Bipolar check-in #43

So I was up right before 9 this morning (went to bed at 2). I wanted to sleep another hour or 2, but I was too hungry. I take thyroid medication and probiotics on an empty stomach, so I had those and spent some time online for an hour before eating (this is my daily routine actually). I ate, then puttered around the internet again until my food settled enough. Slept from like 11:47-1:47 waking up once in between. so...that's like 9hours, right? It wouldn't be so bad, except for the timing of it. (should be sleeping by midnight and waking up at 9). Anyway, I'm up now and going to have my coffee. I feel so unmotivated to do anything right now, but maybe that coffee will help. I dunno. But I'm just so blah! I have a whole list of things to do, including writing a list of things to tell my doctor at my next appointment (in like 2 weeks), and I just don't want to/feel up to doing them (especially the list). Sigh!

Oh, wow, what a day.

I hadn't been sleeping for quite awhile, so pdoc increased Seroquel from 12,5 to 50mg over this past weekend.


I did sleep the first night (Sat.) and felt a little hung over.

I slept the 2nd night, last night, and I cannot get up and stay up. I am in a fog and just need to sleep. (It's 4pm.)


It's a very high pain day.

I do not feel like I can take my prn pain meds because I am so wiped out on Seroquel.


I can usually tolerate quite a bit more Seroquel, so some of this is possibly mood related.


I have appointments tomorrow and need to get straightened out before then.

I feel like I have been hit by a truck.


I think I am holding the Seroquel tonight.


Love to all!

I need help for this restlessness. Propranolol isn't doing anything. And on top of that, I have NOT been able to concentrate on my work. I feel awful about it. I might just ask for a sooner therapy appt to discuss what to do about it since I guess my pdoc is out of the office for two weeks now!! I doubt I'll get in for therapy sooner than my next appt, though, because my therapist is ALWAYS booked up. I guess it can't hurt to leave a voicemail...?

Bipolar wise doing ok.
Anxiety is really crippling me. I can’t leave my apartment. It’s bad. I think that I will tell my pdoc next week when I see her to go ahead and prescribe me an antidepressant for my anxiety. I can’t live like this. The community nurse that I see said she’s happy to pop in once a week to keep an eye on me if I start an antidepressant.
Any thoughts on using an antidepressant if you’re not depressed? Just severe anxiety.

I need help for this restlessness. Propranolol isn't doing anything. And on top of that, I have NOT been able to concentrate on my work. I feel awful about it. I might just ask for a sooner therapy appt to discuss what to do about it since I guess my pdoc is out of the office for two weeks now!! I doubt I'll get in for therapy sooner than my next appt, though, because my therapist is ALWAYS booked up. I guess it can't hurt to leave a voicemail...?

I am hurt that no one here commented on my asking my Scrabble mate to get together to play some games. Everyone says that it's healthy to have friends and a good support system and here i took a leap towards one and no one commented. I haven't asked anyone to get together with me since that dreadful fiasco in November about the hockey game. It seems that everyone here is down my throat when i do unhealthy things but when i do a pro-health thing no one comments. What do you want of me?

I am sorry you are having a tough time.

My sister and I have used Celexa (citalopram) for anxiety and even for slight agitation. Takes the edge off.

I love it! I've been off of it because my pdoc takes all of her BP patients off of SSRI meds.

I miss it!

I'll try to be brief, for a change. I visited my father today. I thought about doing it today, but was almost skipping out until he called, asking me to come. So I went. I actually had the best visit with him that I've had in a very long time. He was attentive and seemed not only better than recently, but better than I can even remember. He spoke frankly about his fears and concerns. We had a real serious conversation, but also reminisced about pleasant times, too. I wasn't nervous during the visit, and when I departed, he seemed so happy that I came. I sent my sister an email about today. I didn't mention to her that I told my father how wonderful, brave, and strong she (my sister) has been this past year. Honestly, I don't know how my family would have managed without the leading role my sister has taken.


On a lighter note, I've developed a silly habit of pressing my finger against an area above (to the left of) my chin. I do this so much, without realizing, that a red irritation has developed. I put some cream on it, but I have to stop the habit. I guess it's a pretty piddly issue, comparatively. I used to grind my teeth all of the time, so badly that I eventually needed two root canals, and my front teeth are much shorter than in my youth. The teeth grinding has stopped...at least for now. There's always something!

Neither my pdoc or me have been keen on taking the ssri route. Did being on an ssri cause you to become manic? I went manic on an snri 5yrs ago.

Hello all!


Am I being reasonable to rationalize a purchase of a case for an antique that is worth at least $6500? It already has a nick on it. The case costs about $250. I do not want to go on another spending spree. No way. Otherwise, I am doing fine. I go into work tomorrow, late in the morning, My schedule is great! I work 20 hours a week, and have Wednesday and the weekend off. I do not know what is wrong with me, No matter the job, good or bad, I always dread going into work. I need to change this behavior of mine. It is an automatic behavior that I have been conditioned for all of my life. I think my morning depression is the cause of this feeling,

fortunately, citalopram did not make me manic. No telling what it might do to anyone. Have you discussed something like Buspar?

Bipolar wise doing ok.

Anxiety is really crippling me. I can’t leave my apartment. It’s bad. I think that I will tell my pdoc next week when I see her to go ahead and prescribe me an antidepressant for my anxiety. I can’t live like this. The community nurse that I see said she’s happy to pop in once a week to keep an eye on me if I start an antidepressant.

Any thoughts on using an antidepressant if you’re not depressed? Just severe anxiety.

Buspar (Zyban) in Australia is marketed as a smoking cessation drug I.e. used for nicotine addiction so my pdoc has no experience using it for anxiety. She’s reluctant to make me a guinea pig.

That’s encouraging that citalopram didn’t make you manic.

Oh my gosh I haven’t been on here in a while. I even came close to having my account deleted and was relieved when I logged on now that I am still here!

Really struggling at times, I don’t even know what to do anymore. I don’t even know what to write at this moment. I’m just glad you’re still here and I can come back.

Hugs

Buspar (Zyban) in Australia is marketed as a smoking cessation drug I.e. used for nicotine addiction so my pdoc has no experience using it for anxiety. She’s reluctant to make me a guinea pig.


That’s encouraging that citalopram didn’t make you manic.

Sometimes we just have to force ourselves to get up and do things regardless of our wanting too. Using a 15 Min timer tool can help stay motivated.

Are you on Meds? If so then you know they can only do so much.

Now If your not on meds then you might truly want to see a Pdoc and start something ... why just suffer? There is help available ...

We often just have to push push push ourself out of our comfort zone and get help and get on striving to better our life

I don’t know if this type of advice is something that is helpful if so that’s great if not just let me know and I just hush up

Can you print off some info or show your Pdoc on your phone about how Wellbutrin is helping a lot of people. He can order it as an off label. I mean Lamictal is actually a seizure medication that was found to help BP depression. So many meds are multi purpose.

Something needs to be tried.

@~Christina I had to double check on this, but I did post a follow up to this post you were commenting on. Maybe you didn't see it. Anyway, I had coffee and I was SUPER productive the rest of the day.


I am on meds for depression and anxiety. I've even been recommended a second antidepressant but I've been feeling pretty decent on and off for the past few months.