Bipolar check in #39

Yeah, i know it's not really PC but I love venison. I wish my nephews would share the bounty with us.

I loved that bookstore in the dream. I could spend hours there.

My glasses broke last night. Wah! I am totally blind without them and my prescription is so high it is very expensive to replace. Luckily my friend told me about zenni and I found a frame for just $7 and my lenses will only cost $75 so I expect with processing and shipping fees it will come to about $100. Not chump change, but much less than I’d have to pay my eye dr since I have no vision insurance.

I’m alright, today I don’t feel as hungry. I overdid it on carbs (3slices of pizza at lunch because I was starving!) but for dinner I just had the chicken and veggie fixings out of street tacos from a local Mexican joint, mostly because I don’t Like corn tortillas and that’s all they have. So now with some protein I’m not as hungry. I still have the gnawing hunger I always seem to have but I don’t want to “eat my couch” as Christina always says so that’s good.

The trampoline park was closed Monday and won’t open until four tomorrow so we are going on Thursday. Tomorrow me and my son will just have a chill day. Maybe I’ll play some board games with him, even though I hate board games. If it will make him happy I will. Then on Friday I’m going to take him to see my dreaded father in law, the BP one who won’t admit he’s BP and always says inappropriate things. But the last time I was there he wasn’t so bad so hopefully he won’t be so bad this time.

I'm right there with you. There are very few things I will go there for.

I love my Kroger though. Do you use the app? I use it all the time for the digital coupons. I also use it to shop every once in a while and use their pickup service when I am tight on time.

Do you have a strict budget to follow?? I only bought dog food and feminine products. I'm getting everyone a $5.50 gift card on my side of the family. My parents are getting $25 gift card but its his family we're arguing about. We have yet to get anything for our son. I want to spend "too much" on his side. He doesn't agree that because we spent x on my side we should spend x on his.

He's not to happy anyways because he's babysitting me. We'll see how this goes. I've never carried money/cards on me so I can't do anything without an okay, unless he's sleeping. Maybe it's the abilify. I saw a woman in a car but no one was really there. English is getting hard to understand and I yelled at him for being to close to me in a car. I'm generally in a good mood but I'm flipping hard. I need to sleep tonight. I may take sleeping medication tonight but at the same time I don't want to. I'm bp2/SzA and on an AP so it can't get that bad. Right? I still want to cut my hair. It took 3 hrs to get through today because I don't take care of it.

I hope you get some decent sleep tonight!
Getting decent sleep can help so very much!

I am in need of some decent sleep too.

I hope you get sleep too.

Maybe they will? Let them know you love it!
Have you ever had venison cooked in a crockpot?
That's the best I have ever had!

i'm going back on the Seroquel. i have been withdrawing for four months and deteriorating rapidly, sensitive and vulnerable and not able to function. i have been attributing it to other things like age, peri-menopause, bipolar psychosis, but none of those things can account for the rapidity of my deterioration as well as the withdrawal from Seroquel can. i'm over-reacting to the littlest things and feel as weak as a ragdoll. if i continue without Seroquel i will have to live like an invalid at 53. even my clothes hurt. i have been wearing pajamas all day, even when i take my dog out (i wear a parka). human faces are bothering me. it feels like the most benign things are reaching into my brain stem. i laugh and cry and rage and grieve. i'd rather be numb, comfortably numb and be able to get things done. i have to get my dogs nails trimmed tomorrow at the vet's. my neighbor is driving us and i just hope to get thru it without hysteria.

i feel real disoriented and don't understand what is happening to me.

Sounds awful, hope the sequel works fast.

Zucchini/squash/corn casserole. Good stuff.

Checking in. Good day so far.
Went to the gym this morning - still feeling like dying at the 20min mark. I hope my body gets with the program sooner rather than later. I am just sooooo unfit and moving my heavy body is hard work.

Hope everyone is doing ok. Hugs to those who need them.

Maybe not PC for city dwellers but the reality is the overpopulation of deer is very harmful for the eco system. About 10 years ago they put a limit of up to 8-10 per person! Food banks were filled to the Max, so much going to soup kitchens. The herds had to be thinned. Around us more people than not depend on venison to feed them year round as long as they process and freeze correctly.

There are reports of more of the “ wasting disease “ is growing and now there is a form of tuberculosis being found in deer up North.. these animals need to be removed from breeding.

As long as a hunter eats or donates what they harvest I have no problems. Trophy hunters ??? I loath that they exist.. monsters !

Tell the nephews to bring you some!!

Ohh sounds yummy !!

I'm now on Prednisone due to an asthmatic/bronchitis type of thing. I'm not even going to try to sleep.

I hate this drug so much but it saves my life all the time

Yes I love that App !! Really big savings can be found I havent tried the pick up service yet, but I do plan on trying it, probably if I get my yearly bronchitis and too worried about my husband going out in peak flu germs times etc in our town. I have legit called my doctors office last year many times asking if they are seeing alot of flu or other lung infections ... I we can decide if it’s really smart to go out even tho we had our flu shots I don’t want to take risks with especially my husband health.

Agree 100% yeah my theory of the wasting desiese is that man is not as good as natural predators at thinking the herds. Man shoots the big bucks and prime game while the natural predators take out the sick and infirm. Man leaves the weaker animals to propagate.

Your able to notice your not doing so well already in various areas of your life. Yet your choosing to not take your medications as prescribed ?? when you just shared numerous things that you know are causing problems? This just confuses me

As for your needing 3 hours to deal with your hair ??? Obviously your not brushing it daily. Why has your personal hygiene gotten to this point? That’s a sign things are not going well.. brushing hair daily is at most 5-10 mins at most ?

Your playing with Fire and you will get burnt.

Your wanting Miguel to be serious about taking his medication and working to feel better ... yet your showing him again those things are not important to you. Parents should = role models.

Good luck.

I can't sleep....again.

Worried that the Effexor has made me manic

Oh damn I’m so sorry your dealing with this. Yes the prednisone is awful for people with BP. I can’t sleep more than 1-2 hours a night when taking that vile much needed medication.

I finally see the pulmonary specialist this Thursday and I’m sure I will be put back on a high dose of prednisone, again almost 9 weeks I’m dealing with it.

But we need to breath !! Feel better soon

Hi whatever,

If you feel you do better on Seroquel, then please do call you pdoc..

What's it like when your mood swings upward?

I do recall your having noted that "human faces are bothering me," in the past.

Is it possible you are experiencing a mood swing?

I am so sorry you are feeling unwell !

Keep reachiing out!