[Victoria'smom]

My T thinks I’m borderline, ptsd, depression with anxiety and not BP. She wants me to go to a DBT group. Said my writing was over dramatic and just a panic attack.

Possible trigger:

thinking you have painful black goo (over days) in you to the point you want to seriously hurt yourself and the only reason you don’t is the people left over will get that painful goo if you die. Then hatching a plan to puncture your lung to drain it but don’t do it because what’s the hospital going to say?”

When I mentioned the bugs she asked me “Are you really telling me you’re having hallucinations?” I quickly backed out of that. The past two visits she has asked if I needed the hospital and I told her no. I’d rather be asked then assumed. She told me my depression and anxiety will never go away and I just have to learn to live with it. IDK I’m hoping she can help me.

Anyone that knows me have I really had a manic episode or not?

[piggy momma]

I assume in your poll by BP you mean Bipolar, so I voted no. I'm diagnosed Borderline (BPD) but not bipolar.

[Victoria'smom]

Yes BP is Bipolar.

[yellow_fleurs]

I am not sure I know you well enough, and you could always have it in addition to the other things. Also, if you are backing out of the hallucinations maybe your T doesn't know all your symptoms? I hope you get the best treatment possible for what you need. DBT does sound like a good idea whether you have BP, BPD, or some combination.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm thinking of running. She's a ***** but I think she may be able to help me after so many bad T's. If this one fails it's all on me. I shake when I'm there and get nauseous afterwards. Weren't talking about anything deep yes my control issues but anyone/everyone knows that. I'm wondering if Dx change will become a med change. Am I destine to be **** lbs?

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Has anyone suggested BPD to you before? What diagnosis did the therapist you liked suggest? How do you feel about that diagnosis?

[Victoria'smom]

Has anyone suggested BPD to you before? No, I mentioned it to WV T and she kinda chuckled and told me I'm not getting out of my meds that easily. She never really said no though. When I left I was mood disorder NOS. WV never pushed AP's though until my last month there. I put myself on the prn full time on my cross country trip. I've been on an AP since. My first Pdoc/T here had me labeled as bipolar and PD nos. when I first moved here. PD nos was dropped when I brought up that it came up on my paper work.

How do you feel about that diagnosis? The I’m borderline, ptsd, depression with anxiety ? I feel that new T is just focusing on my control issues and self harm. It's hard to not be embarrassed to explain what I'm experiencing especially when she asks if I'm really telling her I'm hallucinating. I'm like "NOPE" and dropped it as fast as I could.

[~Christina]

I have known you on here for yearsss now.

My none Psychiarist opinion of course.

You have :

BP1 which is always agitated this can last weeks... you go from somewhat stable to bad in about 2 days. Then you crash into a ugly depression.

Borderline? Yes ... you react hard to family drama with husband , son, parents etc.

Panic / anxiety

Eating disorder

Self harm

Do I think DBT will help ?!!!! .. loud YES ! In fact I think DBT workbooks can help most anyone with BP..

Now all of the above doesn’t make you “non help able” It means you need to commit to follow through.

Take you meds no slipping or fooling with doses.

Force yourself to work hard with DBT

Use holding ice until it melts instead of actual cutting , trust me it works ( I haven’t cut in coming up on 5.5 years, I was a daily cutter)

Stop using headphones to check out , your family deserves you to be a active part of the family. Be present even when you don’t think you can.

Miguel needs you to actively help him with his MI issues and school work Set some time that you just spend with him one on one.

Also lastly ... your husband loves you or he would have left years ago. Show him he matters to you, maybe he feels you no longer care for him like in the past.

Go outside daily !!! You need the sun it will perk up your mood.

So yeah my non psychiatrist opinion.

[Victoria'smom]

So if the answer is both then I guess I'll have to get a workbook. I'm going to try to stay out of a group setting as long as I can. I'm not messing with my meds even though I really want too. I actually want to up my AP. I hate the feeling of bugs crawling out of my eyes.

I haven't cut since November but I think of different ways to hurt myself several times a day.

Stop using headphones to check out I'm working on this but it's really, really hard almost painful.

Miguel needs you to actively help him with his MI issues and school work Set some time that you just spend with him one on one. We're actually doing dishes together every night. We've had long talks at night. Real talks not through text. He likes someone so he's learning to deal with that. He's scared of what his future will look like because day to day is rough for him right now. I'm reminding him to take his meds. He's starting to take better care of himself but he's counting calories so it scares me. I don't know if this is the start of him being healthy or more than that. I guess we'll see. It really hasn't been that long on the anti-depressant to see effects. especially such drastic changes 2+ hours at the gym (we couldn't get him to walk over to the trash), on top of his work (getting 80+), watching what he eats and other stuff.

My husband is worried about me. I know he loves me and cares but I don't feel he does but he probably feels the same way. We have to find a cheap way to show I care. Words mean nothing right now but I still ask for reassurance every couple of hours.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So if the answer is both then I guess I'll have to get a workbook. I'm going to try to stay out of a group setting as long as I can. I'm not messing with my meds even though I really want too. I actually want to up my AP. I hate the feeling of bugs crawling out of my eyes.


I haven't cut since November but I think of different ways to hurt myself several times a day.


Stop using headphones to check out I'm working on this but it's really, really hard almost painful.


Miguel needs you to actively help him with his MI issues and school work Set some time that you just spend with him one on one. We're actually doing dishes together every night. We've had long talks at night. Real talks not through text. He likes someone so he's learning to deal with that. He's scared of what his future will look like because day to day is rough for him right now. I'm reminding him to take his meds. He's starting to take better care of himself but he's counting calories so it scares me. I don't know if this is the start of him being healthy or more than that. I guess we'll see. It really hasn't been that long on the anti-depressant to see effects. especially such drastic changes 2+ hours at the gym (we couldn't get him to walk over to the trash), on top of his work (getting 80+), watching what he eats and other stuff.


My husband is worried about me. I know he loves me and cares but I don't feel he does but he probably feels the same way. We have to find a cheap way to show I care. Words mean nothing right now but I still ask for reassurance every couple of hours.

Do a DBT group , it’s most effective that way.

I’m glad your making progress ! That’s wonderful

[Victoria'smom]

I think I'm going to ask T more about the DBT group.

[Pookyl]

I just wanted to second the effectiveness of the ice holding strategy. It worked better than anything else I’ve tried in the last few years. Alternatively popping your face into a bowl of icy water briefly also works.