[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hey WC,

Tbh I just go with the flow. I'm actually looking into setting up singing lessons as I love singing and miss it. I sing all the time but I want my voice back I use to sing opera... can't anymore as i haven't had lessons in about 8 years.

I've decided I'm going to do something for me this year instead of thinking of everyone else. I've kinda learnt my friends don't actually care for or about me. So i can just ignore all my thoughts i have on them all. I spend too much of my time thinking about everyone else so now it's my time

WoW! Good for you!

Yes, we have to find things in life we enjoy for ourselves!

So will I see you singing on youtube one day?

Slept most the day, and haven't done a lot. I did follow through on my promise to myself (and my therapist) to set a time and date to take care of things that just can't be put off... and I did it, and it's done. I feel a bit better seeing as I've finished it... but some of the anxiety about the situations just haven't left me yet. I don't feel "relieved"and I don't really know why.

I've been talking lately about not being understood and frankly it's partially because I cannot clearly put into words my feelings. I'm trying some of the tactics you all have suggested and it's helping somewhat, at least getting them out of my head, so thanks for that.

Nothing really new on this front. Just living my life the only way I've ever known.

MarcusAurelius

[Moose72]

A friend called to ask me about the 2 local psych units. She wanted to know the number of ways one can be admitted to psych IP: through the psych ER. Being in the regular ER or regular inpatient to psych ip. Regular ip to iop. Psych ER to partial. There are lots of ways!

Im feeling bad that I bought those glasses.... :-(

I guess I'm going to dinner tomorrow with peter. Tonight I'll have a fruit shake for dinner tonight. N3 is with his gf tonight. He's getting a ride home. Yay.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Not feeling social - at all, but did feel like giving an update.

Not sure if I reported this to you, but in Nov my wife was fired for something she didn't do. Yes, we're suing.

Now we're being evicted. We have to be out in 60 days.

I'm not doing well.

I’m behind in reading my posts. I’m so sorry this is happening! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m glad you are able to continue your ECT treatments.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I woke up to a frantic mother, telling me there was no heat!
I LOVE my bedroom COLD and would not have noticed if the furnace had quit. I have a window open all winter.

I went into the basement to check on the furnace. Not working. I threw the emergency switch and...nothing. I am sitting here waiting for the gas company to show up to diagnose what ails the furnace. Hopefully, it is something that can be easily fixed.
My mom was freezing cold and was, tearfully, feeling very overwhelmed.. Sent her to the senior center, where she can interact with her friends and can enjoy the distractions there. We will see what transpires!

Things like this keep me young! I have to think on my feet, shift gears, improvise, etc. It may feel very inconvenient; yet, it keeps me using some skills which could otherwise fall by the wayside. This viewpoint might be the silver lining?.
Let's see how I feel when it is 6 pm and the gas company has not yet shown up! LOL!

I hope everyone has a great day!!!

What was the diagnosis on the furnace? So nice these things keep you on your toes!

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

WoW! Good for you!


Yes, we have to find things in life we enjoy for ourselves!


So will I see you singing on youtube one day?

Haha! No way saying that I am on vimeo I think with my old choir lol but no definitely not as a soloist lol

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’m sorry you had to deal with her dog acting like that. It would drive me nuts too

What a great call with M , I’m glad you have plans to meet soon.. is your back hurting from that fall you had ??

I hurt my back last February caring for my mom after her fall and it’s been tricky ever since then. It’s frustrating!

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hey WC,

Tbh I just go with the flow. I'm actually looking into setting up singing lessons as I love singing and miss it. I sing all the time but I want my voice back I use to sing opera... can't anymore as i haven't had lessons in about 8 years.

I've decided I'm going to do something for me this year instead of thinking of everyone else. I've kinda learnt my friends don't actually care for or about me. So i can just ignore all my thoughts i have on them all. I spend too much of my time thinking about everyone else so now it's my time

Opera! That's wonderful! I hope you do get back into the singing lessons with your talent and vocal abilities. I someday wish I could get back to dance lessons.

[Naynay99]

Hey. Haven’t been here in a while.
I’m feeling really good lately, and after several days of little to naught, I had 5 glorious hours of uninterrupted sleep last night. Sleeping is usually the one thing I’m good at. Insomnia has plagued me since Thursday. It Took 3+ hours to fall asleep last night, like I forgot how.

Anyway, things r good. I’m eXercising. Leaving the house. Doing fun things. Optimistic about 2020 in general. And at least for a while, rid of depression which kicks arse.

Anyway, it’s good to read what u all r up to. I feel a tad like a tool posting a new topic all about me and not checking in how other ppl r doing. But being gone, it’s too overwhelming going back to read wht is going on w everyone. I did try tho.

Wishing u all a great week.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Hey. Haven’t been here in a while.
I’m feeling really good lately, and after several days of little to naught, I had 5 glorious hours of uninterrupted sleep last night. Sleeping is usually the one thing I’m good at. Insomnia has plagued me since Thursday. It Took 3+ hours to fall asleep last night, like I forgot how.

Anyway, things r good. I’m eXercising. Leaving the house. Doing fun things. Optimistic about 2020 in general. And at least for a while, rid of depression which kicks arse.

Anyway, it’s good to read what u all r up to. I feel a tad like a tool posting a new topic all about me and not checking in how other ppl r doing. But being gone, it’s too overwhelming going back to read wht is going on w everyone. I did try tho.

Wishing u all a great week.

Hey there! Glad things are going well for you. It’s good to see you around.

[Moose72]

Im feeling rotten about my day. I bought those glasses I dont REALLY need. Peter tried to ruin my life. Ugh! JustUGH! I feel anxious now and it started off as a good. Its only 4:40 pm. Ive been up for nearly 12 hours. I am feeling self hate for my day. Self hate! I need to eat something of substance.

[Sunflower123]

I’ve built my expectations for 2020 too high and I’m vascillating between stress/overwhelm and SI. Darn perfectionism! I’m going to work on more reasonable plans and expectations and on having more compassion for myself.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Im feeling rotten about my day. I bought those glasses I dont REALLY need. Peter tried to ruin my life. Ugh! JustUGH! I feel anxious now and it started off as a good. Its only 4:40 pm. Ive been up for nearly 12 hours. I am feeling self hate for my day. Self hate! I need to eat something of substance.

I’m sorry you are having a tough day. I hope it gets better soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Hey. Haven’t been here in a while.
I’m feeling really good lately, and after several days of little to naught, I had 5 glorious hours of uninterrupted sleep last night. Sleeping is usually the one thing I’m good at. Insomnia has plagued me since Thursday. It Took 3+ hours to fall asleep last night, like I forgot how.

Anyway, things r good. I’m eXercising. Leaving the house. Doing fun things. Optimistic about 2020 in general. And at least for a while, rid of depression which kicks arse.

Anyway, it’s good to read what u all r up to. I feel a tad like a tool posting a new topic all about me and not checking in how other ppl r doing. But being gone, it’s too overwhelming going back to read wht is going on w everyone. I did try tho.

Wishing u all a great week.

Welcome back!

[falcon09]

Only 4 days after being discharged from hospital and I'm struggling.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve built my expectations for 2020 too high and I’m vascillating between stress/overwhelm and SI. Darn perfectionism! I’m going to work on more reasonable plans and expectations and on having more compassion for myself.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

It's great you can recognize this now.
I hope you will find a happy medium! Much Love

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by falcon09

Only 4 days after being discharged from hospital and I'm struggling.

I feel for you. How many days were you IP?

[falcon09]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I feel for you. How many days were you IP?

Only 5 days

[Moose72]

N3 texted me for a ride home for him and his gf after a 715 movie 7 miles away! Not a huge deal but I'm feeling lazy tonight after getting up at 5 and having no nap. Sooooo.... N1 to the rescue! I called her up and she said yes she will get them! Early bed for me. What a great child!!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by falcon09

Only 5 days

Is there an after-hours number you can call and talk with somebody at your pdoc's office?

[falcon09]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Is there an after-hours number you can call and talk with somebody at your pdoc's office?

Unfortunately not. I see my therapist tomorrow so I will have to hold on until then.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by falcon09

Unfortunately not. I see my therapist tomorrow so I will have to hold on until then.

At least it's tomorrow!

Man, I really hate Oompa Loompas right now, especially the ones who wish to see the world burn.

This sh_t gives me anxiety. Not another war.

Well, I am going to try to sleep this off. G'night, folks!

[Pookyl]

A Happy New Year to everyone!
I’ve now been stable for 5 mths which is great. I’m still in holiday mode - or at least my brain is. I’m finding it extremely difficult to get moving in the morning. Getting anything done is proving to be hard. I hope I snap out of it soon. Being this unmotivated is not a good thing.
My anxiety is manageable at the moment. I read a quote the other day and have decided to see if I can apply it to my life “feel the fear, and do it anyway”.
Wishing you all well. Hugs to those who need them.

I was excited about going out with my neighbor with my dog and a dog she is minding so they could play fetch. But the dog turned out to be much bigger and rowdy and tried to hump my dog. So it was awful. Also, i had a hard time talking with my neighbor who told me this long plot of a movie without making any point. I just wanted her to stop talking. I'm so exhausted from my depression it's absurd.