[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Glad your son is better. Stomach stuff can be the worst!

I wonder if you are turning some kind of corner. Wouldn't that be awesome! Miracles do actually happen. I have had a couple...

Hugs!!

Yeah that would be awesome! Idk what's going on. Thanks!

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm glad you've shared your anxiety and concerns with us. I have tremendous empathy for the child you're working with. That said, I'm wondering at what point Mom decides she knows enough about who her son "really is" and allows him the meds he clearly needs? Also, how much do you have to be endangered (because that's what it is) by the child before boundaries are set by your workplace?

You are entirely correct; your own son deserves a healthy you.

I hope your session tomorrow is productive. Keep us posted

Oh - and regarding the Klonopin...I do have a dependency on it. It was very useful, though, way back when. If I could do it over, I would have taken Klonopin for only a month or two until my anxiety either got better or got worse and needed a different type of med.

Personally, Seroquel never touched my anxiety.

Thank you for your kind response! The upper staff and I are all working together to make sure we and the students are safe. I believe there will be a moment sometime possibly rather soon that there will be real danger. I am bracing myself; going over handle with care training, including how to block punches and kicks. I am not too concerned of getting seriously hurt as we have an immediate response team that can be called over the intercom. They literally run as fast as they can to the location and immediately jump in with handle with care.

I’m about to call my pdoc now to get an appointment. I am highly aggravated today because of this student. I was calm and patient all day but around 2pm I got seriously annoyed and started being rather short with him. Not mean, certainly, not yelling, just kind of cold. He swears he’s not coming in tomorrow and I just gave a thumbs up to my coworker across the room. Like don’t make promises you can’t keep

[pumpernickel1]

I stayed home from work today. I really need to take care of my emotional health. The new job was meant to help me get off ssi but today I slept so much and couldn't get up for the life of me. I need some me time.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I went to the dentist today and had a telehealth visit with my NP. I thought I’d be more nervous about the dentist but they followed strict guidelines. I mostly felt comfortable.

I diplomatically requested 300 mg of Wellbutrin and that my NP increase my Klonopin from 45 back up to 60 per month for anxiety. It went well.

Thank you for the support.

Hugs to all.

Excellent! I'm so glad the NP listened to you.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Thank you for your kind response! The upper staff and I are all working together to make sure we and the students are safe. I believe there will be a moment sometime possibly rather soon that there will be real danger. I am bracing myself; going over handle with care training, including how to block punches and kicks. I am not too concerned of getting seriously hurt as we have an immediate response team that can be called over the intercom. They literally run as fast as they can to the location and immediately jump in with handle with care.

I’m about to call my pdoc now to get an appointment. I am highly aggravated today because of this student. I was calm and patient all day but around 2pm I got seriously annoyed and started being rather short with him. Not mean, certainly, not yelling, just kind of cold. He swears he’s not coming in tomorrow and I just gave a thumbs up to my coworker across the room. Like don’t make promises you can’t keep

I'm sending good thoughts, wfc. I'm still concerned about your safety, but it sounds like everyone is aware of the situation. Sad. Makes me so angry when a parent denies a child's brain the help it needs.

[wildflowerchild25]

I downloaded happy not perfect at my therapist’s recommendation. I am still highly aggravated and thinking about my day. I do NOT want to bring work home with me! I am also seriously considering looking up a relaxation yoga routine on YouTube and doing that. When I was in the group home when I was 15, we had group every day from 4-8. I thought is was incredibly annoying at the time, but I do remember that one of the therapists was a yoga teacher on the side and led the people who wanted to participate in yoga a couple of times a week. I enjoyed it greatly. It was very nice to just get away from everyone for that half hour (I really didn’t like any of the other kids in the program). I also did a couple of classes when I was a bit older. Can’t afford actual classes now and wouldn’t want to given the current state of things but I’m willing to try at home. Just to clear my mind.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I downloaded happy not perfect at my therapist’s recommendation. I am still highly aggravated and thinking about my day. I do NOT want to bring work home with me! I am also seriously considering looking up a relaxation yoga routine on YouTube and doing that. When I was in the group home when I was 15, we had group every day from 4-8. I thought is was incredibly annoying at the time, but I do remember that one of the therapists was a yoga teacher on the side and led the people who wanted to participate in yoga a couple of times a week. I enjoyed it greatly. It was very nice to just get away from everyone for that half hour (I really didn’t like any of the other kids in the program). I also did a couple of classes when I was a bit older. Can’t afford actual classes now and wouldn’t want to given the current state of things but I’m willing to try at home. Just to clear my mind.

Yoga with Adrienne on youtube is also awesome.

[MuddyBoots]

Day 2 full sobriety. I'm just thankful I didn't use long enough to get physically addicted again. Decided to learn French. I've been drinking tons of caffeine so now I can do some things for more than five minutes haha. Leaves are beautiful here:


Overall feeling pretty good.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Yoga with Adrienne on youtube is also awesome.

I also love Yoga with Adrienne. She has a video for everything!

I got my hair cut! Well, just the back neck trimmed. It went smoothly. I'm having trouble with the activities of daily living (ADLs) so to get this done is a real victory for me! It feels nice to have tidier hair. A few more months and i will have a proper pageboy. I'm even doing laundry! Just one load.

Mother Nature is putting on a real show for us here in Ontario. The leaves are falling and the geese are flying!

Hugs to all who struggle!

[Moose72]

My mom is freaking out. Since we lost our movers because they aren't available on Friday she's been saying there's nobody to carry my "heavy" items. She thinks her husband will have a heart attack. She's the one who packed things so heavy! I took one of the boxes apart and made it into two boxes because of how heavy she packed it! Then she said "Can't we move some stuff thursday?" No I can't move in till the inspect the apartment and then I have to wait for the green light. And that will be Friday. I hope they inspect it early in the day so we can start moving at a reasonable hour. I've asked friends to help me. We are waiting to hear from my cousin and her boyfriend. Caleb and I will have our special dinner Thursday night.

ETA: now my mom wants me to ask my section 8 lady to ask the inspection people to do my place early and or on Thursday!! Ugh. She thinks she can come over here "so WE can make that phone call"! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My mom is freaking out. Since we lost our movers because they aren't available on Friday she's been saying there's nobody to carry my "heavy" items. She thinks her husband will have a heart attack. She's the one who packed things so heavy! I took one of the boxes apart and made it into two boxes because of how heavy she packed it! Then she said "Can't we move some stuff thursday?" No I can't move in till the inspect the apartment and then I have to wait for the green light. And that will be Friday. I hope they inspect it early in the day so we can start moving at a reasonable hour. I've asked friends to help me. We are waiting to hear from my cousin and her boyfriend. Caleb and I will have our special dinner Thursday night.

ETA: now my mom wants me to ask my section 8 lady to ask the inspection people to do my place early and or on Thursday!! Ugh. She thinks she can come over here "so WE can make that phone call"! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

So sorry moose. Moves are inevitably crazy and unpredictable. Hang in there. It will all work out ok in the end.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by fern46

So sorry moose. Moves are inevitably crazy and unpredictable. Hang in there. It will all work out ok in the end.

I sure hope so! But when's the end?

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I sure hope so! But when's the end?

A week or so after you move in For example, we bought this house and closing was a hot mess and then we moved in and the A/C blew out the first day. And then the second A/C blew out all in the first week. It was insane, but eventually it worked itself out and we settled in. You'll be there soon and all this craziness will feel so far behind you.

[wildflowerchild25]

I did one yoga video but had to quit ten minutes in because it was all seated (tension reduction) and my back hurt like hell! I’m gonna try one with movement tomorrow. Tbh though it definitely helped clear my mind! I gave meditation one shot but as always it made me even more anxious. I wish therapists would stop pushing it as the end all be all cure for mental illness! I honestly don’t think I will ever do an IOP program again. There’s only three around here and I’ve been to all of them. The one I’ve been to at least ten times. I think I’ve learned all I can! The other always forces me into DBT, thanks I already did that THREE TIMES I know it and it does not help in an acute crisis for me! The other I like but it’s small so it’s a combination of dual diagnosis and mental health, no offense to any addicts here but I don’t like doing group with them because of my late husband. So I think I will just increase my therapist visits when I have a crisis instead. She understands me and my needs!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Day 2 full sobriety. I'm just thankful I didn't use long enough to get physically addicted again. Decided to learn French. I've been drinking tons of caffeine so now I can do some things for more than five minutes haha. Leaves are beautiful here:


Overall feeling pretty good.

Beautiful picture. Stay strong!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My mom is freaking out. Since we lost our movers because they aren't available on Friday she's been saying there's nobody to carry my "heavy" items. She thinks her husband will have a heart attack. She's the one who packed things so heavy! I took one of the boxes apart and made it into two boxes because of how heavy she packed it! Then she said "Can't we move some stuff thursday?" No I can't move in till the inspect the apartment and then I have to wait for the green light. And that will be Friday. I hope they inspect it early in the day so we can start moving at a reasonable hour. I've asked friends to help me. We are waiting to hear from my cousin and her boyfriend. Caleb and I will have our special dinner Thursday night.

ETA: now my mom wants me to ask my section 8 lady to ask the inspection people to do my place early and or on Thursday!! Ugh. She thinks she can come over here "so WE can make that phone call"! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

Have faith, Moose. This will all work out. Hugs!

[Moose72]

Going to call a different moving company that my friend suggested to me but with only a 2-day notice I don't know that they'll be free.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Going to call a different moving company that my friend suggested to me but with only a 2-day notice I don't know that they'll be free.

Hope it works!!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Hugs and been praying for you, D. Hang in there.

Yeah, I think we should all go camping or to the beach together someday. Wouldn't that be incredible!! All these distant people who help each other make it through the day, often more helpful than our own families? That would just be magical for me to be with all you guys someday for a day or two.

There are people who have met. I email a friend and occasionally talk on the phone, some one from neurotalk where I post also there. There are only a handful of folks who post there less than 10. I have been with 3 of the ladies for over 15 years. You get to know them really well.
and it is a slow pace, not like here where it is very busy. I find it hard to keep up with the forum. Every one is so nice though and People are definitely helpful here at PC. I met one woman from the old braintalk forums, It was so nice to meet her, I was shy and we only visited for a short time. She was very anxious and had agoraphobia so I was glad that she made the effort to meet up with me and my mom. Alfee.
bizi

[mugwort2]

Good visit with my case manager . She's very supportive and very flexible with me. Bought some Greek yogurt individual servings Called my male friend. Planning to see him next Sun. Talked to my sister too. Pretty good conver.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by bizi

There are people who have met. I email a friend and occasionally talk on the phone, some one from neurotalk where I post also there. There are only a handful of folks who post there less than 10. I have been with 3 of the ladies for over 15 years. You get to know them really well.
and it is a slow pace, not like here where it is very busy. I find it hard to keep up with the forum. Every one is so nice though and People are definitely helpful here at PC. I met one woman from the old braintalk forums, It was so nice to meet her, I was shy and we only visited for a short time. She was very anxious and had agoraphobia so I was glad that she made the effort to meet up with me and my mom. Alfee.
bizi

Yeah, I was on there once or twice. So glad you guys got to meet up together. How wonderful.

[Moose72]

Found this in my blog (From 2018) Anybody experience this?

Cacophony
I was just watching a show on youtube about scizophrenia. I could relate to quite a bit of what they described. But the one that struck me the mostwas the description of being in a crowded place - like a restaurant or concert venue- and not being able to filter it out; all the voices and klinking of utensils come at once and yet individually all screaming at me iin their own language. A cacophony of sound. It is overwhelming.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Found this in my blog (From 2018) Anybody experience this?

Cacophony
I was just watching a show on youtube about scizophrenia. I could relate to quite a bit of what they described. But the one that struck me the mostwas the description of being in a crowded place - like a restaurant or concert venue- and not being able to filter it out; all the voices and klinking of utensils come at once and yet individually all screaming at me iin their own language. A cacophony of sound. It is overwhelming.

Ohh, that is so familiar to me. Also, hearing all that kind of noise inside my mind when I'm entirely alone. That's what I've been experiencing lately, that and music. So my pdoc raised my AP today. I'm glad.

[bpcyclist]

I start to hear metallic hissing around 9 or 10 at night a lot of the time. It is kind of like, oh, electronic, nano crickets made out of really, super fine titanium, maybe. A chorus of them. I am weird.