Bipolar Check-in #72

Happy Birthday to your mawmaw! 90?! Wow!

Nammu- I hope you can figure something out with your mom. As my grandpa aged he fell a few times and ended up getting a walker which helped out tremendously (although he couldn't go outside easily because of the step in the doorway which I see is the problem in your house). A walker could still be useful for the rest of the house. Maybe two walkers? One for the living room and one for the rest of the house so at least she can get around inside?

I just want to say how inspiring you are. You've been through so much, and yet you still keep going and am now having some fun too :Hug:

I'm doing pretty good today. I've been taking my meds as prescribed. More or less. I've been taking Geodon in the morning like I should which has been really helpful. Also I swear they gave me a different generic of valium since this stuff seems to work better then the last refill.

My sister and brother in law dropped my nephews off at 6:15 so they could bring my niece to her new day care. Then they came back to pick up my nephews and drop off some stuff for my niece since my mom will be watching her on Mondays and Wednesdays.

I went and got my blood work done without any trouble. Then I stopped at a couple gas stations and got 6 more cans of coffee Coke and some Twizzlers and some Sweet Tart Ropes. Now I'm home just hanging around waiting for an Amazon package, news about my blood work, and word about my job application. I checked a few minutes ago and it said the application was open. I don't really have a back up plan so I hope I get this job.

I didnt work out today since I was a pound less for the first time in a couple weeks so I figured I needed to tone it down a bit. I think it was just stress related weight loss, because I ate yesterday.

I am a bit irritated right now. I'm most likely just super hangry again. And I overdid it on the caffeine.

That’s a good idea about two walkers. She has one but doesn’t use it because of the step. But one in the family room and one for the rest of the house could work. No lifting it up and down. Also I’ve been thinking we can redo the family rm and living room. Switch it around so the tv is in the living room then she not need to step down or up at all. Not sure she’d go for that though.

I took her and papaw (both in same rehab from
Covid) some
Donuts! They gobbled it down!

I’ve been dxd by pdocs for 16 years with bipolar or sza. They go
Back and forth. But a np I’ve talked to
A grand total 30 mins says I just need therapy more
Often. I’ve been stable until almost 3 years. No
Ip stays, no self harm and no suicidal thoughts. The bp meds
Help me a LOT. I feel so freaking manic. I knew he was evil
And working against me.

Why am I never hungry anymore except for bread and yogurt and only in the morning. I get super hangry then I can barely finish a cup of Minute Rice for dinner. I'm not hangry anymore at least. Kinda frustrated still, yeah. Based on what I found on google I possibly should have heard something by now. I may have flubbed the how early can you start question. My therapist told me that was a trick question since they don't tell you the job hours. Also there were a couple others I werent sure I answered correctly for their liking. But I'm also nervous about the SSI question. And I have to be drug tested and they can't find out I'm trans but they can find out I'm on valium. Which I don't think should be an issue since it is prescribed by an actual doctor.

Idk maybe I'm just spiraling

I'm doing well. Spent New Years with my friend. We painted played some RPG board games and card games, and had some Chinese takeout.

I bought a headphone adapter for my Casio keybopard. So I can use it any time of day without being loud which is cool. I also found the pdf manual to that particular model so I can learn more about how to actuallly use it and start learning how to play. Here's a pic of the cats checking out the keyboard lol

I have a meeting with my housing support specialist tomorrow, just to go over our housing support plan which is like paperwork we go over every 3 months outlining goals and stuff.

Went grocery shopping today. Got some good stuff.

Have a headache right now, took some ibuprofen and am hoping that works. I slept insanely long last night. I normally sleep 5-6 hours each night at most and last night I slept 13 hours. I started trazodone on Friday, maybe that's why. I'm not sure, but I feel like I needed it because I barely slept the past week and the tiredness was starting to catch up with me.

The people are coming to change the filters for the heat/ac system on Thursday. Always get nervous having people over. It says they'll be here between 8am and 4pm which is a huge range. They can technically get in when I'm not home but I don't want my cats to slip out if someone doesn't close the door. So I'm probably gonna stay home most of that day. I have a video appointment with my therapist at 4pm that day as well so I guess it works out.

Hope you all are having a good start to the New Year

Awww what a cute pic blue bird 🐦

My New Years has been uneventful except for mum’s mishap yesterday. Thanks

Thanks, about a second after that I took another pic and it was of Mustachio swatting Maybelle like they were fighting over the keyboard lol

I just looked back because I haven't been on as much the past couple days but I just saw your post, I hope your mom will be okay, that is very scary

So it's going to be about 2-3 months before seeing anyone. I'm loosing it already. Don't want to be admitted for meds.

My mind hasn't raced in 2 weeks. So I have something to celebrate. But I can't get up in the mornings.

I wonder why he is so against me? I didn’t do a thing to him

Started my lamictal today let's hope this works for me. I have been off of Latuda probably around a week and my depression is actually doing better.

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How long have you been on Geodon? I started 2 months ago and had no interest in food for about a month.

Also, don’t worry about the Valium. I had pre-employment drug tests for two different companies in the past while eating Xanax like it was my job. No one said a word. That was for giant multinational companies too so you know they don’t F around.

Tapatalk isn’t loading so I can’t see what people have going on I’m sorry.

Well I have a upper respiratory Infection AND my heart rate is running 130-140 sitting still my Fitbit alerts me over and over to the point I’ve taken it off to get a break.

My new PsA med Rinvoq is to blame as I just started the medication and problems started a day later.

Hopefully these things will clear up. It’s always something isn’t it

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I’m so sorry Christina. That sucks majorly .

H mentioned ip for me. I'm not wanting to do that in a new city. We don't know what else to do. I'm not a threat to myself or others

I remember that show. You’re right- everybody did seem happy. Especially Paul Lind. Was he the Uncle Arthur on Bewitched?

~Christina sorry about the Rinvoq. Seems that I get reactions to a lot of meds- especially psych ones. I really hope the new psych med I’m going to start soon is side effect free.

I shared some thoughts with a friend and I’m frightened he will tell the worst person ever

Ugh I was hoping you’d feel better!!

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Originally Posted by Nammu Hollywood squares was hard for me because it was so non sequitur. They couldn’t always frame the speaker so I could read lips. So I couldn’t always follow the conversation. But I did like it once close captioning started. There’s a game channel that shows old episodes and they are now captioned. Another good easy going one with a lot of dialogue is match game. Betty white was on that a lot. She was wonderful on any game show. My sister and I compete to see who can answer the most jeopardy questions. It’s all fun.

I'm glad that close captioning is done now. Match Game...that sounds so familiar! I have to look online and see what it is, I'm so curious. Yes, Betty White was a game show natural for sure.

That picture is precious @Blue_Bird. Ugh, yes, I don't like that feeling when people have to come into my apartment, especially if it's over a wide time range. I always stay home to watch the cats. People can be so careless.