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catches the flowers
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#102
I'm sending you a hug @Blue_Bird. I am so, so sorry you've lost your mom. My own mom passed 17 years ago. I was 42 and very busy with work and teenagers at the time. Of course I was sad when she died, but now is when I am really missing her. The holidays are terribly lonely (David's parents are gone, too). All the festive holidays of past years are gone. This time of the year seems to bring up a ton of grief, it's like tearing open a wound.
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#103
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Well, that can be a problem with having things delivered. And it's very annoying. 32 is substantially improved. For pete's sake. Actually, I don't think I've ever tasted mulled wine, only mulled apple cider. I've almost never drank alcohol because I can't stand that taste. Once a Wiccan friend did give me a bottle she called "something" wine, for a certain holiday. Well, it tasted just delicious! Like liquid honey. No burn. So I drank a small glass. And began to hallucinate. I was very happy, like a happy awake-dream! Turned out the "wine" had wormwood in it, which of course causes a psychedelic trip. It wasn't bad, fortunately, but not my thing. So the wormwood wine got poured down the sink __________________ |
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#104
Oo I’d like to try that. Now that I’m back in a small Midwest town I don’t know any Wiccan folks. Actually I don’t know anyone outside of the folks at the Y. None of the people I knew from hs live around here. This would be a dying town if it wasn’t for the immigrants that have moved here.
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#105
FURIOUS!!!!! For the second time this week Amazon has delivered an EMPTY bag! I wait 2 darn days and the bag is tossed at my door, obviously open, not a thing inside! This time I caught the driver and bawled him out. I said You can see this bag is empty, why did you leave it at my door and mark it as delivered?! He checked his truck, of course- nothing. I called Amazon, dah, dah, dah. "We'll deliver it tomorrow." Deliver what - another empty bag? Oh, I am SO angry!!! Nothing to do but take some deep breaths and accept that I am powerless over the situation. *breathe* When is February, how many days? Pitchers and catchers (baseball) report the third week of February and that means spring. Not dark so early. I am so done with this. Yesterday I saw the sun outside of my window and it was a full sun. The screen diffused it some. I stared at it, just stared right at it. I could not look away. I felt like I was looking at the face of God. I felt like I was saved for all eternity. I just stared and absorbed the light. Finally, I made myself look away, but I did feel lighter afterwards. For the rest of the day I saw a light pink spot everywhere I looked, so I guess I burned my retina bit, but I didn't care, it was as though I was carrying a piece of that sun with me all day. (After I slept the pink dot went away. No worries.) The sky has been very blue lately and the sun higher and brighter in the afternoon. I have not left my apartment for 2 weeks as of tomorrow, except to get the mail and once to do laundry in the laundry room. That's sick, not to leave my apartment like that. I'm going to go to the grocery store after I write this. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow (if she decides to toodle into work). It's possible that the Topomax may be kicking in some, maybe?? The depression seems to be slightly decreased. At least, less intense. For example, going to the store seems doable, which is HUGE. __________________ |
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#106
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Ugh, there are Wiccans a-plenty here. Oh, that's not very nice. I'm glad we have Wiccans. I am. Actually, a couple of years ago I went to a Wiccan friend's hand-fasting ceremony and it was absolutely beautiful! What kind of immigrants, Nammu, from where? __________________ |
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#107
We. Have a lot of Nigerians, Asians and a small Mexican population now. Their are 41 non-English languages spoken at the High school. The white population here is aging out.
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#108
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How interesting! The city I come from, Sacramento, is one of the most diverse in the nation. That said, I grew up in a secluded suburban neighborhood that was all white, with exactly one exception - one black family. None of us even thought of the black family as "different" because we didn't even know what "different" was. When I went to high school we were "bused into" (what a term) an urban high school in the center of a black ghetto. A real city school. Large, multi-cultural, all sorts of religions, sexual preferences, economic situations - and whites were the minority. I loved it. I was fascinated by all the richness, the opportunity to learn about so many types of people. The most wonderful part of it was that I never once witnessed any issues between cultural groups. I knew a guy online some years ago, he lived in a middle state (Idaho, maybe?). He had never seen someone of Asian ancestry. Never. He was so curious. Anyway - wormwood, as you may know, is one of the key ingredients of real (original) absinthe, along with thujone, and other herbs. Interestingly, wormwood smells wonderful and makes a nice addition to essential oil, body butter, lotion, etc. Wormwood is one of the herbs in absinthe that causes the green hue. __________________ |
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#109
We get a lot of Massholes here :P
and French Canadians __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#110
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Thanks Beth. I spent the entire day in my pajamas. I had a migraine and I took a nap to get rid of it. I made pasta for supper and took a shower and that's about all I did all day except relax. I really needed a day like that. It is so cold I was glad to not leave my house. Right now it is 16 degrees out there. You're right, it is harder with a pet. I had to wait a few weeks to get Abbycat in for her asthma diagnosis and that was stressful. Poor cat and I couldn't help her. 9 more days and this will all be over. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#111
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I’m sorry your having to go through another biopsy. Unfortunately that’s part of your life now it seems. We will continue our prayers I bet Abby is thrilled to have you back home !! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#112
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I know the feeling of struggling with multiple health problems. It can be so overwhelming. Did some alone time help at all ?! Hugs I’m here if you need an ear Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#113
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Yes Gus isn’t all that thrilled today lol they will work it out tho. Here’s hoping you can get moved in February into your own home as I know that will make a huge change for the better! Your renting and now Air B and B would destabilize me no doubt. I remember our 8 months in Florida had me a mess . Everything was “ off” if that makes sense. My daughter has always been a dog and Bird lover but she leads a busy life so she adopted a cat and it’s a perfect fit for her. Her cat is a love bug. No matter what you and your husband decide be it a fur or feather baby will bring you both joy ! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#114
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Wait ! what ?!!! I thought RS was almost perfect but ….. he doesn’t like cheese ?!! LOL I literally can’t imagine not having cheese in my life. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#115
I've heard more news on that shooting @Mountaindewed. So many lives lost. The bartender. I dunno, that really bothered me. btw- I didn't mean "Enough. Enough" toward you. I meant enough of the hatred and violence against the LGBTQetc. community. It just goes on and on. The shooter is being charged with a hate crime, at least.
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#116
I met a French Canadian in Paris in a laundromat! I'd never met one before in my life. She was so friendly. I was figuring out how to work the washing machine and she said, "I like to use a lot of soap" so she dumped a shiteload of laundry soap onto my small load of clothes. It was amusing. The clothes did come out smelling very nice __________________ |
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#117
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I'm glad you rested 16 degrees is just wrong. Is there snow? __________________ |
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#118
I did go to the grocery store. I asked my car if it remembered how to drive, it's been so long. When I was pulling out of the parking lot the sun was shining and sparkling in on me through the windshield and Neil Young came on the radio and for that moment I was in paradise.
Tonight I've been terribly anxious. Like every tiny noise just sends me into a state of near panic. I don't know, I'm just crazy. It's sad, but if I never have a grandchild it's probably just as well because it seems like a lot of grandchildren come out like their grandparents. I would hate for a kid to suffer the way I do in life. Honestly, I think I need a low dose AP. But med dork will say Well you've tried several of them and none have really worked ... Yes! But that was at a different time of the year and I was maybe dealing with a different overall mood state, med dipshite. Dude doesn't seem to understand that "bipolar disorder" means I don't stay exactly the same 12 months/year. In fact, the mood states are fairly predictable. __________________ |
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#119
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I figured Gus might be a little jealous. I hope he adjusts to Maddie soon. Several years back I had a period with multiple psych and physical issues. You're right, it is awful. I remember after getting past a lot of them it was a huge relief. It sucks to be back to that old place! I was happy when Steve got past that particularly horrible time a while back. I hope he doesn't head there again. I also hope your pain eases and you find some peace in life with Steve and your fur babies. I'm leaning towards a cat for the same reason you mentioned your daughter said. I yearn for a pet that might be a bit more independent, yet still likes to cuddle. Parrots are higher maintenance, for sure, yet they are wonderful. Both can be slightly destructive, but oh how we forgive a lot of pet behavior! __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#120
Hopefully I'll learn what the deal is with my health (and Hubby's health) sometime this month. We need another set of blood tests done soon. I don't expect anything amiss with a mammogram I need. No matter what, we'll deal with it. If I must change my diet more, I'll do it. Though I often need a big fire under my tush, once I do I tend to be dedicated. In the past I wasn't quite "over the edge" like I fear I might be (possible diabetes). I think if I am I will mean business about diet adjustments. It sucks that our medications make us so vulnerable! Also a family history of illnesses like diabetes type 2 and heart related problems. It sucks that I already have kidney damage from lithium, to boot. I think if it's not a person's "wonder drug", they might be best on a different med.
I confess that I really like my sweets, but at least I'm OK with sugar substitutes. I suppose I could go that route again, diabetes yet or not. My period finally stopped, but probably because of the medication I was prescribed. We'll see what the problem is. My past two gynecologists didn't make a big deal about it. Negligence or were they right not to? I guess we've all had some alarmist doctors and some the opposite. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Nov 21, 2022 at 06:14 AM.. |
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