Bipolar Check-in #72

He’ll just say he can’t because he has no money!

@Blue_Bird I’m glad the infection came out with the tooth and didn’t spread! I hope the extraction wasn’t too expensive.

I’m so impulsive. I got worried so I called my drug company and they’re sending. A pre authorization to see if I can get Lybalvi covered. I told them at the dr office I’m gonna wait to see if it’s covered before I take it

Thanks Thankfully my insurance (medicaid) covered it

How are you doing today?

I am an hour away from Johns Hopkins, supposed to be the best hospital in the USA. I've been to their psych wards 6 times. Half of their wards are horrible. When I was getting ECT there none of the staff talked to me and you get to see the Dr. for 5 minutes at 7:30 AM and he asks the same four questions every morning.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Moose72 He’ll just say he can’t because he has no money!

Tell him you don't, either, then go and get your S-bucks by yourself after he leaves.

My anxiety is horrible today. I'm so jumpy and panicky and irritable. I slept terribly last night because of it. I'm locked in a hotel room and I can't get the heat to work and I'm so cold right now. Idk whats going on. This seemed to come out of nowhere a couple days ago. I can't think of anything legit thats bothering me besides the Idaho thing and food issues. I have a headache and that same throat/thyroid nodule issue right now. I need advil and to sleep for 12 hours.

So we're being taken seriously. I'm switching my Dr to my husband's Dr and so is my son. He's a PCP that deals with psychiatry too. I just feel more comfortable with a Dr that's been in that field too. Miguel is going to PHP starting next Friday. I see my temp pdoc tomorrow. Then we finally go pick up our dog this weekend. It's been at our in-laws since before Christmas. She must have thought we forgot her there. I'm doing much better on lutuda but still get nauseous after taking it.

I'm not sure. This just started recently. Like less then a week ago. I'm not sure my meds would just crap out on me like that all of a sudden. Its not even just the valium. None of my meds seem to be working anymore. But zofran works very well. I just feel crappy physically a lot of the time along with the anxiety.

I wish you a speedy recovery. Hugs to you.

When I sought help for my depression due to brother’s loss they supposedly called my insurance company and the hospital quoted me a price of $216.21. Imagine my shock and surprise when I found out my copay is $700.00! That’s highway robbery. Benefits for mental illness are sub standard in my opinion. We need better quality healthcare at more affordable prices.

I’m doing well today. Life is good. I was able to get off one of my antidepressants. Trying for more. DBT skills have gone a long way in helping me. Having 2 therapists helps as well. One I have no copay for and we talk day to day issues. The other that I pay cash for teaches me skills. Nice set up.

My NP has been a nasty piece of work. She found out through a request I made that I’m a CPA with my MBA. Now she couldn’t be nicer to me and my “mathematical mind”. Although I’m pleased to be treated better, it’s messed up at how she arrived at the decision to treat me with respect.

I hope everybody has a peaceful afternoon. Love to all

Now the anxiety is gone and its just that nausea and throat pain I think is the thyroid nodules. I keep throwing up in my mouth and coughing. I want to go to the ER so badly but I think I should maybe try eating dinner first. I haven't eaten much today. I was freezing but now I am hot.

I had to have a minor procedure on my
Foot today. A needle in the foot?
Not a fan

I am genuinely glad you're doing better @Sunflower123 . I only wish you well. Getting off a med is such a good feeling. I was way down to only a couple of meds when summer ended, but then the fall and winter brought such deep depression, so now I'm back on more meds. Oh, well. Episodes.

I'm badly shaken up over a stupid comment someone made to someone else in a Fb group. It's an important group for me to belong to, help with feline diabetes. The senior admins are wonderful. But there was someone whose elderly cat had a bad illness, she was terribly upset (the owner) because she had no money to pay the vet. So one of the so-called "Group Experts" suggested that she surrender her cat so it could be cared for. WTH?!?! The poor woman was grieving so hard and instead of suggesting decent options the group expert tells her such an awful thing. I replied to her about how I felt about her awful comment. Of course, both her and my comments were removed, which was just as well. But I am feeling horribly triggered about some things and just really upset.

I'm sorry about your loss, and about the copay, That's insanely high. I have a friend who lives in Finland and she said healthcare is considered a basic right there, I live in the US and healthcare isn't great and very costly. She lived in the US before moving to Finland and said the difference in healthcare between here and there is astounding,

Glad you were able to get off one of your meds, DBT is very helpful, I haven't had DBT based therapy but have used various DBT skills on my own and have found them helpful as well

Sorry about the way your doctor treated you before, that's unfair

Anyway, I hope you have a good weekend, it's good to see you around

I'm in a few cat groups on Facebook as well and some people can be so heartless on there. The majority of people are wonderful and nice, supportive but occasionally you see a really heartless comment and it makes you wonder why people have to be that way, it kind of sticks with you, I see comments occasionally on post that are memorial posts of people's pets they had to put down due to diseases, and saw a few random comments with just the word: why? . Like why comment that after someone has gone through making the difficult desicion to help a beloved pet to not suffer anymore, it's a memorial post, they don't need people asking them why. They are grieving

Thanks for sharing your experience @Blue_Bird . It sucks that people can be so mean, especially when animals are involved. You've helped me feel much better, though, just for understanding

I started prazosin last night. It really helped me sleep some. But I still woke up at 5:30am. No nightmares!!!!! Kinda sleepy today though.

My pdoc appointment is at 2. H got me and Miguel on the waiting list for his Dr. I have a dental appointment Friday.

t sounds like this is helping you?

I'm doing better this morning. I slept pretty much through the night until 6:30. It was over 10 hours. My mom got back from dinner and tried waking me up to eat a tamale but I said I would eat it later. I'm not quite sure what time it was when I did eat it. My brother was still awake though. My mom and I went out around 7 and we went to a grocery store that had a half a shelf (2 rows) of coffee Coke. They are discountining it and I've looked all over at the stores by me and either gotten what I could or couldn't find any. But this store must have had 30-40 of them because I bought 20 of them and there were still some left. I didn't see any at any of our other stops. So I don't know if they just dumped them all at this one store. Then we stopped at a couple international grocery stores and I got some fun stuff. We stopped at one last grocery store and I got a cupcake that looks like Cookie Monster.

Overall I'm doing better mental health wise. My meds seem to be working today. I had a decaf iced latte and no Mountain Dew which may have helped. Physically I still feel kinda weird, especially in my throat.

It has helped! I feel somewhat calmer
Today!

I talked to my case worker today. She brought up the h*sp*tal. All because I told her I was talking to a guy I had an up and down past with (she says he's manipulating me), and after the conversation she asked me if I was going to self harm (in any way, cutting, substance use, or b/p) tonight and I said "I sure feel like I might." I didn't say anything about sui, I didn't say I was definitely going to do anything other than play the guitar and the piano. Just seems so fccking ridiculous. ACT is supposed to keep me out of the hospital but this is the fourth time they've tried putting me in there SINCE AUGUST, and once they were successful.

So she's going to call me back around 5pm tonight to make sure I haven't done anything and don't plan on doing anything. I want to shoot up so badly for the first time in a couple months. Crystal will make things feel alright and I won't have to have those terrible dreams because I won't sleep. Therapy was triggering this week, case management (which is basically therapy at home) was triggering. I have a pdoc appointment next week and my case worker said she's going to tell my pdoc about the guy thing (she'll probably mention my self-harm comment too). I got some labs done next week and a few things were off electrolyte-wise so maybe she'll force me IP or residential, idk.

Is there a compromise like partial or iop?