Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hello all; hey look two updates in a row; it's a new record. All joking aside I hope everyone is doing well.

Today I got my nieces for a little get together; we went to Michael's and Joann's and got supplies to decorate my graduation cap. That was actually fun to do with them; my grad cap is really pretty and will look awesome in all the pictures. Plus decorating it made it feel more real if that makes any sense; plus it will give me the motivation to finish out this semester with a high note.

In a little less than two weeks: I will have my Bachelor's Degree which is getting me very excited.

Tomorrow is Sunday School and Church day; and then Monday is the first day back to work.

Day two of just an antidepressant and I seem to be doing okay. I slept okay last night without my Seroquel and just Melatonin. I mean I did have a nightmare but I do get them on occasion; so really no big thing.

Hugs to everyone

I'm glad you're doing ok on your antidepressant.

Also, congrats on graduating! What's your B.S. in? Two weeks will fly by before you know it.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I am exhausted! I went to the flower show today with RS and his parents. I walked around for about an hour and a half and boy are my legs tired! I even took a nap when I got home and damn I’m still super tired. I feel bad for how messy it is In here but I’m going to have to be nice to myself and give myself a pass for today.

I am desperately trying to quit smoking but I keep ****ing buying cigarettes. I keep coming up with excuses. I’m going to try hard to make sure this is my last pack. My son figures it out right away. I am waiting for the day RS smells it on me. That’s going to start a fight. I don’t want to fight. We’ve never fought. I’m such a **** up. Seriously. I want to quit so badly.

Ugh. I wish I had willpower.

Sorry you're struggling. Are you on anything like the patch to stop smoking? Or something like contrave? If you are, then I hope you're able to find something else that works for you. I know it must be difficult. My grandparents had difficulty quitting, too, when they were alive.

[Blue_Bird]

I slept good last night. I always have a hard time making myself sleep because I have so much I want to do and don't want the day to end, plus I have a lot of anxiety related to sleeping. I made myself go to bed though because I know I'm a mess without sleep

Our neighbor and we are having a big yard sale today. The weather looks bad. Our neighbor didn't want to start the sale until 9 am, which we think is rather late. My husband and I may just get stuff out by 8 am. If it starts to rain, we'll reschedule to next weekend, but our neighbor won't. She's moving, and plans to only show stuff in her garage and living room. That's not an appropriate thing for us to do.

[Scooter9]

I hurt my back on Saturday. I was lifting something when it happened. I can walk but I have to be careful how I sit and get up.

No idea if I can carry my stuff for work. At least I have the option of working from home if I can't get out. I'll see how it goes today.

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I slept good last night. I always have a hard time making myself sleep because I have so much I want to do and don't want the day to end, plus I have a lot of anxiety related to sleeping. I made myself go to bed though because I know I'm a mess without sleep

I have anxiety related to sleeping as well; it sucks. Sometimes it's paranoia, though.

I know what you mean about not wanting the day to end. Sometimes it feels like there aren't enough hours in a day.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Our neighbor and we are having a big yard sale today. The weather looks bad. Our neighbor didn't want to start the sale until 9 am, which we think is rather late. My husband and I may just get stuff out by 8 am. If it starts to rain, we'll reschedule to next weekend, but our neighbor won't. She's moving, and plans to only show stuff in her garage and living room. That's not an appropriate thing for us to do.

Yeah, I don't blame you for thinking it's inappropriate. I would feel the same way.

Hopefully your yard sale goes well. I have a lot of stuff myself that I need to get rid of, but I'll probably end up donating it since yard sale isn't an option. At least I can get money off on my taxes...

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I hurt my back on Saturday. I was lifting something when it happened. I can walk but I have to be careful how I sit and get up.

No idea if I can carry my stuff for work. At least I have the option of working from home if I can't get out. I'll see how it goes today.

Sorry to hear you hurt your back. Hopefully you can get back to work soon.

I have the option of working from home as well. It's a really nice perk when you're in a bad mood, hurt yourself, have dr appts, etc.. It's truly invaluable.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I went out to a mall to try and distract myself from my depression. Near me in the foodcourt was a little girl with a hairband with a unicorn horn on it. She had a unicorn purse as well. What a little darling! Otherwise the trip was lousy and i feel miserable. It'll be four more weeks til the Lamictal is at a therapeutic level. I guess i just have to hold on til then, tho i've heard bad things about Lamictal in these parts.

I have to say, once I got lamictal up to 100mg it was like night and day for my depression. I was IP when they did it and within five days the depression and paranoia was gone. It was really great. I hope it works the same for you.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Day 3 at home and I feel so sad and overwhelmed. My last 2 days went well so im frustrated that I feel this way again. I am busy reminding myself that I am not my thoughts and emotions but they are so strong.

I hate wanting to die, wanting to give up, wanting to lay in bed until something happens no matter how bad that thing could be. 10hrs sleep and Im still just exhausted.

Have plans to take the kids to the farm for supper later so at least I cant lay in bed all day.

I just wanted this time to go well. I need it to go well but so far it is a struggle and I havent even made any decisions that I need to. I want to get off the roller coaster

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I went out to a mall to try and distract myself from my depression. Near me in the foodcourt was a little girl with a hairband with a unicorn horn on it. She had a unicorn purse as well. What a little darling! Otherwise the trip was lousy and i feel miserable. It'll be four more weeks til the Lamictal is at a therapeutic level. I guess i just have to hold on til then, tho i've heard bad things about Lamictal in these parts.

Lamictal was a pain while titrating but once I hit the theraputic dose my depression went away very quickly. It worked really well for me.

Only suggestion I have for you is to request a liver function test about once a year. It's a blood test your doctor can do. There's a known reaction with Lamictal that affects your liver and you might not be aware it's happening. It happened to me after years of taking it.

Hang in there.

[lightly toasted]

I slept! ha ha, sorry, sleeping for me is quite a rarity - it's a bit like Santa Claus having been in the night.

I took the 50 mg dose of Seroquel , not the 100 mg, and what a huge difference. I hope everyone's Sunday/Monday is at least bearable.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

Day 3 at home and I feel so sad and overwhelmed. My last 2 days went well so im frustrated that I feel this way again. I am busy reminding myself that I am not my thoughts and emotions but they are so strong.

I hate wanting to die, wanting to give up, wanting to lay in bed until something happens no matter how bad that thing could be. 10hrs sleep and Im still just exhausted.

Have plans to take the kids to the farm for supper later so at least I cant lay in bed all day.

I just wanted this time to go well. I need it to go well but so far it is a struggle and I havent even made any decisions that I need to. I want to get off the roller coaster

It can be very hard to adjust to home after an IP stay, especially a long one. My last ip stay I was very fragile after I got home. Be easy on yourself and try not to let depression beat you. Use your CBT and distress tolerance skills.

[Moose72]

Beep. Boop. Yup. Uh huh..... I am one with the universe and I know all the answers! Suck on THAT Einstein!

[yellow_fleurs]

Spent a lot of time with friends the past couple day and I must say it's been good for my mental health. Also got a decent amount of sun, always good for my mood. Worked on starting the garden, including some planting. I still feel like things are a bit "clumsy" in my brain so to speak. I think I might see a neurologist or at least discuss with my rheumatologist. Of course psychiatric issues affect us mentally, but I wonder how much of my issues are related to whatever else is affecting me.
Anxious about the next week at work in general. I don't feel like I am functioning to my potential there and it's bothering me.

I see a few people are going through some changes with meds or other treatment and I am wishing everyone the best, and to please stay safe. Also sending compassion to those struggling.

I'm spent. My hopes for my father returning to the psych hospital from the general hospital are squashed. My siblings took him home last night. I believe we've either been told lies by him, or he's not been thinking clearly. We are all now wondering if he has developing dementia, worsening psychiatric issues, or both. His behavior has grown increasingly strange and he seems to be telling lies, some of which I wonder if he even sees as lies.

I told my sister that I am unable to handle this continuing stress and that I must rely on them to take on all of the responsibilities for these issues. I feel bad doing that, but they understand.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’ve been sleeping most of the day. Feeling kind of down. Finally up to go grocery shopping. Really don’t want to but I need ingredients for tonight’s dinner. If I were smart I’d plan dinner for the rest of the week too but that’s too much.

RS is going away on a week long vacation next week and I’m sad. I can’t believe I won’t see him for a whole week. I know it’ll be fine obviously we don’t have to be with each other 24/7 but I will miss him. Especially because I’ve gotten used to seeing him 4x a week. He wanted me to go but obviously I can’t take off work, I’m going back for the first time in two months on Wednesday.

I have two cigarettes left. I’m really going to try to make them my last two cigarettes. I’m tired of hiding from RS. It’s awful I don’t want to lie to him anymore. Lie by omission.

Oh well I hope I feel a bit better tomorrow.

Heard back from one of the potential jobs. Didn't get it. That was the one with the better interview. Oh well, I was having some doubts anyway. I don't feel confident at all about the other place. I'm kind of rusty at that kind of work, and it showed in the interview. It was kind of a weird interview. But we'll see. Sounded like he had only one other person to interview(!), but maybe I misunderstood. Lol, even THAT doesn't bring on any confidence(!)

At work. On "lunch". Tired. Spent yesterday drawing. One was good, the other I stopped midway. Just wasn't getting the eyes right. (Haha, it's easy to draw people generically, not so easy a particular person.) But I'll forge ahead and do more drawings. The ones not turning out I have been kind of impatient with myself about, but I'm trying to lighten up. Had about a 35 year span of not doing it. Lol, I should be glad of the ones that DO turn out the way they should right? That's the psychologically best way to approach it. I'm trying.

I'm blabbering 'cause I'm bored...

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm glad you're doing ok on your antidepressant.

Also, congrats on graduating! What's your B.S. in? Two weeks will fly by before you know it.

Thank you; I seem to be doing just fine with just an antidepressant at the moment; granted today is only day three; but so far my thoughts are very even; I feel energetic but not like hypo energetic; and so far not one side effect has reared it's ugly head.

I am getting my B.S. in Healthcare Administration and then come fall; I will be working towards a MHA.

How are you doing bluebicyle?

[TheSeaCat]

Hi all; I hope everyone is doing well today. Hey look three updates in a row; it is totally a new record for me; at least as of late.

Today was Sunday School and Church and lunch with M's parents and some of our close friends; and then we had dinner with my parents which was really nice.

I really seem to be doing okay with just being on a depressant medication. So far no side effects and I am feeling good on it.

I go back to work tomorrow and to be quite honest I have been ready to go back for about a week now.

It feels like I have so much to do with so little time to do it in.

Hugs to everyone

[Amethyst_Stargazer]

I slept good last night which was great. I've been using ambient music to help me sleep from keeping my mind from racing.

Today was a pretty relaxing day and I felt tired due to feeling drained, so I took a nap.

My parents friends came over and had a lovely time with them. And talked positive to them which was good.

[Wander]

Well I’ve almost completed the photography job I got. Just have to email my client, which will take ages to find the right professional, yet concise words. I just need a break first.,

Haven’t been sleeping much as I’m coming off Seroquel. It was only 12.5-25mg but my brain isn’t happy without it. Hopefully it will adjust soon. Gloomy day here. Kind of enjoying the atmosphere.

There was bright sunshine and blue skies today and i got a glimmer of happiness when i thought of the success WildFlowerChild25 and Scooter9 had with Lamictal -- thanks for the input, guys -- and my pizza was good and i thought of listening to Eminem after. It was only a few minutes of happiness but i sure enjoyed it and hope it's a sign of things to come.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Heard back from one of the potential jobs. Didn't get it. That was the one with the better interview. Oh well, I was having some doubts anyway. I don't feel confident at all about the other place. I'm kind of rusty at that kind of work, and it showed in the interview. It was kind of a weird interview. But we'll see. Sounded like he had only one other person to interview(!), but maybe I misunderstood. Lol, even THAT doesn't bring on any confidence(!)


At work. On "lunch". Tired. Spent yesterday drawing. One was good, the other I stopped midway. Just wasn't getting the eyes right. (Haha, it's easy to draw people generically, not so easy a particular person.) But I'll forge ahead and do more drawings. The ones not turning out I have been kind of impatient with myself about, but I'm trying to lighten up. Had about a 35 year span of not doing it. Lol, I should be glad of the ones that DO turn out the way they should right? That's the psychologically best way to approach it. I'm trying.


I'm blabbering 'cause I'm bored...

Sorry about that job. But maybe for the best ?

I envy people who can draw or paint. I have the creativity of a rock.

[~Christina]

Lazy day for me. Some laundry and I made stroganoff for dinner super easy and tasty.

Been chatty today , my husband luckily can tune me out as needed.

I’m finishing a book in a series , will be sad to finish it but the Author has another series I can dive right into thankfully !!!

I’m a big Marvel Comics fan , hopefully going to see the movie this week. So excited !!!!!

I’m sad it will be all over tho. What do I look forward to now ?????? I rewatch them all the time so just continue yeah?

Hugs and cookies to all