[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Didn't the weight loss happen AFTER you had those tests?

I think it was like a 6 pound weight loss before the tests. But yeah the majority of the weight loss and loss of appetite happened after.

[Moose72]

Talked with pdoc. She wants me to take 2 mg extra Haldol for now as needed for paranoia. She suggested some movies to watch which I think I'll like and she's having the crisis team call me once a day or so to check in on me. Plus she is calling me back in a week.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I think it was like a 6 pound weight loss before the tests. But yeah the majority of the weight loss and loss of appetite happened after.

It could be the Geodon. While I was on it it killed my appetite. I lost weight. Then had to return to taking Seroquel and gained weight.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Talked with pdoc. She wants me to take 2 mg extra Haldol for now as needed for paranoia. She suggested some movies to watch which I think I'll like and she's having the crisis team call me once a day or so to check in on me. Plus she is calling me back in a week.

Sounds like the conversation went well and was productive! Yay!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Nammu

I still want to know why he wasn’t removed last night by the 25th admendmant he needs to lose all security clearance and any possibility of holding any type of office.

Exactly.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by BethRags

It could be the Geodon. While I was on it it killed my appetite. I lost weight. Then had to return to taking Seroquel and gained weight.

Yeah that’s what I’m thinking. I have zero other symptoms and no pain. So it can’t be anything big. I just have to figure out what to tell my therapist on Tuesday who thinks I have a major ED.

[*Beth*]

I had an appt. with my pdoc yesterday and I'm not pleased with how I'm handling my appointments with her recently. I can't seem to communicate some concerns to her. Even if I write them down I freeze, lose my assertiveness. She repeatedly says I'm "already on so much medication" and wants to leave it all alone. It's true that I'm quite stable. I don't know. Maybe she's correct, maybe I'm as good as I can be with regard to meds. The meds I'm on, though, are all sedating. I'm so drained from feeling like sleeping all the time and being zoned out while I'm awake. I don't want to add any medication, I only would like to be more alive and awake - without experiencing an abnormal amount of anxiety.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I had an appt. with my pdoc yesterday and I'm not pleased with how I'm handling my appointments with her recently. I can't seem to communicate some concerns to her. Even if I write them down I freeze, lose my assertiveness. She repeatedly says I'm "already on so much medication" and wants to leave it all alone. It's true that I'm quite stable. I don't know. Maybe she's correct, maybe I'm as good as I can be with regard to meds. The meds I'm on, though, are all sedating. I'm so drained from feeling like sleeping all the time and being zoned out while I'm awake. I don't want to add any medication, I only would like to be more alive and awake - without experiencing an abnormal amount of anxiety.

Which med do you think is the biggest culprit to the tiredness, not feeling alive? Do you think your pdoc would let you dial that back down? Do you take any of the sedating meds in the morning rather than at bedtime. Have you tried something simple like drinking a moderate amount of coffee to perk you up? Are you having your appointments over the phone these days? If so, you can't have notes written in advance so you don't forget what you want to say? That's what I did today. And my pdoc took it from there.

[Soupe du jour]

Hubby and I are in Missouri. Hubby wants to drive a small segment of Route 66. I just want to go back to New Jersey and prepare to go to Europe.

Supposedly our closing should be tomorrow, but though I know it will eventually happen, I won't count on it until it is over.

[Sunflower123]

My daughter left hurriedly yesterday due to what happened at the Capitol. It was a day we’d planned out and were looking forward to. She was afraid martial law was going to come down and travel would be restricted. Poor girl. I’m disgusted with that man for so many reasons: trying to destroy America, the pandemic, scaring my daughter and ruining our day. The list is endless.

I’m looking into hobbies. I found a hook latch set which makes an adorable rug that shows a rainbow in a blue sky with hearts raining down. I’m bad about self care and taking time for myself but I am working on it. I used to read a book or two a day but I’ve faded on that as I’ve started engaging more with life. I miss my passion for books and reading. Trying to find a replacement.

I found out I’m in category 1C for vaccination reasons and I should be able to get vaccinated in March. Hallelujah! Florida here I come (hopefully)!

Hugs to all who are struggling.

[Soupe du jour]

I'm feeling a bit down and frustrated this morning. I just want to move on to my new life already. Feeling homeless, in a sense.

I told Hubby that I'd rather spend more remaining days in New Jersey than on the road. We were going to spend some at Hubby's best friend's house, but circumstances make renting a hotel room a better idea. But a room in our old town area. At least what will be around us those last days will be familiar and I can see my family.

I haven't once picked up my Czech language learning book. I will have to soon. That has simply seemed too overwhelming.

not a great day. I haven't been awake very long and already angry and feeling I have no outlet for my feelings. I really hate days like today. I hope I find a way out of this soon. [just to be clear -- not suicidal or a harm to others.]

[Mountaindewed]

Today was my last day of group. I just have my Friday afternoon one later. A trans man was giving me a weird look when I was talking and I was wondering why. It made me feel super uncomfortable. I didn’t tell anyone in group I am trans because I feel like it’s none of their business. But in zoom you can put your gender and pronouns. I don’t know. His look just made me feel weird. I have facial hair and I always wear a hat so maybe he was just trying to figure out of if I’m trans too.

I really can’t tell if I have an ED or if my weight loss was intentional or not or if it’s meds, but I do know when my dysphoria acts up I lose my appetite.

[Mountaindewed]

Anyone else worried about that very mentally unstable man starting a nuclear war?

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Anyone else worried about that very mentally unstable man starting a nuclear war?

Yes. I am. I take comfort, though, in knowing that that person is being carefully monitored by other people who are around him.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Yes. I am. I take comfort, though, in knowing that that person is being carefully monitored by other people who are around him.

Yeah that’s what my mom said when I asked for reassurance that I have learned I shouldn’t be doing. That he’s surrounded by other advisors and his family to help him with his mental health.

[prettymccute]

I found the check in thread. Yay me! I'm not being very nice today. I seem to have a terrible temper lately. My son called, and we had a nice talk, but I treat my spouse terribly. I don't like being that way, but I haven't figured out how to stop.

I used to be a fairly nice person. I don't feel like I'm that way anymore.

[Fuzzybear]

I'm usually quite a nice person.... but not too nice. I do not appreciate being stepped on by snakes. I'm a bear so I step on snakes instead

(not about anyone on pc)

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Which med do you think is the biggest culprit to the tiredness, not feeling alive? Do you think your pdoc would let you dial that back down? Do you take any of the sedating meds in the morning rather than at bedtime. Have you tried something simple like drinking a moderate amount of coffee to perk you up? Are you having your appointments over the phone these days? If so, you can't have notes written in advance so you don't forget what you want to say? That's what I did today. And my pdoc took it from there.

I'm having appointments by telehealth. And that's part of the problem. If I was seeing her in person I'd feel more assertive.

I take all the potentially sedating meds at night. My guess is that it's the AP (Trilafon) that's most sedating. But I feel frustrated because Lamictal, for example, is activating for many people, but for me it's sedating.

If I complain to my pdoc she'll tell me to cut back on the AP. I'm taking it mainly for severe anxiety. But I'm learning more anxiety-reducing methods in therapy...maybe I can do without the Trilafon.

It seems that I get sedated and gain weight from every psych med there is .

Oh- I love coffee, especially espresso, and drink it quite a bit. The caffeine doesn't seem to have any effect on my energy level. I think meds just override the caffeine effect.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by prettymccute

I found the check in thread. Yay me! I'm not being very nice today. I seem to have a terrible temper lately. My son called, and we had a nice talk, but I treat my spouse terribly. I don't like being that way, but I haven't figured out how to stop.

I used to be a fairly nice person. I don't feel like I'm that way anymore.

No cubs. I try hard to be nice to my hubby, I nearly always succeed

He, and I are both worth it

(I know it is not that ''easy''... fortunately, as those who actually know me would confirm... I have been blessed with a mostly kind and sweet disposition, of course the ''family'' of origin would disagree, they are Malignant Narcissists, so that is ''natural'' for them)

[Mountaindewed]

I have been called the most nicest person before. But I’m actually a complete ***** most of the time. I just hide it well and bite my tongue.

[Fuzzybear]

I do get angry with my husband (Papa bear) sometimes. I hate to see the hurt in his face, so this is very rare.

He just shuts down, he is very rarely angry (in the usual sense)

[Fuzzybear]

Sometimes I feel like being a ******** but I do not want to stoop to ''their'' level. although they (irl) have spouted so much venom. If I ever did, I do not remember

going to eat cheesecake now

Maybe that will sweeten me up

[Mountaindewed]

I feel kinda crappy right now. It’s my usual PMDD. The last 2.5 days of my PMS have been horrible these past couple months. I’m pretty sure the only thing that can permanently fix these bad feelings is surgery. I was supposed to have an afternoon group but I never got a link. I was fed up with waiting and I didn’t even know who to contact. So I just let it go. I guess when your done with the program your done. My case manager called around noon and asked if I was confident in being discharged and I said “yeah” and she said I did a great job and she wishes me luck with going back to therapy.

I don’t know if I should feel a bit down that group is over or if it’s legit just my PMDD acting up right now. My stomach hurts so I assume it’s just the latter. I wonder if you can have kidney disease without having damage to your kidneys. I have high kidney function but no damage.

[Moose72]

@Mountaindewed

What is high kidney function? I have low kidney function. My dr just does a blood test and told me to drink more fluids.