Bipolar check-in #70

Thank you, it's always nice to read your posts as well! That's awesome that you're vacationing in tennessee, I've always wanted to visit there. I lived in Kentucky, near Louisville for about 8 years, and at one point I took a trip down to Georgia, on the way we drove through Tenessee and went through the Blue Ridge Parkway, it was in November, and it's near the Smoky Mountains, and oh my God it was absolutely stunning there with the fall foliage! I would love to visit there someday I hope you have a good vacation

Some pictures of the kitties and the fall leaves on my grocery trip yesterday

Your cats are precious! Beautiful foliage!

The magnolia leaves have fallen so much we really need to rake them up.
There is not too much fall here supposed to be 88 for a high.

We are having a festival this weekend. should be nice

I worked yesterday. Hubby went there by himself

yesterday. He went with a friend for friday night and

his friend got so drunk he fell asleep in the car. hubby
had picked him up glad I was not there.

We are having a cold front in this week going to be in the 70's yeah!

bizi

Ben is coming over and I’m making lunch. Pork roast in the crock pot, mashed potatoes and green beans!

I was looking at Mustachio's mustache and beard and thought it looked very familiar.

Frank Zappa!

But Mustachio is quite a bit cuter-looking. Luckily the Zappas won't bother him for borrowing the look, despite the Zappa mustache and beard having been trademarked.

I love magnolias, bizi! Have a nice time at the festival. I think they're especially nice when they happen in the fall.

I hope your friend is more careful in the future. I once fell asleep (passed out) drunk in my car, though that was years ago. Both your friend and I lucked out that we weren't discovered by the cops. I was especially vulnerable as I was in a parking lot just behind my old town's police station. There was even a rather unpleasant bit of evidence of drunkenness outside my car door. Bad times!

How funny the 70 F is a cold front where you are and an Indian Summer where I am.

I took it easy again today. I am much much better though. My anxiety was bad today from too much caffeine. Its better now. I am fading a bit physically right now. Just some fatigue and my cough has returned a little bit. I can take more delsym in a few minutes. I've been zoned out in front of the TV since noon. I can smell and taste again. My mom is pretty much fine now too. She never got covid, just a cold. She tested negative twice. My brother was fine the whole time. I need to perform an excorcism on my room in the morning and wash all my non weighted blankets and pillow cases and spray the weighted blankets and my bed with fabric lysol. Then wipe down my med bottles and my TV remote with clorox wipes. I need to get a new tooth brush too sometime. I am supposed to go for bloodwork next week for an appointment on the 26th but I may switch my appointment. But maybe it will be fine. I'm wondering if I should take a test to see if I'm still positive.

And I'm still positive. Not gonna lie, I'm kinda scared.

You are such a precious gem, a rare bear among bears @Fuzzybear. Thank you for your continuing friendship.

It is so kind of you to welcome me back @Blue_Bird. Thank you for your friendship.

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Originally Posted by bizi The magnolia leaves have fallen so much we really need to rake them up. There is not too much fall here supposed to be 88 for a high. We are having a festival this weekend. should be nice I worked yesterday. Hubby went there by himself yesterday. He went with a friend for friday night and his friend got so drunk he fell asleep in the car. hubby had picked him up glad I was not there. We are having a cold front in this week going to be in the 70's yeah! bizi

Magnolia trees are so unusual and lovely. There was a very tall one in the backyard of the house where I grew up.

A festival sounds wonderful! What is the theme of it?

We are, at long last, in the 70's today and will be tomorrow. I'm actually chilly, all bundled up, and looking forward to a hot shower!

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird I went to the movie theater with my friend last night to see Halloween Ends, enjoyed it and had a good time. It's my 4th or 5th day since starting Metformin to help with losing the weight I've gained on my APs. I'm happy to report that I'm not having any bad side effects from it. Relieved about that, I always fear when I start something new that I'll like suddenly drop dead or something. I went grocery shopping yesterday. Got pumpkin spice English muffins and some apple cider among other things. The fall leaves look beautiful here in upstate NY. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk

Good luck with Metformin. I hope it's helpful for you. I've been taking it for a couple of years with no side effects that I notice. It was prescribed to my sister and she insisted it gave her hair loss, but I kinda doubt that; she is very opposed to "big pharma." When I first started Metformin I lost 12 lbs - but I was still on an AP then. Otherwise, I might've lost more.

Ooh, your grocery items sound divine. Upstate NY in the autumn...how gorgeous! And the kits look adorable. They seem to enjoy having their pictures taken . Mine tend to look away at the moment they should be looking straight ahead

During the week I was away from the forum my oldest sister was diagnosed with vascular dementia, which has resulted from having had a mild stroke last winter. She is 77. Not so old. My sister was an intelligent, bright, sharp woman who always kept up on current events - and had an educated opinion about every one of them. She was accepted to medical school at the age of 17 in 1961 - quite an accomplishment for a woman in those times! Now she's struggling to spell simple words, cannot remember the term "covid" (she calls it "that thing"). We were talking on the phone a few days ago and she asked me what her DIL's name is (W. has been my sister's DIL for 25 years). She has 2 cats that she loves, but cannot recall the name of one of them now; she calls it "the little one."

I am terrified of losing another sibling, the only one I have left. Our other sister, a precious colorful quick-witted woman, died 5 years ago this month of cancer, after decades of drug abuse that I believe weakened her body.

I've been crying all week, I can't seem to stop, it gets ridiculous. The niece I am closest to and I had a long talk this week. My BIL is a perfect husband to my sister. He has been deeply in love with her for all their many years of their marriage, God bless them. And although he is a strong and healthy man, he is 82. My niece, the youngest of their four children, is the one that most of the care for her parents is falling to.

So the conversation with my niece was cathartic, I think, for both she and I. Both of us are quite alone in our personal lives, but we do have each other.

I am tired, I am sad, and it's hard for me to see much happiness in the future. I am tired of being attacked, put down, misunderstood, demeaned in my life. I am trying to find a different way.

Today is a lazy Sunday. I did sleep with only half a ambien. So interesting a dream. I moved into a huge conglomerate of apartment high rises completely furnished. In the kitchen was cardboard plates on which I put a few things of food which were all alien to me. I then walked out my building to an identical one down the block with my food and into a friends apartment. We ate our meal then went to sit shiva in a meeting room that had been turned into a place to reflect on the life of an elderly Native American woman who had been our friend. There were chairs all along the walls and they were filled with friends and family, just sitting in comfortable silence with a few knitting. It was all very beautiful and peaceful.

I’m looking forward to PBS shows for tonight.

@Beth

Beth I’m sorry for everything you and your family are going through, prayers for you all we’re all here for you

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Thank you I’ve had 2 headaches throughout the past couple days. That could be from PMS though. Some nausea today but I think that was just from the headache because it went away after my headache went away. So I don’t think those are related to the metformin hopefully. I’ll see how the next couple weeks go

My kitties move around a lot too, I have a lot of blurry pictures of them from them moving too quickly but I always try to post the best pics of them my phone has over 2,000 pictures on it and most of them are of the cats lol I love autumn type food, pumpkin flavored everything. I might bake some homemade chocolate chip pumpkin bread this coming week

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Oh, mmm bluebird 🐦 that sounds delicious. I bought pumpkin bread, but chocolate chips would be a delicious addition!

And now my mom is positive. I'm not sure what medication all these big name polticians are getting where they can stand outside and give a speech about how they have mild symptoms and then they are fine 3 days later. This **** is serious even with vaccines and boosters. I wasn't worried until now.

But yeah I appreciate the prayers and thoughts I'm getting for what I'm going through. Obvious sarcasm. Be glad it hasn't come knocking at your door yet. Its still killing 400 people a day.

MD, I was just about to make a post saying I hope you feel better, I don't post as often on here, I spend more time in the Schizophrenia forum because I have Schizoaffective Disorder/Bipolar type, so I don't keep up as much here and just kind of scan posts, but I do really hope you feel better

I’ve actually had Covid in 2020 before there was a vaccine and before they even knew as much as they do now.

I'm so sorry about your sister. Dementia is always a terrible thing to watch happen to a loved one.


Something you can do that can help a little is to make a memory book. It can be as simple as a little photo album with a one-two sentence statement about her life on each page ("I like baseball. My favorite team is the Giants") ("I worked in a library") etc. Or you can go fancier and use a photo album or scrap booking album and include pictures with labels on all faces, meaningful mementos (Like a program from a wedding) and just kind of make "the story of Sister's Life). I used to do these with my patients with dementia and they usually loved them. One woman with more advanced dementia lost hers and they had to search her whole room because she really missed going through it every day. It was the first thing she'd enjoyed in years. It won't stop the dementia; it just reminds her of important things in her life.

I hope that she has a slow progression and that you are able to spend time with her. It's good she has people who love her.

Hey my peeps !

Those asking about my job and the lack of breaks. This is a country store that serves anything and everything country cooking. Rich has owned it 25+ years. I’m not happy about the lack of breaks. He pays in cash the first month or so and I’m okay with that I don’t have to report to SS right now.

Everyone is really nice and helpful. But it’s hard to be on my feet for 8 hours straight. I’m going to continue to look for something better

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Sunflower ~ I’m so glad you had a wonderful time in those beautiful mountains. I really need to make a trip it’s been too long since we went.

Beth~ I’m sorry things are tough. You know where to find me !

Soupe ~ Your weather sound wonderful . We have a cold blast coming. I want more Fall. I bet it’s exciting getting your home the way you want it. Sorry about your Dad having Parkinson’s. Hopeful the medication will help.

Hallie ~ I’m low key jealous about the flowers Ben always gets you

Nammu~ I’m glad half a Ambein worked for you. I took one well half and it helped a bit. How’s your weather ?

Blue ~ glad you got to the movies . Was it a good one? I’m hearing mixed reviews. I just love the pictures you shared. Beautiful Fall leaves ! I’m glad things are really doing well in life

Hugs to anyone I missed

This is a blanket I am going to order soon. I still break down when I think about losing my Sirius. I found a great big stone that I will paint and seal it and place in where we buried him.

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I’m sorry your dealing with unpleasant things. We should all just be supportive.

Much love my friend

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Christina, that's a long time to be working on your feet! I remember I did a temp job at a factory when I was 18 and it was similar with the barely any break and standing the entire time. It definitely wears you out, hope you get some rest soon

As for the movie, I enjoyed it. I think they ended the series in a good way, I know some people hated it. I also liked the storyline they went with, it was different, but really interesting. There are some things I wish were different, like I do wish Michael Myers was actually in it a little more, and I wish the ending fight was a a little longer/more drawn out, because it kind of happened quickly,

Trigger, for spoiler so I don't ruin anyone's viewing if they haven't seen the movie yet

but they also left it open to new possibilities, in the end she said evil doesn't die, it changes shape. So I can see there being a possibility of future movies maybe with some new person as a michael myers type figure.

I thought it was good over all though, very story driven

Thanks Blue ! Yes it’s hard to be on your feet so long.

The movie sounds good. Maybe Steve and I will go !

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