Bipolar Check-in #74

I see my dr later and I already know
She’s
Gonna tell me I’m fat and to lose
Weight

I have had my arms examined for 15 minutes. The cost was 106, - $ (What a price?). I have an inflammation in one of my shoulders. He wouldn't give me cortisone because of my Diabetes. I am given exercises to do for about three months. That is the time that is expected for healing. I have bought a rubber-band for the exercises.

Well, at least I can expect to become better in the middle of the Summer. It is good to know what it is.

I am so sorry!

What happened to @Beth? Is she ok?

Yes, that is my view as well, one can have depression one "place" at the spectrum and "highs" at another "place".

It is not only the MI that bothers me, but my physical diseases as well + that the winter has been strong this year with both snow and much rain. The winter period has been so much darker than usual. I also think it is a point to mention that I think the fact that I started to have massages made it painful to be me because muscles can hold a lot of feelings. Manipulate the muscles and the feelings can be manipulated as well. Some old sorrows can feel as new ...

I have become shorter and my muscles have reacted to my skeleton not being as it was before. It was found out today that I have an inflammation in one of my shoulders and that I need to do some specific exercises for about three months to get rid of the pain.

Oh yes, I could need a lot of support for the time being. I feel that it is hard to be me.

I am not going to stop being here. I will only come more seldom. It takes a lot of time to use this forum. I am European, a Scandinavian actually, and to translate my words into English/American can take some time. I need to focus on the way I live my life and get rid of my isolation because of depression. So less computer and a more social life in the outer world is the recommendation from my therapist. I am actually advised to let myself be surrounded by people who give me good feelings (in the outer world).

There is another "thing" to mention. I am going on vacation to Spain (Malaga region at the Sun Coast) in the middle of April and I need to get my depression down before that.

Thank you for asking, Soupe du jour! I hope to read this didn't take too much of your time. You need your time to be ready for the moving.

If I have understood this right, Beth needed a break from this forum because of something that bothered her here. I think, again if I have understood it right, she wanted to think about if she wanted to continue as a member here or if she wanted another forum.

We all hope that she decides to stay, but she has the right to decide for herself. In the meantime the only thing we can do, is to send prayers and good "vibes" her way.

Hey guys,
Been having a hard time getting back into the swing of "life" since my last disappearance. I have my IOP today and I'll probably try to write a little more after that. Basically nothing to report or add -- I'm just here. I got overwhelmed earlier in the month and used distraction a little too heavily and snapped out of it to realize weeks had passed. Distraction is a great tool short term, but it does not fix problems. However, never doubt the power of distraction, I guess I'm saying lol. Having weird dreams every night isn't helping either. Anyway -- I'll try to catch up later. Hope everyone is doing well.

I send my best wishes for your brother, for you and for the rest of your family!

Best wishes for this day!

Last night was super rough. My nausea and heartburn caused by the med my doctor had prescribed was unbearbable. I finally got to sleep and I woke up this morning still with the pain but not with the heartburn or nausea or mental health side effects. I've been doing ok with tylenol and the heating pad today. I think my issue may be all the Atkin bars I've been eating. Sometimes I eat 3 a day. I haven't had any today though.

This morning I ordered a Cinderella onesie for my niece. It has a picture of the mouse Gus on it and it says Gus Gus on the front. I also ordered a couple snack boxes I decided to try. One is called Europecrate and the other is called Munch addict. I used to get snack boxes before I moved and most of them were pretty good.

My pdoc got back to me and said that reglan interferes with my Geodon. So if it were a few days things he would want me to stop the Geodon. But if it were longer then he would want to talk to my doctor.

I'm going to try to manage things on my own first and cut out the Atkins bars and see how I feel. I see my kidney doctor again on Tuesday.

I am actually feeling quite a bit better right now.

Beth, please PM me. I've been MIA lately and want to update you. I tried PMing you but the system said you aren't accepting private messages right now.

Thanks @Soupe du jour

I slept almost 10 hours last night. I got up once for about 30 minutes which is great.

So that's 2 good nights of sleep. Hopefully it's a trend.

No gym today but I'll work out a little at home later.

My endocrinologist wants me to start metformin. I’m
Still in prediabetes but have not gained any weight in last 6 months.

I picked up my latuda and they switched me to generic. I’ve been stable on this for years. I know the generic version has the same active ingredient but…, just, what if it unstablizes me? I’m nervous 😬

That's always the thing I worry about from being on a brand name med. Just because the drug is the bio-equivalent of the same active ingredient does NOT equal same drug. It can vary up to like 60%, plus fillers and dyes used can change absorption rates for you. Your concern is very valid but, we won't know until we know sadly.

I hope your medicine works out for you. I loved Latuda. It was a miracle drug for me but made me feel awful for about 4 hours after taking it, but then I felt GREAT. I did all I could to offset that but just couldn't handle it. I think it worked a lot better than my Vraylar works now to be honest.

Keep us updated. If you notice signs of instability, I would contact your doctor ASAP and get some advice.

I see my pdoc Tuesday. I plan to be proactive and ask if I get unstable he can call the pharmacy and request brand only. Decades ago I had a doctor do that for my thyroid med. back then I was clueless but she was an excellent dr who told me that thyroid meds need to be stable and pharmacies tended to fill thyroid meds from various generics from one month to another so it was always changing. That was the first I heard of that.

My poor pdoc is in for an earful. Since I last saw him, my mum died, my housing is up in the air, my cat went blind. On the plus side things have gotten better since the time change, and I joined the senior center.

I took an hour nap around 12:30 and then I ate some pretzel bites for dinner. My stomach pain came back and I had some diarrhea. I must just have some bug.

Thank you. Your response and everyone's hugs do help. I also have a mutual friend with her so I've been talking to her and will go with her to our friend's celebration of life.

My father was taken to the hospital last night. He has multiple health emergencies. They are even doing tests to determine if he has pancreatic cancer like my brother, as they discovered a mass on that organ. Certainly brings up questions about the house they lived in. My mother died from cancer of a similar related organ. It would be more a miracle if my dad recovered enough to return to the facility he lives in. We are preparing ourselves for that. Meanwhile, my brother is in the same hospital.

I don't know what to say in this situation. You and your husband have all the "things" around the moving to think about and now this about your father at the top. Feel sorry for you all!

Soupe!



Words are inadequate

@Soupe du jour:

So sorry to hear of your dad and brother. And you've got the demand of moving into your new house. How stressful this must all be! I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Well I’m attracted the other side in my new house and I couldn’t be more pleased. I am just so relieved and glad to be here.

I can not rate the moving company highly enough. Best movers I’ve ever had / and I have moved a lot. These guys didn’t stop. Not even for one second to catch their breath. They arrived at our old place at 9:00 and left our new place at 7:00pm. Beds assembled. I was so tired but I still had to go out to get dinner. I collapsed in bed about 9:00pm.

I wanted to have a bath last night. I haven’t bathed in 6 years because my old place only had showers. But I knew I wouldn’t enjoy it so I’m going to savour the moment this morning.

My 4 year old son was an absolute champion. He was zooming around all over the place but overall so well behaved. He crashed into his bed at 8:00pm. He should sleep well this morning.

We’ve got our new lounge suite and outdoor patio arriving between 10:00-1:00 today. I can’t wait to have new furniture. Our old furniture was OLD.

All in all I’m just so happy to be here. Even though I have to make the 1 hour trip back to my old place this afternoon to scrub floors. You should see what behind the washing machine and underneath where the fridge used to be looks like. Omg so embarrassing!

I’m so sorry to see this. Thinking of you and praying for your family

Hello all! I’ve been on this forum sparingly over the past few months. There have been some things in my life that I needed to address and I’ve been super busy. Things are getting wrapped up.

I’ve completely stopped lithium and Vraylar now and remain stable.

I had a lovely visit with my daughter this past weekend. She can’t make it the weekend of my Gatlinburg Hilton travel package so I’ll take mom. She is excited about going. I’ll see my daughter again when we celebrate Easter.

I went to a women’s event Tuesday night. Good camaraderie, sharing and drumming. Making new friends and having fun makes for a good night.

I may need to have an operation in the region of my neck. Yikes! I found out years ago that I had pinched nerves in my wrist, elbow and neck - all on the right side. We addressed the immediate problem which was carpal tunnel in my wrist and have been waiting to see about the other. The nerve in my neck is acting up. Quite painful. I’m onboard with the operation as long as it cures this pain.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Much love