Bipolar check-in #42

Nope nope nope toooo cold for me!!!! LOL !

I love that you have your niece in your life

Stay warm woman !!!! LOL !

Hope you feel calmer soon.

Weaning off your Med is likely the culprit

My apologies! I should have recalled you aren't on psych meds.

I have seen different people almost totally lose their executive functioning, etc., due to something they find stressful, emotionally taxing, upsetting.

The differences have been huge! Before and after major stress.

It's quite possible a neuropsychologist might be very helpful in understanding what's going on for you
I hope your appt is helpful!

I had to take my cat to the emergency vet today. He was peeing around the house but producing no urine. He was walking funny and just generally acting weird. I didn’t want him to suffer all weekend. And thank god I didn’t! He has a urinary blockage, and if I had let it go on another 24hrs, he would have died. He has to stay in the hospital for a couple of days while they pass a catheter to hopefully unblock him, and they will monitor him until he passes urine on his own. He should be home on Monday. I had to apply for care credit to pay for it ($2700! : eek: ) but he’s only 3 years old and I love him dearly. So I’ll just have another credit card to pay off. Oh well.

Not much going on otherwise. Crappy weather here today, snow and rain. Only an inch or so of snow though so that’s not bad.

Tomorrow I’m going wheeling agAin with RS and then we are helping my grandma take down her Christmas tree. My MIL wanted to have dinner but I didn’t want to drive 45 minutes. Monday me and my son have off. We probably won’t do much, I have a lot of chores around the house to get done.

Oh, your poor cat. That sounds so painful

Thank you so much!

I ended up getting off the couch and taking that shower...a normal one. And...I did some laundry, scrubbed the bottom and all of the shelves in the refrigerator (it’s needed to be done for a while), cleaned all of my kitchen appliances, and straightened up the house. I still didn’t feel wonderful but I just told myself that I wasn’t going to just lay there in my own filth doing nothing another day. My husband is still awake but I’m already dying tonight. I hope I actually get some sleep tonight. That is the only way I’ll have some normalcy. I added melatonin to my cocktail. We’ll see if that helps.

I’m so sorry about your cat! Poor thing...that’s awful! Sorry it’s so expensive too! That’s sounds ridiculous.

I hope you and your son enjoy your day off! My husband, kids and I are all off and we’re talking about going to a local Forrest where they have these hand carved wooden giants that are supposed to be beautiful! We haven’t made up our mind yet though because it’s supposed to be freezing cold so we’ll really have to bundle and I’m not so sure how fun that will be.

Depakote is a staple for me. I hope it works well and soon for you!

Thanks WC. When we were married we sought counselling, and we met with my T several times. My T knew our marriage T and they agreed it was hopeless in a lot of ways due to my partners gross lack of insight, or his ability to follow through with any suggested changes. I was advised to accept him as he is (and all that comes with it) or move on. I stayed with him for another year, but in the end the stress of being in a relationship with him was too much.

To get reduce stress we don't live together and meet up when we are both up to it. This works pretty well, and we do have fun - which is why I stay. However, I can feel him slowly dragging me down as at times he can be the most selfish, un-grateful, and even mean, person. He has personality issues along with Bipolar and ADHD. I can handle his metal illnesses; it's his personality flaws that crush me. He has been the love of my life. We have a very intense bond. It is going to be difficult working out what to do. There is no rush. I am not giving more than I am able or willing to give, and I don't put up with poor treatment either. It's stressful though.

Oh no ! I’m so glad you took your baby in.. it’s crazy how expensive vet Care is. But he’s family ..I hope he recovers quickly

Good for you !!! I’m sorry things are so tough but things will improve , when do you see your T ? When I’m bad I count the number of days.. it’s like okay I have 4 days ! When I wake up tomorrow I’ll have 3. A few times when real bad I counted hours.

Keep up the great self care and I hope you sleep well tonight

This is sad but I think you did all you could to save the marriage, least no regrets. It’s good you have been able to still enjoy each other’s company at times.

You do have to focus on your own mental health and if he’s making matters worse you defiantly need to take a huge step away

I n my mind, it make sit easier to end things when I know I have done all I could do. It's a tough to have such an intense tie to someone you cannot be with in a healthy way,

Maybe, in time, you can be friends to one another?

You are sounding very good and I remain hopeful you will achieve your goals for this year and beyond!

HI Guy!

I have been thinking of you, hoping you are feeling better than you might have been last week?

You and your wife have been/are un der a lot of stress and I am concerned.
Please let us know the ways in which we can be most supportive to you at this time?

What are you doing for fun/entertainment?
This is an area of my life I need to give more attention!
I am always looking for ideas!

My very best to you and to yours!

Hello WC!

The past week was much better than the week before. Thanks for checking.

I don't know how my friends here at PC could be more supportive. You already humour me. That's best when I'm feeling worthless like the last couple of days.

Fun and entertainment? I've actually been cleaning out my hobby room and either giving away or throwing away my stuff in preparation for moving to a smaller house. It makes me sad, but I don't know what else to do with it. I haven't got the energy to try to sell it. .... and right now I need to take the dog out for a walk.

I had hoped to have more energy and to get more done today, meeting some additional deadlines (need to be met soon). It is a quiet day around here, which is a good time to completes tasks requiring concentration.

I have also been studying some of the laws/regs/criteria that come into play with SSDI/SSI. Needless to say I am shocked. Some must be new regulations?
I need to have a good working understanding in order to properly advocate for myself. I have been stumbling around, doing my best while blindfolded.

Letters issued to me and claim reps, especially the one assigned to each claimant, are supposed to advise us of our rights to appeal any/all of the various decisions made within the disability determination process.. Claim reps are supposed to help us through the process. Absolutely none of this is occurring in my case. In fact, my assigned claims rep is very antagonistic.

As some of you know, I have gone as far as reporting this (in a formal complaint).

I will have more to share once this is all said and done. It will be done one day, just have no idea as to when and/or as to what it will take to push through the utter nonsense.

I am doing a lot with it and about it. I just cannot comment further right now.

I am working on distracting myself when I am not actively working on the issues/case.

I had looked up a couple of points/questions which had come to me late last night. One question/answer led to yet another and before I knew it. the clock read 6 am.! Not wise. I slept for two hours and then needed to get up to attend to my Sunday morning tasks, as well as to welcome company.

I need to go get some more rest, at least for another hour or two!
I hope everyone is having a decent day today.
Love to All!

I know you have tasks to complete. We all do. I know I go through this at times, too. It can feel very frustrating, of course. Please don't be too hard on yourself. You are doing whatever you can do! All we can do is to give it our best shot at any given time. I think you do so much more often than not!

I think this week will be relaxing for me at work. Lots of people in my group are already gone because they're on a trip to England. (This trip was not the trip I was worried about, though. I knew I wouldn't have to go to England, so I wasn't ever anxious about having to go there.)

As far as today goes, though, I've been doing a mix of reading, watching movies, and using my computer. Just total relaxation.

I'm probably going to read some more and then take a nap because I'm tired as hell. Mood is really good, though! But I'm not talking about having an upswing. I just mean feeling good and stable (for once).

I hope everyone has a great rest of their day.

You are always uncovering so many hidden things on SSDI and SSI !!

You know I appreciate all you and I have discussed.

So very scary things

Love you bunches !!

I’m so sorry that your having to move , having to get rid of things can be so depressing

I hope walking the dog gave you some smiles

So happy your doing well and enjoying life again

Well I am not at all a football fan but My Tennessee Titans are in the play offs so it pretty exciting !!!

I would love to see them in the Super Bowl woot woot !

Thanks, Christina, I really appreciate your thoughts. You're probably right. I need to detach from this. It will be exactly and perfectly whatever it is intended to be. And I will just have to do that. I am generally quite accepting of life's difficulties, but sleep has always been avery touchy subject for me. I just need to let go. Thanks for that.

It felt like a weight was lifted off me when I stopped being so worked up about it.

Hope it helps you also

bluebicycle, I felt relaxed just reading your low-stress sounding post. Enjoy the time with fewer people at the office!

Wild Coyote, keep at those SS people! Hopefully soon you'll finally be done with that nightmare.

Today was good for me. I did a lot of self-care that I don't normally do. My husband said he thinks my face is less red than yesterday, but I still see some redness. I hope it goes away. I have no idea what has caused it. I haven't used any new creams on my face. Hubby did put a cream on my forehead a few days ago, but the redness is not on my forehead.

I did some housework. Tomorrow the floors and bathrooms will be cleaned. I told hubby that perhaps afterwards we should invite our new neighbors over. I'm not up to anything major. Perhaps just drinks, tea/coffee, and a little dessert. We haven't even met them. We know they're Chinese, and we don't think they have any children.

Speaking of Chinese, hubby had the marvelous idea to go to a Chinese restaurant we discovered a month ago. That is, by far, the best authentic Chinese restaurant outside China towns. It is primarily a Szechuan restaurant (a lot of spicy), but they have other dishes, too. And it's very reasonably priced, with always lots of leftovers. Then this coming Saturday, we are invited to a Chinese friend's house for a Chinese New Years celebration. That will be absolutely marvelous! Chinese New Years celebrations are a most wonderful thing! So I guess this week I'll be practicing my rusty Chinese a bit. Our neighbors on the other side of us are mostly all Chinese, as well, but we never see them. They are 20 something year old graduate students at the university. I think they more often live in the labs.
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