[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone. I hope everyone is doing well today. I had a pretty good day; went to Sunday School and Church. Went out to lunch with M's parents and G and his wife. Came back home and got of bunch of things wrapped up in order to make the week go more smoothly.

I see the Cardio tomorrow for hopefully just a med refill first visit since he loosened my leash to month visits.

Getting ready for M's surgery day; has me a bit worried.

Hugs to everyone

Wander: Please stay I also enjoy your posts

[~Christina]

Ok the meds between psych and physical have always given me dry mouth but OMG today I have drank at least a gallon probably closer to a gallon and a half and I couldn’t spit to save my life.

Biotene is my best friend but it’s only lasting 15-20 mins at a time

I can’t do sugarless candy or gum , my teeth hurt enough as is.

Fml

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Ok the meds between psych and physical have always given me dry mouth but OMG today I have drank at least a gallon probably closer to a gallon and a half and I couldn’t spit to save my life.

Biotene is my best friend but it’s only lasting 15-20 mins at a time

I can’t do sugarless candy or gum , my teeth hurt enough as is.

Fml

I know that dry mouth feeling quite well; seems the moment I go to bed that feeling intensities. It's gotten to the point where I keep a bottle of water on the nightstand since I will all of a sudden wake up feeling like some serious cotton mouth.

[Unrigged64072835]

Ugh, I hate cotton mouth. And Biotene tastes like warm spit to me. Plus I can’t have any sour/citrus stuff due to acid reflux. So water it is.

[tecomsin]

So I posted basically the same message that I posted previous to this one that I had learned how to take world wide group conscience, or a private, secure, anonymous election based on an email list... I posted that message on another forum and not only was it withheld by the moderator, but now all of my posts onto that message board will be previewed before they are posted by a moderator for a month!

It really makes me appreciate the freedom we have just to be ourselves on psychforums. I feel like i am dealing with an idea police on the other board, which is a private fellowship board that is not public.

Glad you are staying, Wander.

I haven't had much to say lately. I'm doing well after one upswing day that I squashed with extra prn Seroquel. I have been procrastinating doing my French homework. I'm not sure why. I have motivation to do some other things.

I look forward to seeing my therapist tomorrow. I have plans to talk to her about my current steps forward and future ones.

[tecomsin]

On the private forum i was discussing, I was accused by one of the moderators of " trying to subvert a recovery meeting" as if she could read my mind. I posted something I was excited about and thought it related to the fellowship but brought it up in the wrong forum, as it turns out. Now this person is going to review all of my submissions for a month, but they obviously have a negative view of my intentions, so I don't see how i can post there, as anything i write can have the intentions behind it questioned and there is really no end to that.

Just checking in.. still around, I guess.

[GoldenSnitch]

I’m all hopped up on Ativan. Everything in my life is a fight. I’m fighting my condo association because I have no water pressure. I’m fighting my daughters school because she’s being harassed by another kid. I’m fighting my insurance company to approve my disability claim so that I get paid because I’m unable to work right now. I’m just so tired of it all.

[Wild Coyote]

A quick and a warm hello to all.

I have had great difficulty with dissociation for a few weeks now. I have been dissociated 90% of the time. This has made my depression worse.

I am trying a med named "Mirapex." It is used off label for both treatment resistant unipolar depression and with Bipolar depression. Some people can tolerate it, while some cannot. I am pushing the dosage upward rather quickly, as that is what my pdoc wants.

I read here often. I am having a lot of trouble typing due to a tremor from Wellbutrin. I have also, when dissociated, had severe difficulty in composing even a sentence or two.

Love to All!

[tecomsin]

Hey WC,

Nice to see you back posting. I hope you get relief soon.

I am looking up Mirapex right now. Maybe it is something that will help me too? I am on the high anhedonia scale, and this is an indication the depression may be treatment resistant and Mirapex may help it seems... There are other indications too... I am just starting to research Mirapex. Will probably continue in the morning when I am fresher.

I hope this medication gives you relief from your symptoms.

I got a new fitbit after my old one's battery died and I didn't use if for awhile. i am encouraged to take more steps and can track the different phases of my sleep as well as the pulse rate through the day. I am also getting myself a new down comforter and pillows to keep me warm on my sofa. My son is doing pretty well. We are waiting to find out on a job offer he might get soon. I am a little bit anxious about that but he is ok just going a long in his life.

Thanks for checking in and I hope we can all hear from you again soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by GoldenSnitch

I’m all hopped up on Ativan. Everything in my life is a fight. I’m fighting my condo association because I have no water pressure. I’m fighting my daughters school because she’s being harassed by another kid. I’m fighting my insurance company to approve my disability claim so that I get paid because I’m unable to work right now. I’m just so tired of it all.

You are in a very stressful position. Settling just one of these issues would be more than enough for me. I am sorry you have so much going on at once.

Please take good care of yourself.

WC

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi everyone, I am doing pretty well today. I feel good after getting ready for my week yesterday, doing the grocery shopping/laundry/preparing a meal and just resting. Also I think acupuncture helped as I started to feel better the day after. I just love those rare days where I feel like the gears in my brain and body are just aligned properly. I think, wow,is this what it is like to not stumble through a day fighting your thoughts, fighting to concentrate, struggling to do basic actions? It gives me hope to remember what this feels like.

Tonight I cooked again-gnocchi with kale, and a side of zucchini. I am apartment hunting since they are raising the prices and remodeling here I need to decide if it's worth it to stay. Might look for a bigger place. So, that's kind of stressful, kind of exciting. I live in a studio and wouldn't mind a tad bit more space so I can have people over. See my therapist again this week, I am now doing weekly appointments which I am looking forward to so hopefully I can make some real progress, especially since now we know about the OCD like thoughts. It might also mean that if I do have a mood disorder like bipolar she will be able to see because I am seeing her more often.

Sending compassion to everyone!

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by GoldenSnitch

I’m all hopped up on Ativan. Everything in my life is a fight. I’m fighting my condo association because I have no water pressure. I’m fighting my daughters school because she’s being harassed by another kid. I’m fighting my insurance company to approve my disability claim so that I get paid because I’m unable to work right now. I’m just so tired of it all.

That sounds like a lot to deal with, I am glad your daughter has a great parent like you looking out for her. I hope you get a break from it all very soon

[Sunflower123]

I’m having a good day today. I was trying to get my mom to her MRI on time and was an hour and a half late because a connecting bridge right at the 75-24 split collapsed. That’s a major thoroughfare and traffic is snarled all over town. No one was hurt, thank goodness, but it will be one heck of a headache for weeks or months to come. Just SMH. Our infrastructure could use a little help preferably before somebody gets killed.

I woke up feeling productive and motivated yesterday and knocked out several items on my to do list. Woke up motivated again today. it’s nice. I don’t know if I mentioned it but when my pdoc put me on Trintellix over the winter, I started rapid cycling multiple times a day. I didn’t know what was going on. I’ve been off it for about two weeks now and I’ve been in an increasingly good mood.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m having a good day today. I was trying to get my mom to her MRI on time and was an hour and a half late because a connecting bridge right at the 75-24 split collapsed. That’s a major thoroughfare and traffic is snarled all over town. No one was hurt, thank goodness, but it will be one heck of a headache for weeks or months to come. Just SMH. Our infrastructure could use a little help preferably before somebody gets killed.


I woke up feeling productive and motivated yesterday and knocked out several items on my to do list. Woke up motivated again today. it’s nice. I don’t know if I mentioned it but when my pdoc put me on Trintellix over the winter, I started rapid cycling multiple times a day. I didn’t know what was going on. I’ve been off it for about two weeks now and I’ve been in an increasingly good mood.


Warm wishes and hugs to all.

That mess on 75/24 collapse... I just heard about on my news ....likely be a long time to fix. Ugh I don’t live close to there and it doesn’t effect me , but it will for millions

I always enjoy days when everything lines up !!! It’s nice to get things done without have a loud head.

Glad your feeling better

[~Christina]

Well my severe dry mouth is just as bad today. I have already drank a gallon and still going.

I lugged my water with me to my rheumatologist appt and had to drink water twice while I was talking to the doctor, he said it’s great to stay hydrated yeah but this is outrageous.

Got a lot of things done over the weekend , need to find a new vanity for a bathroom, saw a ok one at Home Depot but I want to check at Lowe’s also. We also are putting new flooring down on the bathroom. Once that’s done the only other thing we need to update is our bathroom and then it’s all done.

Vacation in 14 days

[LadyShadow]

Much more stable than I have been in a long time. Enjoying being back here after being gone so long. Today I cleaned out my desk and some drawers and my entertainment center. I enjoyed good music and some incense. I also applied to a bunch of part-time jobs - I had a call with a case worker who said some promising things about the Ticket-To-Work Program. So happy to start getting my life in order!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I finally opened the box with my father's ashes. I needed a form that was in there. I didn't pull the box with the ashes out and just got a look that it is solid black plastic. He's resting now in my basement on my tool shelf. He liked tools so I think he would be happy there (and my house is too small to have another really good place).

The death certificate has about 8 causes of death, many of them things that would have killed him one at a time much less all at once.

Next is paperwork for his burial benefits.

[tecomsin]

Well my son got a job offer that he was expecting. I will see how much he negotiates with them. I am very excited and kind of nervous.

[PeterPandora]

Emotionally charged to say the least. You did extremely well holding yourself together. Even the fondest of memories can undo someone on the best of days. Hugs xx

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I finally opened the box with my father's ashes. I needed a form that was in there. I didn't pull the box with the ashes out and just got a look that it is solid black plastic. He's resting now in my basement on my tool shelf. He liked tools so I think he would be happy there (and my house is too small to have another really good place).

The death certificate has about 8 causes of death, many of them things that would have killed him one at a time much less all at once.

Next is paperwork for his burial benefits.

[Nammu]

Hello Peter, welcome to the bipoar forum

[PeterPandora]

Hi, been a few years since I've been here under was other user name, but I'm not that person anymore. Came back because it's time to be amidst friends and interchange with those who understand. I just lost my therapist after years and years and I don't know where to turn.

Thank you for the kind welcome.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Having a meltdown. 4 weeks from my father's death and the tears finally started. I wanted to do this my therapist but apparently I just needed to listen to my father's favorite music and I'm verging on a panic attack. I guess I need to play youtube music in therapy? (OK, opening the box with the ashes had a role but I've melted into a sobbing mess and having to focus on breathing for whatever reason). I put my father in my garage.....how weird is that?????