I'm feeling better! I did more cleaning that's i've been procrastinating on. My home gets yet more tidy! I was actually having such a hard time doing my chores that i looked into having a cleaning lady in. But now i don't have to! Is the Wellbutrin kicking in? It's the third week... Or the warmer temps? A combination? Whatever. Just glad that smothering depression has passed.

[Victoria'smom]

wildflowerchild25 that's how I've been feeling for months I just recently am starting an anti-depressant.

[Scooter9]

Not as low as yesterday. Feeling a little better.

I'm not taking good care of myself lately. I need to eat better and try to walk or something.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Is anyone else’s first thought in the morning

Possible trigger:

I wish I could just kill myself and/or cut myself

? Mine was yesterday and today. And I want to cry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get through the day

Yes. I awaken crying and

Possible trigger:

feel like I just want to die

I hear you.


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Well I made it through the day. Suffered with self harm thoughts for a good portion of the morning then settled into the numb depression of yesterday. I don’t know what my problem is. I’m so frustrated. It’s like a damn light switch. All of a sudden I wake up and I’m plunged into darkness. No trigger that I can see. I hate it. I just want normalcy.

I never started the emsam that my dr gave me last month because I felt better from the increase in haldol. Now I think I’m going to start it but I have to wait three days because I’ve been taking a decongestant and they have a severe interaction with MAOIs. It’ll take about three days for the decongestant to get completely out of my system. I see my pdoc on Tuesday so maybe I should hold off and ask him when I see him. I don’t know if I can do this for that long though. I’m already getting self harm and suicidal thoughts.

I’m such a ****ing baby. Some of you suffer with depression for months and after two days I’m like wah wah I want to die. I don’t know why I’m so dramatic.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Yes. I awaken crying and

Possible trigger:

feel like I just want to die

I hear you.


WC

I'm so sorry for you both . hang in there.

Well I'm having misgivings about my t. She seems like she's not strong enough to handle my issues. She's anorexic and just seems weak in all ways. I've been seeing her about a yr. I just got off the phone with her her supervisor and he said give it some time as we are going to be starting emdr soon. If I'm still not feeling it, call him back. I'm willing to give it some time.

My back has really been hurting lately. Chronic pain sucks!

My son is doing better although he obsesses on things. He's really obsessed with politics. I'm into politics too, but he just goes on and and on.

Hugs to those that need them.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I had planned to meet my daughter half way for lunch today. I couldn’t manage that and have been on the couch all day. You know it’s not a good day for me when it involves my daughter and I can’t do it. Feeling a bit better now. I have a busy day tomorrow with several appointments/events. I think tomorrow will be better and I’ll meet her on Thursday.


Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Hope your feeling better soon

I’m the same about seeing my daughter , she’s 12-13 hours away.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Mood up and I don’t care. I can still control it so I’m not worried. My head feels like I’ve been drinking. I miss drinking.

Bipolar has turned me into such a micromanaging goody two shoes. I’m seeing my pdoc next week. I’ve got time to have some fun.

Just stay safe and have fun

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

OMG, I am so, so happy!!!!! I feel invincible. Unfortunately the nurses hold me back. I must make my escape.

Glad your feeling better , stay there and find stability.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Is anyone else’s first thought in the morning

Possible trigger:

I wish I could just kill myself and/or cut myself

? Mine was yesterday and today. And I want to cry. I don’t know how I’m gonna get through the day

Can you call you Pdoc and get a increase on Haldol ? That usually works quickly.

Please stay safe.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Well I made it through the day. Suffered with self harm thoughts for a good portion of the morning then settled into the numb depression of yesterday. I don’t know what my problem is. I’m so frustrated. It’s like a damn light switch. All of a sudden I wake up and I’m plunged into darkness. No trigger that I can see. I hate it. I just want normalcy.


I never started the emsam that my dr gave me last month because I felt better from the increase in haldol. Now I think I’m going to start it but I have to wait three days because I’ve been taking a decongestant and they have a severe interaction with MAOIs. It’ll take about three days for the decongestant to get completely out of my system. I see my pdoc on Tuesday so maybe I should hold off and ask him when I see him. I don’t know if I can do this for that long though. I’m already getting self harm and suicidal thoughts.


I’m such a ****ing baby. Some of you suffer with depression for months and after two days I’m like wah wah I want to die. I don’t know why I’m so dramatic.

Your not a baby !!!! Depression really throws you into a tailspin. It sucks , sucks , sucks.

Tuesday seems like a long was away , I’d start the Med as soon as you can.

But be honest about not taking it, it could change where to go now to help you.

Please stay safe

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Can you call you Pdoc and get a increase on Haldol ? That usually works quickly.

Please stay safe.

I see him Tuesday. I don’t want more haldol if I can avoid it. I already feel like I’m on too much. I’d rather take the emsam I’m just not sure if it’s safe since I’ve been taking the decongestant.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by rose1985

I'm so sorry for you both . hang in there.


Well I'm having misgivings about my t. She seems like she's not strong enough to handle my issues. She's anorexic and just seems weak in all ways. I've been seeing her about a yr. I just got off the phone with her her supervisor and he said give it some time as we are going to be starting emdr soon. If I'm still not feeling it, call him back. I'm willing to give it some time.


My back has really been hurting lately. Chronic pain sucks!


My son is doing better although he obsesses on things. He's really obsessed with politics. I'm into politics too, but he just goes on and and on.


Hugs to those that need them.

I’m sorry your struggling all the way around.

Give your T a bit more time but it’s your Therapy!!!!! and you need help not be hopeful your T gets her shyt together.

I hear you on the chronic pain, sucks man

I hope your son can back off political stuff that can be a powder keg. Does he have any prn’s to help ?

Hang in there

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I see him Tuesday. I don’t want more haldol if I can avoid it. I already feel like I’m on too much. I’d rather take the emsam I’m just not sure if it’s safe since I’ve been taking the decongestant.

I don't think it is if it is on the interaction list for Emsam. If it is you need 2 weeks to get every drop of it out of your body. But maybe your pdoc would not be concerned about that; at a low dose there aren't the major interactions. I would call the pdoc and ask. The sooner you can start the better but I wouldn't start unless I was really sure it was safe; a stroke isn't worth it. My pdoc doesn't worry about every interaction as far as food goes; we've never discusse a med interaction.

[~Christina]

So yesterday I had to do grocery shopping , which I loathe.

Anywho got home put it away , made dinner and literally 20 mins after dinner my heart rate went flying up and I “ had” to go right to bed, heart rate dropped back to normal , But I could not get out of bed I was literally to exhausted to pull the cover over me , my husband did. This was at 7pm I fell right to sleep, which this insomniac never does.

I woke up about 5 am dragged myself to the bathroom and back to bed. Woke up about 11 tried to roll over but I just had no strength, slept again and finally got out of bed at 2 pm today !!!!!

WTH ?

I’m still pretty limp and honestly would go back to bed now but I think I would scare my husband too much. So I’m sitting here typing slowly away.

The only thing that happened was a spastic urge to be in bed right away and heart rate spike for maybe 5-6 mins felt pretty cold, more so than I should have been in this weather and that’s it.

Still just weak weak weak

Just a fluke maybe.

[VerMOZZica]

Yesterday was the second day of the new med my p doc prescribed for me and yesterday night was pretty awful . The med made me feel ill and I became very dizzy. Then it made me sick to my stomach. Today I spent much of the day in bed. That med really sucks and I won`t be taking that again.

Hugs to all that need or want them .

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So yesterday I had to do grocery shopping , which I loathe.

Anywho got home put it away , made dinner and literally 20 mins after dinner my heart rate went flying up and I “ had” to go right to bed, heart rate dropped back to normal , But I could not get out of bed I was literally to exhausted to pull the cover over me , my husband did. This was at 7pm I fell right to sleep, which this insomniac never does.

I woke up about 5 am dragged myself to the bathroom and back to bed. Woke up about 11 tried to roll over but I just had no strength, slept again and finally got out of bed at 2 pm today !!!!!

WTH ?

I’m still pretty limp and honestly would go back to bed now but I think I would scare my husband too much. So I’m sitting here typing slowly away.

The only thing that happened was a spastic urge to be in bed right away and heart rate spike for maybe 5-6 mins felt pretty cold, more so than I should have been in this weather and that’s it.

Still just weak weak weak

Just a fluke maybe.

Feel better soon. Maybe a call to your doctor's office? That's a pretty severe break from insomnia to all those hours of sleep.

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So yesterday I had to do grocery shopping , which I loathe.

Anywho got home put it away , made dinner and literally 20 mins after dinner my heart rate went flying up and I “ had” to go right to bed, heart rate dropped back to normal , But I could not get out of bed I was literally to exhausted to pull the cover over me , my husband did. This was at 7pm I fell right to sleep, which this insomniac never does.

I woke up about 5 am dragged myself to the bathroom and back to bed. Woke up about 11 tried to roll over but I just had no strength, slept again and finally got out of bed at 2 pm today !!!!!

WTH ?

I’m still pretty limp and honestly would go back to bed now but I think I would scare my husband too much. So I’m sitting here typing slowly away.

The only thing that happened was a spastic urge to be in bed right away and heart rate spike for maybe 5-6 mins felt pretty cold, more so than I should have been in this weather and that’s it.

Still just weak weak weak

Just a fluke maybe.

Might be an idea to have yourself checked out as this is an anomaly for you. Take care.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Feel better soon. Maybe a call to your doctor's office? That's a pretty severe break from insomnia to all those hours of sleep.

Yes it was a huge change. If it happens again ill tun it by my GP.

Very weird.

Thanks

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Might be an idea to have yourself checked out as this is an anomaly for you. Take care.

Yes if it happens ago I will.

So weird

Thanks

[yellow_fleurs]

~Christina it does seem a bit concerning that you were so fatigued and had things going on with your heart rate, too. Please take care!

[Wander]

I agree with the advice Christina. Take care.

POSS TRIGGER!!!!

If you have read my Geodon post, I am sorry as this is a bit of a rehash. I took Geodon for the first time yesterday and felt nothing until after doing 15 mins of Yoga. It sent me into a massive hypomanic phase which would've been great if I wasn't already suicidal so now I had intent and energy. This led me to being constantly obsevered and also heavily drugged until my pdoc arrived. Thankfully the drugs had me subdued by then and they let me sleep it off. Once over the hangover I am back to happy hypomanic where I love living.

Gotta love meds don't you. Haha

[Guiness187055]

Crappy day today. I couldn't sleep last night so I ended up taking 300mg of Thorazine to get to sleep which worked to well. I slept from 4am until 11am. I then slept from 12pm to 4pm. I still feel drugged. My wifes computer **** the bed so I spent the evening trouble shooting it and am pretty sure it's the motherboard which means I have to rip the whole thing apart. Other than that still guitar shopping for myself. Hope everyone had a good day.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

~Christina it does seem a bit concerning that you were so fatigued and had things going on with your heart rate, too. Please take care!

I’m defiantly going to see my GP if anything weird happens again

Thanks

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

So yesterday I had to do grocery shopping , which I loathe.

Anywho got home put it away , made dinner and literally 20 mins after dinner my heart rate went flying up and I “ had” to go right to bed, heart rate dropped back to normal , But I could not get out of bed I was literally to exhausted to pull the cover over me , my husband did. This was at 7pm I fell right to sleep, which this insomniac never does.

I woke up about 5 am dragged myself to the bathroom and back to bed. Woke up about 11 tried to roll over but I just had no strength, slept again and finally got out of bed at 2 pm today !!!!!

WTH ?

I’m still pretty limp and honestly would go back to bed now but I think I would scare my husband too much. So I’m sitting here typing slowly away.

The only thing that happened was a spastic urge to be in bed right away and heart rate spike for maybe 5-6 mins felt pretty cold, more so than I should have been in this weather and that’s it.

Still just weak weak weak

Just a fluke maybe.

Yikes!! Dear one that seems kinda weird; I second the notions of everyone else please give your doctor or at least their nurse a call. That sounds very terrifying. I hope you stay safe.