Bipolar Check-In #77

The book signing is for Minnesota author William Kent Krueger, his latest book The River We Remember. It’s a stand alone novel that takes place in southern Minnesota. He’s a great author. I bought the book the day it came out. Haven’t been able to read it yet though as a lot of books were released the same time and I’m getting those from the library. I’ve got two now that I’m reading, another Minnesota author Saving Emma. That one is a page turner. And the latest J.D. Robb’s in death series. Too much of a headache to read today tho.

The movie was good. Based on the true story of a meth addicted woman held hostage by a killer. Was called Captive.

I was really looking forward to my second in person therapy session only for her to move it to virtual. I had coffee and everything so I could be alert. I was really bummed about it and I ended up taking a half hour stress nap despite the coffees.

I guess therapy went well overall. My voice sounded odd and I didn't know why. I was sitting kinda funny. Halfway lying down on my right side but a bit propped up too. After I ended things with her I realized I had really bad heartburn and I went and threw up some bile. But I felt much better.

Now I'm just kinda here....

Yes my pharmacy reminds me of refills, but not when there aren't any refills left.

So my pdoc prescribes 3 months at a time, and the auto refills work during that time. But on the last month, there's no refill available so it doesn't notify me. This is what happened to my Prozac and Remeron.

Thanks, @Pinny! Yeah I have it setup but there's a bug in their system for meds that don't have a refill left on them.

Hopefully it works out soon since I ran out of Prozac 5 days ago and I only have 3 days of remeron left.

But I think for most of my meds they are for a yr. I get 90 days worth at a time. But when the refills run out my pharmacy texts me asking if I want them to contact the doctor. Again, for everything except the sleeping pills which I can only get a month at a time for 3 months worth. It’s ridiculous really that it can’t be treated the same as all other meds.

Thanks for the welcoming me back friends

Not much going on. I’m working on a moon Diamond art for Amanda. It’s a great hobby for me and it’s cheap thankfully. She’s still wanting to come up but she’s had some extra bills. She is looking forward to the much cooler temps than she has Year rounded in Florida.

Anyone have a favorite program on Netflix ? We are trying to find a new one to binge. We have done Bloodline, Manifest, Dead to me , I’m drawing a blank on others lol

Hope everyone is practicing good self care

Here’s a pic I got of Dexter and Gus a few days ago since it was perfect weather for porch sitting.

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We are rewatching M.A.S.H. and loving it. we got the whole 11 seasons and are on season 6-7 can't remember.
glad to see you back. I have been sporadic.
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Oh that was helpful, NOT
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I'm having quite the week with communications. I've still not heard from my pdoc about my clozaril dose. It says she's not seen it so I'm assuming she's out sick or something although usually MyChart says when that is true. I sent her another message tonight so hopefully I'll hear from her tomorrow.


And my pharmacy is a mess. I called in 2 refills Sunday night. They still haven't been filled. I called today and actually reached a human (my pharmacy is very understaffed and super busy so I try to be patient but I spend sooooo much time on hold with them) and they are that far behind. I'm supposed to show up and wait for them to fill it. I'm hoping that it will be done by tomorrow sometime and I won't have to wait around. I feel bad forcing them to push me to the top of the line but I'm going to run out of klonopin soon so I'll have to do this soon.

I really hope some of this is better tomorrow or I'll just need to mentally erase this week.

Screw it, she's my ex now. Never talking to that uncaring, selfish ***** again. I tell her in a roundabout way I want to die, and she just completely ignored the statement. Ofc I'm going to pull back from someone who wants me dead, but on the other hand she keeps asking "are we still together?" "are you still my gf?"
like, no... "I'm not something to butter up and taste when you get bored."

May be you have to put up reminders at your own calendar: "Now it is 2 1/2 month since my last prescriptionis. It is time to call my p-doc to get a new one".

RS has been up since 1:30am being violently ill. He suspects food poisoning, which is unfortunate because we had dinner last night in a really nice place and the chicken was definitely not undercooked. It must have been cross contamination, like they didn’t clean something properly. It’s such a nice place with excellent food, I’m disappointed because obviously RS is never going to want to go back there. But the poor man is suffering, he pulled a muscle from vomiting so hard. I told him to try to relax and I’ll bring him whatever he needs on lunch break.

@MuddyBoots
Hang in there, I’m sending lots of positive vibes your way.

My cough is so much better but I’ll have to postpone our planned day trip of today. Although I quit the cough medicine late yesterday I am still heavily under the influence of its effects with fully dilated pupils. Not safe to drive.

I’ve got some fun, exciting things planned and mom says I seem like my old self. I’m laughing and lighthearted more often. Particularly looking forward to going to a singles church group an old friend invited me too. Looking forward to Halloween as well.

My daughter and I are still not communicating. I’ve given it up to a higher power for resolution because I’m at a dead end. I’m going to pray about it and continue living my best life in the meantime.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day

"Black Money" is long and good. I don't know if they send all the titles to all the countries. But if it exists at your place, it is worth viewing. It is Turkish. I found it very fascinating that the episodes got into ordinary life. One learn how it is to be a Muslim from the inside (how they mourn and celebrate). It is based on a beautiful love story inside the frame of a criminal network (the man in one of these love stories is a police man). The thread of the story is about fining the criminals and along that road about everyday life in two different faimilies, one very rich one and one ordinary family without so much money. The only thing I have to warn you about is that the criminals are very cruel. There is a rich personal gallery: Here you find the naive, the clever, the control freak, the kindhearted and more ...

Good to hear that you seem to have found balance in your life again. It is wise to give the problems you have with your daughter to God!

I hope everything works out with your daughter. Sometimes time is the best answer.

I'm depressed. Don't even want to write. I don't want to do anything. I'm sitting in front of my light therapy lamp right now, trying to chase away the blues. May have to go as a depressed person this year for Halloween. All of my blood work came back normal, so I don't know why I'm always so weak and fatigued feeling. Like, I feel like I'm going to die just walking down the block. I wonder if it's med related. I don't know. Boo hoo.

Hoping you feel better soon raspberrytorte

I'm fine, never became manic over seas, trying to keep a healthy mindset and not let small things make or break me. It's difficult to not under or over estimate myself, finding a balance is hard. Not always doubting things, but also knowing when to just, be secure in what i know to be true (for me)

I go to my daughter’s every Tuesday and we watch three episodes of Stranger Things. It’s a complex Netflix show mainly about 4 kids and a huge cast of others that are trying to find out what’s going on and why people are disappearing.

She said she try to think of more shows from Netflix for you.

My partner has officially left for overseas for 2 weeks 😢. I feel alot of anxiety about being home alone for so long. So many pets and our 4 year old son! Mostly our big boof of a Labrador that he takes for a walk every day. The dog is crazy lol. Just don’t know if he’ll walk well on a leash with me. Might try a short walk to the park.

I've not been around these parts lately...Just been taking a break from social media. I'm checking iin. Fall is coming, but the trees don't have the colors like they usually do. I wonder if the mini-drout we had in August had anything to do with it.

I've been experiencing some strange brain symptoms lately ,so will have to get some tests run. I'm sure it's nothing,

Hello. I’m so glad you checked in! I do hope your test show nothing and it turns out to just be a blip.

I just got up but I am feeling OK as of right now. Haven't been up to much on my end -- studying, playing video games or with my typewriter. I haven't mentioned it here I don't think -- but I am having a hard time to adjusting to life without any medicine to help with ADHD. It's a long story but basically I will be given hell by family for going to see the doctor in person because he is 1.5 hours away and I just can handle the mental anguish of fighting to be able to get my medicine. Not surprisingly Ive had concentration issues I'm about two weeks now without it.. I'm working on finding a way to get to the doctor.. I do have my other meds however. So I am stable!

I'm not feeling so good mentally. Having some SUI thoughts. Feel shaky and not particularly safe, though I have no intention of doing anything. I just don't feel right.