crash n burn baby here I come

I am headed up the manic side of the bipolar rainbow!! Tired of taking all these meds and having set backs. I seemed to be doing ok with the cocktail they were serving me! (or atleast I thought) I am getting the racing thoughts back, anxiety, not sleeping, angry rage and loss of concentration. I don't like this me, but I also don't like the me that generally comes after either. A happy medium would be ok. thought the meds were suppose to take care of this!!!! I guess it's not as bad as it was, who knows, I hate feeling hostile and p****d off at the world, kind of like I could break something or someone, anyways I needed to vent a bit, gotta call the pdoc tomorrow maybe he can give me a little tweekin!! Thanks,Jen

Ah, Jen, sorry you're in an uncomfortable place. Any good safe punching bags? :-) I don't like be in a snit and feeling stuck there.

Hi, Jen...

I had a crash this fall. While in the ER, they offered me the choice of an inpatient stay or a month-long outpatient program. The program was based on DBT (dialectic behavior therapy). This involved teaching techniques to apply when you are feeling "negative" emotions to help control your mood, including anger, depression and mania, among others. I have found it quite helpful in keeping myself going. I still have the negative feelings, but I can have them now without acting on them and more importantly, not judging myself because of them but rather letting them pass.

I don't knopw what options you may have for this sort of therapy, I just offer it up as something that has helped me.

I hope that you feel better soon!

DJ

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I know exactly how you feel. I love what I am able to accomplish in my manic stage, but I also tend to "forget" being so crabby that I can't even stand myself.

I hear ya '74',
As a way to unwind when I feel this way (at least once a month for a week or so) I blast some alternative music or trance
get buzzed drinking my bourbon and play video games. And just be alone...
It works pretty well. The only time it does not work is when I'm emotionally hurt or in extreme pain (I live w/ chronic pain).

(((jattitude)))
so sorry you are not feeling as well. Hope things turn around for the best.

Wow small town girl here. I thought I was the only one in the world to feel like that. I took up mt. biking. Nothing like a slow burn in your legs when you are going up and the rush of coming back down to get you pissed off mood out for a bit. Not to mention a good cocktail of drugs (prescription ones of course) But the meds alone don't work for me. I have to bike and do meditative prayer as well to keep stress down.