Bipolar check-in #68

~Christina · Aug 02, 2022, 08:41 PM

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Originally Posted by bizi

@~Christina

So good to hear from you.!
what about a book store?can you stand for long hours?
I would not be able to do a regular job because my memory
is so bad and I feel that I have lost alot of my memories due to drinking and taking psych meds for so long.
love you!
bizi

There’s no book stores anywhere close to me. Like 1.5 hours away kind of distance. So no way. I don’t know if I’d be able to be in one spot for long periods … job hunting is going to be a “ joy” ( pure sarcasm)

Hope your doing well ! Any relief from knee pain yet ?

Hugs!

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~Christina · Aug 02, 2022, 08:44 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

My therapist and I agreed to start IFS (Internal family systems) therapy next week. We're going to somewhat learn together as he's had some training but has never used it. So we'll have an adventure but I think it will work well. He has brought it up before and then we didn't do it (about a year ago) and he said he just wasn't as comfortable then. So that will be different at least. I think I've learned most of what I'm going to learn without a crisis from the things we've done before. Being fairly stable I can take a risk at trying something new.

After therapy I did a few errands and then went to PT. I want to be able to go to the state fair tomorrow so I had them tape my foot. I don't know how much it will help but it's worth a shot. Years ago I had my foot taped when I had the same condition (plantar fascitis) and it really helped. This is kinesiotaping though and that was athletic taping so it's different. It will help me know if I need them to tape it before my vacation in a couple weeks.

It was a long day and I'm hoping I'll get to sleep fairly soon so I can comfortably wake up early to go to the fair. I hope that the fair isn't a huge mistake for my foot. I can't stop my entire life for this. It's been hurting for months and if I'd stopped everything because of it I'd be so stressed and lonely.

hugs to anyone who needs one

As you know I’ve been doing IFS also. It’s very strange but it’s also been insightful so I’m going to continue it. Who knows where it will go.

Hope PT continues to help

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~Christina · Aug 02, 2022, 09:04 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Hello everyone! I am so touched that you have all been thinking of me.

I did indeed go IP on the 18th. NOT by choice, I was committed. I was calling RS from the ER often, telling him I feel like they’ve trapped me (at the psych ER). I kept going between wanting the door shut to keep everyone out or having it open so they couldn’t lock me in.

When the came to transport me to an IP unit I accused them of tricking me. I had to weigh which would be worse, going quietly or being given a shot because I was going whether I wanted to or not. I chose option A, I knew where they were sending me and how to get there I so would know immediately if they were indeed tricking me.

Anyway I spent about a week terrified, completely convinced they were all talking about me and making a plan to attack me. I got a new roommate and got it in my head that I had to self harm to show them I’m not scared of pain so they can all back off. Well that is hard (but not impossible) to achieve in IP.

Anyway now I’m on a bunch of meds including haldol and cogentin. I am going to turn my attention to taking control of my anxiety as that is what led to a complete loss of reality. I’ve never really got into mindfulness but I think that’s the best to go with because all my anxiety is focused toward what COULD happen in the future so I want to learn how to practice staying in the present. I do know a lot of grounding skills.

Again that you all so much for thanking of me during this difficult episode.

So relieved to see you !! Been really worried ! Take it one day at a time hun

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bizi · Aug 02, 2022, 09:12 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

There’s no book stores anywhere close to me. Like 1.5 hours away kind of distance. So no way. I don’t know if I’d be able to be in one spot for long periods … job hunting is going to be a “ joy” ( pure sarcasm)

Hope your doing well ! Any relief from knee pain yet ?

Hugs!

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My sister who is a nurse but got tired of the games in her dr. office/med clinic she got bullied. so she gave notice and now works in a myers right by her house. It is kinda like target.she works in the clothes department folding clothes and putting new clothes out.She makes $12 an hour.
She gets off when she needs to baby sit her First grand child emmy in north carolina, She lives in indianapolis., well actually a town south of indy.

She would not have been able to go see them as much as she has with the RN job. so she is thrilled for the flexibility.They are desperate for workers so gretchen knows she won't lose her job they need her. What stores are close to you? I know that you live in the country right?
knee is much better thanks for asking!
bizi

~Christina · Aug 02, 2022, 10:01 PM

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Originally Posted by bizi

My sister who is a nurse but got tired of the games in her dr. office/med clinic she got bullied. so she gave notice and now works in a myers right by her house. It is kinda like target.she works in the clothes department folding clothes and putting new clothes out.She makes $12 an hour.
She gets off when she needs to baby sit her First grand child emmy in north carolina, She lives in indianapolis., well actually a town south of indy.

She would not have been able to go see them as much as she has with the RN job. so she is thrilled for the flexibility.They are desperate for workers so gretchen knows she won't lose her job they need her. What stores are close to you? I know that you live in the country right?
knee is much better thanks for asking!
bizi

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Originally Posted by bizi

My sister who is a nurse but got tired of the games in her dr. office/med clinic she got bullied. so she gave notice and now works in a myers right by her house. It is kinda like target.she works in the clothes department folding clothes and putting new clothes out.She makes $12 an hour.
She gets off when she needs to baby sit her First grand child emmy in north carolina, She lives in indianapolis., well actually a town south of indy.

She would not have been able to go see them as much as she has with the RN job. so she is thrilled for the flexibility.They are desperate for workers so gretchen knows she won't lose her job they need her. What stores are close to you? I know that you live in the country right?
knee is much better thanks for asking!
bizi

That’s great she found a good fit for her.
It’s small town here. Mostly Factory’s we lost a department store last year. They just couldn’t make enough. There is one store I do have plan to apply at It’s like a much smaller version of TjMax or Marshall’s if you have them in your area.

I think my main stress is most everything is done online now. Gone are the days you dressed nicely and went in to get an application. Now I’ll be a font on a screen.

I’m sure I’ll likely find something quickly as people seem to not want to work around here !

Thanks hun

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~Christina · Aug 02, 2022, 10:04 PM

Felt yuck all day. Just nausea off and on. Hopefully I’ll wake up feeling better. I see Richard tomorrow.

Finally got a pic of one of my other dogs. Sirius photo bombed Gus lol Bipolar check-in #68

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Nammu · Aug 02, 2022, 10:21 PM

Awwww I love seeing peoples pets.

*Beth* · Aug 02, 2022, 11:24 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I have plantar fascitis in my foot. Unfortunately it's a fairly bad case of it. I'm doing PT rather than a steroid shot because steroids make my mood fluctuate. One podiatrist had a med compounded for me that included cortisone and just the little bit in that made me hypo. So no shots. If PT doesn't help I'm going to ask about serial casting. I had a tight achilles with a nodule on it before I had surgery on my other ankle. After surgery I had serial casting and then nodule disappeared and the achilles isn't as tight.

I actually did well at the fair footwise (the taping helped a lot) but it was way too hot for my meds and it wasn't much fun and we had to leave early. No more August activities outside for me.

A free fair! That's neat. I don't remember if our county charges admission or just parking. I'm going to have to drag my mom there. She wanted an apple dumpling and left before she got it because she was worried about me. So we need to go get one to make up for this. The county fair is in late September so I should be able to be outside by then.

A late September fair sounds so much nicer than a fair in the very heat of summer. Late September is a real harvest festival atmosphere. Even when I was a kid and a teen going to the big state fair felt mercilessly hot. The older I got, the more I tended to go at night, when it was pleasantly cool. The lights were so pretty at night, anyway. But once the kids grew up, the big (state) fair was kinda meh. The little county fair here is plenty enough now.

I'm so sorry you ended up not having such a good time, though. Meds really, really cause overheating problems. I don't think people who have not had the experience really "get" how severe the heat can be for those of us on medication.

Ack, plantar facitis sounds absolutely miserable. I'm so sorry you have to suffer with such a painful condition. The serial casting may just be the way to go.

*Beth* · Aug 02, 2022, 11:26 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Felt yuck all day. Just nausea off and on. Hopefully I’ll wake up feeling better. I see Richard tomorrow.

Finally got a pic of one of my other dogs. Sirius photo bombed Gus lol

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Ha, photo bomb

I'm so sorry you've felt yucky today. I hope seeing Richard tomorrow is very helpful.

*Beth* · Aug 02, 2022, 11:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

We have a free fair here too, it’s next week. I’m only going if the weather co operates. It was a feel like temperature today of 102 with the humidity! I stayed home and mum went to her eye appointment with my sister who has a new car, so great AC. I only went out to water the flowers, fetch the mail in and put the recycling out. Oh, I did go get custard sundaes at Culver’s. Too hot to eat but custard is good 😊 the AC is cooling a bit better now that it’s cooling off out there. We had it on 74 to keep it from working too much. 74 is a bit to high for me though. This year at the fair I want a snow cone.

A custard sundae! I've never heard of that, it sounds absolutely wonderful. No, no fair if the heat is like that! Yuck-o-la.

David absolutely loves the heat, sun, scorching hot weather, and I know he won't like it, but I'm thinking of insisting that we go to the fair in the evening this year. I just do not feel up to dealing with any more miserably hot weather. I guess it's the years of drought, but this summer seems like it has been thoroughly, disgustingly hot. And the near 100 or above just does not stop.

*Beth* · Aug 02, 2022, 11:42 PM

I have a VERY large box filled with recycling sitting in my kitchen and I have to deal with it tomorrow. David was in a bicycling accident last week and has broken his ribs, so he can't help me. I'm going to tape up the box really well and drop it over the banister into the parking lot below. Then I'll go downstairs and carry the whole thing to the dumpster. See, I have it all figured out.

I skated today and it was the best! Now I'm going to test Sid's glucose and if her number is okay, I'll head into bed. I so wish I knew that when I get into bed I'd fall asleep. But chances are I'll be in bed for at least 90 minutes before I do fall asleep. I feel relieved about my appointment at the med clinic tomorrow.

I'm sad to hear that Vin Scully "the voice of baseball" died today. He sure had a wonderful long life, though. Made a lot of people very happy, for so very many decades.

Victoria'smom · Aug 03, 2022, 01:16 AM

My head is loud, I'm overwelmed. 2x I got up to stop my dog from getting into things only to find her sleeping elsewhere. I have about 2 weeks until I can leave the house because H has been sick. I can't cook so we're living off protein shakes, oj and take out that I split into 4 meals. I broke down and bought a pizza that should last us three meals. I'm so sick of the house being a disaster and not being able to do anything to fix it. AND not being able to cook because people don't take my limitations into account when leaving their mess everywhere. Bills are shot this month I'm not even stressing those. I can't pick up the garbage, or take it out. I feel sick but in the mental health way. I can't shower, my hair's a knot. HUD's going to come anytime and I can't know when because I can't get the stupid mail. I'm not looking forward to snow but I'm damn looking forward to more independence Artemis is going to give me.

Victoria'smom · Aug 03, 2022, 01:26 AM

This is Artemis the golden retriever.

Soupe du jour · 01:51 AM

Today's the day we sign the contract for the property we're buying. I hope it goes smoothly and uneventfully. We are excited, but also nervous because of the possible costs in the near future. There are some major renovations needed for a good part of it, something we've never dealt with to such a degree. It's the only way we could even consider such a purchase.

My s-i-l is now discouraging us from using the services of a construction worker/friend. He is very good at what he does and much cheaper than most, but not always reliable. He owes her money/work, which is a little red flag. As is his occasional tendency to tell white lies. We wonder if he has debts and from what. I fear gambling. He asked for a big chunk of change in advance to buy supplies. Hubby and I decided to only offer 50% of what he requested and to closely monitor him the best we can, though he'll be further north where the property is. We learned a lesson from another project he did, but my husband was mainly at fault for various reasons. I'm the better project manager of us two, but here have the language barrier. Frustrating! I also told Hubby not to promise him all of the projects.

Soupe du jour · Aug 03, 2022, 01:52 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Felt yuck all day. Just nausea off and on. Hopefully I’ll wake up feeling better. I see Richard tomorrow.

Finally got a pic of one of my other dogs. Sirius photo bombed Gus lol Bipolar check-in #68

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Someone looks jealous.

Nammu · Aug 03, 2022, 10:14 AM

Sleep was so so, I did get about 4 hours. Weird political dream. It was a combo of the White House and a. Dr Who set with a far right woman being the president but it turned out she was being brainwashed by a fat white old guy( not orange! ) we were trying to set her free but I woke up before we successfully freed her.

Today’s aqua fitness was fun. I found out we have 4 Mary’s in our class. We have such fun.

Sunflower123 · Aug 03, 2022, 11:32 AM

I had to interact with the dryer repairman yesterday evening. This was the second time in two weeks that he’s been over. He wanted to explain everything that could be wrong, how to fix it and for me to stand there with him. He talked rapidly and seemed jittery but eventually calmed down. I’d like to think it was my calm, patient demeanor or the calming lavender essential oil I was wearing but there is no telling really. I was fatigued by the time he left. It was nice for a time drying my clothes in the fresh air and sunshine. The dryer works now.

This morning at the pool was so delightful. I have it to myself that early so it’s extra nice. It set me up for a great day. I feel good today.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day.

HALLIEBETH87 · Aug 03, 2022, 01:10 PM

Ugh my tummy hurts from
Anxious worry

*Beth* · Aug 03, 2022, 03:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

My head is loud, I'm overwelmed. 2x I got up to stop my dog from getting into things only to find her sleeping elsewhere. I have about 2 weeks until I can leave the house because H has been sick. I can't cook so we're living off protein shakes, oj and take out that I split into 4 meals. I broke down and bought a pizza that should last us three meals. I'm so sick of the house being a disaster and not being able to do anything to fix it. AND not being able to cook because people don't take my limitations into account when leaving their mess everywhere. Bills are shot this month I'm not even stressing those. I can't pick up the garbage, or take it out. I feel sick but in the mental health way. I can't shower, my hair's a knot. HUD's going to come anytime and I can't know when because I can't get the stupid mail. I'm not looking forward to snow but I'm damn looking forward to more independence Artemis is going to give me.

I am just so sorry that you're having an extremely rough time, Mm. You are often in my loving thoughts.

*Beth* · Aug 03, 2022, 04:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Sleep was so so, I did get about 4 hours. Weird political dream. It was a combo of the White House and a. Dr Who set with a far right woman being the president but it turned out she was being brainwashed by a fat white old guy( not orange! ) we were trying to set her free but I woke up before we successfully freed her.

Today’s aqua fitness was fun. I found out we have 4 Mary’s in our class. We have such fun.

Aqua fitness always sounds just terrific to me. I love the name Mary.

*Beth* · 07:01 PM

I had such a powerful dream. I was sitting in the car my mother owned years ago, a big, white Buick, when I saw my boss, the owner of the cafe where I worked for 15 years, walking towards the car. I saw her long, red hair. I put the window down and held up my hand. Joan put out her hand and we held our hands, straight up and palms together, for a minute. Then she walked away. The dream had a deep, spiritual essence to it.

Time for a shower then my appointment with med dude. I have high hopes, I hope not too high.

~**~***~***~**~*~~*~

*Beth* · Aug 03, 2022, 04:22 PM

Victoria'smom · Aug 03, 2022, 06:50 PM

Well inspections Monday, if we don't pass we get evicted and lose housing. Yay. on a brighter note H is feeling a little better. I showered, first time in weeks. And We'll use this time to pack.

pirilin · Aug 03, 2022, 07:01 PM

Is this where you check in?

Victoria'smom · Aug 03, 2022, 08:04 PM

@pirilin yes it is

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