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Old Feb 09, 2020, 06:41 PM
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Black eye still a hideous mess, and will be for some time. Co-workers recommended arnica, so I picked some up last night.

That's about it. Mood-wise alright I guess. More upset with myself than anything. Being such a klutz and all.

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Awwhh

Yes, arnica is known to help with bruising.

If you ever want/need a revved up topical arnica, see Penetrex. Amazing stuff. It is arnica, plus. (can be found at Amazon, Walmart or Penetrex.com).

I think regular strength arnica will likely do fine with your bruising.
I use the heavy -duty arnica for muscle strains, neuropathy pain, etc.

You are amazing! I admire how you keep going to work, take public transportation to get there and back, etc.

I hope your bruises will be gone soon!

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Having a pretty good day! Between exercising today and acupuncture yesterday, I feel more relaxed. I went to the gym and out to dinner with a friend. I am now trying to work on my paper. This is my best week of the month with my hormones and I need to take advantage and live life to the fullest haha. I had some good moments of insight into my brain during my acupuncture session. I guess it's also good for a moment of mindfulness as what else can you do at that moment? I was thinking about my relationships with others and how guarded I can be, almost suspicious at times. This is not healthy and I think comes from some bad experiences being picked on growing up and at work. I need to talk to my therapist more about this and how I could possibly work on my interactions with people.

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Old Feb 09, 2020, 08:46 PM
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My sister begged me to visit her at her new apartment yesterday with my parents and her boyfriend. What a nightmare! I don't know why I even went. It was awful in so many ways. For example, my dad partly came down to help her out with setting up curtains and her headboard for her bed. My dad had been working from like 2:30pm until 6pm setting everything up because the headboard's holes didn't align with the bed frame's holes, and the curtains were being a pain. Well, at 6pm, my dad said he was tired and couldn't finish the curtains, so he offered to come by the next day. My sister then screamed at him: "WHY DID YOU EVEN COME? YOU WERE GOING TO DO ALL OF THIS FOR ME AND NOW YOU DIDN'T DO IT. YOU DON'T LOVE ME, DO YOU?"


The thing is... it took my dad over an hour to drive there and back, and he had already spent part of his day buying supplies to even set that stuff up in her apartment. (Electric screwdriver, curtain rods, etc..) So all in all, he was out from like 8am until 6pm and was exhausted. But no, she could not be thankful. She just screamed at him, and IN FRONT OF HER BOYFRIEND.


I don't know why she is so abusive and manipulative!! Awful human being!! She treats people like trash when they don't do everything she wants. Plus, she didn't even BUY anything. Didn't buy the electric screwdriver, didn't buy the curtain rods, didn't buy the curtains, didn't buy the headboard, etc. etc..


Anyway, it was awkward for me to stand there and watch her yell at him. I was helping my dad out with stuff, and I told my sister to calm down, but she was like, "NO!!!!! HE TOLD ME HE WOULD DO ALL OF THIS TODAY!!!!! STAY OUT OF IT!!!!!!"


Whatever. That's the last time I go to visit her. I can't stand her. I only went because she wanted me to see it before she starts her new job. She was being manipulative about it and I gave in. I shouldn't have.


Oh Blue

She’s so nasty and hateful. I wish your parents would also just flat refuse to help her or even see her. Maybe” that will be the only thing that will require she looks at her behavior. Her boyfriend is absolutely stupid if he stays with her.

She’s a horrible nasty person.. I am glad you are just done done and done .. You do not need that on your life, at all.
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Old Feb 09, 2020, 09:00 PM
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I've been reading today. Talked with my dad finally. Last week I dreamed that he died! AND so did my sister! I hadn't been able to get ahold of him until today. He called me back. He said he was perfectly alive and all was well. We had a nice conversation. Makes me happy. He's 72. He's not in the best of health but he's plugging along. He lives alone. Sometimes, I wish he didn't.


I am sitting across the table from my friend Cr. She's feverishly doing homework. She's in grad school for occupational therapy. I wrote my penpal an email while I've been sitting here. One of the managers here just ran like a bat outta hell out the front doors to his car. No coat on either. Im wondering if something happened to his daughter or his pregnant wife.


N3 is at his gf's house. Its her birthday. I hope he is having a good time.


My mom and her husband are going to Disney on Thursday. Im jealous. I have zero idea when I'd be able to afford going there again. For a whole month, I have to get the mail and water the plants. That's going to add up quickly!


I've been thinking that it would help if I got a job. But I haven't had one in so long. And last time, I got so confused at all the rules and instructions how to cook this and that. My memory couldn't keep up. Then I think "what about volunteering"? I keep thinking of the humane society for some reason. But then I'd have to deal with them putting animals down. I get so conflicted about this.


I’m glad your dad is okay. Yes N3 out, your friend busy with school work.

I can understand why having busy people around you would get you thinking about finding a parttime job or volunteer... it’s a hard decision to think on. You have to watch so you don’t make to much to put your SSDI and housing at risk.

Yes I often think of volunteering at our local pound, yes them putting down would be really hard for me to handle, I’d probably be smuggling lots out the back door to save and take home.

Maybe you can start scrimping and savings any way you can and can afford a trip next year ??
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Old Feb 09, 2020, 09:14 PM
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@bpcyclist: So glad to hear you got some sleep! Yay!

In my news, i have started several supportive posts and erased them. I just don't like anything i say! So my intentions are good but i can't follow thru.

I sometimes feel that my lack of friends is getting me down so i asked a woman from my Scrabble club to meet for some games tomorrow night. It seemed like a good idea at the time but now i don't really care if it happens or not. She said it depends on her health so it could go either way.

We saw a bit of sun today so i got out and enjoyed the city. Ate too much tho and am unhappy with this swelling body but too depressed to do anything about it. I've got a big butter belly, a guacamole gluteus, lasagne love-handles, a bagel belt, mayo midriff, chip/cheese chins and poutine pants -- can anyone think of others?

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Old Feb 09, 2020, 09:16 PM
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Black eye still a hideous mess, and will be for some time. Co-workers recommended arnica, so I picked some up last night.



That's about it. Mood-wise alright I guess. More upset with myself than anything. Being such a klutz and all.


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Ummmmm I have missed something !!!! OMG Black eye ?!!! What happened ?! Are you okay ?!

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Old Feb 09, 2020, 09:23 PM
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Having a pretty good day! Between exercising today and acupuncture yesterday, I feel more relaxed. I went to the gym and out to dinner with a friend. I am now trying to work on my paper. This is my best week of the month with my hormones and I need to take advantage and live life to the fullest haha. I had some good moments of insight into my brain during my acupuncture session. I guess it's also good for a moment of mindfulness as what else can you do at that moment? I was thinking about my relationships with others and how guarded I can be, almost suspicious at times. This is not healthy and I think comes from some bad experiences being picked on growing up and at work. I need to talk to my therapist more about this and how I could possibly work on my interactions with people.


Sending compassion to everyone!


You are always busy busy and that’s great. I also think it’s wonderful that you know when you will be in top form mentally.

I think that is a good thing to explore in Therapy. It’s something I have needed to work on.

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Old Feb 09, 2020, 09:30 PM
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My pains ? Oh blah I’m sick of all of it, so I’m just gonna ignore it.

Got another good nights sleep !

I just had a great day cooking and cleaning.... when everything just flows from one thing to the next to the next. ??!! I love days like this
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Glad to hear you got some more sleep Christina. I managed to get some too but was only left with an impression that I was on the enterprise, 1701, with Kirk and crew but no details
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Glad to hear you got some more sleep Christina. I managed to get some too but was only left with an impression that I was on the enterprise, 1701, with Kirk and crew but no details


Thanks !

Bummer I bet that could have been a fantastic dream ... maybe it will return tonight ?!!!
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Old Feb 09, 2020, 10:25 PM
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I made it back to church today for the first time since starting my elimination diet. It was really good to be there again. I spent the afternoon babysitting for a church function and now i'm really tired but mostly just so glad I got to do those things. I still have a long way to go but it is getting exciting. I think I"ll be done in 2 months being very cautious so hopefully sooner than that.
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Tonight we Did Hatties awful dressing change.

8 inches by 6 inches dressing.

It could be much worse....
more drainage, more bleeding....
Thank goodness it is only draining a little.
How long can she continue?????
She is getting to look emaciated, though not as bad as could be......
she is still eating and drinking.....Hubby's requirements to keep her alive.

sigh
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"anxiocalm"

health food store. supposed to be for anxiety. going to try it tonight.
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Old Feb 09, 2020, 11:46 PM
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Tonight we Did Hatties awful dressing change.

8 inches by 6 inches dressing.

It could be much worse....
more drainage, more bleeding....
Thank goodness it is only draining a little.
How long can she continue?????
She is getting to look emaciated, though not as bad as could be......
she is still eating and drinking.....Hubby's requirements to keep her alive.

sigh
trying a new sleep aid. terry naturally

"anxiocalm"

health food store. supposed to be for anxiety. going to try it tonight.
wish me luck!
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I'm sorry your kitty is doing poorly.
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I made it back to church today for the first time since starting my elimination diet. It was really good to be there again. I spent the afternoon babysitting for a church function and now i'm really tired but mostly just so glad I got to do those things. I still have a long way to go but it is getting exciting. I think I"ll be done in 2 months being very cautious so hopefully sooner than that.


Oooo I’m so happy you were able to go !!! I bet it felt amazing to get out

You have unbelievable self control for following this elimination diet. Have you found foods you can’t tolerate yet?
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Tonight we Did Hatties awful dressing change.

8 inches by 6 inches dressing.

It could be much worse....
more drainage, more bleeding....
Thank goodness it is only draining a little.
How long can she continue?????
She is getting to look emaciated, though not as bad as could be......
she is still eating and drinking.....Hubby's requirements to keep her alive.

sigh
trying a new sleep aid. terry naturally

"anxiocalm"

health food store. supposed to be for anxiety. going to try it tonight.
wish me luck!
bizi


I’m sorry your husband is prolonging her life , I mean it’s never easy to lose a pet but sometimes the best thing to do is let go.

Let me know how that sleep aide works
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Old Feb 10, 2020, 06:30 AM
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Oooo I’m so happy you were able to go !!! I bet it felt amazing to get out

You have unbelievable self control for following this elimination diet. Have you found foods you can’t tolerate yet?
It was wonderful. I've really not been out much in the last 5 weeks so a whole day out was so much fun and such a nice change.

I've not found anything yet but I've not been into the high risk foods yet. I've kind of stalled a bit with fruits and vegetables because my body was a little startled to have fiber again. So I'm just going slow and listening to my body as far as that goes. I think I'm going to add in egg tomorrow and after that I'm left with higher risk foods. I'm just going to keep pacing myself and if 3 days isn't enough then I'll wait more than 3 days. I don't want to say I have a problem just because I got sick once on a food I've not had in 6 weeks or longer (some much longer). I don't think I'll hit an allergen until milk or peanut butter. I' am pretty sure about those two and I think I've had every other major group and been ok. I guess we'll see.

At this point it is no longer self control and is more like habit. It's also weird how things have changed. Before I went on this diet I was snacking on rice krispie treats every day. Yesterday I had one and it was gross. I'm not used to sweeteners. Givern my pre-diabetes this is for the best but it was amazing how yucky that felt.

Oh, and ~Christina you asked about alternative pastas. I tried brown rice pasta and did not like it. It wasa weird texture and just didn't taste good. I've lots of other kinds to try though. I'll let you know.
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Thanks everyone for your support. It means a lot.

@BirdDancer, I think you're right that she has some kind of personality disorder (most likely BPD in my opinion), but she refuses to see a mental health professional. I can't remember where I mentioned it, but basically, I mentioned a while back that my sister thinks EVERYONE ELSE should see a therapist. She thinks everyone else is the problem.

@~Christina: Yeah, my parents really need to stop helping her out. From my sister's perspective, there is no need to change her nasty behavior if everyone continues to help and support her. I don't even want to go to her graduation ceremony in May because she is so nasty, but I'm probably going to go anyway because it would hurt my parents' feelings if I don't go. So, I'm going because of my parents, not because of my sister.

@Innerzone: Yeah, I'm probably not going to go near her once her graduation ceremony is over with. (As mentioned to Christina, I'm only going because of my parents.) I've tried talking to her about her behavior and I've been giving her numerous chances to cut that sh_t out, but all she says is that OTHER people need to go to therapy. She refuses to go herself. I even asked her if she was willing to go, but she gave me a disgusted look and said, "f_ck no! I don't need it! so-and-so needs it!"

@Moose72: She has no friends besides her boyfriend. She doesn't understand why she doesn't have any. lol.
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I had a lovely time with my daughter yesterday. The parting is just so darn hard for me. My heart literally aches each time. I’m going to work on that with my therapist Thursday.

I’m about to run errands including grocery shopping and it’s raining cats and dogs. Uuuggghhh. Forecast for the next four days. We’ll see some flooding for sure.

Still doing well.

Warm wishes to all and hugs to those that are struggling.
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Ummmmm I have missed something !!!! OMG Black eye ?!!! What happened ?! Are you okay ?!

((((((((( IZ ))))))))))
Thanks, Christina -- it was near the end of the previous check-in thread. Ran for a bus and ran into a pole (well, a box that sticks out from the pole) with my face. Yanno, as one does. Fell, broke glasses (was able to get fixed!), abraded and big old goose egg. The lot. It's swollen on that side from halfway down my forehead to mid cheekbone. It's gone kaleidoscope colors today.

Being so accident-prone, I've started to wonder about my depth perception. Tried a couple online tests last night, and there does seem to be a problem. I'll have to find out more at an eye test or something, but I had one less than a year ago, so it'll probably be awhile. I do recall being perplexed by a test about it when I was a kid.

@WC -- thanks. The one and only option is to carry on. As well you know! (I am amazed at YOUR perseverance!)
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I'm trying to stay present but it's really hard with this depression hanging over me.

I went for a walk today and all I could think about was the past when my kids were young and life was different. I really miss that time and often go back to it when I'm feeling low. I miss the way things used to be so much, I miss my older son who is working far away, I miss his life used to be.

I try to look forward or at least be in the moment but these feelings of missing the past are overwhelming.

When I'm back at work I think of something else but my thoughts always eventually return to how I miss things the way they used to be.

This depression is such a pain!
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I gave up on trying to read my book and returned it to the library today. I just don't have that ability to focus/attention span when stable let alone during an episode. I took another Ativan this morning, but it's wearing off and I'm getting super agitated again. Trying to calm down by listening to music and drinking herbal tea. I'm trying to not let the fact that I can't even read a ****ing book on my favorite subject upset me, but that's not going well. The risperdal/ativan combo doesn't even help me sleep that much. It's better than nothing though.
Possible trigger:

I'm thinking about going back to group today since I have nothing else to do, but I doubt anyone there will be of much help.
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It was wonderful. I've really not been out much in the last 5 weeks so a whole day out was so much fun and such a nice change.

I've not found anything yet but I've not been into the high risk foods yet. I've kind of stalled a bit with fruits and vegetables because my body was a little startled to have fiber again. So I'm just going slow and listening to my body as far as that goes. I think I'm going to add in egg tomorrow and after that I'm left with higher risk foods. I'm just going to keep pacing myself and if 3 days isn't enough then I'll wait more than 3 days. I don't want to say I have a problem just because I got sick once on a food I've not had in 6 weeks or longer (some much longer). I don't think I'll hit an allergen until milk or peanut butter. I' am pretty sure about those two and I think I've had every other major group and been ok. I guess we'll see.

At this point it is no longer self control and is more like habit. It's also weird how things have changed. Before I went on this diet I was snacking on rice krispie treats every day. Yesterday I had one and it was gross. I'm not used to sweeteners. Givern my pre-diabetes this is for the best but it was amazing how yucky that felt.

Oh, and ~Christina you asked about alternative pastas. I tried brown rice pasta and did not like it. It wasa weird texture and just didn't taste good. I've lots of other kinds to try though. I'll let you know.
Hi! Just a quick note:

So glad you have made it out!

The only brown rice pasta I actually like is a brand named Tinkyada.
Other than that, it's a no go for me. the Tinkyada is so much better than others, but still doesn't cut it the following day.

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I am so sorry that you are struggling, Spikes. Does the pdoc know what is going on with this right now? Maybe you should let them know about the SI stuff, just so they know?

Sending you strength and support. You can get through this. Don't give up!!!!
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I'm trying to stay present but it's really hard with this depression hanging over me.

I went for a walk today and all I could think about was the past when my kids were young and life was different. I really miss that time and often go back to it when I'm feeling low. I miss the way things used to be so much, I miss my older son who is working far away, I miss his life used to be.

I try to look forward or at least be in the moment but these feelings of missing the past are overwhelming.

When I'm back at work I think of something else but my thoughts always eventually return to how I miss things the way they used to be.

This depression is such a pain!
I am so sorry you are having a difficult time.
My heart goes out to you.
Love and prayers for you and for your family.
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