Physical Check-In

Sometimes ordering takeout is all you can do. Sometimes it is all you want to do. We have an activity every Monday evening and we get takeout a lot afterward. I made myself make dinner before we left so that we would have a healthy meal to come home to. I need to plan better and do it more often. We like to go to a burger place with really spectacular custard desserts and my pants will not allow any more visits there for a while.

So I also am cutting out refined sugar. I do still eat fruit. I have added more lean protein and veggies. I walk or ride my bike. Trouble is, the weather hasn't been cooperative. Either too cold or raining- or both. I also am going off seroquel again. I have fatty liver disease and metabolic syndrome. I see my liver dr in August. I have four months to reverse this and lose weight. Right now Im at 179. I want to lose 60 pounds. (I'm only 5' 2") All thanks to Zyprexa and Depakote. Depakote made me gain the weight, zyprexa maintained it and raised my liver ensimes and gave me fatty liver. Its time to END this cycle!

Today was harder than yesterday with three meals and three snacks. But the snacks were all good. I was a bit disappointed to not last thru the evening without a snack but i guess it is just too hard for me. At least it was popcorn i cooked myself so it was homemade, healthy and didn't cost anything. Dieting is sure good for my wallet. I didn't spend anything today. I was getting delivery to the tune of $25 a day before and it was really adding up.

I'm happy to be dieting. I don't know why i was so resistant. It's an effort, but i know it'll be worth it. I've realized that being thin is important to *ME*. It's something *I* value. It's not just something a doctor or therapist said. It's my own goal for myself!

I have been ordering the meal box subscriptions, too. My objective in ordering them was to push myself to cook healthier foods (I try to only order the healthy ones), to add a little fun to the cooking task, and to lessen the stress of shopping as much. Too often I'll go to make something only to find I don't have a key ingredient. Or I need to defrost something. In those cases, I sometimes give up. At least the meal kits help me with this. However, we can't afford them full price. I'm on my third service that offers introductory discounts.

I have been a little better with my eating these past four days, but better, not weight loss good. I've tried to be a little more physically active, but only one day this past week would officially count as exercise.

Bird dancer, I have the cheapest one available and it will still be too expensive if I continue with it. Right now it’s inky $40 a week. I figure once I get back in the swing of cooking I’ll cancel it and go shopping and meal plan again.

I stepped on the scale about 6 months ago and was the heaviest I had ever been. It had been ages since I had weighed myself and I was truly shocked at what it said.

I resolved at that point to stop the weight gain and weigh myself every day. I find it is easier to decide to stop gaining and then be happy if any weight is lost.

This worked and soon I also cut back a little more on what I am eating and now have lost 13 pounds and am back in my 'normal range', although a little on the heavy side still.

I am still weighing myself every morning and now have a fitbit to keep track of steps, heart rate, calories burned and sleep. It helps keep me motivated to do at least a little bit of moving around.

The weight loss was very slow though. I don't go on diets but just adjust to a new diet that I will stick with.

Tecomsin, congratulations on your 13 pound loss! That's quite an accomplishment! Be proud!

SO much this. If I sit down after work, it's pretty much over. Last night I was good though. Came home and made an egg scramble (will try it with tofu later) with sundried tomatoes, marinated artichoke hearts and pesto. It's supposed to have toasted slivered almonds too, but I didn't have any. I don't know if it's super healthy, but I figure it's not too bad, it's easy and delicious. I got the idea from a place I've eaten out at.

Self control... not so much. I will not diet, but I AM trying to not have a gobble-fest at night. I think that's what got me in trouble. I've gained like 45 lbs in the past couple of years. Meds did contribute, but I think bad late night eating was the main culprit. Strangely enough, I don't aim to lose much of it (BDD issue) though a little would be nice. I never had a tummy before, and I'm not overly happy about that.

Wow, you all with the sugar. Don't think I could eliminate it, but trying to cut back would be a good idea. Avoiding high fructose corn syrup is a good idea. Did you know that the increased use of it by manufacturers coincides exactly with the obesity epidemic? Food for thought. I try to avoid the worst offenders.

That scramble sounds awesome and healthy.

I can eliminate the sugar most days, but I'm not giving up sweets altogether. I just want to stop making sweets a habit after meals and more of a once in a while treat.

High fructose corn syrup, food dyes, food additives, extra sugar in almost everything, genetically modified foods soaked in chemicals that cause cancer like Roundup. The food industry is a mess. People were so much healthier before quick and easy processed food became the norm. It is so irresponsible and it especially infuriates me how much of these foods are marketed to kids. Food without these ingredients is so much more expensive.

Food dye really frustrates me. Yellow number 5 makes my kids hyper and mean. It is illegal in Europe and you can find it in tons of food here in the states. There are equally appealing natural dye sources, but companies won't switch because there are no laws against it. Meanwhile ADD and ADHD rates skyrocket...

Rant over.

I had a pretty good day food wise. I did have a small dessert after dinner, but it only had 9 grams of sugar, so I'm ok with that.

I went on a decent walk with my dog for exercise, but nothing other than that. I'm hoping to fit some targeted exercises in tomorrow.

I went for 2 walks today. One with the dogs was cut short and didn't count for much so I walked again later on the super hilly part of our road. 5214 steps so far today which is good for me. Hopefully I'll keep the motivation to keep walking. I have only gained 2-3 lbs since my father died and I started living on carbs but my stomach looks like I gained 10 and none of my shirts from last year fit.

I have so far stayed under my calories for the day, though I struggle at night. But my boyfriend is here tonight and I don’t snack when he’s here. I felt like I NEEDED something sweet after dinner so I had a frozen chocolate covered banana slice (Trader Joe’s for the win!) for only 30 calories. I also walked a half mile today which is the farthest I’ve walked since my back surgery. I’m going to do the half mile loop a few times before attempting to go farther because my legs were definitely not happy with me.

Tomorrow I am going to be at the indoor water park and I’m not sure I’ll be able to stick to my calories. I don’t know what they have at the snack bar but I’m sure it’s nothing healthy. And I’ll be too tired to cook dinner by the time we come home. I’m going to try though.

I felt so nagged by hunger all day that i had a big dinner. I gave myself yet another stomach ache! Ugh! I paced in my apartment to try and promote digestion. I think the problem is i eat too fast. My stomach doesn't have time to send my brain the signal that it is full. So that's my new goal: to eat slowly. The only good thing is that i didn't snack this evening and managed to bring the day in under a decent calorie limit even with my big meal. I exercised without much pleasure. I listened to my weight-loss audio.

Had a colonoscopy yesterday. My gastroenterologist is investigating me for celiac disease. Because another disease is just what I need :/

So far I have managed to stay under my calories despite eating at the snack bar and going out to dinner. I ate one chicken finger and a few French fries at the snack bar and then I had soup and salad for dinner. So I have enough calories left to eat a bowl of cereal tonight when I get hungry. That’s three days in a row. The hardest will be Friday and Saturday because I don’t really cook on those days. Sunday is Easter and I’m abandoning all diet attempts because I like food lol. We have a big dinner at my grandmother’s house. I’m happy.

Tomorrow I have my PT evaluation for my back. I am supposed to do PT for four weeks. At least it will get me exercising a little bit!

Nice job Wildflowerchild! It is really hard to stick to your plan when eating out and you nailed it. Enjoy yourself on Easter. You earned it!

I didn't eat terribly today, but I ate more junk than I should have. Lots of salty foods. No sugar though.

I had a headache this morning and felt blah most of the day. No exercise other than the chores I did. I'm a little disappointed in myself. Tomorrow is a new day.

Dieting was really hard today. I cried. I'm not sure i can do this.

I was so upset this morning. I weighed myself and I gained two pounds. Even though I’ve been eating well. I am trying to convince myself it’s just water weight because my period starts tomorrow. I wanted to say **** it and eat a large fast food meal for lunch but I decided not to. I still got fast food but a much smaller meal. Only 640 calories. I’m about 140 calories under my goal for the day. It’s only 6:30pm so I’ll probably need to eat one more time before bed because I will be hungry. I’m still depressed but at least I didn’t freak out and binge.

No walking today, didn’t feel like it. I should have because it’s going to be raining for the next two days. But oh well.

I only have two pairs of pants that still fit. That’s ****ing depressing as well.

I feel your pain Wildflowerchild. I've eaten well all week and the scale hasn't budged. I'm also retaining water weight, so I am hoping my work this week will pay off next week.

I ate healthy today and I did 30 minutes of walk/run. Rain and cold weather is on the way here, so I'll be working out indoors for a while.

I'm off olanzapine and slept more than 10 hours last night, which is a ridiculous amount. My fitbit also says I'm up to 7,400 steps and have burnt 1,510 calories so far today. My heart rate runs high and it bases the calorie count based on that. So Yay Me!

I have to add olanzapine to my mix if my sleep gets disrupted since even a small amount does wonders for my sleep in that situation and helps keep me stable.

My weight this morning is still good even though I went to MacDonalds and got a salt fix. Today it was sushi again with my son. We were celebrating him starting a new job next week that pays 50% more, once you count things like their incentive plan, than his last job. It is almost unheard of in this town to get a raise like that.

I am still only getting much of an appetite in the evening and as long as I keep deserts and chips out of the house I seem to be doing ok with my weight, even with the occasional fast food run.

WildFlowerChild: Sorry to hear about your two pound gain. That would upset anyone. I'm sure it's just water weight and you will have good results next week. The same thing used to happen to me when i had my period. Congrats on eating a moderate fast food meal instead of an enormous one.

Fern: Wow -- you can RUN!!! I do this old-lady shuffle and i am only 52. Good for you! Like WFC, i am sure good results on the scale are in store for you once your body throws off the water weight.

tecomsin: Glad things are going well with your weight and congrats on the success of your son.


Today was not so good. I fought off the urge to binge twice but i gave in the third time. Chips and chocolate. Well, i had four good days out of five so that is still an 80% success rate, so overall i am not doing too badly. I just have tomorrow and Saturday to go before my first big weigh-in. If i get a good result it will sure put wind in my sails!

Here is a cartoon of a shrinking woman that i like because it reminds me that weight loss is a process. cartoon — imgbb.com

It's 6:30am and i have been up all night with a stomach ache. I get frequent stomach aches. I think i have gastroparesis. I'm going to see my doctor about it. In the meantime, i'm going to try following a gastroparesis diet so i'm abandoning my weight-loss diet for now. Good luck to everyone!

I'm sorry you are hurting. It sounds painful. What types of foods do you eat for a gastroparesis diet? Maybe there's a way to keep it healthy enough so that it can at least be weight neutral.

Oh that’s awful! I hope you get some relief soon

Your period can actually make you retain water or gain weight so give yourself some love. Congrats on making the choice to get the smaller meal. It is small choices like that which over time will make the difference.