[Moose72]

I talked with the lady here at my apartment complex and she said we still have time - we wont know what my amount is just yet. And that I will get something in the mail that tells me my water bill and rent each month. She already told me that I could just pay two months's woorth at once next month.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I talked with the lady here at my apartment complex and she said we still have time - we wont know what my amount is just yet. And that I will get something in the mail that tells me my water bill and rent each month. She already told me that I could just pay two months's woorth at once next month.

You need clarity and documentation to protect your interests. Call.

[MuddyBoots]

The nurse that gave me my shot didn't lecture me, just said there's always the crisis line to call and that she'd email my therapist that I had used "dangerously" and SHed. My heart rate was about 120 when she checked it. I still lied about the frequency (more shyte on my legs), but ya know, I just am glad I don't have to talk to anyone on my treatment team for another two weeks.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My surgery went decently. They did have to intubate me they said it was just routine for general anesthesia. The first thing I said when they woke me up was “my throat hurts” and it still hurts pretty badly. The surgery itself went well. They were pretty concerned with how high my pulse was in recovery. Also I developed a temp of just under a 100. But mainly they were concerned because I was bleeding a lot. So they paged the doctor who was at another hospital and he came over to look at it and he said it looked fine and that I didn’t have go back to the OR he said my pulse was ok it was probably just the surgery. After that I was discharged almost immediately. I’m feeling pretty good right now. I took whatever pain meds they gave me through the IV and then I took one narco in day recovery but since I’ve been home I’ve been managing with just Tylenol. But I do have the narco.

Your throat probably hurts because of being intubated. I remember mine hurt after surgery, too. I'm glad everything is going well! How do you feel besides in pain? Do you think the surgery was a success? How are you doing mentally?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

You need clarity and documentation to protect your interests. Call.

Call whom? The section 8 person?

[Moose72]

This is what I emailed the section 8 lady:

My move went very smoothly. I have not yet gotten any mail at my new place, though I did change my address with the post office. I would like to make sure I'm not missing the letter from you that says what my portion of the rent is, now. If you have mailed it, or are not yet finished with the paperwork, I understand. (It may still be in the mail, as it is slow lately.)

Thank you, and I hope you are doing well-

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Moose72

This is what I emailed the section 8 lady:

My move went very smoothly. I have not yet gotten any mail at my new place, though I did change my address with the post office. I would like to make sure I'm not missing the letter from you that says what my portion of the rent is, now. If you have mailed it, or are not yet finished with the paperwork, I understand. (It may still be in the mail, as it is slow lately.)

Thank you, and I hope you are doing well-

She wrote back: "It has not been mailed out as of yet. I would be expecting it in a couple of weeks. Please let me know if you have any questions."

Tada! No more worries. (Except what my amount will be!)

[Nammu]

Yay! No more worries is huge!

[MuddyBoots]

Possible trigger:

I don't want to do this anymore. Every little thing is some ENORMOUS trigger for me, and I can't take it anymore. I called my friend because I'm in CRISIS but all I got was "that girl really f'ked you over. Call a crisis line." And then I called my mom and all she said was "obviously something's not working, see you later." And I'm legit hallucinating the police are here I can hear the sirens and their voices but they're just yelling at me this isn't what they did last time.
I want to die...and no, I'm not calling the crisis line because they'll just send the actual police there and hospitalize me where I'll calm down for a week, come home, and deal with all this **** all over again.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Yay! No more worries is huge!

Well, I just talked with the lady that runs the office at my old place. She said I'm not getting any of my security deposit back because they have to put up new blinds, plus I stayed two extra days so that's $74 and I owed for an extra water bill (well not extra but the one I was just using). I already paid for one of the water bills. So all of that taken out of the security deposit apparently equals no security deposit back. It was $300. The new place was $500. The blinds at this place won't break because they are the long ones not Venetian blinds. (Well I suppose if I were really rough with them they might...) And she was not pleasant either. Puh. She probably thought she'd never have to hear from me again. But this is the same place that waited months to fix my shower and maybe longer to fix the hole in my ceiling of my bedroom that was leaking rain water onto me in bed! Meanwhile, the new place emailed me to see if I was satisfied with the work they'd done.

[Daonnachd]

Moose, it sure sounds as if you'll like the new place better.

In my life, the fire is now 50% contained, so we're making progress. Also, I have ECT on Friday so I had to have a covid test today and quarantine from now until then... in a tiny hotel room.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I didn't even bring it up with my therapist... I said I was sick of failing and she said "failing what?" and I just said "stuff like work and staying away from unhealthy habits" and she suggested going to an adult learning center.
Thing is, I'm not afraid at all. I mean, I WANT to get kicked out. I WANT to overdose and stop breathing. Worse scenario I can see would be going to jail, and even that in my mind is just "whatever, consequences..." I realize this is probably the addiction speaking, but f'k, I haven't truly wanted to live in over ten years and I've only been using drugs/alcohol for 6, and opiates for only a year.

Have you ever been to an NA mtg? There sooooo helpful!! Why not gobtalk to some folks who have done this before? Get some support. Feel better. Live.

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Possible trigger:

I don't want to do this anymore. Every little thing is some ENORMOUS trigger for me, and I can't take it anymore. I called my friend because I'm in CRISIS but all I got was "that girl really f'ked you over. Call a crisis line." And then I called my mom and all she said was "obviously something's not working, see you later." And I'm legit hallucinating the police are here I can hear the sirens and their voices but they're just yelling at me this isn't what they did last time.
I want to die...and no, I'm not calling the crisis line because they'll just send the actual police there and hospitalize me where I'll calm down for a week, come home, and deal with all this **** all over again.

I'm sorry you're struggling so badly. Just try and make it through today. Try and distract yourself the best you can.

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Well, I just talked with the lady that runs the office at my old place. She said I'm not getting any of my security deposit back because they have to put up new blinds, plus I stayed two extra days so that's $74 and I owed for an extra water bill (well not extra but the one I was just using). I already paid for one of the water bills. So all of that taken out of the security deposit apparently equals no security deposit back. It was $300. The new place was $500. The blinds at this place won't break because they are the long ones not Venetian blinds. (Well I suppose if I were really rough with them they might...) And she was not pleasant either. Puh. She probably thought she'd never have to hear from me again. But this is the same place that waited months to fix my shower and maybe longer to fix the hole in my ceiling of my bedroom that was leaking rain water onto me in bed! Meanwhile, the new place emailed me to see if I was satisfied with the work they'd done.

Wow it took that long to fix your shower and the hole in the ceiling? Here when you're on housing, they have to get on repairs asap or they don't get paid. I'm sorry you're not getting any security deposit back. I would just be happy to be out of that place...

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Possible trigger:

I don't want to do this anymore. Every little thing is some ENORMOUS trigger for me, and I can't take it anymore. I called my friend because I'm in CRISIS but all I got was "that girl really f'ked you over. Call a crisis line." And then I called my mom and all she said was "obviously something's not working, see you later." And I'm legit hallucinating the police are here I can hear the sirens and their voices but they're just yelling at me this isn't what they did last time.
I want to die...and no, I'm not calling the crisis line because they'll just send the actual police there and hospitalize me where I'll calm down for a week, come home, and deal with all this **** all over again.

You have an illness! A couple, likely. You need assistance or you will die. We do not wish that. There is help. People will love you and help you. They will help you quit using. I did it many have done it. Please make a gd choice. Choose life. Let your loving creator take you in her arms and help you.

Are you done using. Are you? Call the crisis line .ask for help. Tell the truth. You are a good person you are sick. Like me. Hugs!

[Fuzzybear]

It's ''that'' time of day... again. Why can't I ''just'' be like a ''normal'' person and not a **** up

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Moose, it sure sounds as if you'll like the new place better.

In my life, the fire is now 50% contained, so we're making progress. Also, I have ECT on Friday so I had to have a covid test today and quarantine from now until then... in a tiny hotel room.

That's great that its 50% contained. Hopefully soon you'll be able to go home.

[Coolbreeze74]

I'm waiting for my son to call. He called yesterday but by the time I got to the phone he hung up. I'm hoping he calls today.

I'm doing ok, I'm really missing him...

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

Wow it took that long to fix your shower and the hole in the ceiling? Here when you're on housing, they have to get on repairs asap or they don't get paid. I'm sorry you're not getting any security deposit back. I would just be happy to be out of that place...

They only repaired the ceiling when HUD got involved.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

I'm waiting for my son to call. He called yesterday but by the time I got to the phone he hung up. I'm hoping he calls today.

I'm doing ok, I'm really missing him...

I hope he calls soon!

[Blue_Bird]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

It's more than 2 weeks since my fang was taken out. It's the first and only fang I have had taken out (except for when I was a cub, I had 2 out as my bottom teeth were a bit crowded). Something someone said to me afterwards worried me a bit (not anyone here) but maybe it helped me to be more careful about rinsing my mouth. Etc. I have had other issues with a few of my fangs years ago (veneers needed, apparently I drank ''too much'' orange juice)

I think my fang space is healing ok. I was worried it might not. Especially as the dentist said something.

I did not (sometimes) expect medical stuff to go ok for me. I hope this is an exception (several things have not gone ok )

I've been eating healthily and exercising, hopefully this is helping my immune system.

My mood is good today (maybe this will continue) I used to not do mornings

Hugs to all who are struggling

I hope the healing continues to go well

I'm glad your mood is good and you're eating healthy and exercising, that's great!

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Your throat probably hurts because of being intubated. I remember mine hurt after surgery, too. I'm glad everything is going well! How do you feel besides in pain? Do you think the surgery was a success? How are you doing mentally?

I think the surgery was a success. I got a quick peek when the doctor came back to make things were ok and I was really happy with the results. I feel really good right now mentally although I do know there’s the possibility of post op depression. I’m not sure at what point that would start but so far I’m good. I have taken one 1.5 pain pills today. My left side is killing me. But my mom is in charge of the pain meds.

[Daonnachd]

We just got word that we can go home, but there's no electricity, gas, or water ... no potable water, anyway. We are going to wait until the utilities are turned back on.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

I'm waiting for my son to call. He called yesterday but by the time I got to the phone he hung up. I'm hoping he calls today.

I'm doing ok, I'm really missing him...

They are helping him. Be strong. Hugs!

[wildflowerchild25]

Pdoc is going to give me a little Xanax in case i have a panic/anxiety attack. My student still hasn’t come to school and I doubt he will, now that he’s had a taste of being home. I think he will be going virtual, which will be much better. At least he won’t be a physical threat then.

I’m still having nausea. It was really bad this morning, so bad I considered taking off because I wasn’t sure I could drive to work. But I really didn’t want to take off and then be fine in an hour. So I went in, albeit a few minutes late. I was fine by like 9am. So I’m glad I didn’t call out. I was good all day but now I’m queasy again. Of course my mind jumps to pregnancy...but I’m only in the third week of my current birth control pack so I really don’t think I would be feeling it this early!

My grandpa is worse by the day, my mom thinks it will be soon, but that’s what we thought six weeks ago so who knows. He knows what she is saying but can’t answer back. She know by the expression on his face. She’s reassuring him that we are all ok and taken care of so he doesn’t have to worry. I’m glad for that. As much of a crotchety man as he was (and is), I know he cared deeply for us all, even if he couldn’t show it. It’s just a waiting game...