it's official

i am broken.

saw new psychiatrist today who, when i asked what was wrong, said she was fairly sure after 45 minutes it was a pd. i was like "well, i've wondered about bpd for a while" and she's confirmed she's sure that's what it is.

i'm broken ad no medication is going to fix it. oh joy

hi i don't know much about bpd. But i hav a friend who has it and she is caring and friendly and loveable. What are some positives about you?

Hi lotusflames

Unfortunately, there aren't any medications designed specifically to treat bpd. There are often secondary disorders (such as depression and anxiety) that use medical treatment though. The primary treatment is psychotherapy.

DBT is helpful (for me) in validating how I feel and offering different ways to look at people and experiences. DBT is hardly an overnight experience. It takes time to change the way we deal with emotional triggers. It also takes time to accept past experiences, without self-blame (self-hate) and anger. Stopping the self-hate, guilt, and repression is not automatic...particularly the longer we've been in that cycle. It takes time to devlop new ways to deal with those memories and emotions attached to them.

There's a very long list of positive activities ~ to help one get through the tough emotional time of working through the events ~ 270+ things to do. My personal favorites are very physical. Exercise is a great emotional release for me. Baking, walks in the woods or beach, bird-watching, gardening, watching football & baseball games, helping others, picking up litter, organizing, etc. are all positive activities I use to get me through the emotional times.

That said, I do still have emotional times. Much more often than I'd like, unfortunately, but 30 years of repression and going the wrong way makes it tough to change.

Very best wishes to you ~ take care
Shez

Yeah I agree DBT is often the best treatment for BPD. Although it can be hard to afford without insurance. Most therapist aren't equipt with the knowledge of how to treat BPD. If you could find a specialist in your area that would be a great thing. I have a center in my area but without insurance i can not participate because of the cost. So I'm limited to walmart $4 prescription list,taking Paxil and Xanax. It helps a bit but like you said its a "personality disorder".

i live in the uk so its a bit different here the nhs will cover my therapy for a limited time i believe. i'm lucky, i have private health care paid for by my work which my boss (having told her what happened) has suggested i look in to and they're even going to help me to try and get it sorted.

That's wonderful, lotusflames!

I hope that you're able to find help very soon ~ best wishes!

Shez

Lotus don't be too hard on yourself ... having any disorder isn't the end of the world. My Therapist says each and every human being has all of these personality traits, it's just some are more prolific in some folk .... you can still lead a normal life, in fact for me personally I'm glad I had the diagnosis as I am more aware of things now, more clued up on why I act in certain ways and I'm a very caring and loving person ... there I said it It doesn't come easy saying things positive about ones self So lets see a smile and look how many of us are here to support ya sending hugs my friend, it could be something much much worse ... Ophelia xxxxx