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Did a second painting. This one of a lantern hanging from a tree. A very simple thing. My paintings aren't much but I do enjoy painting them. I think next time I'm going to graduate to the bigger canvas my daughter gave me. I've been doing the little post card sized ones.
I enjoyed my day till now. Mum insisted on watching the news, kind of bummed out my cool. Washed clothes, painted, and watched my fantasy shows. It's nice alternative worlds where man can talk to animals and magic exists. Oh, watered the plants I think my hanging plant isn't doing so well. It's 92 out there.
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#952
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You are not a downer you are a person that is working through crap and life happened and your trying to find ways to handle the extra stress of life right now. You need to find more kindness and compassion for yourself right now ![]()
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Thanks Bird Dancer
![]() ![]() Im sorry your seeing so many people not caring about Covid... Everytime I have to go out for meds and I see people with no mask and all clogging up aisles talking about there kids, grandkids, pets, latest meal they cooked and I especially love the ones where they are bytching about people like me that HAS to be overly careful about Covid.. I am so glad that you got out ![]()
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#954
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#955
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The last week I’ve been hit again with severe exhaustion and stomach pain. Prior to that I had two weeks of improvement and was able to get out more. This recent crash has discouraged me, and left me unable to do hardly any activity. Last Friday I managed to drive 3 minutes to the beach then sit on the beach and watch surfers for an hour. It only involved a 3 minute walk to get to the shore. Even that was too much so I haven’t left my flat since.
Today I’m a little better so I’m going to keep resting in hope I can drive to my parents tomorrow afternoon, and go to therapy Wednesday. My physical health has been poor for over five months. I’m over this but what else can I do but hang in there? Thankfully, my mental health is still stable or I would be in deep trouble. My life has shrunk so much due to this illness. I can only hope it starts to improve soon. Medicine is way behind on treatment for fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. Sigh ... I’ve been reading your posts. Just haven’t been up to replying. Sending hugs to those who need one.
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#956
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![]() Whenever this plague is over with, I will have to figure out how to take my meds at work since I take meds 4x a day now. However, who knows if things will ever go back to normal... |
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It was my favorite weather today: sunny and cool and breezy. I like it cold enough to wear long sleeves to cover my scars and long pants. I like to feel comfy cozy in my clothes. Tomorrow will be like this too! Yay! It helps me feel healthy. I'm really sensitive to the weather.
I got all whipped up in a terrible frenzy of rage today over this negligent psychiatrist i saw the year of my divorce. It was just a storm tho and passed in an hour. Otherwise my day was fine. I had some nice Scrabble games. I gave myself more time and it's helping. Some stinkers tho but my talents are pretty modest so i'm trying not to mind. It's a good activity for a recluse. Keeps my mind active and i play at a club so it gives me a toehold in the world. I feel pretty good! Hugs to all! ![]() |
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#959
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my mood is good at the moment, but only because I have nothing stressing me out
give it a few hours.. |
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A Note of Gratitude:
This particular forum is blessed with very insightful, very compassionate and highly supportive members. I have been a beneficiary of the understanding, the encouragement and the Love offered to members. Approximately a year ago I was challenged to somehow adjust to a major change in my life. Some of you might recall the sense of devastation. It's not important that I get into the details; that was then and this is now. ![]() This to simply say: I haven't forgotten the patience, the understanding, the encouragement, the overall Love and the support offered to me at the time and for a significant amount of time thereafter. Some days are much better than others; yet, they all foster further growth, facilitating a shedding of the old and the welcoming to the new. I am eternally grateful to each and every one of you. ![]() ![]() ![]() LOVE to ALL! ![]()
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I feel so depressed... yet I feel hyper. I sure hope this episode I'm in isn't a mixed state, but it is looking more and more like one.
Anyway, I slept from about 11pm until 4:30am, and i feel awful mood wise. I wish I had a magic med that would make this episode go away, but my pdoc said Trileptal takes 2-4 weeks to kick in. Ughhh... [Mini rant]: I hate how meds take so long to work (in general). You have to wait weeks to see if a med works or not, and if it doesn't work, then you have wasted weeks of time trying to get the episode under control. I know some people here have been going through a lot worse than me, so I don't really have the right to complain. I just felt the need to rant about how slow meds take to work... (P.S. I am also on atorvastatin (Lipitor), which messes with your liver's metabolism with meds, which means I generally need high doses of meds, and unfortunately, I always have to start on low doses that aren't effective and spend more time titrating up...) |
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#962
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I am sorry you continue to suffer with this very challenging period of illness instability and frustration. ![]() Your current challenges are every bit as valid as anyone else's challenges. You've been kind of "teetering on the edge" for awhile now, with rather brief periods of some degree of relief in between the more challenging times. As with other friends here, it's very important you find stabilization. Your employment, it seems, is at risk more often and for longer periods of time than in the past. (My perception of this could be off.) I am hoping and praying you'll start feeling much better very soon. In the meantime, is there any shorter-term prn you find helpful until you stabilize on the Trileptal? Thinking of you, praying for you and hoping this uncomfortable period of time will be short, passing quickly. Much love to You, My friend ![]()
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I kinda hate existing. I don't know if that makes me depressed or not, I certainly feel more wired and energized than down. It's just this breathing thing, it's unbearable. Like right now I don't like having a body and feeling every little movement within it. Feeling my heart beat, my blood circulate, my lungs inhale and exhale,etc. it's driving me crazy. I know I brought this upon myself, and I probably shouldn't even be writing this.
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I think I’m finally getting that Wellbutrin anxiety. Saturday night and last night I kept waking up throughout the night with this massive anxiety, and it was going on throughout the day. I’m just anxious about everything. Right now I could use about 2 Xanax. Other then the anxiety I feel ok today.
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#965
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I am a writer. My brain is not doing very well right now. At times, I am not enjoying writing in the least. It is just no fun and of no interest. And yet, I have to finish these books. So, I try to do as much as I can as well as I can and not judge myself, knowing that the joy will eventually return. Somehow, some way. It will. I am sure the same will happen with your Scrabble. Just do what you can and try to avoid negative thinking. Love and hugs!!!!!!11
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Hey, raging, why don't you see if today, you can try to have a positive outlook on this day, on the next few hours, maybe. Maybe it will be better. Maybe there will be a breakthrough for you today. Practicing using positive neural pathways can make them more accessible and may ultimately help you cope better in the long run. I am trying to practice this, myself. It is hard, but I do think it helps me.
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Love and hugs!!
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Hugs and strength. Hang in there. It will turn around.
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Very rough day for me yesterday. Quite down and blue, amotiavational, andhednoic. Barely able to get the most basic stuff done. Oh well. Wd do what we can do.
I am trying to work hard on being more positive and more accepting of reality. Trying harder not to judge myself. To look for the gifts, not the deficits or losses. For example, if I felt well enough to ride th ebike for even an hour or work on my books, it would really help me, but the part of the brain that governs motivation is just not functioning for me right now. At all. All my academic and career success was driven by a fierce feeling that I was not good enough. You can get a lot done when You feel that way. But it is not a healthy mindset for me. So, I am trying to lose that. It is a process for me. Judging me is bad for me. I need to accept me, even when all I can do is just sit in my chair and try to make it past the next hour. Love and hugs and support to all, especially those struggling. Stay with it. Things will turn around. Have faith, if you can.
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But can side effects take 2 months to show up?
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By engaging in excessive drinking and drug use. Stupid of me...
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Have you had periods of sobriety or clean time in the past, spikes? You can do it. It is never too late to start working on this. I struggled with addiction for decades. For the most part, it is quite easy now. And lots of people never, ever thought I could do it.
But you can do it. You can totally do it. It would probably help your mood quite a bit. Sending you strength.
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