy

I hope this isnt a sign of mania/hypomania though. But I really dont feel like worrying about it

I still feel mildly depressed. But i am glad i am single and free to be as inactive as i please, with no husband harassing me to go to Sunday family dinner. I did feel stale so i tried to take my dog for a walk but she shivered and balked now that her thick coat of fur is cut off so we came in before long. Guess that's the end of walking her for a while. We're getting the same dump of snow as Blue Bicycle so i'll be cooped up Tuesday and Wednesday. I better get out tomorrow to get a break from this tiny apartment.

I'm really enjoying this forum. It helps to know others are struggling, that i'm not the only one. I really care about everyone here and i feel lucky that you share your stories here. I attended IRL support groups for years but now i find online is enough.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Im finally off seroquel! Id been taking half a pill for a few days then just quit. At that dose it was only working as a sleep aid anyway. I feel just fine and slept through the night!

Just remember half life plays a huge role with coming off meds

Well I've been out of diazepam since yesterday. My insurance is giving my pharmacy a hard time bc I'm taking different doses each month bc we are decreasing them. Hopefully should have them by Monday or Tuesday.

It's been snowing here sine I got up. We've gotten about 4 inches. It snowed here the other day about 4 inches. They're predicting about a foot. I HATE snow and winter. Wish I lived in cali, right off the ocean.

Went out and got my son and and I e cigs. We are gonna be so broke this month. The guy was trying to up sell us big time. I got a $30 devict and my son got a $50 one. With the juice and everything it came to over a $100.

My sons bed had springs coming through the mattress. He took it all down to the garbage. My sister kim gave us a sleeping pad he can use in the meantine. My sister mickey is going to help us with a new bed for him. Thank god for my sisters.

I'm just really grumpy over everything. Especially the snow. Ugh! If you only knew how much I hate it, lol.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by rose1985

Well I've been out of diazepam since yesterday. My insurance is giving my pharmacy a hard time bc I'm taking different doses each month bc we are decreasing them. Hopefully should have them by Monday or Tuesday.

It's been snowing here sine I got up. We've gotten about 4 inches. It snowed here the other day about 4 inches. They're predicting about a foot. I HATE snow and winter. Wish I lived in cali, right off the ocean.

Went out and got my son and and I e cigs. We are gonna be so broke this month. The guy was trying to up sell us big time. I got a $30 devict and my son got a $50 one. With the juice and everything it came to over a $100.

My sons bed had springs coming through the mattress. He took it all down to the garbage. My sister mickey is going to help us with a new bed for him. Thank god for my sisters.

I'm just really grumpy over everything. Especially the snow. Ugh! If you only knew how much I hate it, lol.

I’m totally with you on hating snow, rose. We haven’t gotten any major storms this winter yet. But last year in March we got three back to back so I know we’re not out of the woods. It’s supposed to snow a little bit Monday night and Tuesday morning. Enough to make it annoying but not enough to close anything. Which I’m thankful for because that way I don’t have to shovel.

I wish I could move to Florida.

[winter loneliness]

Maui is cold! Mount Haleakala has snow. The surf is high, trees have fallen and winds are fierce. This doesn't help with my seasonal depression.

Originally Posted by winter loneliness

Maui is cold! Mount Haleakala has snow. The surf is high, trees have fallen and winds are fierce. This doesn't help with my seasonal depression.

Yeah I get it, I get seasonal depression too. It's been snowing here since 11 am with more due. On anff too for the next week!

[cashart10]

Well, mom came and got the girls and took them to church first thing this morning. She didn’t have room for my son though so she insisted I take him. Well, between the depression and meds, I can’t get up in the morning. She called me numerous times to get out of bed but it didn’t work until 12:15 when I finally woke up. I felt anxious and severely depressed right away. I took a shower because I hadn’t had one in days. I sat on the bathtub floor for probably 40 minutes before I actually got up and bathed. Then I dried my hair and went to mom’s (my son was already there because he and my youngest had spent the night). The first thing mom said of course was she was irritated I didn’t take my son to church. I’m telling you, I’m not Catholic, neither is she but we both were raised Catholic and both know how to lay it down hard. And, does she not make me feel horrible!!! She told me I couldn’t expect to go to bed at a reasonable time if I sleep until noon. Well, for one thing I am depressed, and for another, I am, albeit illogically, afraid to go to sleep. I’ve been doing what I can to stay awake. Oh well.

I’m not sure if I’m going to work tomorrow. I’m thinking no. I am petrified about it and Friday I experienced derealization in a classroom. I don’t think I can handle that again. I have 18 sick days and am in the fmla process so I certainly CAN take the day off but I feel horrible doing that to my teacher and other assistant.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone and Happy Sunday; I hope everyone had a good Sunday. I had a pretty good day overall. I went to Sunday School and Church with M and his parents again. I always manage to stun his mother every Sunday. She's like his last ex avoided Church; meanwhile we don't even have to beg for you to come. I guess it has to do with me being raised in a church for the most part so I'm just so used to it.

Lunch after church was really nice it's always nice getting out and enjoying a nice meal. Granted I think I'm starting to gain some weight back. I haven't been to the gym in a couple weeks since I had the rash and I'm just so busy here lately. Not to mention it's so easy to get tempted by fast food hey look it's dinner time and I don't feel like cooking. So I have got to start eating better again and going to the gym; granted I'm in for probably another gym free week since this week is Valentine's Day. I guess gaining a little back won't be the end of things since I am still considered normal weight for my height.

The work chat also went well; it would have been nice to see more of you guys there.

R, M and I also watched Christopher Robin tonight since we all wanted to do something before submitting to another work week.

Hugs to everyone

[Wander]

First nigh without Seroquel. fell asleep finally at 5 am ash. Tried to get up at 8am but couldn't move. Slept on and off till 11 am. A good start I think. Just need to move the get up time back to around 6am.

Just hung out in comfy clothes and drew yesterday. Some parts turned out like I wanted, but the most important part, not so much, lol. I'm getting my chops back after about 35 years not doing my best thing. It's good to be "back to myself".

Today is work. Don't really want to go. Had a bit of a hard time waking up today, but that is probably good as I'm experimenting with what might *keep* me asleep for the amount of hours I'd like to sleep. Most current sleep pattern: falling asleep, no problem. Waking up too early, problem. Tried melatonin. Maybe helped a little(??) Last night tried gabapentin, which I'm supposed to be taking at night anyway (I've been skipping my night meds for some time now). It'll take more experimentation (and especially when I have enough hours available to get a proper amount of sleep) to know if it helps. I was getting good sleep for awhile there, maybe that was part of it.

Hugs to all!! Especially those having a hard time.

ETA: first day wearing the new sneakers out of house. Feel great so far, hopefully I'll feel the same way at the end of the day, lol...

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Just hung out in comfy clothes and drew yesterday. Some parts turned out like I wanted, but the most important part, not so much, lol. I'm getting my chops back after about 35 years not doing my best thing. It's good to be "back to myself".

Today is work. Don't really want to go. Had a bit of a hard time waking up today, but that is probably good as I'm experimenting with what might *keep* me asleep for the amount of hours I'd like to sleep. Most current sleep pattern: falling asleep, no problem. Waking up too early, problem. Tried melatonin. Maybe helped a little(??) Last night tried gabapentin, which I'm supposed to be taking at night anyway (I've been skipping my night meds for some time now). It'll take more experimentation (and especially when I have enough hours available to get a proper amount of sleep) to know if it helps. I was getting good sleep for awhile there, maybe that was part of it.

Hugs to all!! Especially those having a hard time.

I love hanging out in comfy clothes, particularly sweatpants and oversized shirts. Then I sit under a plush blanket and read (or at least attempt to read, anyway) or mess around on my laptop. Usually the latter.

Sometimes I even go to therapy in sweatpants. lol. Probably not very adult like, but hey, they’re comfy. At least I have sweatpants and NICE sweatpants (those $60 ones that I get on sale for $20-30 ish at Dick’s Sporting Goods).

I have my annual gynecological appointment. I'm not looking forward to it, but will get it over with. Then, of course, I'll have to get a mammogram. Ladies, have you had yours within the last 12 months?

I'm so glad that my husband doesn't mind doing dishes. I woke up to find a beautiful kitchen.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I have my annual gynecological appointment. I'm not looking forward to it, but will get it over with. Then, of course, I'll have to get a mammogram. Ladies, have you had yours within the last 12 months?

I'm so glad that my husband doesn't mind doing dishes. I woke up to find a beautiful kitchen.

No, I haven’t done a mammogram before, but I’m also 27. My lady dr feels them tho every time I go in for a physical. Not quite the same thing, I know, but I really ought to get them done since my grandma had a cancerous nodule that had to be surgically removed a while back.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

No, I haven’t done a mammogram before, but I’m also 27. My lady dr feels them tho every time I go in for a physical. Not quite the same thing, I know, but I really ought to get them done since my grandma had a cancerous nodule that had to be surgically removed a while back.

I think 40 years old is a usual age to start having mammograms, but your gynecologist will let you know when they suggest your first. I think the age varies according to gynecologist preference or breast exam results, or family history. I think I had a "baseline" at 38. It's not a big deal exam. [Not that uncomfortable.] They're important though. Many times they want to "double check" a result with more imaging or an ultrasound. That shouldn't immediate scare people.

I don't really have a family history of breast cancer. The only person in my family who had it was my grandfather's sister and she survived it. That was probably back in the 1970s.

[Sunflower123]

Really depressed today. My life hasn’t turned out the way I thought it would and I’m wondering how I got to this point....what even is the point? I guess many of the folks on this forum could say that though. Sorry for being a Debbie Downer today. Hopefully things will start looking up real soon.

I told all the people in my life that I need some space and that includes my daughter. First time I’ve ever done that but I need to be left alone for awhile. I’m in a really bad space. That doesn’t apply to anyone on PC. You guys get it.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Daonnachd]

I'm going for a blood draw today. It's part of the annual physical & history that has to be done for anybody doing maintenance ECT.

it's been a day of nothing

morning was spent waiting for an email that never arived (litirally waiting and doing nothing)

and afternoon was spent sitting on my bed watching reruns of la to vegas.

I did listen to some music too though

my favorite station from holand

Well, I can’t reschedule my therapy appt, so I’m stuck with it.

It is NOT going to be fun driving there. It’s less than 15 mins from my apartment, but I’m going to leave an hour early in case someone causes an accident in the bad weather. Well, I’ll just have to dig my car out first. So maybe I’ll go outside at 6:15am to dig my car out of the 1 foot of snow. Shovel and roof cleaner thingy. Then I’ll leave by 6:45am to get to my 7:45am appt. it doesn’t help that my car is ultra low to the ground. What a mess! At least there’s a highway I can take, but still... Oh, and then off to work after that appt... yay... NOT.

I wanted to take PTO/vacation tomorrow, but it doesn’t seem likely. I’m better off going to work in the snow than having to move my car midday from my apartment complex lot and sit in a random parking lot for a few hours while they clean up. I mean, I have to do work either way, whether I go into the office or not. Neither choice is preferred, but I suppose work is the lesser of two evils. Can’t afford to sit in a parking lot doing nothing for 3 hrs except play on my phone or whatever.

[Wild Coyote]

Still under a lot of stress.

Am trying to tolerate an increase in Wellbutrin.

My sleep has gotten a lot worse. I get to sleep at about 5-6 am.

I could use some alone time to just chill and to get a break from the stress. I am so tired I cannot think straight.

Am so glad friends here do understand.

Love to All!

WC

[hopeless2015]

Hugs to all

Doing ok, Monday so back to work today. Husbands turn to work till 9:30 today so at laundromat getting that done. Won't have to cook supper though, so that's nice. Should be a quite night.

My parrot keeps kissing me. It's extra nice because he was eating fresh strawberries and blueberries.

I wasn't in the mood to go to my gynecologist, but I did. On the way, a really horrible thing happened. A car ran over a wild animal. I saw it happen, but the poor thing wasn't killed instantly. There was nothing I could do. When I got to my doctor's office parking lot I called hubby to sort of get that sadness out to someone.

Once I finally saw my gynecologist, I felt much better. She's nice and I've known her for 20 years. On the way back from there, I went to some stores and my mood lifted a lot! Going to the ice cream parlor didn't hurt, either.

I was pretty darned upbeat by the time I got to the cashier at the grocery store. I believe I was loud and maybe a little crazy upbeat. Yea! The funny part was that when I turned to head out (smiling up a storm), I spotted one of my old therapists from maybe 8 years ago. He was smiling at me, and I think he heard my jovial "performance". One of those "Life is Marvelous" performances. We didn't speak to each other, but it was sort of surreal. I thought "Oh, my! Dude knows I'm basically singing Zippity Doo Dah this afternoon."

This therapist was the son of an extremely famous psychologist who passed away a few years back. Every therapist I've had since recognized his father's name. He always acted like he, himself, was famous as a result. But he's just the son of a famous psychologist. Anyway, I quit him for several reasons, including his tendency to act like he knew more than my psychiatrist. He even wanted me to quit my psychiatrist and go to another. I adore my psychiatrist and always have. My choice was clear. Plus, during a clear high-level irritable hypomania, I wrote him something pretty nasty in an email. It definitely got to him! [I'm normally a sweet lady, but when I get irritable manic, I can be as viscous as a Tasmanian devil.] Ugh! Well, we had a fight the next time I saw him and then the next day I left him a voice message telling him I was cancelling all future appointments. He called back and my husband answered. When I got on the phone I was pretty "up" and joyfully declared I wanted to get a new therapist in order to obtain a "fresh" perspective. When I hung up, my husband said that when he answered that this therapist sounded depressed. I think he knew he failed me. Actually, I think that therapist had a crush on me. The really nasty thing I wrote him was sort of related to my acknowledgement of that.

[Daonnachd]

As I was starting the registration process at the hospital where I have my blood work done I realised it was a fasting test and I wasn't. So I've been fasting all day to go back this afternoon. I hope 10 hours is enough of a fast.

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

As I was starting the registration process at the hospital where I have my blood work done I realised it was a fasting test and I wasn't. So I've been fasting all day to go back this afternoon. I hope 10 hours is enough of a fast.

I bet 10 hours is just fine. I've had fasting blood tests after just 10 and the results were accurate. You can ask the phlebotomist.