Road My Own, by Beth 12/28

Found the Zyprexa in the dumpster, which was a mistake to begin with as I drop old meds in the drug store box thing. I'm desperate and feel like an effing fool.

When I first had psychosis a friend said well you know people pay good money for that kind of thing lol

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic When I first had psychosis a friend said well you know people pay good money for that kind of thing lol

OMG, don't even I was desperately digging through the dumpster; I know at least 1 neighbor was watching me.

Okay, saw my therapist today; she was so kind and helpful. I was able to get an appt. with Dr. W. tomorrow morning. Praise the universe.

Glad you have an appt

Thanks, Christina. Me, too.

Dr. W. was very compassionate. She prescribed Latuda (20mg a.m./20mg p.m.). She did say that Latuda is indicted more for psychosis. I'm not sure why she said that; everything I read says primarily BP depression. Ah, who knows, who cares, I just hope the stuff works.

Good luck with the Latuda!

I'd used Latuda for Bipolar Depression. I'd found it quite activating.

Latuda has been touted as good for “Bipolar Deoression” But when your dealing with any psych Med ??? Since we all react differently it’s possible it can offer many different results.

Our brains , well brains in general are so complex. Years ago my Mom, no mental illness or any health problem except high cholesterol and on a med for at least a couple years never a problem.

She was a hair dresser and was dealing with a lot of back pain, I said I have ibuprofen want to try it ? Sure

About 4 hours later she called me freaking out. She kept trying to call me using the ac/heat control on the wall. Eventually she Got to the phone.

I went and took her to the Er right away I wanted a CT to make sure she wasn’t having a stroke.

Her scan was clear, she never took another dose and had it listed under her allergies at all medical offices.

So I truly believe any medication can do some strange things.

I hope Latuda helps you with whatever part of your Bipolar that is causing troubles.

Feel better soon!

Thank you so much, Christina.

How unnerving about your mom. Wow. My daughter had a similar reaction to a penicillin based antibiotic. Scary as hell.

Slept well and a lot. Honestly, wish I could go to bed, read, and sleep. Every time I have one of these crashes I'm purely exhausted and need to recoup.


It's too early to tell, but I have such high hopes for the Latuda. I know one thing, so far I am not ravenously hungry (I was by the second dose of Zyprexa).

Awoke feeling uncomfortably jittery. I sure hope it's a fluke and not the Latuda.

The jittery feeling seems to have passed, even after another Latuda dose. Fingers crossed xx

Latuda generally is weight neutral and doesn’t make you want to eat your couch like Zyprexa does to so many thankfully.

I did gain on Latuda but thats because I developed metabolic syndrome from previous psych meds.

I’m glad your not have any side effects this far. Honestly I haven’t heard/read many complaints. I think in general it’s a helpful Med or simply not.

Hope it is a great fit for you.

Christina, your encouragement means so much to me. Thank you. And YES! It's nice to eat a meal without devouring the plate and utensils, too

Realizing I should have posted this thread in Bipolar Treatments.


Latuda side effect of nausea, so I took 1/2 a non-drowsy Dramamine, which helped.

There's a gang war going on, so a second drive-by (both killed) on my block last night. My husband counted 20 cops/ER vehicles at the scene. Another night of hearing gunshots didn't help my anxiety, nor did hearing the girlfriend of the murdered boy (he was only 19) screaming, completely hysterical, for an hour. Why the medics didn't take her to the hospital, I do not know. Hearing her was heartbreaking.

Now I'm fearful that there's a huge cloud of despair hanging over here, waiting to take more lives. The day looks sunny, but what if the thing is hiding itself? I'm terrified that my cats will be hurt by the bad energy.


I cannot, cannot go back on an AP. Maybe better to add Buspar (as pdoc lightly suggested) to the parade of pills than to add in an AP. I swear, though...I can't swallow more pills every night.

I was calmer during the day; saw the family of the victim sitting and praying around a beautiful memorial they've created where the boy fell last night, when he was shot. Seeing the family took my focus off myself as I felt compassion for them.

What a terrifying experience. I’m sorry this happened to that family but also to you.

I’m glad today your feeling better.

As for Buspar? I tried it for at least 3 months and it did nothing. My Daughter who also has Bipolar it was a miracle for her over a year then it just quit on her, so many psych meds are like that

My Pdoc told me it’s going to either help pretty quickly or do nothing at all in his experience. I had zero side effects taking it, nor did my daughter.

Hope you find something that helps

I’m so sorry such a trauma happened so close to you. I know that must be terrifying! Latuda has worked for me and I hope it continues to work for you.

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Originally Posted by cashart10 I’m so sorry such a trauma happened so close to you. I know that must be terrifying! Latuda has worked for me and I hope it continues to work for you.

Oh, wow - that's great to hear. I know, everybody's different...still, it's helpful to know you've had success with Latuda.

Ugh, everyone in town is on edge with the shootings. I've been jumpy all day, every noise.

Slept really hard. Severe night sweats. Definitely feel less depressed, but anxiety doesn't seem to budge (probably in part because I have been alone for days; trapped in my own mind too much).

Drank a bottle of kombucha, which has as much alcohol as 1 beer (plus a lot of healthy properties). I never drink alcohol (never), but I've been drinking kombucha more frequently lately because it takes the edge off the afternoon anxiety.

Husband came over for an hour and watched football, then left and I'm back to crazy lonely. No meds are going to alleviate this feeling. I wish there was a good movie to go to so I could blow some hours.

Do you have any plans coming up to get you out of the house ?

I think we all need to have things to look forward too mental illness or not.

I see my Pdoc Monday.. I’m more looking forward to just the drive there and music turned up loud lol

Well that’s if I can physically get out of my driveway it’s currently a lake ! lol

Is there any movies out you might enjoy ? I don’t know if your a reader or not , but I love wandering a book store preferably in a old dusty one is best....., and roam around until I find a book... maybe the cover colors catches my eye or the size or just a feeling.

What about grabbing a coffee and maybe journal !? or keep sunglasses on and just people watch?!! I personally enjoy that.

I truly need to get out of my house more often but I have a gas budget I need to work with.

Hope you find something to perk you up

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Do you have any plans coming up to get you out of the house ? I think we all need to have things to look forward too mental illness or not. I agree - in fact, being locked up and away def worsens my mental health. Ah, I've been struggling more this week because I was working on what I initially went to therapy for, which was a grief/loss/PTSD issue. It's been a year of my T covering this, that - finally I said...how's about we work on what I came here for? Okay, so we started out, she talked up help and hope - then was out sick for the next session. She has told me that she sometimes takes "mental health days" - I was pretty sure she'd taken one of those the day she was out. I have to admit, I was annoyed. Yeah, I realize it's not all about me, but I was annoyed, all the same. So it threw my week off. I see my Pdoc Monday.. I’m more looking forward to just the drive there and music turned up loud lol I'm right there! Well that’s if I can physically get out of my driveway it’s currently a lake ! lol Is there any movies out you might enjoy ? I don’t know if your a reader or not , but I love wandering a book store preferably in a old dusty one is best....., and roam around until I find a book... maybe the cover colors catches my eye or the size or just a feeling. Yes, love to read and I am reading a novel this week-end. It's a life-saver because I really need it now. And in my opinion, we can tell a book by it's cover The cover color, size, the feeling...for sure. What about grabbing a coffee and maybe journal !? or keep sunglasses on and just people watch?!! I personally enjoy that. So do I. Good ideas for tomorrow! I truly need to get out of my house more often but I have a gas budget I need to work with. Hope you find something to perk you up

I have a very busy week ahead, which is great. I miss my daughter.

The gas budget is a pisser! We're at $4/gallon here...Sunday drives are a pleasant memory...

Thank you, Christina I hope you're having a peaceful night.

Your welcome....

Do follow up with your T about picking a problem or issue and working to resolve it. Personally I don’t understand Therapy that isn’t goal orientated. I’m glad you have a good book and a busy week coming up