So I asked my pdoc about my dx today as opposed to last appointment where I inferred it from him saying "weed is bad for schizophrenia" and he said it's schizoaffective bipolar type. I surprisingly feel a little better, I thought that it was all BS. My mom's home with me today and it's helping the paranoia just to be around someone I trust a lot im really grateful for her.

[hopeless2015]

Chugging along ok. I was in my own head pretty bad over the weekend.

Yesterday was Administrative Professionals day and our office splurged for us to go to an all day event. It was a very nice change of pace, enjoyed the day. Back to the grind today.

Hugs to all

[~Christina]

Oh Birddancer I’m so sorry to hear about your dad, I hope he can regain his strength and breathing.

Remember while struggling with this make sure you take care of yourself also.

Gentle hugs

[~Christina]

Happy Birthday Wander

[~Christina]

I made a thread “ Lamictal” that’s where my head is and what I am planning.

I don’t want to post it all here too and clog up this check in thread.

Hugs and cookies to all.

[Daonnachd]

All the best to you and your dad, BirdDancer. A happy birthday to you, Wander.
Tomorrow I have ECT. I hope it helps me to feel better. This hasn't been a good month.

[bpforever1]

I am doing well for once. I am continuing with my shots of Maintena. They seem to work well. After six months of hell, I feel as if I turned a new leaf and feel revitalized again. I am cleaning my apartment and doing much self-care. I am happy. I am hoping if my situation keeps humming along, I will search for jobs again. I have to work unfortunately. I don't mind though but am getting quite old.I will see what is out there.

[LadyShadow]

Had an up and down day. I am having real bad anxiety waiting for this potential job to call me. I ended up crying.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Had an up and down day. I am having real bad anxiety waiting for this potential job to call me. I ended up crying.

I hope you get a call soon

Can you try some distractions to get to through the hurry up and wait, I know it’s so frustrated

[Wander]

Thinking of you and your family BirdDancer. It must be an awful time.

Still around I guess. Just wanted to check in.

[Wander]

Well my Birthday is over. I did see my family and went for a swim in the ocean. Spent the rest of the day alone but that was ok. I think I irritated my sore hip so I am going to take it easy today and hopefully get back to my recovery program tomorrow which is 30 minutes of exercise and some Physio exercises twice a day. I shouldn't of swam yesterday as I am only supposed to exercise every second day. I felt it was a birthday present. Stupid me.

My mood has been flat for a few days but not depressed. I am hoping it will lift again soon as I cannot afford another episode as once my hip is healed I am hoping to get back to work. The birds are chirping, well yelling. Do you have cockatoos in the US? They are very loud and come in huge flocks. Despite that I am happy to hear some nature outside.

[gina_re]

Another good day. I went to my Buddhist meeting this afternoon, then I stopped by home depot and went to my sister's house with my purchase. I hung out there for a few hours with my nephews and niece which is always my favorite thing to do. Headed home and stopped at walmart for a few more items. So I was productive today. No complaints. Well, I really need to get on the ball about applying for jobs. I haven't been job hunting that much this week. I'm hoping I hear back from that interview I had the other day, but nothing is promised so I have to keep looking. This is so annoying.

Can't watch, read, listen, play or move. Fell off my third diet this year. Just can't diet while on APs. Starting my Seroquel taper today. No more APs!

[yellow_fleurs]

I ended up getting sick throughout the day yesterday with chills and a sore throat, slept 12 hours last night and am feeling better though still a bit off today. I was scheduled to work from home today so that's good, as I would otherwise have called out. I had a rheumatologist appointment yesterday and they are running a bunch of labs and an x-ray of my lower back. I have symptoms that could match up with different autoimmune diseases, but I seem to check off a lot of the boxes for Lupus. Thing is a lot of this also began around the time I had Lyme disease so we'll see. I had these tests before and it all came back negative. Wishing everyone all the best.

Originally Posted by Wander

The birds are chirping, well yelling. Do you have cockatoos in the US? They are very loud and come in huge flocks. Despite that I am happy to hear some nature outside.

Not where I live anyway, but I ran off straight away to look them up, lol (gotta love the internet). They sound pretty squawky! I can imagine a large flock would be.... interesting. Completely different bird, but around here probably the squawkiest bird would be a crow. They're pretty unpopular, but I like them. I think their roosting behavior is pretty interesting, and like watching them fly towards it in the evenings.

No real report. Things are alright. Did a tiny re-arrange in my room last night. Made my project area better.

Oh, and waking up after only a few hours. Woke up at 1:30 am today. Might have caught bits of intermittent sleep after that. Not sure though. Got up at 6. Might as well get on it, eh?

[Moose72]

Edited:

I'll just add this:

Geeze! Why am I not Dead Yet?

[wildflowerchild25]

I got my tattoo! It’s the deathly hallows symbol and a quote. “Of course it’s happening inside your head, but why on earth should that mean it is not real?” That quote has always resonated with me because I’ve often thought I’m just making things up with my BP. But even though it’s happening inside my head, it surely is real!

I’m going out to lunch today with my SIL and MIL. Something to do instead of sitting in the house all day! I also have a phone interview on Monday for one of the summer camps I applied to. It seems like an awesome camp. It’s an environmental camp on a huge farm, so they do things like go hiking and wade in the creek and stuff like that. Sounds awesome. I hope they like me. I would prefer to work with the older kids, but unfortunately they go on a four day camping trip and I wouldn’t be able to do that with my son. Wouldn’t have anyone to watch him for four days. RS could do it but he wouldn’t be able to get him to camp on time. I dunno maybe I could work it out that he stays with my mom for that week. I’m not sure.

RS and I crunched some number last night and we can afford a place if we budget tightly the problem is his credit card debt. He’s got like 13,000 in debt. But we could make it work. We’d just have to budget accordingly. We put in to view two houses. One of them may not have laundry on site so that’s a big fat NO. **** that I am not going to the laundromat ever again lol. That was some ********. But I’m really excited. I hope we can view the houses soon.

I went to PT today and realized how much stronger I am since my surgery six weeks ago. I’m still weaker than I’d like to be but I’m stronger than I thought. The numbness and tingling is almost gone. Now I just have the foot drop to work on. Im so relieved.

I hope everyone has a nice day and a nice weekend!

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. I walked this morning, then I went out with my mother. We bought lunch boxes. I ate chicken and rice with vegetables. I also drank tea. I am full now. I am happy.


Tomorrow I will go out with my brother if possible.


I am happy still.

[Blue_Bird]

I got two hours of sleep last night and feel like crap because of it so I'm just trying to waste time till at least 7:30 or 8pm when I can take my night meds and try to sleep

I accomplished nothing at work today. I’m not even exaggerating. I needed to get access to a computer and I didn’t get that access until 3pm, having been at work since 6am. So by the time 3pm rolled around, my work day was over. Did nothing except reread things to make it appear as if I was working.

Now I’m tired, but also bored. I’d like to sleep to kill two birds with one stone, but it’s not even 7pm yet... If I stay up, what am I going to do if I’m bored as hell? To help with tomorrow’s inevitable boredom, I ordered some things online that will come in the mail tomorrow via free 1-day Prime shipping.

Mood is ok otherwise. I hope everyone had a good day.

[Sunflower123]

I am doing well today. I seem to do better when I keep busy doing things out of the house. I’ll strive to do more of that. Mom seemed down so I took her out on errands on this beautiful day. She’s much better. Got my dog out of the kennel...missed him...even waking me at 2-4 in the morning.

Warm wishes for everyone to have a peaceful weekend.

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I got my tattoo! It’s the deathly hallows symbol and a quote. “Of course it’s happening inside your head, but why on earth should that mean it is not real?” That quote has always resonated with me because I’ve often thought I’m just making things up with my BP. But even though it’s happening inside my head, it surely is real!


I’m going out to lunch today with my SIL and MIL. Something to do instead of sitting in the house all day! I also have a phone interview on Monday for one of the summer camps I applied to. It seems like an awesome camp. It’s an environmental camp on a huge farm, so they do things like go hiking and wade in the creek and stuff like that. Sounds awesome. I hope they like me. I would prefer to work with the older kids, but unfortunately they go on a four day camping trip and I wouldn’t be able to do that with my son. Wouldn’t have anyone to watch him for four days. RS could do it but he wouldn’t be able to get him to camp on time. I dunno maybe I could work it out that he stays with my mom for that week. I’m not sure.


RS and I crunched some number last night and we can afford a place if we budget tightly the problem is his credit card debt. He’s got like 13,000 in debt. But we could make it work. We’d just have to budget accordingly. We put in to view two houses. One of them may not have laundry on site so that’s a big fat NO. **** that I am not going to the laundromat ever again lol. That was some ********. But I’m really excited. I hope we can view the houses soon.


I went to PT today and realized how much stronger I am since my surgery six weeks ago. I’m still weaker than I’d like to be but I’m stronger than I thought. The numbness and tingling is almost gone. Now I just have the foot drop to work on. Im so relieved.


I hope everyone has a nice day and a nice weekend!

I love your tattoo idea!!! Can you share pics? It sounds amazing. I love the meaning behind it too.

Enjoy your weekend!

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by bpforever1

I'm doing well. I walked this morning, then I went out with my mother. We bought lunch boxes. I ate chicken and rice with vegetables. I also drank tea. I am full now. I am happy.


Tomorrow I will go out with my brother if possible.


I am happy still.

Glad to hear that you are happy

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I got two hours of sleep last night and feel like crap because of it so I'm just trying to waste time till at least 7:30 or 8pm when I can take my night meds and try to sleep

Sorry blue_bird. That really sucks. I hope you get a better sleep tonight.