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Grand Magnate
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#21
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#22
Same. Just be super aware of what symptoms you notice as your mood elevates and if you notice them immediately get in touch with pdoc. A lot of people say "don't mess with your meds without approval by doc" but I feel like these are scenarios when if the pdoc doesn't get back soon, it's a good idea to stop the antidepressant before things get worse.
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#24
Cymbalta stopped working for me.
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#25
I'm just waiting for my pdoc to send the link and I am so nervous I don't know if I'm anxious from the appointment or nauseated because of it or from the stomach stuff or both. I did throw up a little bit earlier but that was from a spiced Coke I had. I took a Pepcid.
Now I just threw up some asparagus but I do think this time it was anxiety. Jeeze what a waste of money just to have a 5 minute appointment that could have easily been done over the phone. He raised my Prestiq on his own to 50mg I had to ask him about the lamictal and he fought me a bit on it but finally raised it to 100. He said "why do you want it raised?" Uh because you took me off it cold turkey and didn't put me back on the full dose? I mean, I shouldn't be complaning but like he needs better bedside manners or some shyt. And he is adamant I be back in person in therapy. He also said "why do you think people are looking at you?" Idk I took it as a compliment lol. __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; May 23, 2024 at 04:03 PM.. |
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#26
No horrible classes on my timetable today. I should be happier yet I don’t even feel a sigh of relief at the break. I’m still anxious. Yesterday they weren’t overly bad but I did tell them that the assistant principal would be dropping by. Which he did.
My son is supposed to have footy training tonight but I absolutely hate it. I haven’t even reminded him and he hasn’t said anything about it just keeping quiet and seeing if he will remember. He’s 5 and doesn’t quite understand the rules and never ever listens to instructions from the coach for the drills so I’m continually having to explain to him what’s going on! |
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#27
I’ve been sleeping good and doing well since my meds were adjusted for the manic symptoms.
I feel like I’m starting to get sick though. I feel a sore throat starting. So that sucks. I hope it’s just allergies. I feel fine otherwise , just tired all the time but that’s due to my abilify and Thorazine being increased. I walked to the library today. Also got on the treadmill for 30 min. I normally do 45 min but I figured since I was walking to the library 30 min on the treadmill is okay. I’ve been learning how to play Fur Elise on ukulele. And I’ve been working on Vivaldis concerto in A Minor on my violin. My next violin lesson is on the 3rd. Normally I have lessons once a week but it was getting kind of expensive so I started spacing them out some. I quit drinking coffee about a week ago. I kind of tapered off that and onto matcha but after what’s left of the matcha I have is gone I’m just gonna be caffeine free. Another reason I stopped coffee is due to the acidity being bad for tooth enamel. I don’t need more dental issues. I might have a coffee now and again like on holidays or special occasions etc but it will just be for those times and not an all day everyday thing like I was doing for years. And I’m not gonna keep it in the house. I’m craving it like crazy though and I miss it so much lol I have to stick to this though. Next step is to cut out sweets. Which is not gonna be easy but I need to do it. I’ll do the same thing I’m doing with coffee so not even buying them or having them in the house unless it’s a special occasion or holiday and only single serving. I’m making homemade hashbrowns for dinner tonight so I’m looking forward to that 🙂 __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#28
We saw two apartments today. From now on one apartment a day. I liked the apartments but they have an affordable housing wait-list. So we're stuck here until our names come up. Victoria is looking for a job to get a place. If we do get a place we have to give up the car. I don't know how I feel about that. Since I can't walk through 2 apartments tours without horrible pain. I'm not feeling as depressed though. Disappointed but not depressed.
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#29
Just in a really good place. My new relationship is as amazing as ever, as most new relationships are. Not really thinking about the future or anything at all, just enjoying things as they are.
The sleeping thing has been really bad though. Just have been sleeping just a few hours a night, even using my CPAP. I think that's just the excitement of being so happy, moreso than I have in a long time. Also, I will be saying goodbye to the Lithium very soon, which I am glad about. Other than that, things are going really well. My writing class is coming along, I am learning more about how I am going to write my book. Went to Raleigh yesterday and I feel like I did a million things, but it felt good to meet with people. Heading in to work tomorrow at our new store; I'm really excited about that. __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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I am so lost on this stuff, and I feel totally trapped in NH, and the waitlists here are super long. We barely spend any tax money on public welfare, which is great if you don't need it and don't want to pay for people that do. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#32
Today I've been throwing up quite a bit and I've been in pain again. Although now I'm not eating much because of my med increases. Its almost 4 and I've only had about 855 calories. I used to eat more then that for breakfast.
I ordered a bunch of different kinds of protein bars from Walmart. They should be here in a bit. I've taken everything I can for my stomach. I do feel a bit better after my Geodons. I think I threw up yesterdays along with the pizza I had for dinner. Overall I mainly am just tired today. My moods are good. I'm not in the major freak out type of pain I was in for awhile, so I think the probiotic is still helping. Or else I've just gotten used to the pain. I threw up again but I'm not sure if it was my Geodons or just my Prime hydration water. I did quit the zzquil and unisom officially so I know its not that. I've just been taking my 10mg Walgreens brand melatonin. Is anyone else dealing with messed up deliverys and pharmacys? My pharmacy has been so annoying to deal with these past 24 hours and now one thing in my Walmart order is missing which I got refunded for and another thing they charged me twice for that had to be shipped. __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; May 24, 2024 at 05:47 PM.. |
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#33
I’m supposed to be the one drunk dialing or drunk texting other people trying to hook up. Not this someone else sending me these stupid voice messages through text crying about how much they love me and wouldn’t know what to do without me. This isn’t even my partner (that I haven’t talked to in forever). It’s some fking chick I met in rehab.
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#34
Ugh, I fell for a phishing scam this morning and have spent the evening changing all my relevant passwords. I honestly no longer remember what passwords go with what now. I'm sure I'll figure it out but it is really stressful. Hopefully I blocked them out of my phone before they found my credit card information. So far there are no unauthorized charges on my card. I'll be watching closely.
I can't believe I fell for it. Not very smart when I first wake up. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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#35
Ugh. SO nauseous 🤢 At my last appointment my psychiatrist lowered my Cymbalta dose from 60mg to 30mg. Going to the store tomorrow to buy dramamine and either ginger tea or gin-gins. I feel like I'm pregnant all over again (I'm not). Just terrible. I'm so sick feeling. If I still am on Tuesday I'm calling my psychiatrist. I don't know what he can do. I wish I still had the zofran I had left over from after my hernia surgery.
I can't even get any chores done! All I can do is lay in bed in nausea and excruciating pain. Hopefully I feel better tomorrow. Just a matter of time. Cymbalta = EVIL. I certainly don't want to go back on 60mg! I've also been averaging 2 - 3 hours of sleep per night, which isn't good. But I read sleeplessness is a symptom of Cymbalta withdrawal as well. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#36
Fudge. Another night of only two hours of sleep. Bought my ginger tea and dramamine, which I doubt will help because I don't have motion sickness, but at this point I'm willing to try anything!
Editing raspberry coming in: And the dramamine is actually helping! Yippie! I feel a lot less nauseous. Yay for dramamine. It kind of sucks it costs two dollars for only eight tablets, but oh well. I'm just happy to finally not feel like spewing! __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous Last edited by raspberrytorte; May 25, 2024 at 10:20 AM.. |
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#37
I felt really anxious this morning and then I realized I haven't had coffee in a few days. So I thought maybe it was caffeine withdrawels. So I got a medium blueberry donut iced coffee from Dunkin Donuts. And it has helped the majorjty of my anxiety but now I'm throwing up a lot. I just threw up my probiotc, my pantropaloze, and my second valium. Along with the coffee.
I haven't had much to eat today. Just a protein bar and an Atkins chocolate bar. Overall I feel the same as I was before the med changes. Just not hungry. But I'm guessing it takes more then 2 days to see a difference. Idk if I'm lazy, not hungry, not feeling good, or restricting a bit but I can't get myself to eat anything and I've only had 740 calories. __________________ I'm Blue Last edited by Mountaindewed; May 25, 2024 at 01:10 PM.. |
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Grand Magnate
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#38
@raspberrytorte - Are you getting that little sleep even with taking Seroquel?
I had a good morning. I vaccuumed for the first time in months and also am washing the bedding on the master bed. If I'm up to it, I want to wash my daughter's bedding tomorrow. I am definitely feeling a lot better on the Cymbalta, not manic but getting some housework done. I am making sure not to overdo it. I am very thankful I don't have that crushing desire/want to be dead and haven't had it for a couple of days now. That alone is a huge relief. I am still sleeping 8-9 hr a night. I know if my sleep goes, then I have to ditch the Cymbalta, but so far so good. As an added plus, Cymbalta seems to take the edge off the peripheral neuropathy so that I don't feel it so deeply. I still have more tingling and numbness than I'd like, but it doesn't hit me down to my very core with each beat of my heart and each step I take walking. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#39
Today has already been so unhealthy. I've had nothing to drink except coffee, ate a slice of pizza which eventually got flushed down the toilet, and I am definitely back to dehydration and probably whacked electrolytes too. The time before the last time I saw my CM I said I was seriously going to get my shyt together and make good, healthy choices. I went a total of a day of not making any poor decisions and even made some small good decisions (that were kinda just the absence of bad decisions I'd normally make).
I feel like I'm doing okay though. Not sure if it's denial or just my standards for my personal mental health are so low that shyt is good compared to the rest of the time. Put an ad on Craigslist for music lessons. I don't even have access to a guitar right now (or a keyboard for that matter). I have a plan though. Kind of afraid of having some income, but not enough to pay for rent or anything, but having enough to pay for binge food and whatever substances. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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#40
I'm so thankful for everyone who posts here. I'm also sad that there are so many previously regular posters who no longer post. I'm not going to list people because I'd be sure to miss someone but there are a lot of people who have disappeared in the last 6 months or so. If you are reading this know you are missed.
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