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[QUOTE=whatever2013;7200385]It was windy here in Ontario too but not treacherous. I had a quiet day with my dog. We played tug with an old sock. She's so strong and determined! Did some stinkin' thinkin' about how messy my life has been. I am eager for the end. Thankfully i am 55 with most of my life behind me. I wouldn't want to be young again with all that misery and desperation ahead. I'm so ashamed of myself and ashamed of my life, so dysfunctional i can't even participate in the workforce. My mom lived to 70 and unfortunately my doctor says he can tell from my cholesterol profile that i have her longevity genes rather than my dad's heart disease genes as he died at 54. I've already outlived him. But i have my dad's personality dysfunction genes so maybe it won't be much longer. I'm neglecting my health so that should help speed things along too.
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Dear Jane,
You are still young and have many years ahead of you.I think checking out a new better anti depressant is a good idea. (((((HUGS)))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Ugh! I'm so tired and feeling not so great about something else. It's 6 pm Eastern US time and I'm in NJ after a long flight. We got up at 5:15 am in Germany (what was 11:15 pm in NJ) and didn't get any sleep since. I'm showered with teeth brushed and in bed at our Airbnb.
I tried calling my sister to finally tell her I've arrived, but she answered in distress, saying she had to hang up as she was in the hospital. She called back just a few minutes later to tell me that my nephew (her eldest and only living son) is in the psych hospital and was briefly last week, too. I won't say much more, because I know little more and am distressed. Not just at the fact, but my sister's disturbing reaction.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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I hear you. I'm scared about the war, too. What's happening is horrifying and although I hate, hate war I can't stand the thought of NATO countries (obviously, primarily the U.S.) allowing the vicious inhumanity and genocide to continue without intervening. I know we're giving tons of money and weapons, but clearly that's not enough. And I'll be honest, I don't believe that "not watching the news" is an effective way to cope. The fact is, the horror is occurring. I DO believe in taking breaks from the news...watching a movie or reading a book or whatever. But we can't ignore the reality of what's going on by turning off the TV or not reading about the war online. Do I think the world will end? No, I don't. I really don't. The world doesn't end so easily. My hope is that Putler will be assassinated. But whatever happens, I believe that he's in waaay over his head. His "great" army sucks, let's face it. I just think we need to step up and put and end to this thing.
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Oh, my God. I'm so glad you had a safe (if very tiring) flight - but to come so far and arrive to such bad news and to your sister's reaction...I am very sorry to hear it. I'm thinking of you, Soupe. Please let us know how you're doing when you can.
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The thing is, I understand your feeling. Today I was sitting in my parked car, listening to a song. I looked up at the sky and the clouds were so strange and beautiful. At that moment I felt like I could...and even wanted to...just float away into the peace of non-existence. It would feel so good, like a deep rest after a very, very tiring day. The thing is...what causes that feeling is deep, cutting emotional pain and, often, physical depression. And depression, as we all know, tells us crazy stories and lies to us. I'm truly worrying about you. Frankly put, what I'm hearing is that you are suicidal. Please Jane, will you take steps starting Monday to reach out and secure help? ![]()
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I obviously woke up early given my time adjustment. Soon after our early breakfast in our Airbnb apartment, I saw a WhatsApp message from my sister. Apparently soon after she returned home last night from the psych hospital where my nephew is again, my brother asked her to take him to the ER because he felt very sick. The initial guess is that he may have an issue with his gallbladder, but it's not certain. He will be kept at the hospital at least until tomorrow. My poor family members are having a rough time of it. Even my brother-in-law is in bed sick. Tonight it will just be my sister, our dad, and Hubby and me at an Easter celebration -- one I even offered for my sister to skip, if she wanted. But she refused. We won't tell Dad more than he needs to know today. As we don't know our brother's situation well enough, no need scaring him that much. As for my nephew, I'll leave it to my sister to decide what (if anything) to mention to Dad. Nephew is safe, at the moment. With the other stuff, I think it best not to have Dad experience any unneeded added crises. Dad's an incredibly sensitive soul. Plus, I want my visit with him to be a positive as possible.
On a MUCH lighter note, I've already treated myself to something I had been missing. Oatmeal raisin cookies. I tried making them twice in Czech Republic with Czech flour(s) and both times they were failures. The ones I bought last night from Whole Foods bakery were delicious and perfect. What a treat! Oh, the simple pleasures of life!
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Apr 17, 2022 at 06:12 AM. |
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People can’t 100% reassure you. Nobody knows what Putin will do. I doubt he even knows. But right now it is not the end of the world unless you live in Ukraine. Other countries could very well be attacked in the future but there’s no point getting yourself so worked up about it that you can’t eat. You live in the US. For now you are safe. Take comfort in that. There have been many wars and countries invaded in the past and the world hasn’t ended. I think that’s all the reassurance available right now. |
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@whatever2013
I agree, concern is warranted. I know the feeling of just waiting to die. Interestingly, and rather stupidly I must say, that is why I started smoking at 19. I figured maybe I’d eventually get lung cancer and die sooner rather than later. An awful thought now, and disrespectful to anyone who actually has died of any type of cancer. And when I didn’t want to die anymore (which will happen for you), I couldn’t stop of course. I’ve been cigarette free for 2 years but still vaping nicotine and can’t give it up. Anyway sorry for the tangent about my own life. I do believe you need help ASAP so please, do call your pdoc tomorrow morning.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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@BethRags
Ah! Progressive muscle relaxation! Forgot all about that one! That might help. I’ve just been staying up too late and I don’t like it. It messes with my mood.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Didn’t sleep well of course. But I’m up. Going to shower then get the beans in by 10:30 so we can drive over. May the snow not come today. It’s predicted for late afternoon early pm.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I'm not doing too bad today mentally or physically. I took my meds as scheduled which meant a geodon in the AM. That was at 2 and then I got back to sleep until right before 6. I ate a couple crackers with the geodon which may have helped. I don't normally eat with it even though I know thats a med you need to eat with. Around 8 I ate a jelly donut and a small matcha iced latte without any issue. My mom is at church right now with my sister and her family and then theres an egg hunt at the church and then later they will come over for dinner. Right now I'm just watching hulu in the family room and enjoying the peace and quite before things get chaotic.
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Whew! You flew right into an emotional hornet's nest, my dear! Nevertheless, I wish you a happy Easter celebration. Oatmeal raisin cookies sounds delicious!
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Happy Easter, Nammu! Snow!? You're still having snow...my goodness. I hope spring "springs" soon for you ![]()
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My sister is unable to keep her 13 year old cat Maybelle anymore, so I decided to take her to live with me. So Miss Mustachio (my 6 month old cat) is getting a big sister soon! she is a beautiful sweet tortie cat. My sister was looking for a home for her and I couldn't let her get taken by anyone else, I wanted her to stay within the family if possible so I'm getting her, and I am very excited, here's a pic of her
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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You’ll have two beautiful queens ruling your house soon. 😃 good for you. Blue bird 🐦
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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I did find a pair of acceptable pants ! I have lost weight so They fit again so thankful ! Shoes… oooaf ! I do have a pair that should go ok. They are a lightest brown wedge that I think I can still walk in lol ever since I have started falling often I’ve had trouble wearing anything with a heel. I’ll try them out before then. Yes a Mennonite wedding ! I’m not sure if it’s something like ours. I’m very curious tho lol Hope your having a nice day hun! Hugs Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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I'm having a hard time this afternoon. It feels more mental health today. I've been thinking about this incident that happened when I was 14 and its been bugging me and also I'm worried I'm going to be sent IP because of my eating habits which seem to be getting worse. I just had a meltdown because my mom couldn't gurantee me dinner would be ready on time. We discussed this for a few days how she always plans holiday dinners being ready at a certain time and how they never are. They are always a couple hours later then planned. She promised this time dinner would be ready early. So when I asked again she said "around" and I kinda freaked out because I knew this would happen. But I guess my therapist would say if I know its going to happen because it always does and its never any different I just need to accept it and not get upset over it. Or something along that. But yeah now I kinda understand how the whole reassurance thing is not very good since it can sometimes lead to false promises. But this eating issue combined with OCD is not very good and I hope my therapist can help me. It does seem to be more of an anxiety issue then a physical issue. At least today.
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I’ve hit a bit of Verbal constipation as I call the inability to really respond in a way that would make sense to you all.
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Oh, good - the shoes sound really cute. Wedges are so in style now. Yeah, you'll have to let us know what a Mennonite wedding is like! Happy Easter, sweetpea ![]()
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I so hope you'll find it helpful. I first learned PMR in a birthing class when I was pregnant with my first child. Wow, it felt so good.
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