Bipolar check-in #61

I'm sorry so many of you are suffering with the cold. Frankly, I give you all credit...I don't know how you get through such cold weather.

I'm just busy today. So many chores! Laundry, dishes, sweeping, work with our book business, replacing a shower curtain liner, cleaning the bathroom, taking out recycling...etc.

Oh - and cleaning the mildew off my car. Apparently it has a leak around the driver's door. With the rain last week or so the car got very wet inside and now mildew is on some places. Such FUN! Yuck.

Love all around!

I've been eating poorly since the cold weather hit and i'm feeling really tired and a bit worried about malnutrition so today i ordered nutritious frozen meals from a service. Hopefully things will improve. Still waiting for news on when they will be delivered.

My dog is doing well again today and i got her out again for an exercise break.

Hope everyone is doing as well as can be expected under the circumstances. It's a terrible time so we have to give ourselves a break.

@~Christina
Well he seems to be holding his own. Eating and drinking as usual. Still losing weight though! I hope he hasn’t lost more by next week. I don’t know if they tested for hyperthyroidism, I would assume they did. The vet is kind of a jerk, if I call him to find out he’s gonna be nasty about it. Like annoyed that I would even ask. Honestly I might take him somewhere else for a second opinion if I get any money from my tax return in February. I just don’t like how snippy his current vet is. I dunno, there’s just nothing left to really do except wait and see. Thanks for asking! I’m glad you and Steve are feeling better!

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 @~Christina Well he seems to be holding his own. Eating and drinking as usual. Still losing weight though! I hope he hasn’t lost more by next week. I don’t know if they tested for hyperthyroidism, I would assume they did. The vet is kind of a jerk, if I call him to find out he’s gonna be nasty about it. Like annoyed that I would even ask. Honestly I might take him somewhere else for a second opinion if I get any money from my tax return in February. I just don’t like how snippy his current vet is. I dunno, there’s just nothing left to really do except wait and see. Thanks for asking! I’m glad you and Steve are feeling better!

Hyperthyroidism is a strong possibility, especially since Cheeto is still quite young. You paid for the tests - you have every right to know what he was tested for! To heck with the vet's attitude. They are seldom good with humans, in my experience. They are animal people, not people-people.

Hi all. I've not been posting for the last week or so. Just read the last 5 pages of this thread. I'm glad everyone seems to be doing well. And I agree: being thin shouldn't be your number one priority but there are some issues that can be helped by it like fatty liver.

Yeah I agree about vets. The ones we see on TV are not accurate. They’re animal lovers and relate to animals not people. I’ve only once met the vet of my guy, I do all my dealings with the techs. But my guy loves the vet place so it must be good. For the last two years people aren’t allowed in. You have to wait in the car for the tech to come and get your pet, then they give you a time to return and bring the pet out. It’s actually nicer I think than having to wait in a room of sick pets.

Sorry if this is tmi but my endocronolgist told me I have to be super careful because now that I've had the hystrectomy I can easily tear the lining down there. And I think I just did. Is this fixable by itself? I really don't want another internal exam if I can avoid it. Has anyone else whos had a hystrectomy had an issue?

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Originally Posted by Moose72 Hi all. I've not been posting for the last week or so. Just read the last 5 pages of this thread. I'm glad everyone seems to be doing well. And I agree: being thin shouldn't be your number one priority but there are some issues that can be helped by it like fatty liver.

It's good to "see" you

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed Sorry if this is tmi but my endocronolgist told me I have to be super careful because now that I've had the hystrectomy I can easily tear the lining down there. And I think I just did. Is this fixable by itself? I really don't want another internal exam if I can avoid it. Has anyone else whos had a hystrectomy had an issue?

I wish I could help you. I have not had a hysterectomy.

Honestly they probably didn’t do a thyroid test because he’s only 5. It would be quite unusual for such a young cat to have hyperthyroidism. Well I’m going to keep weighing him weekly like the vet said. If he appears to get sicker in other ways I will definitely bring him back.

As for me I’m amazed at how stable I feel. The vraylar is definitely doing me some good as of right now. The panic attacks and dissociation is still strong but now I’m pretty sure it’s trauma related. Not much to do except pull out my grounding skills when it gets bad. I ordered a piece of wall art months ago that I just never hung, but I’m going to hang it this week. It’s a floral painting that has lots of petals and colors to count. Counting helps me calm down. Ice helps too, as well as scents.

I got a yoga mat at five below and hope to start the yoga series tomorrow. I have decided to do it in the “animal room” as we call it (it houses the two Guinea pigs and the cats’ food bowls). There’s no TV and for some reason it’s the only room in the house without grounded outlets so I’m reticent to put the extra TV in there, but I can use my chrome book which at least has a slightly larger screen than my kindle fire. I have my choice in Amazon boxes (I give Jeff bezos way too much money) to prop it on to make it easier to see.

I may choose to see a dietician in February if my no dairy experiment yields no results. I’d like to have some guidance going forward. It could be entirely possible that it’s all due to meds, specifically the seroquel XR I started over the summer as the digestive issues started back in august. But if I could get advice on how to better balance my diet to aid in relieving some of my symptoms it would be worth spending extra money I feel. Now that I know my son will still receive death benefits I’m more confident in my ability to pay a little extra for health services. HOPEFULLY my son won’t grow so much that I’ll need to buy him another winter wardrobe!

Mountaindewed, perhaps you may find more people with possible life experience on a forum relating to transgender issues. Or one discussing hysterectomies. I have no experience with either.

This line of topic (assuming masturbation) is indeed a little beyond what most here feel comfort openly discussing. Not that I consider myself a prude, or think sexual-related issues shouldn't be discussed. However, even I have my boundaries on appropriate conversation, especially if in an inappropriate forum. Perhaps if anyone does relate, they might discuss it with you privately via PM, yet I recall you saying you've blocked PMs, an action I assume to protect your boundaries. My point is that if you don't get a response here, don't take offense. It's not about you, but others' boundaries and comfort levels.

My pain is still there today. I read a case study last night that complications 4 months after surgery are not unheard of and often need sugrerical intervention. It also says that the nausea and stomach pain I've been having could be realted. So I sent an email over to my doctor and I'll see what he says. I just told my therapist on Wednesdsy that I want this year to be free of any infections or surgeries since 2019, 2020, and 2021 were full of them. No joke though going to the gynecolgist ****ing sucks.

I was just asking if anyone had any complications in general after a hysrectomy. For any type of reason. Even if they arent trans.

Sorry I didnt mean to offend anyone or cross anyones boundaries I was just a little bit alarmed last night and I didnt know where or who to go to ask.

No biggie. Have you considered also asking about this at https://mysupportforums.org/sexual-and-gender-issues/ ? It's my assumption that the "sexual" portion of that forum allows for a broad range of discussion, as does the "gender" portion.

Just spent an hour and a half with N1 at Starbucks. We had a nice chat. It was my idea to get together so I feel bad that I sometimes not have an idea of what she was talking about even though I did ask for clarification.

@Mountaindewed I agree that you probably would find better support at the sexuality and gender board. I haven't had a hysterectomy and neither have I gone through menopause so I'm really of no help.

Thanks I'll look into it. I'm still trying to figure out how much my therapist can handle. She's already said some of my behaviors are creepy so I don't want to throw even more stuff at her. But I sent a message to my doctor. I explained excatly when everything started. So hopefully I'll hear back by tomorow afternoon.

Today my anxiety is a bit high. I've had a lot of caffeine. I drank a Mountain Dew and a couple sodas and then an entire pitcher of matcha iced tea. The health stuff is getting to me too. I have my first legit dentist appointment in 2 years tommorow afternoon. Its xrays and cleanings. I've neglected my teeth out of depression and being out of a work routine. But when I went for an evaulation of a couple teeth in September the dentist said there wasn't anything major just some buildup and a lot of teeth clenching going on. I have been very cold lately so I'm wondering if I'm clencing mg teeth even more then normal. So hopefully its not too big of a hassle. I am actually looking forward to it for some reason.

So today I think its just health and caffeine anxiety. I slept fine last night and I ate sort of decently today.

I am really shaky this afternoon. I don't know if it's anxiety, caffeine, or low blood sugar. I only had 2 cups of coffee today so I don't think it's caffeine. I went ahead and just ate something to see if it helps. If it doesn't then I'll probably take one of my klonopin. Trying to breathe and just relax. Hopefully it goes away soon.

The sidewalks and parking lot, roads, are solid ice. I basically went ice skating in order to throw my trash out in the dumpster. Slipped a couple times but thankfully didn't fall. I'm not going out walking anywhere until it melts, I don't want to fall, I'm already uncoordinated enough as it is without having to walk across a sheet of ice.

I had a really cool dream where I could do magic, I could control the element of water There where a few other people in this place with me, one could control fire, one could control electricity/lightning. It was a really cool dream, it reminded me of The Witcher tv series on Netflix with the mages. It was so realistic. I was kind of disappointed when I woke up lol

Your just a Buzzy Bee !! I bet it felt great to get so many things accomplished! Good for you !!!!

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Hopefully those meals will make you feel better. I always feel bad if I’m not eating good food. So happy your baby is feeling better!

You bring up something I need to hear often. Thank you

**** give ourselves a break****

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Oh yes if you can take him to someone else. Like I understand anyone can be snappy but good grief especially Vets need to be kinder or at least professional.. why be a jerk ?? Ugh no

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Hey ! Sorry your slip sliding. Glad you didn’t fall.

How long have you been back on Thorazine? I ask because years ago I was on Haldol and would often stop and then go back on ( pdoc approved) but I’d feel almost like I had a touch of the flu for a week or so.. Maybe your body is just adjusting back ???

Hope you feel better soon ! Did you make that yummy dinner of Buffalo chicken today ??

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I actually just restarted it 2 days ago, it's possible that's it, I didn't think of that, I took a nap today too because I was feeling really exhausted, thank you

I didn't cook today because I woke up really late but I definitely am tomorrow I'll try to post of pic when everything's done and on a plate

It’s much warmer today in the low 40’s ! But rain rain rain rain rain. I’m living off Sudafed and my head is still in a vise. My Fibromyalgia is awful. Winter is such a literal pain when the weather fronts come my way.

I have a dental appointment first thing in the morning and I’m dreading it. I know I need stuff done but trying to pay for it is another thing. We have a Care Credit we can use. I just hope and pray I don’t need root canals or crowns. Decades of dry mouth from medications cause so much damage.

I see the Breast Specialist on the 17th which has me very worried of course as numerous friends are also dealing with additional testing. Prior to my screening Mammo they checked to see when my last vaccine was because women are having things show up from the vaccines. Many case studies are showing it’s not all that rare. I can not get the booster vaccine until all this gets sorted out. There has to be problems from a new vaccine of course.

Then my routine visit with my Rheumatologist the 24th. The first of the year with deductibles just stress me beyond belief.

Regardless of all that stuff going on I am grateful that my husband is much better, I was able to stop my prednisone after just 4 days and my Asthma flare isn’t on going.


Gus is just so chill today

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed My pain is still there today. I read a case study last night that complications 4 months after surgery are not unheard of and often need sugrerical intervention. It also says that the nausea and stomach pain I've been having could be realted. So I sent an email over to my doctor and I'll see what he says. I just told my therapist on Wednesdsy that I want this year to be free of any infections or surgeries since 2019, 2020, and 2021 were full of them. No joke though going to the gynecolgist ****ing sucks.

Good that you notified your doctor. Hopefully you won't have to do another internal exam.

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird I am really shaky this afternoon. I don't know if it's anxiety, caffeine, or low blood sugar. I only had 2 cups of coffee today so I don't think it's caffeine. I went ahead and just ate something to see if it helps. If it doesn't then I'll probably take one of my klonopin. Trying to breathe and just relax. Hopefully it goes away soon. The sidewalks and parking lot, roads, are solid ice. I basically went ice skating in order to throw my trash out in the dumpster. Slipped a couple times but thankfully didn't fall. I'm not going out walking anywhere until it melts, I don't want to fall, I'm already uncoordinated enough as it is without having to walk across a sheet of ice. I had a really cool dream where I could do magic, I could control the element of water There where a few other people in this place with me, one could control fire, one could control electricity/lightning. It was a really cool dream, it reminded me of The Witcher tv series on Netflix with the mages. It was so realistic. I was kind of disappointed when I woke up lol

Yikes, that ice sounds so potentially dangerous.

VERY cool dream!!