Bipolar check in #39

Sorry your feeling so poorly. Hopefully tomorrow will improve. Yes 100 degrees certainly needs a trip to the beach and jump in

I do understand that !

Me too !!

The hypomania hasn't quite passed. I'm still experiencing fast and intense thoughts, but not as bad as before.

I had a really strange effect from taking Mirapex and my morning Wellbutrin at the same time. My vision is a little blurry anyway but this morning after my doses it was really blurry.

It improved after about 2 hours and it's fine now.

I'll see how it goes tomorrow.

And, I'm still sick ...7 days so far.

I saw my T today was a good session I really needed !

Well tomorrow I am FINALLY going to my Pulmonary appt! It’s 1.5 hours north but it’s going to be raining cats and dogs... so will take even longer. Appt is 8 am so I’m going to have to get up freaking early.

I’m sure I’ll have to take more steroids and likely a change from Symbicort to a new inhaler. Steroids do not play nice with my Bipolar I’m going to be furious if they wind up forcing me back on psych meds.

I just want this elephant off my chest and I want to be able to walk 50 feet and not get so short of breath. Even making dinner last night had me panting last night ! Crazy !

Oh my liver blood work came back it’s consistent with having a fatty liver my ultra sound is November 15..

I’m going to be thrilled once all the extra medical crap is over with !

Hugs and cookie ~

I hope your appointment tomorrow goes well and that the travel there and back goes smoothly. I also hope they can straighten all this out for you. You’ve been suffering with this for too long and you’re due a break.

Thanks so much yes I do agree I need a break

Interesting you say that. I was totally powerless during my trauma. From what source do these idea's derive from? I have had a serious of medical investigations on my entire gut, and I am in perfect health. The pain and other problems are very real though which led me to think it must be linked to trauma, and stress in general. It has been coming and going for six months, but this is the worst I have ever felt.

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I hope it goes well for you. Getting off Symbicort actually really improved my asthma. I've been on Dulera for several years now and it works well without any side effects; symbicort tended to amp me up somewhat.

I understand the dreaded long drive. My pdoc appointment next week is scheduled for one of our first snows so that will take longer than usual. I dread it even though I'm glad to have the appointment and that it is with my wonderful pdoc. I hope it goes fast for you and the weather cooperates.

I'm so glad you have a good T to rely on right now when steroids might be prescribed again. Yeah I hope you don't have to go back on the psych meds. At least Richard can help some. You really need to kick this flare to hell.

Yeah, fall could last much longer than just a few weeks.

I e never had trouble with Symbicort it just flipped me off lol I’ll ask about that inhaler for sure.

Yes you also drives a long distance for good doctors I understand , the driving in snow !!? No likey much at all. We don’t get much usually , about 5 years ago we got 13 inches in about 8 hours !! My town is absolutely not equipped to handle snow, and way out where I live they never bother regardless. We wound up being stuck at home for 10-11 days !!! Problem we run into most is ice which then Id much rather deal with snow.

Thanks for the good wishes

I told Richard I might just have to call if I start to wobble which is something I have only done I think 2 at most 3 times in our 8 years together.

I’m going to be all kinds of mad and cursing a blue streak if I do havevto go on Meds !! Ugh !

It depends.
If you truly have ingrown toe nails and have a history of them then the best thing to do is have a partial nail removal.
they give you a numbing shot which hurts. They then cut along the side of the nail and permanently removing that part of the nail. they use a solution to kill the nail bed there so the nail doesn't grow back. It will be not as wide this way....but you will never have another ingrown toe nail again. This takes more work for the podiatrist. Don't let them just remove the whole nail.
I wish you luck and courage.
bizi

Iam so grateful you are getting your consult done!
I hope they can help you out, asap.
Traveling mercies.

Awaiting your reports./results.

MuchLove!!!

My big toes look a bit infected and yes they’re sore. Unfortunately agoraphobia won today. I’ve rescheduled my appointment for next week.

@BirdDancer I love hearing your baking stories. Your creations sound and look delicious!
thank you!
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Thank you thank you

Oh thank you so much for the info.

I will be just up front .... I love my pedicures and can’t imagine not have equal sized toe nails. Very few people would likely not even notice, but I sure would ! Hahaha

When I was working in medical many of my positions required business clothes and dreaded heels day in and out, pantyhose hose too ! In freaking Florida. Sadists I swear.

Now I wear mostly flat and boots so I don’t have chronic pain. I think I’ll hold off until they really come down do it.

Hey there, Wander!

I do recall you often have GI distress when you are experiencing PTSD and/or are processing this in some way. There has been a pattern. Just be careful to know when you might need a work-up.

Do you have any access to massage or any other type of bodywork?
You may be able to release some of your pain through bodywork..
there are many theories about the idea that trauma memories are held within our bodies.

A few of my acquaintances work on bodies. I asked each of them if they see any change in the emotional status with their clients when they are being actively doing bodywork? They each report having clients suddenly start crying, and/or suddenly start laughing, etc.

At few of the trauma experts are convinced bodywork is essential. Some prominent researchers are so convinced of this mind-body connectiion, they
offer suggestions in their books re: bodywork. One has offered a specific sequence/program of yoga.

I am curious as to whether your health care program might cover the expenses of some type of bodywork for you?

Much Love to You!

Thank you so much for this information. I would love to have some done. Unfortunately, my health insurance is limited to hospital stays for any ailment. Any savings I do have is going into healing my hip. Maybe I could ask for one session as a Christmas present.

There's a 90% chance I have to go on a business trip to the Czech Republic. I do NOT want to go. I've been there 3 times already and I hate it there. It's not a bad country by any means, but when you go for work and you stay in an area where most people don't speak English, it's NOT fun, especially when people ditch you because they want to spend the whole night drinking every night and you don't.

I'm afraid I'll get psychosis when I'm out of the country, and then there's NOTHING anyone can do about it. There's no way I can get any Rx changes or additions, and I'll be 6 hours ahead, so calling my therapist etc. will be a pain in the @ss.

I asked my therapist for advice yesterday, but all she said was to ask for work accommodations and tell my boss that such a trip would be emotionally taxing. I can't do or say that. I'm not going to reveal my bipolar diagnosis to him (or anyone for that matter).

I already told my boss that I found the last 3 trips overwhelming because of the long days and long plane rides, but he didn't seem to care. I don't know what else I'm supposed to do except suck it up and hope for the best. It's awful.

Didn't sleep again, this is becoming a bad habit.

I hope you got to your appointment OK and it went well. You were an early 🐦 today.

When I read your post my instinct led me to wonder if your trauma is anchored within your solar plexus. Your solar plexus is a chakra or energy center within the body. Chakras are believed to be energy centers, wheels or discs that are located throughout your body. The term is ancient and the first mentions of it come from India. Many believe that trauma or other negative life experiences can block these energy centers and hinder them from allowing proper flow throughout the body. Over time, these blockages create discomfort and/or disease.

There are various forms of chakra healing and I am not a proponent of any one way. I believe each body is unique as well as the circumstances that affect it. There are 'healers' you can work with. Some are incredibly effective and others can create situations that are perceived as harmful. It is like trauma work with a therapist. Sometimes it can go awry.

The basic goal is to connect with the trauma, release it and establish balance once again. You're already doing trauma work, so in your case it might be beneficial to simply practice a few mindful techniques to strengthen your solar plexus as you go. It might make the process a bit easier. You can do that in a number of ways. Affirmations are a relatively safe method. Here's a link to some basic ones you can try: 20 Affirmations to Heal Your Solar Plexus Chakra | Marci Baron Clear Your Way Home

I also want to mention that there are times when our energy centers are not blocked and become over active. Those symptoms manifest in a number of ways. The goal is to create and maintain balance. This article mentions some of the signs you are over active and gives a few more techniques to restore balance. Exploring Your Solar Plexus Chakra - The Blend

I also agree with Wild Coyote that massage can help us release some of the physical pain associated with trauma. I feel like yoga is also helpful in this regard. However, in my experience these are temporary measures as they do not address the root cause of the problem. The body will continue to anchor the trauma until the mind and heart can find a way to truly believe you are safe and do have power now to better control your circumstances. That's why I specifically mention the affirmations. You are reconnecting with those feelings of powerlessness over and over and you can begin to heal them if you take greater self confidence and belief in your own personal power along with you each time you revisit the memories.

I encourage you to do some research on all of the energy centers and the basics of how they function. Life experiences are complex and often affect more than one center. You might find you ease discomfort in one area to bring forward pain in another. This is a lifelong method of balance and restoration of the body. I am in no way an expert, but I wanted to pass along a few ideas in case anything resonates with you and can potentially assist you during this difficult time.

Wild Coyote, I feel you may be familiar with some or all of what I have shared here. Please expand if you have additional thoughts.

Be well Wander. You're a fighter and you have more power than you know!

I hear you regarding long plane rides and stressful trips! I know the stress well, including specifically the stress related to Czech Republic, which is a beautiful country. My husband is from Prague, so I have obviously been to Czech Republic many times. Some of his relatives and friends speak good to OK English, but not all. Some, not all, are heavy drinkers.

I used to tag along with my husband to all of his meetings with friends and family. Since we visit there infrequently and he has oddles of obligations, it's a whirlwind. Also, he always goes to a play (he has an actor friend) and concerts galore. During recent trips, I have done more and more on my own. Not tourism (I have done enough of that there), but going to the movies, taking walks in less congested areas, and things like that. Enough people speak English to get the gist. I wouldn't worry about that too much, unless you are in a very small town or village.

Will you go to Prague, or another city? If you want, perhaps I could give you some other suggestions for more relaxing less stressful things to do there. There's no need to be caught up in the crowds of tourists or smoky stinky hospodas (pubs).

If you are staying in a large city in CZ, they have Uber. Uber is generally cheaper than taxis and they cannot cheat foreigners like some taxis do. Prague's subway system is easy to use. One can get used to using the trams. I imagine you have? If not, if I can manage to get around alone, you can. My Czech, I'll admit, is very limited. As can be expected, my culinary Czech is good.

Czechs may not be the most outwardly friendly people, at first, but they are a good people.