Bipolar check-in #70

@Brentus- I've never heard of it, but if you try it I hope it's as great as your doc says.

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Originally Posted by Scooter9 Yeah I hope I can get the time off. I'm on the gabapentin for anxiety. I'm on Klonopin now but I'm starting to become tolerant on my current dose and didn't want to increase it, so I asked for gabapentin instead. It's my first day on it today. Feeling anxious but not as bad as before. I think my target is 3 pills, 3 times a day but I'm on just 1, 3 times a day for now. Looking forward to some relief from the anxiety and stress from work.

I have found Gabapentin helpful for anxiety. So your target is 1800mg? I think that's "the dose" for anxiety. I'm on that dose. Gabapentin can be used in much higher doses, but good luck getting a prescriber to approve that. Anyway, I really believe the Gaba will help you.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Ohhhhhh guys the pool was sooooo great this morning. It was 90 degrees. Wonderful. They were worrying that it was too hot to work out but it was so nice! I loved it. I heard though the grape vine that there was no red tide. That’s good news. But I haven’t yet tuned in to get the numbers. Still avoiding the news. I ordered a charcuterie board for our neighbors that did so much yard work. It looks really good out there. I’m hoping they like it. I pick it up today after 2 pm. Mum has a service but he wasn’t on the ball. Our neighbors are retired and bored, so they were happy to do it. We live in a great neighborhood. A safe neighborhood.

Your neighborhood sounds lovely. I miss those kinds of days, with the children, in a sweet neighborhood.

The pool sounds absolutely divine. What is a red tide?
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Oh - duh. YES. And to be very, very 100% honest: I am scared of what this country is going to become. If it becomes *that* it will be, to me, a frightening place to live. Witness January 6th. Even notoriously blue California, while we did re-elect Governor Newsom, had blasts of red here and there. Very, very weird.

I saw Duck Balls on TV @MuddyBoots. G'bye to that schmuck.

I'm thinking that Ubelvry must be really new @Brentus. Lots of us here have migraines. She's been sick, but I wonder if @Moose72 has any info on it?

You could post your question on the Medication board, see if anyone has info on Ubelvry.

My t and I have discussed politics a lot @Mountaindewed. I know we will be tomorrow I find it helpful, de-stressing.

So much happening. Ugh. Looking for a new pdoc is complicated and stressful. So much homework and I feel like I’m
Being lazy about it. I’m so ready to
Be done omg

Waiting and waiting for the tech to show up and do something about my internet connection. Seems to me they could make an appointment that is more of a target time than "some time between 2 and 4." I so want to watch The first episode of season 5 of The Crown tonight, but I doubt I'll have the time.

Darn it, and the light is dropping low so here comes the depression and anxiety. The doom feeling. Now I don't want the tech in my space, I just want to be left alone.I wish I could somehow sleep between 2:45 and 5:30. Just skip this time of the day. Where is the dude? It's 3:30

We have a concentrator for here at home but its big like a suitcase that we rent . The only portable ones use tanks which can’t go on a plane. There is a portable machine but insurance won’t cover it and its about 3 grand so impossible.

Seems like something always has us struggling to get by.

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Gosh, it's sure been quiet around here today.

The tech finally showed up at 4:20, 20 minutes late, he looked so tired I felt bad for him, and it was the same dude as last time. I was stressed out because my entire afternoon had gotten screwed up, waiting for him. Right there I should have told him never mind, I'll reschedule for Friday. But I was not being smart.

He did something outside for an hour, then knocked on my door, told me that he can see what's happening but doesn't know what needs to be done to fix it. So he took pictures, he said, and sent them to his supervisor who "will hopefully do something."



What is the matter with people? Is the entire world falling apart, truly?
Oh, well, I'll "hopefully" pay my bill.
I wonder how far that would take me?

So I'll have to call and find out what the heck. If they need to rewire the entire place, if they want to remain in business, well then, rewire! I swear, in all my life I never got off so easy and yes, I actually was proud of doing an excellent job when I worked.

UGH.

I hope everyone has a Thursday that makes sense.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina We have a concentrator for here at home but its big like a suitcase that we rent . The only portable ones use tanks which can’t go on a plane. There is a portable machine but insurance won’t cover it and its about 3 grand so impossible. Seems like something always has us struggling to get by.

Hey, there, chickie...

Safe and comfy with a dark mind. Definitely depressed, but safe.

I really hope he does, though I'm not optimistic.

There's a whole swirl of family ties (more than me and my cousin), indulgences I should not have tolerated (from my cousin and those family ties) and, at the moment, at least one legitimate reason to be at my home. Announced, of course, and no need to involve me, though he repeatedly tries. Again, indulgences.

There's a lot to untangle myself from with the man, but I really hope he does get the message.

Work yesterday produced modest sales, mainly because my competition dogpiled me! There was, at times, three reps from the competition actively selling products to my singular presence. Hard not to be crowded out in the literal and figurative sense!

My boss paid a surprise visit to me. Wanted to check in, see if I was alright, that sort of thing. After the pleasantries, she presented me with a gift. It was a new cell phone (One we had been learning about), and not a cheap device either! 5G capability, screen resolution better than some TVs, decent sized screen, 256GB storage. $350, those devices run. I was dumbfounded, speechless, and definitely grateful.

It was a token of good faith I didn't expect and one I haven't had in a long time. I found myself saying, when I recalled the scene to a friend, "It was nice to have someone in charge believe in you and your abilities. I've rarely had that." In recent years, I've had bosses, by their actions and sometimes flat out, say they'd rather fire me than give me any credit where credit was due or responsibility where responsibility was requested.

It's a great feeling, when someone actually appreciates your work!

I’m so sorry Christina, prayers for you and your family

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That’s awesome Aurelius , you seem like you do a great job at your job and definitely deserve being appreciated

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I hope they’re able to get to get your internet issues fixed soon Beth , also hope you are doing okay today

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Glad your Covid symptoms are gone MD, I hope the nausea went away, nausea is such a horrible feeling

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Sorry I’m extremely behind on this thread, I’ve been adjusting to being back on my increased dose of 400mg of Thorazine. And before that I was having difficulty focusing and I try not to post when I’m manic or hypomanic because it’s hard to stop posting, so when I’m manic or hypomanic I tend to avoid social media somewhat, I tend to get more into social stuff in-person

I was also impulsively spending way too much money and am hoping that kind of calms down while being back on this higher dose. I was doing a lot better with managing my money when on this dose previously. And my paranoia was severe, I’m hoping this also gets better over time. I wasn’t sleeping, sleeping 3-4 hours a night at most, and never ending energy. I finally slept really good last night and have slowed down on my over the top cleaning and stuff.

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Welcome back blue bird 🐦. You’re wise to avoid social media when hyped. Very wise. Hope the new dosage helps.

Wish us luck on our Florida trip. Our flight isn’t supposed to be until 6pm and Tampa airport is still open but I’m sure our flight will at least be delayed if not canceled outright. Figures a tropical storm would blow through! And a rare November one at that. If we can at least get there by tomorrow morning we’ll still have two days. We’re going to new port richey as our final destination which seems ok because Nicole has calmed down a bit already. But we’ll see!

Totally terrified about the plane still.

Plus I’m sick with a cold! Not Covid, I tested. Just a cold from those dirty kids. I’m tired with a slightly stuffy nose and sore throat. I decided I’m going to wear a mask at school until spring at least, I don’t want to be sick all winter from the kids. The last two winters when masks were required I never got sick except for my one Covid experience last year. I set up an appt for my Covid booster and CR’s flu shot and Covid booster as well. RS won’t get any more shots but what can I say. At least he got his first Covid series. I know that’s basically useless at this point but I can’t control a grown man!

I got my nausea under control. My anxiety was bad for some reason though so I don't know if those pepto bismols cause anxiety. I fell asleep right away at 4:35. It was a bit of an odd time to fall asleep. I woke up at 8:35 but I only stayed up for a few minutes. Then I woke up again around 11 and I ate a Lunchable and drank a caffeine free Coke. I then fell back asleep until 3:45. So I'm not sure why I slept so long. I felt fine yesterday physically after the nausea, and this morning I feel fine. I'm 4 short on my valium though so I'm trying to cut them in half. So far I've taken one today split into 2. I took one half at 9 and then the other half just now.

This is strange but I don't really remember yesterday after about 1PM and I don't know why. Its like missing time or something. I know my therapy session was at 11 and I remember that. but I don't remember much about what happened after that except that I got very tired early and fell asleep for almost 12 hours.

So idk what went on. But I don't like it when I can't remember big chunks of time. It has happened a couple times recently. I think it started after I got covid.

I'm kind of getting the spacy feeling now but I had Dunkin Donuts new cookie butter donut this morning and donuts can mess with me real bad. Especially the kinds with fillings in them. They can cause me to become really out of it and can cause tunnel vision and dissociation and feelings like I'm going to pass out. I can eat the protein donuts they sell at the health section with no issue. Those are a staple for me. But actual donuts often make feel weird. So I'm thinking that is what is going on today.

I told my therapist about the podcast I listened to where she said how you don't mess with big peoples food and you don't mess with small peoples food. And my therapist immediatly got excited and said "yes!" And went on about this story about her eating a giant half a pizza one time while pregnant and someone commenting on it. Lol. I told my last heavyset therapist that same comment from the podcast and she got kinda pissed at me for saying it and called me a "greenlight" whatever that is, and asked if I really wanted to get better.

I've gotten some weird looks from people before while carrying around a basket at the grocery store with nothing but Lunchables in it but no one ever said anything and the grocery store is finally fully back in stock.

Yeah the gabapentin is already helping at my starter dose.

My pdoc wants me to increase it every few days until I get to 3 pills (300mg each), 3 times a day (2700mg total for the day).

Ran to hobby lobby today for battery string lights for a wreath. But they only had indoor lights. So I’m thinking of going back to get the makings of an indoor wreath to hang on the front door. Right now everything for Christmas is 60% off. I saw very cute red birds that would look adorable on a wreath. I did get golden flowers to put in the real wreath I’m making at the nature center. It’s going to have a big bow, pine cones, gold flowers and red berries. And oh, frames were 50% off so I got a frame for my picture to give my daughter. She has grey for her main color so I got a grey frame.

No I don't know anything about Ubelvry
. I only take Sumatriptan. I have taken Maxalt which works 10 times better than Sumatriptan but which my insurance quit paying for years ago.

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Originally Posted by Aurelius710 ... It was a new cell phone (One we had been learning about), and not a cheap device either! 5G capability, screen resolution better than some TVs, decent sized screen, 256GB storage. $350, those devices run. I was dumbfounded, speechless, and definitely grateful. ....... It's a great feeling, when someone actually appreciates your work!

Congratulations! How absolutely proud you must feel