Bipolar Check-in #72

Just back from shopping at an electronics store with a friend. This person frequently feigns poverty and would I buy him Starbucks. He frequently has a lot of cash in his wallet but when questioned he gets all defensive and once he got angry about it decided to lecture me saying that I didn’t know what that money was for!

Well! Today we went to an electronics store so he could get some over-the-ears Bluetooth headphones. After tax they were over $400. Bose brand. He said something about having to rob Peter to pay Paul with his bills but he really wants and “needs” them. He paid with his debit card as he was not approved immediately for the store’s credit card. This is the man that frequently complains about how much he owes the IRS and how much he “bleeds” when they take their automatic payment each month. (He came into some money some years ago and never paid taxes on it.). And now he said something recently about getting that same amount recently- about $250k. A total of half a million. I assume he plans on paying the taxes on it this time. In fact, he could pay off the IRS with the second part of the money.

Well, I start my Intensive outpatient February 6, three days a week, plus regular therapy totaling 10 hours a week. Let's hope it helps.

Short update: surgery went week and I am going to attempt to return to work on Monday.

However on Sunday I found out through urgent care I had strep throat and yesterday after RS brought me home I forced him to do a home Covid test since he was sick and it was positive.

So I can’t use my hand and he can’t come close w/o a mask on to help me. Should be a fun week!

Hugs to all!

Bc zyprexa worked well for me in the past(I quit bc of weight gain) he wants me to try lybalvi. It’s zyprexa with a receptor to block weight gain! I remember feeling soo good on zyprexa! He also gave me prazosin. He said not only will it help with my nightmares but also with my constant fight it flight I’m in due to ocd/ ptsd. He also mentioned I have maybe a little adhd going on too. Said it’s my superpower

Yeah! I mean what the heck? He says he’s on a fixed income but so am I. And he has more bills than I do probably but I just can’t get over his dropping four hundred dollars on earphones- especially Bose! Those are so bougie ! Don’t ever ask me for help buying Starbucks again! And the fact remains that I don’t even get that much money. I could never afford those headphones without saving up for many months. That’s how I afforded to get my teeth fixed in July ‘21: I had saved a bunch of money for our Disney World tri so the teeth got fixed out of that.

Well, I have been through two accidents, each requiring surgery, The latest accident involved a car hitting me when I was on an e-scooter. I have had to take months off from work. I still need a walker, The surgeon had to use ten plates to put me back together, The X-ray looks bizarre. Those screws are long. My application for short term leave has been turned down because the hospital has not given them my medical records, costing me thousands in lost wages.

My daughter and I have not been talking for the past couple months, She is not concerned at all about my welfare, and how close it came to losing her father. She only thinks of herself. So I have not been helped by my daughter. I have had to rely on neighbors, and services paid only in part by my health insurance. Now I owe thousands of dollars, and may also need to pay the insurance back for the bills it covered, which is quite allot of money. I already have a $60,000 of debt to pay off before all of this happened. At least I do not hurt anywhere near as much as I did a couple months ago.

Oh well. What is money anyways?