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Glad it was sorted out ... as for Thorazine being useless to me ? Trust me I am a very very difficult case for Doctors to try and Medicate. I took a lot extra Xanax and other things last night to chemically knock me out, it worked but it wasn’t restful sleep. But I am wide awake , alert completely. Most anyone with that amount I took.. would maybe wake up tomorrow. Years ago when I had my gallbladder removed I wound up needing almost twice the normal anesthesia. My body metabolizes meds extremely fast. I hope Thorazine is a fantastic drug for you ![]()
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Congratulations !!!!!!
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I had a very enjoyable afternoon with my nephew. After he finished his IOP for the day (12:30 pm) we went out to lunch to a local Italian pizzeria restaurant. Then he asked if we could walk in my town's downtown area (he's from my childhood hometown, not my current one of 20+ years). He said he had barely seen the town, which is pretty odd since it's a town of great historic and touristic interest, less than 40 minutes from where he lives. We walked around for over 1 hour in both the main part of downtown and on the university campus. Then we warmed up a little in the university art museum, which is free to the public. Actually, I hadn't seen some parts of the campus we walked through. It is a beautiful and old campus with amazing architecture. The sky was blue all day, but only 39 F / 4 C. I confess that I'm not used to such exercise (in the cold). To him it was nothing. I'm currently in bed under a wool blanket with a cup of hot espresso.
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#355
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Thanks everyone. I don't think I know my job all that well since it's a relatively new position for me and my project focus has changed dramatically. That's my major concern. On top of that, it looks like I will be directly managing some interns this summer, so there will be a period of overlap where I'm mentoring (starting soon) and managing (starting in May). Ughhh. Basically nonstop!
Anyway, I've decided to learn guitar... for the third time. I already own two guitars and I have all the accessories (minus one important one that I lost... the tuner!). I just never stuck with it the first two times because depression took the wind out of me. However, I've been playing various instruments since I was 9 and I'll be turning 29 in May, so... we're talking 20 years of understanding music theory. I just have to get used to messing around with the guitar again. Also, why I own two guitars... Well, I first bought an acoustic guitar and accessories when manic, but shortly thereafter, I became heavily depressed and wanted to do nothing but sleep. Then later on, I moved into an apartment and decided I was gonna start playing guitar again, but... the acoustic was too loud for the apartment, which made me realize I would annoy my neighbors. Thus, I bought an electric guitar and I just either don't plug it into the amp or I put the amp on at a low volume. |
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#356
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I am doing well. I did some vacuuming and household chores. I feel pretty good. The shots are doing me wonders. I am planning to leave my current situation in a month or two. Then, I will try to find work and be on my own. I need to take baby steps. I have not thought that much about changing my situation but know I will face challenges from the change. I am hoping to stick to my shots and remain stable.
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#357
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I would just caution you about guitars and mania. I got manic one week a few years ago and all the sudden, all these really nice guitars started showing up from FedEx. 6 beautiful guitars in three days. My partner was like, what are these? I was like, i'm not sure. I might have bought them online while I was manic. Sort of. She was furious. Really nice guitars, though. She made me sell 4 of them.
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My cat is home! He’s been sequestered in the back room
With his own litter box so I can make sure he’s peeing. When I came home today the litter box was full of clumps! So he’s peeing normally. I let him out of the room and he didn’t try to pee on the carpet. I have to buy him special prescription food but whatever. As long as he’s ok. My new student had a rough morning but he pulled it together. Definitely not as challenging as my last kid! I kinda miss that kid though. Despite all the challenging behavior, I really liked him. I hope he’s doing ok. My son is staying at my mom’s this weekend. I was hoping to plan something with RS but it’s supposed to be down pouring on Saturday. I wanted to go to the botanical gardens in the city to take in the indoor orchid display. I’ll have to check out exactly when the rain is supposed to be. I’m just glad my cat is ok.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#359
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I hope you get to enjoy the botanical garden. That sounds lovely. I wish my two orchids were blooming! I think I know where you're talking about. If I'm right, my husband and I visited there several years back (several). Last edited by Anonymous46341; Jan 22, 2020 at 06:39 PM. |
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I have a cat on a prescription diet long-term. I have found that getting his food through chewy.com is much cheaper than the vet. You just have to get a prescription from the vet and send in a picture of it and they ship for free of $50 with 1-2 day delivery. I think I save $50/large bag. The price winds up being about the same as Blue Buffalo would be for the same time frame. I hope your guy doesn't need the diet long-term but if he does this might help a little. I hope he feels better soon.
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#361
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@Blue_Bird Congrats on the new apartment. That's great!
I spent the day cleaning. Dishes, laundry, washing and replacing my sheets back on the bed, putting away the laundry that I did. Got a shower. Can't get N3 to clean today though. I did read while listening to soothing music.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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I did something! I drove in bad weather with my new car. It's the lightest car I've ever driven. I wouldn't want to drive in snow any deeper than it was. But still I have a feeling of accomplishment. Mostly I don't drive in bad weather, I just do without until the roads clear up.
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Thanks Christina and Moose72 ! I'm super excited. It's a much nicer place and a lot more affordable through the program I'm in
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. ![]() |
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Glad you had a good time, yes I’d be in bed warming up !
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#366
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I think you will manage through it and maybe enjoy it at some point ... yes pick up the guitar ! Good distraction and being able to make music ? Beautiful gift ![]()
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#367
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![]() There's something very freeing about having done so! ![]()
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Glad he’s home and back to normal ![]()
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#369
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Good for you !!! Glad you got out ![]() The few times old man winter slapped us with snow and ice we literally just were stuck at home , there was no way to get out even if we wanted too. lol
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Eek! I'm so flippin' hyper right now. Have been since I got up. I went for a walk and everything wa sjust so beautiful so that didn't calm me down it just hyped me up even more! Now I'm listening to Broken Social Scene trying to chill out. I think I'm gonna try and see if an Ativan will calm me down because sitting still and being like this is driving me crazy!
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No, they just keep trying different ADs. I'm tempted to ask, but it scares me.
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The guitar isn't that expensive, fortunately. I think I paid $250 for it? It's an all black Epiphone Les Paul w/o a whammy bar. The only downside of it is that it doesn't stay in tune very well. I have to keep tuning it. But then again, it was a cheap guitar, so that's to be expected. (I'd rather risk damaging a sh_tty guitar than a nice one. Plus, it doesn't matter so much for a beginner.) If I get better at things and stick to it this time (at least 1 yr of everyday practice), then I'll buy a better guitar. But I'm definitely going to try to be careful with mania -- thanks. I did go overkill with some strings, though. I bought a bunch of regular custom gauge slinkys. At least I used a string already. (Snapped the high E string while trying to tune the crappy guitar!!) And I bought a bajillion accessories. ![]() |
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#375
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Have fun!!
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