[atisketatasket]

Good morning, everyone! Here’s a shiny new check-in thread for you.

thanks atisketatasket!

Having a good day so far but also feel like I'm picking up on radio signals with my brain, maybe a chip of sorts? It's not bothering me too much right now but I'm worried if I go to certain places it's gonna get worse

[Moose72]

Back on seroquel. Morning afternoon and night doses. Back up to 400. Ugh. I hate antipsychotics with a passion. I'm torn. Might quit it again. I still would rather not have that stuff hijacking my metabolism and antagonizing my brain.

[Nammu]

Moose you were sounding like you needed something to reign in the manic. Maybe you should give it some time?

Originally Posted by Moose72

Back on seroquel. Morning afternoon and night doses. Back up to 400. Ugh. I hate antipsychotics with a passion. I'm torn. Might quit it again. I still would rather not have that stuff hijacking my metabolism and antagonizing my brain.

I totally get what you mean. Some meds are pure evil.

Sometimes a pdoc will reduce a patient's AP dosage once the patient is stabilized. Or they'll take the person off the med entirely and tell the patient to use it as a PRN for the next time they get depressed/manic/mixed. So, I would ask about that because maybe you won't have to be on it for a long time -- just enough to get stabilized. But obviously I don't know your pdoc or treatment team, so that's why I don't know.

Originally Posted by spikes

thanks atisketatasket!

Having a good day so far but also feel like I'm picking up on radio signals with my brain, maybe a chip of sorts? It's not bothering me too much right now but I'm worried if I go to certain places it's gonna get worse

When I get like that, I put on music or watch something on YouTube to block out the sounds. But if the radio signals start telling you to do bad things, then you should tell someone (e.g., family member, pdoc, etc.) so that you're not bottling it in. Sometimes therapists are great people to talk to (even if it's in the context of group therapy) because they'll help you with pretty much anything. Would that help with your anxiety related to the signals getting worse?

[pirilin]

Hello,
I'm still with us.
The big D is trying to do a number on me.
I felt it yesterday. I'm fighting it.
Today it has been better. I know what I'm fighting.
It's all economical. No health issues. Just frustration.
If I can't do it alone, it's reassuring to have
all of you guy rooting for me.

Cheers.

[lightly toasted]

Back from my blood tests this morning. Something about the whole experience triggered something for me, it started in the waiting area. Just flashbacks to my early twenties and a time when I was 11, and just feeling heavy sadness. I just want to curl up under the duvet and cry for all the loved ones who have died, for no longer being young and hopeful. I don't know.....I just don't have the energy to cry right now. I think I'll just drink my tea and stare out the window for a while.

Hugs to all who could use them.

[Patti078]

Good morning!I'm a newbie to this site and also newly diagnosed with bipolar.Just stopping in to say hi!

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

When I get like that, I put on music or watch something on YouTube to block out the sounds. But if the radio signals start telling you to do bad things, then you should tell someone (e.g., family member, pdoc, etc.) so that you're not bottling it in. Sometimes therapists are great people to talk to (even if it's in the context of group therapy) because they'll help you with pretty much anything. Would that help with your anxiety related to the signals getting worse?

Thanks for the response. I've been listening to music basically all day and it's been helping. I'm in an IOP right now and we have group therapy every day so I'll talk about it later on. This place is helping too.

[Wild Coyote]

A warm hello to all!
I think of you daily and hope all can be as well as possible.

I have been very ill and am hoping I on finally on the road to recovery.

I continue to take a med called Mirapex for severe depression.

I need to end this note now, before I lose it. I have lost several notes I had written here ;lately.

Love to all!

Lightly_Toasted: Sorry to hear your blood test brought up some negative emotions. But i'm glad to hear i'm not the only one who stares out the window! It's been four hours since you posted; hope you're feeling some better by now!

[Nammu]

Wild coyote hope you feel better soon

[LadyShadow]

Feeling very level and calm, but so, so tired for some reason. It must be the weather.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

A warm hello to all!
I think of you daily and hope all can be as well as possible.

I have been very ill and am hoping I on finally on the road to recovery.

I continue to take a med called Mirapex for severe depression.

I need to end this note now, before I lose it. I have lost several notes I had written here ;lately.

Love to all!

So great to hear from you dear friend. I hope you feel better soon. You are missed.

[lightly toasted]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

Lightly_Toasted: Sorry to hear your blood test brought up some negative emotions. But i'm glad to hear i'm not the only one who stares out the window! It's been four hours since you posted; hope you're feeling some better by now!

Thank you, Whatever Yes, staring out the window, sometimes it's all that can be done...nice to know I'm also not alone.

I did stare out the window for quite some time. I then put on my headphones and listened to ASMR videos for awhile, did a bit of housework, a bit of my exercise routine, then tuned into an engrossing tv drama. I'm still sad and a bit down, but I'll be okay.

I think at the core, loneliness is what I'm feeling. So I'm extremely grateful for this bipolar forum, it really does make me feel less alone. I've become very keen to read each day how everyone is doing, and what's going on in your lives.

[Blue_Bird]

Struggling,with my eating disorder tonight. Otherwise doing well

[gina_re]

Today was a pretty crappy day. I spent it in bed the entire day. At least I cooked dinner today instead of junk food. But then again I ate ice cream straight out of the container again until I was full.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Things are getting easier. The grief is less now. It won't be too long and we'll be able to scatter my father's ashes where he requested (it's a river and I want it warm if I'm going to wade into it to release ashes without being covered in them). My mood is slightly better.

I saw my pdoc Monday. We are trying to move my meds an hour later to help me fall asleep a little later to reduce nighttime wakenings. I started keeping a sleep log. 2 days tells me that I wake up a lot even with the later med time. It's no wonder I sleep until noon; I am awake for over an hour (sometimes over 2 or 3) every night.

I'm trying to walk for exercise every day. I walked my mom's dogs tonight. They'd already had a walk earlier and when I asked if they wanted to go for a walk they looked like they didn't believe me. I can't dupicate their walk every day but sometimes is good. (If I want the more challenging workout they can't go with me because I can't get them over if a car comes. There's a hill that's dangerous for me to walk up, much less them.

I have to get the grief weight off. Now.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello everyone; I hope everyone is doing well today. I am doing pretty good all things considered. Work is still only a tiny bit better from Monday; still not the best and it's not smooth sailing by any means. Plus on top of all the lovely work drama; I have school wanting what little energy I have left.

Today is of course my busy day because after work is Wednesday bible study which I love doing.

It is Day 6 of the medication and so far everything is going just fine with the medication.

I honestly cannot wait for this weekend; this week has been very trying.

Hugs to everyone

gina_re: congrats on making dinner!

I'm happy to have rediscovered something to do late night when my tolerance for almost everything else evaporates: listening to mood music! I also took a shower i was overdue for today and styled my hair myself without the sticky, goopy hair gel the hairdresser put in and i like it much better. My appetite is enormous. I so hope it will go away when i get off the APs.


Holding steady with the mild depression but managed to do a few quick chores around the house so the day wasn't a total write-off. My dog is six and she's getting a little more independent: sometimes she goes in the bedroom to sleep on our bed when i'm out here in the living room. I'm glad because it gives us a break from each other, even tho i love her dearly.

So loving my mood music!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by pirilin

Hello,

I'm still with us.

The big D is trying to do a number on me.

I felt it yesterday. I'm fighting it.

Today it has been better. I know what I'm fighting.

It's all economical. No health issues. Just frustration.

If I can't do it alone, it's reassuring to have

all of you guy rooting for me.


Cheers.

Keep on keeping on

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

A warm hello to all!
I think of you daily and hope all can be as well as possible.

I have been very ill and am hoping I on finally on the road to recovery.

I continue to take a med called Mirapex for severe depression.

I need to end this note now, before I lose it. I have lost several notes I had written here ;lately.

Love to all!

So good to see you my friend

[Crazy Hitch]

Feeling cranky. Getting outta bed at 3am for the last 5 days will do that to you.

This morning, the supernatural force made a return. It tried TWICE to take over my mind, but my mind has a barrier around it to prevent that from happening. I just don’t know how strong this barrier is. I hope it continues to serve its purpose, though. But I felt the force’s might. It was halfway there in taking over my mind.