[gina_re]

The days are running together. I want to sleep the day away. I can't get myself to be productive. I know this is situational though. I just wish I can fast forward to when this is over with.

It was a beautiful day here and i got some errands and shopping done. Now we're headed into trois jours du pluie (if you like my French -- it means three days of rain). Beaucoup du pluie.

[Unrigged64072835]

Thunder is rolling along this morning. Not in the forecast.

Saw pnurse yesterday. She upped my Trileptal and restarted Lunesta to get my sleep back under control. Today I feel awful emotionally but at least I slept okay. Tonight will be the clincher.

I’m almost finished with sewing a pair of shorts, and will start another top soon. I’m going to keep working on this for a while. Hopefully make it a way of life because ready to wear clothes don’t fit anymore. I have lots of patterns—that’s actually the inexpensive part.

May have to move daughter out of her apartment Friday. Roommate is not paying rent. She’s co-signed on the lease, so she’ll be on the hook until July. She’s staying with her current boyfriend and she’s happy there.

[Wander]

Beautiful weather today before a storm and major drop in temperature tomorrow. Slept about 5 hours even with a lot of meds. So nauseous. I have trouble eating as I don’t feel hungry, and when I do eat my stomach feels worse. On the plus side I may lose weight.

Texted T and he suggested usual anxiety management skills. Later he suggested benzodiazepines. They help but only in large amounts so not really sustainable. I guess I will just have to use my skills and tough it out.

Saw a close friend for coffee this afternoon. We haven’t caught up in ages. It was wonderful. I rarely see friends, and have so few. We’ve known each other 23 years.

Mentally I’m ok but I get very stressed very easily. Then I dissociate and stare, and lose time. I’m used to having bad PTSD from years ago but this is a more physical monster. The panic attacks are bad. Even though the Bipolar is stable I’m worried I’m going to lose it under all this pressure.

Originally Posted by whatever2013

It was a beautiful day here and i got some errands and shopping done. Now we're headed into trois jours du pluie (if you like my French -- it means three days of rain). Beaucoup du pluie.

J'aime le mot "pluie". Je pense que c'est un joli mot. Le mot "rain" en anglais est dur. Je suis curieux de savoir pourquoi certaines langues semblent plus severes que d’autres.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

J'aime le mot "pluie". Je pense que c'est un joli mot. Le mot "rain" en anglais est dur. Je suis curieux de savoir pourquoi certaines langues semblent plus severes que d’autres.

There are parallels in English with pluie. Pluviophile means someone who loves the rain. (I am a pluviophile.)

Thank you, Caesar, for bringing the Romance languages to Britain.

[hopeless2015]

Took my ****ing seroquel this am by mistake. What a dumb *** move. As soon as I swallowed it I was like ****!!At work about to crash. Time to take my break and go walk a bit, might help.

Hugs to all

[Blue_Bird]

I have appointments today and am nervous, not sure why

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Took my ****ing seroquel this am by mistake. What a dumb *** move. As soon as I swallowed it I was like ****!!At work about to crash. Time to take my break and go walk a bit, might help.

Hugs to all

That's not good I don't leave the house after I take mine because it's almost like I'm drunk after taking it, guess that's why it's a night med hope the walk helps wake you up a bit

[Moose72]

The colonoscopy went very well. Everything went better than anticipated- got there early, found the place, got a good parking spot. My prep went perfectly . The procedures both went well. Just one small polyp which they removed. Revovery was fine- i was a little wobbly at first. On the way home, my mom took me to Red Robin first real food in days.

I have tomorrow off because it’s Good Friday (I think the holiday is Good Friday? It’s called Spring Holiday here). I get to relax for once.

Hope everyone has a good weekend. My mom and I are going out to Indian food tomorrow, and then I’m getting my (much needed) haircut.

I’m also getting some exciting packages in the mail tomorrow, so that should be fun. I love getting packages in the mail.

At least I’m not feeling as depressed as before, so that’s a good thing.

Who knows what is with me, but I am suddenly trying to convince my husband to go to France in the autumn (September/October) for a week and half or so. He's receptive, as usual, since he is obsessed with vacations and really pushing the France move. We may fly into Barcelona, Spain since that city is much closer to the part of France we're interested in than Paris is. I've never been to Barcelona. I'm not sure if my husband has. We've both been to Paris many times. Flights seem cheaper to Barcelona than they are to Nice, France. We've both been to Nice at least a couple of times, too.

I am totally unprepared for my French class tomorrow. I'm leaving the homework/study to the very last minute.

[Scooter9]

Today was only a little better than yesterday.

I checked my score on the phq-9 questionnaire - it measures how depressed you are. I scored 19 out of 27. It's considered to be really reliable.

My wife doesn't understand how I can be functional yet feel so horrible. So she says things like walk faster, don't speak so slowly, smile more. I'm trying.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow - I don't have to get up early and can have coffee in bed. Plus they said I can work from home on Monday.

[~Christina]

Last day of vacation, it has flown by so fast

But .... omg what fun we have had. Savannah is a beautiful city. The history is fantastic , things going back to George Washington visiting and giving gifts to the city. 3 fires raged through the city yet homes survived. The homes are gorgeous and all the antiques that have survived for hundreds of years , the paintings. I could go on and on , but I will save you all lol

We have eaten delicious food the entire time. And local candies. We are stuffed but wanting a milkshake later lol .. Any weight I lost since quitting Latuda is back LOL

Our bodies are beaten due to all the walking , there are over 20 squares to investigate. We did them all , rode Trollys a lot. Our bodies are not in great shape anyway. Good news my husband didn’t need oxygen first day so we left it home yesterday. Few times we just sat at a square and rested til he caught his breath.

The weather here has be PERFECT!

We are taking a drive to Tybee Island tomorrow before we head home.

I found the most funky purse. There is a very amazing art school here and I always buy something handmade when I visit.

Anyone that has never thought to make a trip here should go one day it’s amazing !!!!

Watch the movie “ in the garden of good and evil “ its based off a murder in Savannah. We visited the house the murder happened in , and the room the shooting took place.

I’m dead tired but it’s all worth it. Will take a few weeks to recover. But it’s all good.

Hope everyone is doing well

[Wander]

Perfect rainy morning. We haven’t had rain like this for many months. Dry summer. Sitting in my parents alfresco, keeping warm and listening to great music with my partner.

Still nauseous. Barely eating and when I do I feel worse. Leg improving though so not all bad. Will be cleaning my parents house as they return tomorrow and we are leaving today. It has been a wonderful five day holiday.

This will be the first Easter in ten years or more that i haven't been hypomanic. I'm usually having a great time by now but Spring has been so late i've still got my Winter depression. I got my dog in to the vet to have her nails trimmed. A kindly neighbor drove us. The snow is all gone but we're facing a wet holiday weekend, as so many have posted. Holidays are hard for me because i'm on my own. Hopefully i'll get thru it in one piece.

[gina_re]

Today was a good day. I had two phone "interviews." They both went well, but one better than the other because I have an in person interview next week. But idk if I even want the job. She went over the benefits with me and they are horrible! Over $100/paycheck for health insurance. Only eight days of vacation per year and six holidays. Lower pay than I anticipated...But I'm so desperate for a job so that I can keep my house that I probably would take it anyway and continue to look for something else.
At any rate, I went to my sister's house today, so anytime I get to see my boys and my little girl is a good day for me. We went to the laundromat, so we walked around the shopping center so I got in some exercise, but then I had red vines and a coke so that ruined the little effort I put in today. On the way back home there was a car driving without it's lights on and that irks me so bad. It just had on it's daytime running lights, and when I see that I feel the need to notify them somehow otherwise it causes me great anxiety. But we were on the highway so I couldn't do anything. I was annoyed and freaked out until I got off at my exit.
Overall, a better day than I've been having, but still nothing to be super happy about.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling good after some anxiety earlier. Been cleaning house all day getting ready to host Easter and celebrate my brother’s birthday at the same time and for my daughter coming home. Mom suggested at the last minute that we go out to eat Saturday to celebrate and then just go to church for Easter since my daughter is in a wedding on Easter. Works for me! I don’t have to cook! A little unorthodox but I’ll take it!

Getting back into the swing of things. Going back to bible study, the drum circle and movie nights. I think that will do me a world of good. I’ve been fighting against isolating myself again.

Mom gets her cast off 5/6 and I’ve been praying that we can get back to normal finally. Florida comes up the first weeks of June and we’re running out of time. It’s been a long saga (since NYE).

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Today was a good day. I had two phone "interviews." They both went well, but one better than the other because I have an in person interview next week. But idk if I even want the job. She went over the benefits with me and they are horrible! Over $100/paycheck for health insurance. Only eight days of vacation per year and six holidays. Lower pay than I anticipated...But I'm so desperate for a job so that I can keep my house that I probably would take it anyway and continue to look for something else.

At any rate, I went to my sister's house today, so anytime I get to see my boys and my little girl is a good day for me. We went to the laundromat, so we walked around the shopping center so I got in some exercise, but then I had red vines and a coke so that ruined the little effort I put in today. On the way back home there was a car driving without it's lights on and that irks me so bad. It just had on it's daytime running lights, and when I see that I feel the need to notify them somehow otherwise it causes me great anxiety. But we were on the highway so I couldn't do anything. I was annoyed and freaked out until I got off at my exit.

Overall, a better day than I've been having, but still nothing to be super happy about.

That job situation is tough. It’s good to be able to get a job but you want to make sure you’re being compensated fairly. Good luck and keep us posted.

[GoldenSnitch]

With the higher doses of meds and the nice weather finally coming I’m starting to feel some relief from the episode I was in. I felt happy the other day being outside with my daughter and it’s the first time in months that I could say I felt happy without being hypomanic.

I have yet to do my French homework/studying and my French class is this afternoon. I put the studying on my calendar for 10:45 am.

Part of the issue with my French class and studies is that private classes are not ideal for me right now, but they are all I can find during the daytime. I'd prefer group classes. I wouldn't have to be "on" every second and I'd enjoy being around other students. Also, I don't feel that comfortable with my private instructor. I don't think that issue would be as major if others were in the class. The group classes, at an official French school, are not offered during the daytime, nor in the summer. They start again in September. I will perhaps go to that school then. Perhaps evening classes will be fine by then.

I know that another issue pertaining to my French studies is that I'm scared of moving to France.

[bizi]

regina, glad that you had 2 phone interviews! that is great, I hope one of them works out for you!
Have been obsessing over my weight loss. It is hard being alcohol free for lent. Don't know what I will do come easter maybe drink easter then go back to AF?
bizi

Just paid off my Mass. Eye and Ear charges. $467, which is slightly more than I thought previously. No bill yet for my surgery, but I'm dreading it.

For everything the dr did during my surgery, I looked up the costs. Ranges anywhere from about $3000 to $15,000 in total w/o insurance. But I'm guessing the cost will be on the upper end of the spectrum because I picked a top surgeon in the U.S.. I hope insurance covers all of it, or at least most of it... But having complete nasal obstruction, "stuffy" ears, and difficulties breathing while sleeping made me miserable.

Anyway, heading over to my parents' house for Easter. None of us are religious, but we all have easter break, so it's a good time for a get-together with our family.

I hope everyone else has a good easter weekend.

[Moose72]

N3 just got picked up by his dad for a Good Friday church service- they are singing in a special choir.

I need to ride my bike today - I just HAVE to! But its rainy and 45. Blech! I also "HAVE TO!" clean my apartment. How can I get both done? I guess small goals. I want it all done NOW!

[wildflowerchild25]

**** I’m depressed. I was depressed yesterday because of my weight and today is more of the same.although it’s more actual depression today. I don’t know if my hormones are ****ing with me because today is the first day of my period. I don’t know. I do know that I don’t feel like doing **** today. But I told my son I’d take him to a movie so that’s what we’re doing. RS is coming over later so that will probably cheer me up. I also have to take my son to get his iPad fixed. Uuuugh so much interacting with people. Blech.

I hope I feel better soon. I hate being depressed.