[BPIIHBU]

So I went from pretty stable to hypomanic 2/2 then depressed shortly thereafter. It's been a bit more than a week of depression but I think it's starting to lift.

A couple of new things however: 1.) I've been having whole body restlessness for about as long as the drop into depression. Not sure if they actually started at the same time or not. It's been the heels when I'm driving but progressed to whole body at times. A weird tingley sensation that I can't sit still during and over the past couple of days I have had trouble getting words out at times when I feel it in my sternum/throat.
2.) Yesterday and (more so) this evening, I feel like people can tell that "I'm crazy." I went out this evening and I kept thinking "they know, they can tell." I dont think I'm actually doing anything outside my norm, but it just feels like everybody knows there's something wrong with my brain.

I'm working on getting a PCP right now and I was taking SAM-e for a few months, but stopped on Monday when it seemed to stop working. Not currently on any prescribed medications....any help, thoughts, similar experiences, suggestions are much appreciated, while I try and make it through waiting to get in with a PCP.

I hope you get to see a PCP soon. What you describe sounds awful.

[Gabyunbound]

I've actually also felt that all-over restlessness, not with tingling per se, but more of a feeling that bugs are crawling all over me, but inside... That's during hypomania, though, when it starts to go south after having been euphoric for a while.

I have also had that feeling that others can tell that "I'm crazy," that they're all looking at me weird, like they know. I definitely know that feeling, and it does appear to be paranoia. But this also only occurs when I'm hypo/manic.

So I haven't had these symptoms when depressed, like you, but I wonder if you're 'mixed' (but keep in mind, this state is VERY hard to pin down) given that you have both depressive and hyper feelings at the same time.

I hope you're able to see your PCP soon. Do you have a pdoc?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're struggling, BPIIHBU It sounds like you're going through a lot right now. Please don't give up. I agree with all the others. Talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you, even if you're not taking meds at the moment. I'm so sorry, it must be very hard for you. I hope things will get better soon for you. We care about you. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice to give to you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[AspiringAuthor]

The all-body restlessness sounds like akathisia. I am very familiar with that symptom if it is a side effect of drug and have experience successfully putting an end to it using antitode drugs Gabapentin and Atarax (either way), both very mild drugs with a benign side effects profile. Which drugs are you on that might be causing Akathisia to you? Akathisia is horrible!

[BPIIHBU]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

I've actually also felt that all-over restlessness, not with tingling per se, but more of a feeling that bugs are crawling all over me, but inside... That's during hypomania, though, when it starts to go south after having been euphoric for a while.

I have also had that feeling that others can tell that "I'm crazy," that they're all looking at me weird, like they know. I definitely know that feeling, and it does appear to be paranoia. But this also only occurs when I'm hypo/manic.

So I haven't had these symptoms when depressed, like you, but I wonder if you're 'mixed' (but keep in mind, this state is VERY hard to pin down) given that you have both depressive and hyper feelings at the same time.

I hope you're able to see your PCP soon. Do you have a pdoc?

Thank you! It helps me not panic knowing that someone else has had similar symptoms.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I have mixed episodes as well as rapid cycling No pdoc at the moment. I was doing really well with the SAM-e so me and my therapist didn't put any future appointments on the books, just an as needed follow up. It gets tricky trying to get in with her so I'm probably going to be waiting about the same amount of time to get in with her and a PCP. I know she's going to say to get in with a PCP or psychiatrist so I'm kind of leaning towards not scheduling anything with her at the moment.

[BPIIHBU]

Originally Posted by AspiringAuthor

The all-body restlessness sounds like akathisia. I am very familiar with that symptom if it is a side effect of drug and have experience successfully putting an end to it using antitode drugs Gabapentin and Atarax (either way), both very mild drugs with a benign side effects profile. Which drugs are you on that might be causing Akathisia to you? Akathisia is horrible!

I was taking SAM-e, but I stopped a few days ago. I hadn't had any similar symptoms before and I was on it for months.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

I havent had the physical feeling you are describing but I have definitely had the paranoia. It is always when mixed I feel like when I leave the house people can feel the bad energy, see the fidgeting and that I look as scary as the thoughts in my head.