Bipolar Check-In #38

I went to the food pantry today, got enough stuff to get me through till my foodstamps come in on the 2nd. No panic attacks for 4 days now, very happy about that!

I'm really struggling to type anything using my laptop with my injured finger. Firstly, I shouldn't type with the finger at all, but even when I do, the Band Aid makes my finger so wide, that I make typos every time. Many of my posts these past few days have been made on my smart phone using my middle finger, but as I mentioned, it's grown quite sore. I'd hoped to give it a little rest.


This is all so frustrating! I had a really notable day today and have oodles to say, but you'll all be spared for now. Brace yourself for tomorrow.

I've pushed through the pain and the fatigue and have finished a project. I do not mean to imply one can always push through the pain and the fatigue. Just sometimes we might be able to do so. I was blessed today in this way.


Off to see pdoc tomorrow. She and I must have a talk.

Should be interesting.


I hope everyone has a great night!

Checking in. Thank you to everyone who let me know through hugs and words that I was cared about. It meant a lot at a time that was bleak.


I got my hair cut today. It had grown to the small of my back. Surprisingly, the beautician said it was healthy. I had it cut to two inches below my shoulders. It feels great! I’ve been reborn.


I went to the dentist as well and received hugs all around. They said there is a significant difference from when I was depressed until now. They were proud of me.


M’s visit flew by. She wasn’t here but 2 days so we packed in the fun. I miss her already but will meet her in two weeks halfway between.


Back to being positive and empowering. Doing well.


Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

My mood crashed again... Having sui thoughts... Gonna go prepared to PHP tomorrow with a bag of clothes and everything...

I am still feeling like I was hit by a train. It didn't help that I had previously promised to babysit yesterday and my sister lives 2 hours away so I drove down, leaving a lot of extra time because I get lost very easily in their town, waited an hour, picked up my nieces, drove them home and did dinner and playtime and then drove back home after my BIL was home. I left before noon and got home at 8:30 which is a lot when feeling so tired anyway.


My pathology results (or some of them? I don't know how many things to wait for) are back and so far everything is clear. Yet the symptoms are already starting back up. I'll need to make an appointment for my GI to see what is next. I can't believe I went through bowel prep and didn't get any answers. I keep trying to remember it just means I don't have to do it when I'm 45 in 2 years. Some encouragement...


Anyway, time to get my meds and try to sleep. The last few nights I've fallen asleep in the range that usually means I'll be waking back up for several hours in the night and I've slept straight through except for the bathroom. That is a sign of how exhausted I am; I never can go to sleep so early without paying a price.

have you ever heard of protonix? it is a prescribed med for gerd.
bizi

Just read about it on here, someone mentioned it. I've a doctor appointment on Wednesday, yes I know, about time. I had dismissed GERD a year ago cause I don't have heart burn. But I started reading up on it about two weeks ago and found out you don't HAVE to have heart burn, instead I have chest pain and vomiting. But I was afraid the doc would order tests like barium swallow and others. Foolish I know. I was 9 the first time I had that and it was terrible.

Oh no when do you see the Doctor ??

Wednesday. At 7:45 in the morning! it was his first available.

I hope he can get some kind of treatment going. I’d prefer most anything else that vomiting

Are you getting any decent sleep ?

Yes, me too. I've been reading what can happen with untreated GERD and that's what tipped me into calling for an appointment.


I'm getting very interrupted sleep. I have almost no recall of my dreams and I miss them.


Lost your voice? Oh no, I'll be right there to teach you American Sign Language! Hope your appointment gets here soon.

I'll have to google that, never heard of that series.

I made a new check in. I don't know how to create the link so you can go directly there, but it's under bipolar.