[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by falcon09

struggling with akathisia today

Yeah you probably need more congentin. Sorry you're having to deal with that. I hate akathisia!

[falcon09]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

Yeah you probably need more congentin. Sorry you're having to deal with that. I hate akathisia!

yeah he called in ativan today for me saying that would help

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by falcon09

yeah he called in ativan today for me saying that would help

I tried Cogentin, propanolol, and increasing my Klonopin dose. None of them worked for akathesia or tremor. My pdoc finally prescribed something called Amantadine. The stuff's excellent. Really helpful. If nothing else works, you might mention it to your pdoc. But hopefully the Ativan will help. Akathesia was one of the most horrible sensations I've ever experienced.

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by falcon09

yeah he called in ativan today for me saying that would help

Hopefully that will help. I got horrible akathisia from latuda and geodon. For me I just had to get off them. It was really severe akathisia...I have a permanent side effect from latuda. I like twist my lip when I'm really tired. It has never went away...

[falcon09]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I tried Cogentin, propanolol, and increasing my Klonopin dose. None of them worked for akathesia or tremor. My pdoc finally prescribed something called Amantadine. The stuff's excellent. Really helpful. If nothing else works, you might mention it to your pdoc. But hopefully the Ativan will help. Akathesia was one of the most horrible sensations I've ever experienced.

Yeah akathisia is incredibly horrible, easily one of the worst sensations I've experienced. Thanks for the recommendation!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Little run of extraordinarily rare kinda euthymia continues. So grateful. Working on novel and getting guitars ready to play. Bizarre. Don't look a gift horse in the situation...

I'm happy for you!

[Scooter9]

I'm still depressed. I stopped exercising because it didn't make a difference and it was really hard to stay motivated. I might still exercise again at some point.

I've been distracting myself by going on a writing marathon. I have about 5% more to finish and it's easy stuff. Then I need to design the cover and finally release it. It ended up taking 18 months to finish this. My original estimate was 8 months.

I've been actively managing my sleep. I was sleeping too much...11 hours. I've been around 8 for several weeks now.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm doing well so far today. I'm excited because I bought a smallish weaving loom and wool roving, sari silk, hemp cord and I'm finally going to give weaving a try. I've been wanting to do it for many years.

I had a true nightmare last night that my oldest sister was discovered eating tiny babies. My other sister (she died almost 3 years ago and I miss her terribly) and I were having to come to terms with our sister being a cannibal. Someone came and put her in restraints so she couldn't eat the babies anymore. She was outraged, and fighting hard to get out of the restraints.

What a bizarre dream! My oldest sister has 4 children, she and her husband are excellent parents, and she adores babies.She's also not an aggressive person, at all. I don't know where the heck my mind pulled all that stuff from. It was such a bad dream, I can't seem to shake it. So I'll put the energy into my weaving project.

That is a nightmare! Were they babies or fetuses or both? I often dream that I'm pregnant- about 5 months- and miscarrying. What does that represent? What does your dream represent? Your sister is devouring your dreams?

[Moose72]

Not much different here today. I got one cupboard full of hot chocolate, coffee, canned goods and various and sundry things cleared out. I'm doing laundry. (Pretty soon that will be more difficult. ). I'm looking forward to Caleb being here. I don't know what we are going to DO. Usually, we have something big planned- like last time we saw a stand-up comedian. Nothing like that is planned for this time. Maybe we will be able to at least get carry-out at Texas Roadhouse. We eat there every time he comes to visit! Maybe we will just unpack my stuff? I have a bag of canned goods that I don't want. Where should I donate them? I don't know who takes what where! My church MIGHT, but I would have to call them I guess. N3 will be coming tomorrow along with my mom - I THINK. Having a hard time selling my piano, organ, and washer and dryer. One person wants the washer but not the dryer. That would make selling the dryer a lot harder if I sold just the washer, wouldn't it? Somebody was interested in the organ, but hasn't gotten back to me in days so I guess not. Anybody want a piano? It plays nicely and is in tune. It was N3s but he can't take it and neither can I.

[Daonnachd]

I can't recall checking in this morning before work, but either way, here I am.

After work I had physical therapy for my shoulder. It's been hurting since February but the PT always helps it feel better. I'm glad for that.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I'm still depressed. I stopped exercising because it didn't make a difference and it was really hard to stay motivated. I might still exercise again at some point.

I've been distracting myself by going on a writing marathon. I have about 5% more to finish and it's easy stuff. Then I need to design the cover and finally release it. It ended up taking 18 months to finish this. My original estimate was 8 months.

I've been actively managing my sleep. I was sleeping too much...11 hours. I've been around 8 for several weeks now.

((((((((( Scooter9 )))))))))

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I'm still depressed. I stopped exercising because it didn't make a difference and it was really hard to stay motivated. I might still exercise again at some point.

I've been distracting myself by going on a writing marathon. I have about 5% more to finish and it's easy stuff. Then I need to design the cover and finally release it. It ended up taking 18 months to finish this. My original estimate was 8 months.

I've been actively managing my sleep. I was sleeping too much...11 hours. I've been around 8 for several weeks now.

I completely understand the exercise situation.


Congratulations on your writing, though!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

That is a nightmare! Were they babies or fetuses or both? I often dream that I'm pregnant- about 5 months- and miscarrying. What does that represent? What does your dream represent? Your sister is devouring your dreams?

They were little pink fetuses. I don't have that much contact with my sister, especially since covid. But I love her and wish we spoke more often. She's 18 years older than I am, so the age gap kind-of keeps us from being as close as I'd like to be. I've been worrying about my sister and BIL with covid, since they're both in their late 70's.

My third and last pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage at 4 months. Sometimes I dream about it...that loss was so, so awful. Somehow all those worries and losses got balled up in my mind and resulted in a really horrid nightmare.

It's sad that no one wants to buy your piano. There must be some people who still play pianos in the U.S. Sheesh.

I would sell the washer/dryer as a set. It seems to me that if you break them up it will be harder to sell each one.

[wildflowerchild25]

Another tiring day. My student was fine until after lunch and then he flipped out because he lost his chrome book for refusing to follow instructions. Cue cursing, running the halls, splashing hand sanitizer everywhere, setting off all the door alarms, culminating in eloping and throwing cones at people in the parking lot. The handle with care specialist told me to go inside while he was having his tantrum outside as I had been there all day and was probably just aggravating him (which I understand). Plus there were about ten people out there trying to talk him down, so there was no reason for me to be there too. She told me just to go in and start documenting everything, which I was grateful for. She said later that she’s probably suspending him tomorrow. He was so unsafe today that he made the rest of the building unsafe as well. Just splashing the hand sanitizer on the linoleum floor is a problem as it makes it so slippery. He needs a day to collect himself.

I will miss him though. I’m still trying to figure out the best approach. I think right now the less I say the better. I still have to follow him to make sure he doesn’t run out, but if I just offer to talk once and let him know I’m there, there’s no reason to keep harping on it. It’s also giving him negative attention. As long as he’s not creating unsafe or disruptive situations, I’m just not going to say a word. See if that helps.

I’ve got to go shopping tomorrow. I’ve got to get my son some food for lunches. I’m trying to stay away from processed food but my son doesn’t like anything! Right now he wants chicken patties, hot dogs, ham sandwiches, and frozen chicken pot pies. I’m going to show him some options and see what he picks.

[bpcyclist]

What do you suspect maybe that child's diagnosis may b

The roaring from the jackhammers from our balcony repair project was awful today. I was waiting on a delivery so i couldn't leave til 2:00pm. I fled to the mall but because of COVID seating is limited and i could only get a bar-stool-seat which is not comfortable. So i dragged myself back home and luckily the workmen had quit early today and it was quiet. I am sure appreciating the quiet.

Tomorrow the weather is nice so i'll just go outside with my dog if the noise continues, which it probably will. Noise is just a nuisance tho, not a threat to my safety, like the fire or hurricane in the US. Tho our COVID numbers are climbing and my city is a hotspot.

I guess things are tough all over. I'm bored too but i'm sure many are bored with COVID on. Boredom can't kill you, tho you might wish it could, haha!

Hugs to all who struggle especially those effected by fire and hurricane.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm doing okay still ED relapse, still randomly crying and worried for no reason. Dealing with a lot attitude, when it is safe again he's moving to the dorms or something. He had a student interview today and he rocked it. I need to figure out more things to do inside.

[childofchaos831]

Hey y'all. Sorry for the radio silence. I've had a rough go of it lately. My last post, I was in a psych ward after...

(triggered because of explanation, not necessarily graphic nature, but could still be triggering)

Possible trigger:

...a suicide attempt that put me in the medical hospital back on the 15th of August. I had to spend 3 days in ICU and 3 in a regular room. I had some serious neurological complications, like standing and walking issues, that got better after a few days, but I'm also still having some tremors in my hands even now. I also had a couple moments of acting out of character for myself that resulted in my being restrained, which really frightened me, when I woke up and started becoming aware again. And I was confused when they told me why... because I knew it was two things *I* would never do... and I'm having some aphasia now, too. I'm having issues recalling words for things that I want to say. I can remember words told to me that I'm asked to remember just fine, but when I'm speaking, I'll randomly come across a word that I can't recall for the life of me. It was "wonton soup" the other day and "practical" today.

That last post was on the 21st.

I started running a fever shortly after that and having some medical symptoms... on the 23rd, the psych facility sent me to the ER to get checked out after a fever of 102 and not being able to register a blood pressure. I ended up having a really serious kidney infection that had gone septic. I had to spend 3 days in ICU and another 7 in a regular room for IV antibiotics.

Then I was sent to a different psych hospital, because the one I had been at was full at that point, and spent 7 days there. So, all in all, I spent 25 days in the hospital. With two brief ambulance ride and one cab trip in there. Didnt get to go home at all during that time.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm doing okay still ED relapse, still randomly crying and worried for no reason. Dealing with a lot attitude, when it is safe again he's moving to the dorms or something. He had a student interview today and he rocked it. I need to figure out more things to do inside.

You have a totally appropos cause for crying...

Hugs!!

[Daonnachd]

@childofchaos831 I'm glad they figured out the kidney infection quickly. All in all, 25 days in hospital but you're home now, right?

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Hey y'all. Sorry for the radio silence. I've had a rough go of it lately. My last post, I was in a psych ward after...

(triggered because of explanation, not necessarily graphic nature, but could still be triggering)

Possible trigger:

...a suicide attempt that put me in the medical hospital back on the 15th of August. I had to spend 3 days in ICU and 3 in a regular room. I had some serious neurological complications, like standing and walking issues, that got better after a few days, but I'm also still having some tremors in my hands even now. I also had a couple moments of acting out of character for myself that resulted in my being restrained, which really frightened me, when I woke up and started becoming aware again. And I was confused when they told me why... because I knew it was two things *I* would never do... and I'm having some aphasia now, too. I'm having issues recalling words for things that I want to say. I can remember words told to me that I'm asked to remember just fine, but when I'm speaking, I'll randomly come across a word that I can't recall for the life of me. It was "wonton soup" the other day and "practical" today.

That last post was on the 21st.

I started running a fever shortly after that and having some medical symptoms... on the 23rd, the psych facility sent me to the ER to get checked out after a fever of 102 and not being able to register a blood pressure. I ended up having a really serious kidney infection that had gone septic. I had to spend 3 days in ICU and another 7 in a regular room for IV antibiotics.

Then I was sent to a different psych hospital, because the one I had been at was full at that point, and spent 7 days there. So, all in all, I spent 25 days in the hospital. With two brief ambulance ride and one cab trip in there. Didnt get to go home at all during that time.

Good Lord, you guys, what an incredibly trying time. Hugs and support and love to you all!!!!!!

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Are you feeling any bettter Daonnachd?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

They were little pink fetuses. I don't have that much contact with my sister, especially since covid. But I love her and wish we spoke more often. She's 18 years older than I am, so the age gap kind-of keeps us from being as close as I'd like to be. I've been worrying about my sister and BIL with covid, since they're both in their late 70's.

My third and last pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage at 4 months. Sometimes I dream about it...that loss was so, so awful. Somehow all those worries and losses got balled up in my mind and resulted in a really horrid nightmare.

It's sad that no one wants to buy your piano. There must be some people who still play pianos in the U.S. Sheesh.

I would sell the washer/dryer as a set. It seems to me that if you break them up it will be harder to sell each one.

Yes I agree about splitting up the washer and dryer. But somebody really wants just the washer. I guess she already has a dryer?

My mom had said she might like to take the piano but I guess she changed her mind.

I'm sorry to hear that you had a late loss. That was hard I'm sure.

It's too bad you don't connect much with your sister - you'd think that as adults age wouldn't matter that much.

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

@childofchaos831 I'm glad they figured out the kidney infection quickly. All in all, 25 days in hospital but you're home now, right?

Yea, I've been home for about a week. I got out Wednesday, last week. It is still a little strange to be home though, oddly.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

My Abby cat is curled up tightly against my leg. She's never snuggled like this. Maybe she's finally getting through her grief. What a sweet girl she is.