[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

@ Christina Oh man, I'm so sorry. People can be so oblivious to how their actions affect others. Too much self-focus. I'm especially sorry that this is happening to someone as wonderful as you.


@WC You have been an AMAZING trooper through all of this .. I'd call it "nonsense", but that doesn't convey just how very wrong all of this is...

Sending thoughts for continuing strength.


@Miss Laura Good to see you, and so glad you're doing so well!

Thanks IZ

[Daonnachd]

Not feeling social - at all, but did feel like giving an update.

Not sure if I reported this to you, but in Nov my wife was fired for something she didn't do. Yes, we're suing.

Now we're being evicted. We have to be out in 60 days.

I'm not doing well.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Oh Daonnachd I'm so sorry. That is way too much to deal with at once. Is there any way we can support you? Are you still getting your ECT treatments?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Oh Daonnachd I'm so sorry. That is way too much to deal with at once. Is there any way we can support you? Are you still getting your ECT treatments?

For now my ECT continues. The hospital where I do it is covering most of the cost.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Not feeling social - at all, but did feel like giving an update.

Not sure if I reported this to you, but in Nov my wife was fired for something she didn't do. Yes, we're suing.

Now we're being evicted. We have to be out in 60 days.

I'm not doing well.

Oh no! I am so sorry you and your must go through this,
Love and Prayers for All of you!

[VerMOZZica]

I`m not feeling great today. I had difficulty getting out of bed today. I also feel guilty because I didn`t get much done today . I just want to escape into a good night`s sleep. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Hugs to all those struggling right now.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Not feeling social - at all, but did feel like giving an update.

Not sure if I reported this to you, but in Nov my wife was fired for something she didn't do. Yes, we're suing.

Now we're being evicted. We have to be out in 60 days.

I'm not doing well.

Omg I’m so sorry do you have anywhere to go ?

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Omg I’m so sorry do you have anywhere to go ?

No, not sure where we'll go. That's the scary part.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

No, not sure where we'll go. That's the scary part.

Oh no I am so sorry your in this situation. Maybe the lawyer to sue for wrongful termination might know of some help finding housing? I am really glad your still getting your ECT. Now would be a terrible time to not get it. Sending you love , hope and a answer to your struggles

[~Christina]

I am still really sad ? Hurt? Unwanted nor needed.

I know kids grow up and have there own lives.. maybe I expect too much ?

My husband said one day we might just not be able to make the trips anymore since this one was so hard on us both. Today ? I have no desire to go back.. maybe if I don’t go and just stay home with our dogs one of his kids will offer him a bed or even a couch ?

It’s times like this I really wonder ... What is the point of it all ? This life?

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am still really sad ? Hurt? Unwanted nor needed.

I know kids grow up and have there own lives.. maybe I expect too much ?

My husband said one day we might just not be able to make the trips anymore since this one was so hard on us both. Today ? I have no desire to go back.. maybe if I don’t go and just stay home with our dogs one of his kids will offer him a bed or even a couch ?

It’s times like this I really wonder ... What is the point of it all ? This life?

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I am still really sad ? Hurt? Unwanted nor needed.

I know kids grow up and have there own lives.. maybe I expect too much ?

My husband said one day we might just not be able to make the trips anymore since this one was so hard on us both. Today ? I have no desire to go back.. maybe if I don’t go and just stay home with our dogs one of his kids will offer him a bed or even a couch ?

It’s times like this I really wonder ... What is the point of it all ? This life?

This really makes me angry at your kids. The travel is a huge effort on your part. Don't they see how hard the trip is just in general?
I am feeling sorry/sad for you.
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
bizi

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bizi

This really makes me angry at your kids. The travel is a huge effort on your part. Don't they see how hard the trip is just in general?
I am feeling sorry/sad for you.
((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
bizi

There’s a part of me that wants to think they are just so busy in there own lives they just don’t think about it. But honestly ? I am sure they are aware. Which just makes me more mad than sad. It’s just stupid ! I need to not care !

Last night I realized that my mood has dipped. I had trouble falling asleep because of sad thoughts. Normally I am able to put them behind me, but it's been a bit tougher lately. I'm not bouncing back well from all the weeks of stress. That doesn't mean this mood dip has to continue, though. I have to start reminding myself about and practicing coping skills. I see my tdoc today and pdoc tomorrow.

Hubby finally finished a project that he's been working on for years. There is only one last thing to see before it's 100% final. That is one of those things where you don't know if there will be surprise issues until you literally have the finished product in your hand to examine. If the finished physical product is perfect (or near perfect), then it is 100% over. I told my husband to then do the distribution and literally and figuratively put the sucker on a shelf and forget about it for a while, letting it collect figurative dust. Maybe not real dust. We like our house dusted

Add on: I just signed up for a Meetup this Saturday. It is one I attended once a long while back.

I'm dragging a small boulder with a chain. I will not add anything additional beyond the one Meetup event and the French class, for a while.

Well, my internet service got suspended, so that's always nice. (Sarcasm)

Apparently I didn't pay my bill? I had autopay setup and when I called Comcrap, they said I did not have it set up. Obviously something in their system had a hiccup because I have been living here for 2 years with autopay setup for my internet bill. What the hell? Now I have to wait a business day for my payment to post and then who knows how long after that for my service to continue. F_ck me!

Ah well. I guess I'll just watch some movies... Not like I can do anything about this until the payment posts. Sh_t.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Well, my internet service got suspended, so that's always nice. (Sarcasm)

Apparently I didn't pay my bill? I had autopay setup and when I called Comcrap, they said I did not have it set up. Obviously something in their system had a hiccup because I have been living here for 2 years with autopay setup for my internet bill. What the hell? Now I have to wait a business day for my payment to post and then who knows how long after that for my service to continue. F_ck me!

Ah well. I guess I'll just watch some movies... Not like I can do anything about this until the payment posts. Sh_t.

Sorry Blue! How frustrating! That is one messed-up company, in my opinion/experience.. They have quite a monopoly here and I cannot get away from them! Most people I know would like a different provider; yet, there is no choice.

Have you tried to set up another (or a new) email account with them? What a fiasco! It took 2 hours...they need multiple phone numbers , smart phones, etc. I kept telling them we were setting up an account for my 80 y.o. mother! No smart phones, no multiple tel. numbers, no extra email accts, etc,.

We used to be able to set up email accounts ourselves, as admins of our own acct. No longer! Have you seen the community forums for them? Outrageous, the ongoing chronically unresolved issues. and

I hope things get fixed sooner than you think they might.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

There’s a part of me that wants to think they are just so busy in there own lives they just don’t think about it. But honestly ? I am sure they are aware. Which just makes me more mad than sad. It’s just stupid ! I need to not care !

(((((( Christina ))))))

I am so sorry, as you know.

It is very tough to know when to throw in the towel, for sure.

When I feel like throwing in the towel, I find I have a choice of:
- simply following through on giving up, or

- Thinking about whether or not there might be a (another or a new) way to reach them, a way that I have not yet tried. Granted, a new way usually means making myself even more vulnerable and again open for more hurt.

I then have to decide if I am up for taking yet another risk?

I think you have time to think about all of this: Time to think it all over, time to discuss options with Steve, etc.

Give yourself a lot of credit for trying. Give yourself time to process everything.

You know where to find me!

Love ya!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Last night I realized that my mood has dipped. I had trouble falling asleep because of sad thoughts. Normally I am able to put them behind me, but it's been a bit tougher lately. I'm not bouncing back well from all the weeks of stress. That doesn't mean this mood dip has to continue, though. I have to start reminding myself about and practicing coping skills. I see my tdoc today and pdoc tomorrow.

Hubby finally finished a project that he's been working on for years. There is only one last thing to see before it's 100% final. That is one of those things where you don't know if there will be surprise issues until you literally have the finished product in your hand to examine. If the finished physical product is perfect (or near perfect), then it is 100% over. I told my husband to then do the distribution and literally and figuratively put the sucker on a shelf and forget about it for a while, letting it collect figurative dust. Maybe not real dust. We like our house dusted

Add on: I just signed up for a Meetup this Saturday. It is one I attended once a long while back.

I'm dragging a small boulder with a chain. I will not add anything additional beyond the one Meetup event and the French class, for a while.

I truly admire your insights and your ability to manage yourself so well. In a different thread, over the past couple of days, I saw your list of coping skills. I am very impressed!

I do hope you will be feeling better soon!

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sorry Blue! How frustrating! That is one messed-up company, in my opinion/experience.. They have quite a monopoly here and I cannot get away from them! Most people I know would like a different provider; yet, there is no choice.

Have you tried to set up another (or a new) email account with them? What a fiasco! It took 2 hours...they need multiple phone numbers , smart phones, etc. I kept telling them we were setting up an account for my 80 y.o. mother! No smart phones, no multiple tel. numbers, no extra email accts, etc,.

We used to be able to set up email accounts ourselves, as admins of our own acct. No longer! Have you seen the community forums for them? Outrageous, the ongoing chronically unresolved issues. and

I hope things get fixed sooner than you think they might.

Yeah. A lot of people in the U.S. are stuck with Comcrap because Comcrap has a monopoly in most places, as is the case with you too. Hell, even when I lived in downtown Boston, all I could get was Comcrap! I looked for Fios and other stuff, but nope, only Comcrap! You'd figure the city would have more options?!

What they're doing to your 80 year old mom is ridiculous!! Not everyone is able to use much tech. Sounds like they gave you a headache too!!

My uncle got screwed by them though. He likes to stream movies and download them onto hard drives or some kind of external storage (because movie licenses etc get deleted or expire so easily). Well, he had unlimited bandwidth and unlimited everything else, but they suspended his account said, "no, you have to have a business account with us if you want to use our internet as much as you are now." WTF?! So much for "unlimited"... He switched to Fios and hasn't had a single problem!!

[Miss Laura]

Just came from seeing my Community Psychiatric Nurse (CPN) I'm doing good woohoo. Seeing her again 11th Feb wouldbof been the 4th but it's my Birthday and I don't fancy seeing her then lol. I'm feeling so good.

Weather is horrendous here.... torrential rain and strong winds mor fun at all

[Wild Coyote]

I woke up to a frantic mother, telling me there was no heat!
I LOVE my bedroom COLD and would not have noticed if the furnace had quit. I have a window open all winter.

I went into the basement to check on the furnace. Not working. I threw the emergency switch and...nothing. I am sitting here waiting for the gas company to show up to diagnose what ails the furnace. Hopefully, it is something that can be easily fixed.
My mom was freezing cold and was, tearfully, feeling very overwhelmed.. Sent her to the senior center, where she can interact with her friends and can enjoy the distractions there. We will see what transpires!

Things like this keep me young! I have to think on my feet, shift gears, improvise, etc. It may feel very inconvenient; yet, it keeps me using some skills which could otherwise fall by the wayside. This viewpoint might be the silver lining?.
Let's see how I feel when it is 6 pm and the gas company has not yet shown up! LOL!

I hope everyone has a great day!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Yeah. A lot of people in the U.S. are stuck with Comcrap because Comcrap has a monopoly in most places, as is the case with you too. Hell, even when I lived in downtown Boston, all I could get was Comcrap! I looked for Fios and other stuff, but nope, only Comcrap! You'd figure the city would have more options?!

What they're doing to your 80 year old mom is ridiculous!! Not everyone is able to use much tech. Sounds like they gave you a headache too!!

My uncle got screwed by them though. He likes to stream movies and download them onto hard drives or some kind of external storage (because movie licenses etc get deleted or expire so easily). Well, he had unlimited bandwidth and unlimited everything else, but they suspended his account said, "no, you have to have a business account with us if you want to use our internet as much as you are now." WTF?! So much for "unlimited"... He switched to Fios and hasn't had a single problem!!

They had absolutely no "fix" to allow my mother to have an email account on her own com____acct! She pays that bill. It is her account; yet, no way to allow her an email account?

I gave them a very hard time. They finally put me through to a supervisor. Shen had to use MY accounts (my email, my phone) to make it work. My mom has two phone numbers, but one has to be a smart phone.

I DESPISE what technology and less than mindful techie companies are doing to our elderly. I had bought my mom a computer recently. Want the instructions or info? Read the code on the front of the computer! Well, how is she supposed to do that? Yes, I can look it up on the net; yet, how is she and others her age supposed to do all of this...and life demands they have access to email, in the least.

At least she tries (and gives me a part-time job of untangling her computer issues). She prints out info for her friends, who have no idea of how to use s a computer.

For anyone reading and dealing with an elderly person who wants to use a computer,I suggest:

Windows 10S. Yes, 10 S! the "S" is important! This version of Windows does not let her accidentally download/install strange programs. IF someone gets in touch with her and tells her to download something, the computer will not allow it. It will also BLOCK suspicious sites, not just warn about them.

A 10s version of Windows can be switched into a windows 10 Home version; however, it cannot be again reversed to 10S.

The other suggestion is a specific computer/program endorsed by AARP.

I hope the gas company gets here soon. I need to dig deep into some files and write some certified letters. I need to have super concentration, which is not one of my strengths. A major interruption would likely have me starting all over again, reviewing everything, drafting new letters, etc. No. I do not want to have to do that again. I also need to make some important calls and cannot be interrupted. (The gas company will not give any time frame as to when they might arrive, since this is considered an emergency.)

Love to All!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Just came from seeing my Community Psychiatric Nurse (CPN) I'm doing good woohoo. Seeing her again 11th Feb wouldbof been the 4th but it's my Birthday and I don't fancy seeing her then lol. I'm feeling so good.

Weather is horrendous here.... torrential rain and strong winds mor fun at all

Thanks for your update!

it is great to see you doing so well!

What types of social things do you do when you are feeling well?
I am trying to think of some I could do this winter.

I hope you continue to do well!

[Miss Laura]

Hey WC,

Tbh I just go with the flow. I'm actually looking into setting up singing lessons as I love singing and miss it. I sing all the time but I want my voice back I use to sing opera... can't anymore as i haven't had lessons in about 8 years.

I've decided I'm going to do something for me this year instead of thinking of everyone else. I've kinda learnt my friends don't actually care for or about me. So i can just ignore all my thoughts i have on them all. I spend too much of my time thinking about everyone else so now it's my time

[Moose72]

Where is my brain today? I was up at 5 to get n3 to work by 6. Then I went to starbucks and read "Madness: A Bipolar Life" by Marya Hornbacher. (Rereading it.) Then I made it to my eye appointment on time at 7:45. Easy fast appointment. Ive been having troubles reading things far away so I went to a big box optometry place to get "cheap" glasses. I spent more than I wanted but not more than I could've. Then I got back to my car to find I'd left the lights on! Battery = dead! Called AAA. They came quickly so that was nice. I remembered NOT to turn off the car for 25 minutes! Yay me! Then I got gas but later when I got back in my car after spending a while at Starbucks I discovered my gas door was open and the gas cap was missing! Where is my BRAIN today?! So I had to buy another one. Meh.

So Im feeling broke and stupid when peter offers to get a joint savings account with me! Just for little things I want he said! Well talk about the devil went down to Georgia!! I thought about it for a good 15 m*nutes then realized that doing so would trigger all my "wellfare": Housing commission, foodstamps, SSI, Medicaid...!!! At last my head was screwed on straight and I refused his offer. *SIGH*... Then again, I don't think I want to be financially tangled with Peter more than I already am. That would change our relationship. Money does that.

So now I'm home resting. Its almost 3 p.m. Noah went with Sharlene's aunt to Sharlene's eye appointment today. Probably to see how its healing and to "check in" after a hospitalization type appointment. That's it for me for now. More when I know more!