[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I have severely, severely hurt my back this time. It keeps going into excruciating spasms. I sat in urgent care yesterday and got a shot of toradol and that helped minimally. This morning it sparked and my legs went numb and gave out on me. I went to the ER where of course they didn’t do ****, they gave me an X-ray and some Percocet and called it a day. And the Percocet isn’t even touching the pain. I’ve been stuck in bed al day. I can’t stand or walk for more than a couple of minutes.


I don’t know what I’m going to do. I might have to go out on disability from my job. I certainly can’t work like this. If it wouldn’t spasm I might be able to deal with it but the spasms are severe. I’ve never been in so much pain in my life.


I’m a little scared at the leg numbness. The Er doc didn’t seem concerned at all. Even though on the paper they gave me it says return immediately if you have tingling in your legs. ***.

Oh no !! It makes me sick that you are left in such horrific pain and no real way to get help.

I think you should let somebody know about your legs being numb.

I hope someone will listen and find a way to really help you.

[bizi]

christina, I hope you are doing alright.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bizi

It has been 25 years since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1. A lot has changed since then.
I got married to the love of my life. I am a nurse.
Own and operate a foot care practice. Own a home(rather the bank does until we pay it off in about 7 years). By then we will be debt free. That is a good feeling.
Hopefully, I will still have a job. Just wanted to share.
bizi

Good for you !!! You have much to be proud of.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I think I have finally weaned myself of olanzapine that I was taking to stabilize my sleep. Last night I slept until past 6 and then dozed until 7. Hoping for another good night tonight. Olanzapine makes me groggy and messes with my sugar levels and other metabolic parameters so I don't like to take it. I was down to 1.25 mg and then finally made the jump to 0. Fingers crossed.

I always love to hear things like this ! Good for you

Hubby and I had a nice day. We took a walk around a lake and spotted a bald eagle. I had seen one years earlier on a lake closer to us, but hubby had never seen one locally. I wished that the eagle had flown a bit, but he/she just sat for the whole time watching everything.

We went to the movies and saw a German film called "Never Look Away". It was an amazing story about an artist who lived through WW 2 as a child, was raised in communist East Germany, went to art school there, then managed to get to West Germany before the Berlin Wall was built. It's actually much more than that. Part of his childhood was scarred also by seeing his beloved aunt's mental illness come on. She was then taken away from her family and then marked for extermination by the Nazis. She was exterminated simply because she was mentally ill and deemed a "degenerate" or "defective" human. That was significant in the movie.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by bizi

It has been 25 years since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1. A lot has changed since then.
I got married to the love of my life. I am a nurse.
Own and operate a foot care practice. Own a home(rather the bank does until we pay it off in about 7 years). By then we will be debt free. That is a good feeling.
Hopefully, I will still have a job. Just wanted to share.
bizi

You go bizi It's nice to read these types of stories. Hope you are doing well

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone and happy Sunday. I hope everyone had a good day. I'm sad my weekend is over; I wish it was longer given the fact that I worked two weeks straight, I feel like I need an extra Saturday and Sunday thrown in for a four day weekend.

I went to Sunday School and Church today and out to eat with M's parents; G and his lovely wife which is always a nice time can't beat good lunch after church. After lunch M and I met up with R and doc for some shopping because well we all actually felt like doing things today since we pretty much did nothing yesterday which was nice; I really like a do nothing day; not to mention it's been nice being able to sleep in the past couple of days; my body really needed that sleep; granted I'm the type to not need a whole lot of sleep to function as evidenced by me usually crawling into bed around 2am and waking up at 6:30 am to get ready for work.

Tomorrow is work plus a Cardio visit in the afternoon since it's been two weeks since I've last seen him. I hope beyond hope that he loosens up my leash to once a month; don't get me wrong I really do like him but I have been seeing him every two weeks since what feels like late December after my incident; it is now early March. I know it doesn't seem like a lot but if I were to add up what I payed his office in that time frame I could have easily used that money for a vacation or something else. I'm not all that mad though it is my heart and it is important that it works properly and that when I have lower resting numbers instead of resting at 120 it makes the other condition a lot easier to manage.

The log I have has kept my blood pressure and HR right around normal; which makes me happy to see him since he did promise last time one more time of good numbers and I could go to one month follow ups for a while. I mean the Verapamil is working like a champ when it comes to solid numbers. I mean I've been on this medication since Mid-January and haven't had any issues on it. I will be rather annoyed if he tells me two weeks again.

Hugs to everyone

Also Happy Birthday Scooter9; I hope you had a great birthday!

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by tecomsin

I think I have finally weaned myself of olanzapine that I was taking to stabilize my sleep. Last night I slept until past 6 and then dozed until 7. Hoping for another good night tonight. Olanzapine makes me groggy and messes with my sugar levels and other metabolic parameters so I don't like to take it. I was down to 1.25 mg and then finally made the jump to 0. Fingers crossed.

I haven't seen you post in a while here; nice to hear that you are getting down on the medication. I hope you are doing well. I miss seeing your posts.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Merlin

Happy Birthday Scooter!

I'm doing pretty well. I'm studying for an anatomy and physiology midterm. I've decided that I am going to do a practical nursing program. It's 2.5 years and would start January 2020. It's a hybrid course. You do the labs on campus and the lectures are presented in a Skype-like format. You log on at home at a specific time. I'm excited and nervous.

That is awesome Merlin; I wish you the best of luck.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Have been reading here.

Am having a very difficult time. Recent events have triggered trauma/PTSD. Having difficulties with dissociation. Am having some trouble reading and writing at times(concentration).

Love to All!

I'm sorry dear that you are still having a difficult time. I miss seeing you here; sending you many warm hugs.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I have severely, severely hurt my back this time. It keeps going into excruciating spasms. I sat in urgent care yesterday and got a shot of toradol and that helped minimally. This morning it sparked and my legs went numb and gave out on me. I went to the ER where of course they didn’t do ****, they gave me an X-ray and some Percocet and called it a day. And the Percocet isn’t even touching the pain. I’ve been stuck in bed al day. I can’t stand or walk for more than a couple of minutes.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I might have to go out on disability from my job. I certainly can’t work like this. If it wouldn’t spasm I might be able to deal with it but the spasms are severe. I’ve never been in so much pain in my life.

I’m a little scared at the leg numbness. The Er doc didn’t seem concerned at all. Even though on the paper they gave me it says return immediately if you have tingling in your legs. ***.

Oh goodness sweetie; I am so sorry you are having issues with your back. I agree with someone else could you see your PCP and get referred to an ortho or neurosurgeon to see if they could help you? Sending you warm hugs

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Sorry your Fibro has flared , mine is doing the same. Hope your able to rest.

Thanks so much Christina. I know you understand well the agony and exhaustion Fibromyalgia brings. I'm sorry to hear yours is flaring up as well. Gosh I wish there was a cure. Science is way behind on this one.

Somehow I have managed to move from being basically bedridden for four years to having periods of relative health. Not quite sure how I pulled that off as I threw just about every option, medical or herbal, that my rheumatologist gave me and didn't improve. Started giving all that stuff up, still healthy diet, il exercise, yada, yada, yada, and began improving. It sounds like you experience a worse version than I currently do. I really feel for you.

[liveforsummer]

Will be gone for a while. Stay safe everyone

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

Thanks so much Christina. I know you understand well the agony and exhaustion Fibromyalgia brings. I'm sorry to hear yours is flaring up as well. Gosh I wish there was a cure. Science is way behind on this one.


Somehow I have managed to move from being basically bedridden for four years to having periods of relative health. Not quite sure how I pulled that off as I threw just about every option, medical or herbal, that my rheumatologist gave me and didn't improve. Started giving all that stuff up, still healthy diet, il exercise, yada, yada, yada, and began improving. It sounds like you experience a worse version than I currently do. I really feel for you.

I was diagnosed almost 10 years ago. After being in constant pain for 2 years.

My pain is always at a 6 and today it’s an 8 I really lose it when it’s a 9, then I have PsA which is just more pain

There’s really no treatment for it , I take Lyrica not sure if it helps or not , but scared to stop it Incase.

I’m a walking barometer. Hot and cold trigger it.

I’m glad you have the ability to have lower levels. I wish one day to get a break ! It gives me hope knowing some people get relief

There’s only one person on this planet I wish would get it ! He more than deserves to be in agony

[yellow_fleurs]

liveforsummer take care and please reach out if you need support.

Wild Coyote, I am so sorry. I hope you are getting the support you need during this tough time. We're thinking of you.

[Sunflower123]

I am getting up and out early today. It feels good when you have the motivation and energy to clear some important items off your to do list. I live for the good days.

Going to workout, run errands and am graduating from PT today. Yay!!! I’ve been stalling out on working out (I don’t know why when I love to swim and the sauna, steam room and hot tub after). I’ve also been self medicating with food so it’s time to straighten up. I’m giving up sugar for Lent. This should be interesting.

I think I’m through the rapid cycling of the AD. Feeling hopeful and content. Got a women’s event coming up at church that I’m looking forward to tomorrow night and a Drum Circle next Tuesday which I’m dragging my daughter to. I think she’ll love it.

Warm wishes to all for a peaceful week and many hugs to those that are struggling.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Numbness in your legs is not a good sign. Would your PCP take you more seriously and refer you to a specialist?

I have a specialist already I’m calling him today. I hope he takes me seriously.

[tecomsin]

I was posting in another thread that was removed. I just woke up and found it had disappeared. Not faulting PC, just expressing the loss that I feel, not knowing why it was removed or what part I may have played in it. Thanks for allowing me to share. I'm not criticizing anyone, just expressing my loss.

No snow day for hubby. They were able to clear the roads quite well. It's just as well. I have my annual mammogram at noon. I will be happy to get that over with. Then next week I have my annual physical at my GPs. I am certain some blood test results won't be good. I almost wish my GP would just prescribe a statin already. I have been unsuccessful at lowering my cholesterol for years. I read that 10 years of high cholesterol increases risk of heart problems a lot. It's been about six years now.

I didn't fall asleep until almost 4:00 am because I didn't take my Seroquel XR until 10:00 pm last night. Normally I take it at 7:15 pm, but I didn't because we went to see a movie last night. I know not taking my Seroquel XR until late spells sleep issues. That's why I hate to go out in the evenings. If I were to skip my evening meds deliberately and completely, I would not sleep at all and would be having severe mood symptoms in the late morning.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

My father died this morning. I am so relieved he is no longer suffering.

[wildflowerchild25]

So sorry for your loss beyond.

[tecomsin]

BeyondtheRainbow, so sorry for the loss of your father. I hope his passing was peaceful.

[pirilin]

Today won't be my favorite day.
First, they need to draw blood.
Then we'll go to Home Depot.
La Bruja is into plumbing nowadays. Not my best subject.
At the end, after she messes all up, I'll have to fix it.
Or call a real plumber, lol.

Cheers.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

My father died this morning. I am so relieved he is no longer suffering.

My condolences, Beyond. You have been through a lot. Allow yourself time to grieve his loss.

[Scooter9]

Thank you everyone for your birthday wishes!

I spent the day with my family and got a chance to speak with my older son who is living and working in another country. He said he missed me too.

We also visited my mother and took our relative who lives in a nursing home out for lunch. I received lots of wishes and greetings from friends of the family and from the extended family too.

My low mood persisted but I enjoyed my time with everyone anyway.