[yellow_fleurs]

Happy birthday Scooter!!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Happy birthday scooter 9!

[Wild Coyote]

Happy Birthday!!!

[Merlin]

Happy Birthday Scooter!

I'm doing pretty well. I'm studying for an anatomy and physiology midterm. I've decided that I am going to do a practical nursing program. It's 2.5 years and would start January 2020. It's a hybrid course. You do the labs on campus and the lectures are presented in a Skype-like format. You log on at home at a specific time. I'm excited and nervous.

[Wild Coyote]

Have been reading here.

Am having a very difficult time. Recent events have triggered trauma/PTSD. Having difficulties with dissociation. Am having some trouble reading and writing at times(concentration).

Love to All!

[Wander]

Happy Birthday Scooter!

[Wander]

Yesterday I physically crashed. The Fibromyalgia hit me hard so I laid low most of the day, sleeping and watching TV. My mood was also very low. I felt very self-destructive and agitated. This seems to be swinging one day on, one day off. This morning I managed a walk to the beach and a brief swim. So far no major repercussions. I am hoping my body has bounced back but will have to be careful. I have a very busy week ahead so I need to study a little and rest the remainder of the day.

[Nammu]

Wild coyotes

[wildflowerchild25]

I have severely, severely hurt my back this time. It keeps going into excruciating spasms. I sat in urgent care yesterday and got a shot of toradol and that helped minimally. This morning it sparked and my legs went numb and gave out on me. I went to the ER where of course they didn’t do ****, they gave me an X-ray and some Percocet and called it a day. And the Percocet isn’t even touching the pain. I’ve been stuck in bed al day. I can’t stand or walk for more than a couple of minutes.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I might have to go out on disability from my job. I certainly can’t work like this. If it wouldn’t spasm I might be able to deal with it but the spasms are severe. I’ve never been in so much pain in my life.

I’m a little scared at the leg numbness. The Er doc didn’t seem concerned at all. Even though on the paper they gave me it says return immediately if you have tingling in your legs. ***.

[Nammu]

Numbness in your legs is not a good sign. Would your PCP take you more seriously and refer you to a specialist?

[bizi]

It has been 25 years since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1. A lot has changed since then.
I got married to the love of my life. I am a nurse.
Own and operate a foot care practice. Own a home(rather the bank does until we pay it off in about 7 years). By then we will be debt free. That is a good feeling.
Hopefully, I will still have a job. Just wanted to share.
bizi

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Have been reading here.

Am having a very difficult time. Recent events have triggered trauma/PTSD. Having difficulties with dissociation. Am having some trouble reading and writing at times(concentration).

Love to All!

am so sorry you are going thru this.
What has helped you in the past may help you now.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I had an alright day. Problems coming but I’ll cross that bridge when I get there. Tonight is for me. I’m feeling good.

[tecomsin]

I think I have finally weaned myself of olanzapine that I was taking to stabilize my sleep. Last night I slept until past 6 and then dozed until 7. Hoping for another good night tonight. Olanzapine makes me groggy and messes with my sugar levels and other metabolic parameters so I don't like to take it. I was down to 1.25 mg and then finally made the jump to 0. Fingers crossed.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by giddykitty

Hello. I'm back after a few months. I went to a festival tonight at my old grade school. It was fun but too short. We used to spend hours there as kids. I guess it's more geared toward kids though.


Anyway. I see my pdoc soon and I wanted to get off my Abilify because I have doubts about having bipolar, but we have a big vacation coming up so I don't want to make any changes until I have time to wean off it. I did mention this to her before and she just steered me in a different topic so I don't know if or when I'll get off of it...


But I've been feeling better with my antidepressants!

Glad to see you ! I hope you and your Pdoc are able to come up with a good plan.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I went to a rock concert! It was a solo acoustic show of Matthew Good's. He has bipolar. I didn't think i would make it. I thought i'd just sleep thru it and tell no one that i had wasted $57. I bought the ticket last Fall when i was flying high. It just seemed like it would be too much with my current depression -- getting there on the bus, sitting thru, getting back.

But it was wonderful and buses went smoothly. He chatted to the audience a lot. It was a lot of fun! He's so talented! It was a little hard being solo in the group of couples and threes and fours but i'm glad that i don't let the fact that i'm alone prevent me from doing cool stuff. It was nice to see there are LOTS of other Matthew Good fans.


Aces!

Good for you !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

It's my birthday today! Not a milestone birthday - that was last year. But it's on a Sunday so can't really beat that

My wife got me tickets to a show in May and I'll be seeing my mother and rest of my family later today.

I'm feeling low but I guess that's become normal for me these past many months. I'll try to enjoy the day today.

Happy Birthday! Hope you enjoyed your day

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I need groceries. Bad.

To the point I have no bread or milk.

My trip to Wally's World is inminent.

The food is inferior, for the most part.

However, my credit card still works there.

And I need money bad.

La Bruja will reinburse me. Always does.

May God bless her big fat paycheck.


Cheers.

I hear you about Hellmart quality of food.

Buy something special you like

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by beauflow

it is nice to read such positive vibe posts


Yesterday I kept posting and deleting; as I felt insignificant but not. A lot of thoughts yesterday. I was busy and productive yet not.


Again I am editing- i wont delete.. I will just somewhat I do.. have a good one all.... I'll be fine always have been.

It’s often good to get stuff out of your head. We can all relate. No matter how instignificant you might think it is.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

So it's no surprise that I've been crying every day since getting Nathan's news. I feel I am grieving a loss and it FEELS like a death. I find myself looking at things he wrote me as a kid and all the zillions of photos I took of him and tearing up. Logically those are the past and can't change that. I don't want to! Im losing my little Nathan and the man he only just started to discover. And along those lines, he won't ever get to enjoy the fruits of making love to the same person over the years. In fact, as soon as he starts the testosterone blocker, he will essentially be a eunuch. No children either. I suppose that one is a loss for me- I don't know that he would feel the same. He said he'll store sperm for later but I don't think he can afford it.


Sorry- no personals. Meh... My stomach hurts

Sorry you are going through such a huge amount of feelings. Just keep feeling it and you will be able to process this , talk to your T it will help you.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Happy birthday, Scooter9! I hope you have an enjoyable day!


I did some self care this morning...finally. I took a long bubble bath, washed my hair, and some other little things to spruce myself up. We'll go out for a walk in a bit once my hair is dry enough. The rest of the day we'll just kick back. It's supposed to snow tonight into early tomorrow. Maybe hubby will get lucky with a snow day. His workplace is generous with them.

Sounds like a lovely day

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Kind of okay, kind of intermittently a bit anxious and sad. Not going to let it stop me today, though. I am getting stuff done on my paper today. I also did laundry, took my supplements, and made lunch. I also made plans for exercising this week and going to try a meditation center to encourage me to get into that practice. I am slowly adding things to my life. I am trying to get one good habit down, then add the next. So, now that I am into exercising again, I am going to add the meditation. Once I am in that habit, I might do something else. I think I might try to volunteer this month, too.


Also, I have an appointment with my therapist this week. I have a decent amount to discuss since it has been 5 weeks since our last appointment. I might ask her what she thinks of my diagnosis. I am trying to decide if I should go back and discuss it with my psychiatrist or get another opinion, too. I am mostly focusing on treatment, not labels, but it kind of helps to really understand what's going on I think in order to get the right treatment.

You are making fantastic plans one the add another! Good for you.

My rheumatologist recommends swimming as my exercise as it won’t cause further damage my joints , yeah ooooook , closets pool is over an hour away so feasible maybe once a month when I factor in gas costs.

The meditation sounds wonderful.

Pat yourself on the back for making such strides to help your self.

I hope you can find out a better understanding of your label, so you are able to make the best choices for treatment.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Merlin

Happy Birthday Scooter!


I'm doing pretty well. I'm studying for an anatomy and physiology midterm. I've decided that I am going to do a practical nursing program. It's 2.5 years and would start January 2020. It's a hybrid course. You do the labs on campus and the lectures are presented in a Skype-like format. You log on at home at a specific time. I'm excited and nervous.

Sounds fantastic! That is my one true regret in life not going to nursing school right out of high school.

Good luck !

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Have been reading here.


Am having a very difficult time. Recent events have triggered trauma/PTSD. Having difficulties with dissociation. Am having some trouble reading and writing at times(concentration).


Love to All!

Please be extra kind to yourself during this difficult time.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

Yesterday I physically crashed. The Fibromyalgia hit me hard so I laid low most of the day, sleeping and watching TV. My mood was also very low. I felt very self-destructive and agitated. This seems to be swinging one day on, one day off. This morning I managed a walk to the beach and a brief swim. So far no major repercussions. I am hoping my body has bounced back but will have to be careful. I have a very busy week ahead so I need to study a little and rest the remainder of the day.

Sorry your Fibro has flared , mine is doing the same. Hope your able to rest.